Is always interesting. You never know how it will turn. Today, Sunday November 13th, I’ve just been on a nice date. And I say nice becauce it wasn’t any sparks or anything else. We chatted & shared some commen things.
We might be friends, but nothing else. And that’s life. I live. And I will continue this until mr right turns up 😉. I have patience becauce I am not hunting. No, I am enjoying to get out there and meeting people. I thinking it’s to interesting to not go on a date.
I see it as a good reason to get to know a new person I wouldn’t meet othervice and a good way for the lord to work through me in a situation I have no clue how it will go. It’s all about letting the Lord to be in control and talk to me and for me to be open.
Dating should not be a bad thing even if it’s not turning out to be what you might want. I think we need set our standars lower on what “we want” on the first date. If you think you find “mr/mrs right” on your first date no matter how short/long you been txting, you need to lower your expectations. You need to think: I am getting to know this person for the first time. Maybe you even need to reset your brain into a friends mode to be able to just get to know this person and not look for pro’s or con’s.
🤍 And pray about, let friends know what you want and when you going on a date, so they can stand by you in prayers. 🤍
So, you who read the post of October 10th, know what I am talking about.
What I didn’t write was how long the process would take, from applying for a new passport to when I could expect to collect it. At the police station in Gothenborg I were told it would take 11-12 weeks(!) That would be January 2023.
I didn’t think more about that when work started again so when I recieved a txt msg Friday October 28th from the Police in Sweden, that I could go and pick up the new passport at the ambassy of Sweden in Oslo or send an email so the Swedish Ambassy could send it closer to me, I were super surprised!!
And now, I am waiting on it to arrive Stavanger 😊. I have to say it’s such a blessing it arriving earlier!! So many things I need the passport for here in Norway. The security level on all gowerment webpages got higher this Autumn.
Stavanger, November 9th
An unsharp picture of me in Stavanger the 9th of November. I went straight from work to pick it up. On my way I 🤞 to be able to catch a train back home b4 6pm. Cause then I wouldn’t use so much time on waiting 😊. I were lucky 😊😊, the train was delayed 😊😊.
I have not given up, just don’t understand some men! Why even respond if you (the man) just gonna block me anyway?! And this isn’t the first time. It happends every time I try. Well well. I will not give up, becauce I am not a quitter. I just don’t understand how today’s men work.
Is it Corona that change people, the dating-culture? Why aren’t people willing ‘to get to know each other’ anymore? What’s the harm of get a coffee or a beer and get to know the other person?
I will not give up not just becauce I am stubbern oh no, becauce the Lord have given me peace over this. I am trusting the Lord and his way. So I will, keep trying until the Lord give me the peace he gives when it’s right. ✝️❤
I may not understand some men, but you know what, I will start to see it as God is closing a door just like a job application.
And Trust the Lord. Becauce the Lord knows what’s the best for you & me. 💜. Don’t take a No as a No, take it as an answer from the Lord. Let the Lord show you his plan no matter how many dates you attend to or you get blocked from something you wrote! The Lord will be on your side as long as youlisten to his way of communication to you.
Home’n’sick. With fever and coughing 😔🤒. A never ending coughing 😔. I usally don’t share about this becauce I don’t think it’s important. But I thought, this blog is about my Daily life. And being home and sick is Daily life when it’s been more then two day’s.
I get Exhauseted just to go from my bedrom to the bathroom 🤪😥 but I will not give up!! And checking my mail today (October 27th) I had got an encouraged mail. Clicked on the link to the blog.
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From Dough Addison’s blog and podcast.
Just what I needed to read and I hope it encouraged you too! ❤🙏✝️
I had a good night sleep, woke up by the alarm and the baby boy around 07.10am. Chatting time in the couch while baby boy got his milk bottle. Drank coffee and had breakfast with my friend BobbiJo and baby boy around 9am 😊.
We had lunch at 11.47am just something to eat before heading out heading for bus & metro.
Metro station Mortensrud. Suburb on the East side of Oslo.
My friend BobbiJo spend me a latte with licorice taste – interesting taste! – before I catched the train.
Latte with taste, 1pm.
Train towards Stavanger at Oslo train station 1.17pm.
So far, I have had a good, short intense Holiday in Oslo and the 8 hours in Gothenborg. Good Autumn weather. Only rain on my way back to Oslo yesterday Monday. The sun has been shining most the time 😊. Now I am looking 4ward to heading home, even though I will not be home until 9.30pm Tuesday evening. I’ll be home with my cat boy I’ve missed😊💜🐈.
First stop: Drammen 2.01pm.
Nordatugu. Cute older train station house/building. 3.18 pm.
Beautiful Autumn nature outside the train window.
Street art nxt to the train station. Kristiansand.
Approxy 2 hours West of Kristiansand I’ll change train but until that I’ll try to take more pictures for you to watch.
Marnadal, 6.28pm.
The train stop where people wants to get off/on even in the midle of nowhere.
Audnedal.
Snartemo.
Gyland. 7.09pm, it’s getting darker.
Moi station. 7.28pm.
Egersund station, 8.10pm, where I change train to a local train. Othervice I would need to catch a train plus bus from Stavanger, and go back. With this local train I just get off in my suburb Ganddal and walk for approxy 10min and than I am home 😊😊🤩
I didn’t hear my alarm 🤪🤪 at 06am. Overslept. Woke up 07.29am. The time for the bus I wanted to catch, left. So what to do? With panic I dressed, rushed out of my friends home, walked as fast as I could. Catched any bus, got to the metro. Rushed up the stairs to get on the right side to catch the metro, but oh no it left the stop just when I got up the stairs 🤪🤪.
More panic!! What to do? I NEED to catch the bus from the bushub 08.30am!
🚖 A cab! Yes. I asked for the price and said maximum 400nok. He said yes. 🙏. Still panic inside of me. But as closer to the city we got less panic I had. Yet, praying that I would catch the bus.
08.16am I payed the cab driver, and walked towards the bushub. Manange to spend time to buy an espresso but not breakfast, drank it while I got more relaxed. The panic was now gone. Thank you Lord for having extra money for the cab!
08.30am onboard on my bus, on my way to Gothenborg. 😊😊.
Gothenborg 12.05pm… I walked as straight as I could to get to the police station, from the bushub, for new Passport. 12.20 pm ish, registrated me and waited… (so hungry, yet nothing to eat) got into a hallway (like when you are doing you wote for a new gowertment) to a police officer who helped me with the application. Went out of this box-room 13.43(!).
The tram.
The South side of the Central Station of Gothenburg .
Ordered food from subway. My first meal today 🤪😔😔 at 2pm.
Figured out that I could not stress more so I bought a new ticket 🎫 with departure at 16.05pm instead of 14.45pm. While I were eating the time was 14.30pm.
Ate my warm sandwich from Subway, went to find a Swedish food/grocery store. Offcourse internet wasn’t with me 🤪🤪 when I neede to pay… but I managed (asking the Lord to help me) after few minutes 😊.
North side of the Central Station.
Back from the food store towards the bushub. Now the small suitcase full of Swedish food 😊😊.
🚻 After my shopping a big need of a toilet!
📳📶 Than trying to find a technical store and buy a charger to my smartphone ✔ Becauce I forgot to bring the one I had with me to Oslo in my morning stress…
But not on the bus back to Oslo b4 a good espresso!
Searching for my bus back to Oslo 15.55pm.
Now, 5.30pm, almost half way with the bus towards Oslo 😊. Rain in the air, more colours in the nature here than at home. Bye bye Gothenburg.
The Lord has been with all day. He has given me calmness when needed and I have been able to think rationally in a stressed situation. He gave me peace to relax on the bus to Gothenborg. He gave me peace to buy a new ticket for later today. He also helped me when internet wasn’t working propper in the grocery store. I am thankful for today Monday even if it went both crazy, when I got panic this morning and after hours without food.
I have to get a new Passport. Meaning I need to go to Sweden! …🤪🤐 I made a call in August to book an apointment in October.
Bought 🎫tickets in September.
My ✈flight left Stavanger 09.40 am today Sunday 9th to Oslo. Can’t say I slept much during the night 🤪😴. I dislike airports! Get so stressed of the onboarding & waiting 😣. The flight was okay.
Relaxed walked I from the gate to the train stop bought the ticket for the 🚉 and had 10 min b4 the train arrived.
Hungry! When I arrived Oslo at 11.30 am. Had breakfast at 07.15 – 07.40! So…a burger helped a lot. 😊.
Bought an 24-hour ticket to get around in Oslo. Tryed than to figure out which transport to catch (metro, bus or tram). I catch a tram to a area called Solli and right now I enjoy a coffee latte (12.21-13.20 ish) in hope to stay awake. Cause right now I am tired!! From lack of a good sleep 😣😣.
#Espressohouse
Next stop is Marcus Church, to catch up with the friends I’ll stay with during my intens trip. And I am looking 4ward to visit them. And this trip to Oslo & Sweden is the first since I moved to Rogaland, Stavanger in August 2021.
Trying to get the little boy to sleep while the parents get some lunch after Church.
Being a bonus auntie is good for both me and the parantes. I’ll get to know the kid and the parantes, close friends of mine, can have a break and be a couple. 😉
I have never shared this before. This is a part of my story whom I am and have become. With my background, Eating Disorder, loss of faith and becoming a believer.
Backgroundfor this specfic story; I come from a smaller county, smaller class and a teacher that didn’t aloud bollying. A small school and everyone knew about each other. My mother was a teacher in 5th grade when I started 1st grade in the same school. I lived in this county for 6 years, went in 1st and 2nd year in this smaller school.
When I was 9 y.o. my family moved. My journey of being bullied started and at 11 y.o. my eating disorder started. My family had just moved from one county to whole new one approxy 350 km north from where I felt at home, still in the middle of Sweden. I had no friends, I was the new girl, I was different, I was taller than everyone else in the class of 20 students. I came from a Christian family, I was thin, I think everything about me was wrong according to my new classmates. At least that’s how it felt there and than. I literally don’t know what I did or why they choosed to pick on me. I just know the facts that came with it. ED. Eating disorder, physical, mental and psycologic bulling, that no one knew about more than me.
It started for real1988 when I was 11 y.o. the same year I got my period. The bullying & ED started. Hormons started to change me. If anyone saw something no one said a thing. I hide it well. I was “a bit lucky” because of the time fashion was big cloths – the start of the 1990’s. I could hide well. I ate one big meal once a day, more than most. For years I didn’t eat breakfast becauce I got nausea from eating.
I think I maybe surpriced some people of how much I ate. I ate like growing boy becauce I grew quite much those years. Until I was 16, I ate less at home and more at school (Sweden has free warm meal for lunch in all schools). Therefor I could hide it at home. I had my scouts once a week, I did sports twice a week and two friends was what I had to hang with. Yet no one said a thing. So I guess they didn’t see it.
At age 16, I had been bullied for seven years. Seven terrible years of many bad momories. Memories I carry with me to this day. But today I processed these painful wounds.
At 16 y.o. August 1993 I moved away from home mainly cause I didn’t want to see all my classmates. I hated them and I hated myself. I didn’t wanted to live. And between september and december 1993 I tried several times to not live. I made a decition to not be a Christian and interrupt with Christians the day I moved. I had suicidal thoughts almost every day that fall. I choose to take a big distance from all kind of Christian people that August. I didn’t want to have anything to do with them. Because I was so disapointed. I started to hate all those Christians who said one thing and did the oppostie – like my own father – and from that time he wasn’t my dad anymore he was just the man my mom was married with. Biologically my dad but so much more a hypocrite. He preached out about how life should be but did the oppusite at home.
My first turn-around-point was a cold december night 1993, I had gotten hold of some very strong painkillers and some beer. Took it, fell a sleep. Woke up sitting in the bed with closed eyes yet seeing a strong light and me standing on the tip of a cliff and a hand reaching out to me. I am sure it was Jesus. I knew enough from my childhood about that Jesus could come as a strong light it’s has been describe. (I were not a believe in at that time, but that was the closest my brain could think of. )And when I actually open up my eyes, I saw puke on the other side of my room. Which didn’t make any sence it could got there. If you puke, it would be on the floor on the side of the bed! I can’t explain how it got there. But for sure it got to me. I understood that I should live.
The day after my wierd night in December 1993 I started to live, my life the way I wanted it without christian people and not letting anyone be able to say anything about me or how I look like. Yet still with ED as a part of my life…
Between 1994 and 1999 , I lived my life my way. Still hiding my ED. I was never so sick that I needed to visit a hospital, but I got to a point where I weighed just the minimum towards my lenght and BMI. This weight is 68kg (149 pound). A number that is still in the back of my head as a warning. To never get there again.
In 1999 I had a period in my life, when the ED was more and stronger than anything else in my life. A school nurse asked me “why do you have a need to get weight every week?” I knew she knew. I understood she could send me to the hospital for more surveys..nothing I wanted. So I told her. The first time ever I told an aduldt about my ED, age 22. Twelve years later from when it all started.
August 2000, I lived in the same county and municipality as my parents. One weekend I went away with some friends – Christian friends – still not interested in what they had inside. Still cold on the inside. Still a lot of hate and dissaponitments towards parts of my family. Still living with ED.
(Summerbreak August 2000) I recieved a bible verse that weekend, had to borrow a bible. Read it. Didn’t understand a thing. It came back three times! I talked to one of the pastors asked him what I should do and (this was during a service) and he said, “I think the Lord have giving you this verse to share” and gave me the microphone. I said “I am not a believer but I got a bible verse”.
I read it loud and went back to my seat. “A while after came a guy – who was a part of my friends but yet he was from the States, the lord had lead him to Sweden(!) – to me and said Thank you for sharing! Those verses was to me. “I had asked the Lord to use someone, not a believer to show me why I am in Sweden and what the next is for me.” And I know I have had friends praying for my life since August 2000, most of them haven’t had a clue what I’ve been through yet they wanted to pray for my life.
He was right, the Lord used me non believer! That Sunday, was my second turn-around-point in my life from Jesus (August 2000). I said “Okay Jesus, you are real when you can use me non believer to someone who are a believing Christian.” “I am willing to start to get to know you, but don’t force me and let me be able to be in “my environment” with non believers.” My journey with the Lord started there with ups and downs!!
The path we walk in life.
And in september 2002 I made one of my biggest decisions, to start eat normal. To get in to routines of eating. 8 times during the hours I was awake. Every 2nd hour. To beat the ED. To gain weight. I used a lot of protein powder for extra good energy. (As a baby I had inherited high metabolism) and after 15 years of ED my metabolism got even higher… 🤪 therefor protein power. I alaso started to talk to two pastorol carer for a year. Can’t see that this would have been possible without the Lord and my journey with him! To not let my ED don’t rule my life anymore.
My third turn-around-point in life. And every day is still a reminder of what, when and why I need to eat on regular times and two warm meals. I still struggle some day’s with the mental part to actually eat when I need, especially through work. But I can say, I am today free the ED in the way it was.
I have as an aduldt realized some deformed body parts like uneven breasts, one bigger fot, one longer arm as a consequence of the ED while I were growing. The fact that my ED maybe is a reason that I can’t have kids (which never been a longing), or maybe is the reason I got into perimenopause age 43… I have now accepted it all, but for years I was embarrassed about my body.
You can’t see I have had ED because I never went to far as for many others. But yet I went to far in the first place cause I started with the shit. This shit disease have open up my eyes in the last years. And I want to study and learn more about it to be able to help other young girls and boys. I have come to the point where I can live with the side effects it has given me. And I think this is an other reason to why I like to work in the school, to be able to observe the students (kids). I can say as I am an aduldt now, that it is a heavy disease!! It’s mental and psychological damage is clear in so manylevels!! 😒
To be freefrom ED for me means I am not thinking of when I should eat during the hours I am awake to gain the most of energy throughtout the day, which was my goal for those 15 years in life.
But this year – 2022 – I celebrate 20 years of beeing free from ED. But I also think of it every year that past.
Still one day at the time to conquer the disease.
How other bloggers have helped me to put words on my experience of my ED since I started to blog. And this post, have taking me almost all this month to put words on how I have experience, live with ED, get out of it, start to enjoy life again, the backsides of it and how I want to live my life.
With the Lord on this Journey it will be possible to climb one level higher each Day.
Sandnes center, harbour, ☀️ & me. 3rd of September 22.
The harbour.
Went in to Sandnes to try to find the way to one of the churches with the service starting 4pm, gave up. But had a lovely walk around in Sandnes city talking to the Lord.
4th of September
Felt like a Tourist, and that’s fine with me. 😉.
Now I know more where the stores are and how easy it is to walk between, I also know where some of the city churches are 😊. I will try an other church next Sunday. I had a blessed walk, time for a good talk, enjoying life, take it as it comes. Just what I needed today. The Autumn is here, even if we had stunning +22°C today the 4th of September!! The chilly wind, foggy mornings, chilly evenings, and the 🌳🌳🌳 are changing colours 🤩🤩.
But I have to say, even if I didn’t walk fast I got my trim and felt sticky when I got home 😊.
The moved went well. My friends from my house church came with two trailers, which we filled up.
Saturday the 27th of August 22.
We went twice between Hundvåg and Ganddal with things, boxrs and furnitures before we were done but it only took 3 hours 🤩🤩
Me and Silver in the couch after the move aroun 5pm watching the “mountain” of boxes in the kitchen 🤣🤣
And the clean out on Sunday the 28th, went also okay, but I have made up my mind. This was for sure the last time I did it myself!! My body can’t do it anymore.
Bye bye Hundvåg and thanks for those 13 months!
New chapter, new home, new suburb, new municipality, same county.
The hallway.
I have never had such big kitchen ever where ever I’ve lived. Love it!
I have more than enough space 😊😊 so now I “just” need to fill it up with furnitures… I’ll start my furniture hunt this coming week online and later at 2nd hand stores later in September. I’ll buy something hopefully I find something I like but it’s okay if I don’t. 😉.
I have written a list of the most important furnitures I need and everything will just get there when ever I have time and money 😊.
Sunday’s weather, ☀️🌡+27°C to +29°C, I had a house show… 🥵🥵🥵🥵. A really good show of an apointment much bigger than I could imagen! Light and fresh. 3 bedrooms, kitchen with open layout to the livingroom, huge bathroom with laundry machine. My first blessing it’s under my budget 🙏🙏🙏.
If you read my post from July 31st, the Lord gave me a greeting “I will bless you”. When my question was where should I move to get a shorter distance to work. And today’s show was the answer!
I had to write a pro & con list and the pro side was twices as big as the con side 😆😆. I felt peace when I walked in to the basement apartment. I knew this was it. Under my budget 😊 actually the same rent as I have here at Hundvåg. 1 month of deposit, bigger which mens I’ll have a spear room for being creative and being able to have guests 😊😊. I’ll be able to use the smallest room as a indoor storage and maybe a bed. The kitchen has a good counter space and instead of a normal (too low for my legs) kitchen table I’ll use the counter/island 😊😊 an other dream will come true. The only con that sucks is that I will not have my own garden spot but the apartment is chilly/cold as I need.
Bigger blessing than this haven’t I had in years!
The Lord knew my wishes from years ago. And he knows my future.
Walking path along a stream, which I can walk on my spare time 😊.
The 2nd blessing is my house church! And those who has both a car and a trailer and some others that can help me move 😊🙏🙏❤.
I texted the lady who rent it out, late yesterday – Sunday – and said I would like to rent, and b4 I got off the bus this morning – Tuesday – I got her answer. I can move the 27th of August and wash out where I live now the day after 🤩.
Monday’s bible vers from the daily prophetic word’s : Watch for answered prayer and unexpected blessings to start flowing over the next few weeks.
First week a work is over and on Thursday evening I finally felt “normal” in both body and brain. Wasn’t tired as the first day’s 😊. Sadly I got full🤯 migrane at work on Friday 😔 but I’ve got medication for it so I managed.
Been doing laminat most day’s. Tuesday = windy dayWednesday. Thursday.The weather change so fast that I haven’t had much ache in my body this week. Which is a really big pluss.
Saturday was chill and clean the house 😊. I didn’t even go out to my mailbox 😆😆.
Today Sunday (August 7th) I have just been on a house show, I don’t think I say yes to it though mostly cause it’s a bit off from the train tracks, off the local bus transport and to far out on the country side!! But very beautiful place!
Its 5.42pm and I’m waiting on the bus towards church. First time this Summer I managed to go. No pain anywhere 😊😊 Thank you Lord for that!!
I have no clue what the service will be about. Often I don’t though 😆🤪. But today nothing can stop me. I am going! Yay.
And I let you know more after the service.
I came in to the worship, just what I needed. A part of one werse ” I have notice, you are speaking”. It was peaceful, love and care both in the text and in the autmospher.
Here are the worship and lyrics;
A voice came to me during those few minutes I took part of the worship. I will bless you.
My question is still, where should I move? Should I move closer to work this year or should I just move in to the city of Stavanger? I have peace to be in Stavanger but it will cost money and time to go between every day, is it worth the travel? Where does the Lord want to use me?
The thread from the preaching is : bend your knees and pray. It doesn’t need to be on your knees if you can’t the point is to pray and havefocus on the Lord.
I like to fix and repare clothes rather than just through them especially if it’s just a small hole in them. I am also growen up with the thinking of first repare until I can’t do it anymore. Which is a rare thing among most people in the suciety today. A sad thing, especially when our earth /planet can’t take care of all the not biological materials we use in clothes.
Use over and over until you can’t wear them anymore, then reuse it!
This is an example.
I found out I had holes in my singlets (topp’s) and I don’t have the most of money to just go and buy new ones. So I have just repared them. Handsewing. Something that most people should be able to do. And if you don’t know how to do, ask someone or watch YouTube. It isn’t as hard as you might think! And you will be able to use it until it’s nothing left.
Yellow singlet, yellow thread.
Apeicot singlet, yellow thread.
I don’t really care how it looks like as long as the hole isn’t there anymore. If you don’t like the small “bump” you can allways cover it with something else. 😉
It’s better to use the topp/singlet, pants, socks etc. until you see you can’t anymore, than it’s time for upcycling 😉.
An example of what you can reuse a singlet to, becauce of the fabric isn’t sustainable for everything becauce of the mix of materials. You can upcycling it to a trashmat. If you want to know how you do that I would say check YouTube – trashmat – crocheting – upcycling. Good luck! Its fun!
I have written the e-mail today, my resignation on this aparment 🤪🤪🤪 and now it’s all in the Lord’s hand! And I have to trust him and his way for nxt apartmen. I have been looking since the day I said yes to the job and yet nothing that fits my budget ☹.
My wish for nxt apartment is, under 10k (nok) inclusive electricity, allowed for indoor cat, I am not giving up on Silver, 1 month of deposit, Partly furnished like stove & fridge & dishwasher inclusive. I kind of need a small garden spot, balcony or backdoor garden. Walk distance to the bus or train.
Pls stay with me in this. He, the Lord, gave me a new job and I know he will give me what I need. It just feels much harder this time becauce it’s so little out for rent. Maybe he has a miracle in ” his sleeves” through an other place I haven’t thought about 😉 .
I have to stay positive. I start, finally, work on Monday. 2 day’s from today. 🤪🤪. Looking forward to it!! Even though I don’t really know what I will be doing. And I know from experience that time flies fast therefor, is my prayers for nxt place high lighted. I will also need some hlp to actually move when that time comes.
My first date in a long time, today July 26th, 1pm. But the first time for me to go on a date with a man older than myself. Scarry! I normally “look” for younger. But thought I need to challenge myself and not go on “how he looks” but actually on chemistry and if we have anything in comman. So lets see…. (to be continued.) 12.47pm.
#Espressohouse #stavanger
Well the date is over, 2.20pm. It wasn’t awkward 😊. And it wasn’t “I survived”. No, it was interesting! He was interesting. We had things in comman, we talked without awkwardly silence. We could be honnest. Both knowing what works for us as persons in life and sharing that without a problem made it even more interesting! We both wanted to get to know the other person more after the date 😊. I would lie if I said “oline dating isn’t worth the waiting ” cause it’s all about faith & patience to get to know the other person.
We both want to get to know each other more. We don’t want to stress about how we get there or when the nxt date is. And I like the honnesty with him. I can say I were attractive to both his look, talk, way of beeing. Which is a new experience for me 😊😊😊😊😊. And I am thankful for the Lord’s protection.
It’s all about to be in the moment, enjoy the time, not stress and for sure not think ahead of you like “can he/she be a part of my future”. Just enjoy the talk! If you aren’t thinking the same after that’s fine but don’t give up after one date! My experience is patience and it takes times for a reason! You need to know who you are and what you want in life to know what kind of person that fits you. You need to have faith in the lord to guide your steps, to close the door to the wrong ones and you need patience both to yourself, the men and to the Lord!
As I am walking’n’txting and the wind blowing through my hair and making extra sounds around my headset, I am glad I went!!! Really interesting man.
To stay in the trust to the Lord when the doubts comes and the time getting closer to the date of my new job. To not doubt. To focus on positive and be thankful for what I have, got, the prayer-answers.
Daily life.
A walk with podcast in my ears to clear my thoights. I am so bored at home. I need friends. I need to get to know people. I need a life. Not just a job. To not have anyone to hang with, take a coffee with just chill is boring! But how to meet new people? If you don’t go out, like in the evening, how and where do I meet new people? I don’t. 😔. It feels like my life is so boring.
It’s Monday 11am, I’m in the city. Just don’t know what to do. Would love to start work this week but I have to wait… so what to do this week?
July in Norway isn’t the best month to chill with people becauce almost everyone have theire vaccation. As a singel christian lady I don’t go out in the evening, I haven’t even been on a date, which I had hoped for. My church only have service at 6pm on Sunday’s. …
My veiw right now 11.28am.
Watching people, trying to think on what to do today… It’s a cloudy day today. Just like my brain right now 🤪. But back to the title… to trust the Lord in all.Totrust for a miracle, to not doubt when your search doesn’t give you anything of what you are looking for. To be able to encouraged others by standing in faith all the way, to not give upon the lord. To not fall for the doubts whatever happends.
Outside the swimminghall 😉, Stavanger.
I struggle to stay in focus in my faith to trust the Lord from day to day or even some day’s from hour to hour. I can be honnest on that. I ask the Lord as soon as it happend. I am human to doubt but I am also in need of the script & worship to not fall out. And Christian friends in my age to hang with. How many are we, singel Christians without kids that don’t want or can’t have kids? How often do you see or hear about ‘young adults without kids’ groups in your church? I haven’t in my church. Not even in my old church. Why? Well most churches has groups for young adults & students – an underline of “you might find your partner and we hope you become a family soon” is at least my feeling on what the church wants. How is it in your church?
When you don’t have a partner, life sucks!
Worship gives me peace and I get calm on the inside and in my soul. Right now the only thing, therefor I’ll stop writing and hope some of you out there will come with inspiration to me. How you do in your struggles and how you meet new people.
July 18th I visit Klepp Station the first time after the interveiw. Friends that just moved from Oslo to Klepp. To be closer to half of theire family. His family.
They got married here in Klepp 2017 and have had theire life in Oslo since. They become a family in January 2021 and this spring when they went to her home town (where she lived before traveling to Europe) Cape Town visiting her family…
They actually met in the bibleschool Bethel, USA in 2015.
…Anyway, they felt the Lord open up a door for them to move to Klepp, and I am happy for them. And to have some friends from Oslo closer.
Thursday July 14th. Visit from Oslo, a Christian man he is, a good friend I have had for 13 years, he was a part of a prayergroup I’ve been a part of too. He was in the same Church and House Church as me in 2009-10. He is a car guy. He has never been more than a really cool friend and will never be more eihter. He came visiting me becauce he wanted to do something while he gad his vaccation and I showed him my city, Stavanger and where my nxt job is gonna be in Klepp county. 😉
What a crazy trip 🤪🤪 13 hours all together! Yes I will tell you everything about it.
This was the flight plan…
I went out of my door at 12.30pm June 29th to catch the local bus to catch the shuffle bus. Realizing the 🌡 is +26° ☀️☀️ and nearly no wind = 🥵🥵🥵🥵 for me. Got the first heatstroke waiting on the shuffle bus 🥵🤪🤢🤯.
…eventually got to the airport 13.30pm ish. Needed water, suger and than past the security control. No issues there.
The first tunnel out to the airplane was so so hot 🥵🥵 second heatstroke, not as big, hit me. (I wish I had a diagnose so people could understand me better). I sat with the AC on the whole way to Gardemoen to cool down once again.
From Sola, Stavanger airport to Gardemoen, Oslo.
Arrived /landed to Gardemoen 17.20/ 17.30pm, tryed to find my gate. Needed to cool down again, my head was boiling 🥵🥵🥵 from the heatstroke. I walkeded back and forth pasting gates and restaurants, tired, hungry and dizzy. Just wanted to eat, but nothing I liked… Ended up at a kiosk with a mix of a sandwich and a pizza. Warmed up as a pizza. After the pizza-sandwich I went to nearest wc to cool down my boiling head. Maybe 10 minutes later a good strong double espresso/americano. 😊
And the waiting at Gardemoen was planned to 3,5 hours which was long enough for me in this heat. But my flight got delayed with even 55min more 🤪🤪🤪
19.44pm Gardemoen June 29th.
The Lord gave me patience to not freakout.
From the air to landing at the airport of Værnes, Trondheim 20.35pm to walking in Trondheim at 21.45, buying an ice cream to catching the night train (leaving 23.15pm) towards Oslo, on the train for 1 hour.
At Støren train station m6 newest mother in law came and saved me 🤩🤩 from this super long day 🤪🤪. 00.10am. We drove to my sister in law’s house and arrived 01.22am (the 30st)
(I really nead a driving license!!)
Me and my sister in law were up to 03am 🤪🤪 talking. I found the bed, slept good and woke up the nxt day ready for helping out with the decoration for the Wedding party the 1st of July. The weather was much better for me this Friday (June 30th) 🌡⛅☁️🌧 +20°C .
The top picture is my sister in law, finishing her decoration. Decoration a barn between 12pm to 7pm ish.
The last hour before we actually could go home, I stumbled, landed on my right sad knee, which got even more sad 😖🤪, swollen and sore.
Saturday 1st of July = Wedding day and party in Trøndelag, Haltdalen Church and Wedding party at Nordpå fjellhotel.
Picture to the left: Haltdalen Church & wedding ceremony. The picture to the right: The Wedding party.
Sunday 2nd of July, delayed 50th party for my brother (who got married yesterday), for his exame (I think to become a preast) and my sister in law’s 35th birthday, with friends and family.
The evening was less stressful, less people and more enjoyable for me. I could pack, relax infront of the “telly” , I sat out in the garden for an hour cause it was to warm indoors for me 😆😆.
Monday July 4th. Traveling day.. woke up 07.30am. Got my coffee. Got ready to catch the bus towards Trondheim, which before I left home had planned to walk “all day” but becauce of the stumble on Friday wasn’t an option.
0900 am on the bus to Trondheim. 11.10 am in Trondheim, but I got off the bus to early 🤪🤪😆😆. On the other hand I got to walk in an aera I never seen before and I walked over a bridge, past the famous #Nidarosdomen , got into the city and found my way to Espressohouse. Bought me brunch and sat down for an hour 😊😊
Walked around with my suitcase and tryed hard to not walk so fast cause of my knee…
Around in Trondheim.
Approxy 2.40pm I found the bus stop for the shuffle bus, waited for a bus to arrive to be sure. Why, well it was some bus stops that were closed for the Summer… but I couldn’t sit there and wait, no benches 😔. Went to the nearest food store to buy some candy & gum.Walked in the shadow, didn’t want an other heatstroke, found a park. Sat down for approxy 45min in the shadow 😊😊, 🌡☀️+26°C that day… 🥵🥵🥵.
Trondheim city.
Went back to the shuffle bus stop. Waiting on the bus.. got to the airport (4.45?pm) 😊😊 dizzy, need of suger, ate some & drank some water, switched cloths b4 the security control. Depature time 19.50 pm
Gardemoen 20:40pm
Arrived to C7 had to walk to A12…
From Gardemoen it was planned to departure 21.15 pm but no it got delayed there too 🤪🤪 the good thing for me was, it wasn’t as hot at the airport as on Thursday.
The coolest sunset I ever seen, above the clouds. 😊 . Between Gardemoen and Sola, Stavanger the night to July 5th.
We were finally in the air 22.48pm. Now was just the question if I would reach the very last night shuffle bus back into Stavanger city for me to catch my last bus out to my suburb?!? We did arrive 23.50pm and you all know arriving doesn’t mean out of the airplane. Luckly I only had a cabin suitcase. I forced myself out of the airplane to be able to catch the last shuffle bus. 0.13 am I steped onboard 😊 HaPPy. Asked the driver what time we would be at the bushub, and he said 0.50 am. I asked friends who I knew could be awake, to pray that I would be able to catch my bus. I did. I locked up my housedoor at 01.20am exhausted in both body & brain.
The Lord was with my all the way. No doub! Eveey time I started to freak out He showed his love & peace. I made it becauce of Him.
…a week later, is more yellow than any other colours. I sat in my couch at home for a week becauce the leg was so sore…
(Got home approxy 11.30, sat in the couch and they called me back 11.59am(!))
And the school had allready called my references and wanted me. I said yes, mostly cause I had no other work and cause I felt the Lord had open this door for me. This job is on a new level of age for me and activities both before and after school. A system they have here in Norway. I know about it but never worked with it, so it’s totally new for me. I feel like the Lord is challenging me to do something totally new! In the same time as I am curious about the tasks as I am exited about how I can teach younger students to be creative. I am quite tired on teenagers right now so a younger level in school might fit my brain for a year. This job is from 1st grade to 6th grade (age 6 to 12) literally nothing I have worked with before, maybe this is just what I need, maybe this is the age I should work with. I don’t have a clue so I guess we’ll just see how it will go. ^^haha^^.
But than, it comes to an other thing. I (we – me and my cat-boy) need to move again…. nothing I really looking forward to, but is neccesary cause the distance is to far to do everyday without a car! So in my head I want to find a place that is approxy fourtyfive minutes from Stavanger and fourtyfive minutes to work by local transport, which we have a good system on. The question is, should I live in the same county or just on the boarder to my work county?
And this is once again, how the Lord works in my life when he open up for a job cause He knows what I can do and how I can be challenge. It’s a praying answer. It’s a sign of having faith and trusting His ways not mine. And I know that He will open up the right door for the next home too. He knows whats best for me both in distance and what my finacially situation will look like.
I had a bad night, didn’t sleep well at all 😔. Have maybe slept 4,5h 🤪🤪. But didn’t have a problem to get up at 06am. 😊 Had enough time to get ready, eat breakfast and catch the bus into town at 07.14 am. It was🌡+14°C when I woke up and it can be +24°C.
It’s Wednesday, June 29th 08:13am. I’m on the train towards the interview. The sun is up. It will be an other warm day… The train takes 30 min going south from Stavanger to Klepp county. And the school I have applyed to is 7 min away from the train station.
Bore school yard.
The interveiw was at 08.40am ish, for approxy 30min. As any other interveiw I’ve been to, I asked the Lord for the right words before I got there and so I said what I got. Walked around the school yard before I went back to the local bus, back to the train and texted my referenses that this school would call them the same day.
I got on the train further back home with a small break at the bushub in Stavanger for some breakfast and energy 😉.
Got home around 11.30am and 11.59am the school called and offered me to work with them 🤪🤪😊. It went crazy fast!!
I have had 5 day’s of Summer vaccation today. I have enjoyed allmost every day so far. Yesterday wasn’t fun! Headache all day 😦 But I managed to get out and buy paracetamol :-). Today started a bit better. I got my strong coffee and breakfast, charged my Smartphone and headed out around 1.30pm. Shopping was “on the list”. Not just shopping for fun, oh no only what I really need for this Summer and the trip I’m going on in few day’s.
And by the way, as of today in Norway, there are aircraft technicians who are on strike, so if you are going to fly, you “should” have booked a plane that is not on the ground.
I booked a flight in the beginning of May, took a chance and booked with a aircraft that is quite new on the marked, but well, so far is zero of the aircraft technicians in strike. Maybe the Lord was with me on this or I have just been lucky?!? My flight leaves on Thursday. But before that!!
On the bus to one of the big Malls here in Stavanger, was I listen to a pod as normal, rang the phone. And I couldn’t take it, why? Well the whole bus was crammed with kids (at least 40 of them with aduldts) talking. I went of the bus, checked the voicemail and I called back to the number. One of the Schools I have had Applied to in the last two weeks called me! And I got an interview!!! 🙂 🙂 🙂Wednesday morning, June 28th, 08.36 will I arrive and start the interview. It takes me a bit more then one hour to get there… but it will be worth it! So if I get that job I will be needed to move again, but I think if the Lord open up this for me I’ll move to some place in-between of the school and Stavanger. But first the interview.
Last Year this time I were stressed about where to find a job and where to move. Today I have lots of motivation to write applications one by one until I got a job. A job the Lord will open up for me. I still trust his power and way’s I can’t see. I just know I will get a job, the right job for me. Even if that means I’ll move again. I’ll do that tp be able to be where the Lord can use me. He has given me peace to stay in this county, which I will. 😊
And today I started my 🥳🍉🌻 Summer Vaccation at 2.20pm 🦋🐞🥳
One of my first thing not to do tomorrow is, not wake up at 06.10am 😊😊😊. But I will try to not turn my day’s upsidedown at once. A week from today I’ll be in Trøndelag and visit my brother & sisterinlaw and be apart of theire wedding celebration, meet close and distance family. Which I haven’t seen in one and a half year 🥳🥳🥳.
Last Friday (June 10th) I received my monthly salary, just with a smaller chock. I received less than half of what I normally receive. So yes a smaller chock. But, I thought about it, how I mostly tell myself to really trust the Lord when I don’t know how I am gonna live so I prayed for my situation. And asked the Lord for a miracle or a blessing. I asked for “I need enough for all the bills, food, medication and it would be nice to have some money left for my Vacation Lord”
On Monday I received an email from my last work county, saying they had tryed to send me my Vacation money (that’s how it works here in Norway. That you earned from last years work you get next summer). But they didn’t managed to send it cause I have change bank during the year.
Tuseday, things got sorted out and on Wednesday I received the blessed Vacation money. Much more than I thought I ever could earn through a partime job (on 70%) in the School.
Wednesday and Thursday I’ve used my time to transfer money to where it need to be and what to save for later. I feel so blessed! The Lord knows what and how much we need in different seasons!! I trusyed the Lord and he gave me more than I asked for 😊. I will now be able to pay all my bills, go on vaccation not thinking how much can I use?, maybe even go on a 24 hour trip to Denmark with one of my closest friends from Oslo. 🤩🤩🤩. And I will be able to save some 🤩🤩. Which is extra good, especially becauce I don’t know where I start a new job yet.
Which is the nxt in trust to the Lord, I have peace from the Lord that he knows. I just have to keep applying for jobs until he open up a door.
And one other thing that happend was, cause of the start of this week I didn’t see how I would be able to go to the work party June 17th. So some of my colleages talked during the week and told me on June 16th “we will make sure you can join the party, it shouldn’t be about money when you wont come back in the fall”, if you still want to come. So yesterday June 17th, I went, though with headache, and had fun 😊😊. Such a blessing from my colleages!! And I have to say, I have felt how this school was where the Lord wanted me to be this year. Extra blessing just with that.
I recived 4 different pictures during the worship in tonights House Church, which I’ll share with you.
The Horizont.
Picture 1: Like the horizon is far away it is still close just like me. Like the sunset gives us the night and the sunrise gives us the daily light, I want to give you the lught through your life. Like the water can give you peace I want to give you the Peace you need more some day’s. Like the waves can put the sea in a storm, your life can feels like a big wave or a stormy sea – And There in the middle of it all – I want you to reach put for me so I can give you the Peace you need.
The Beach.
Picture 2: The Beach. Just picture yourself, a beach, the sand, the waves, the people, the kids playing around. The sun, the wind, the birds in the sky. I’ll walk there with you. Whatever you are doing there, I am with you. I am in the wind, the water, the sunlight – everywhere. Cause I made it for you to enjoy.
The Tunnel.
Picture 3: The Tunnel. You feel trapped, You don’t see the light, You are walking around in darkness, You feel lost, You are scarred. But I am there with you. In the middle of all your chaos. And I am gonna Lead you out and through your tunnel. I will let you see the light, feel calm, feel the peace, the love you so much want. The Freedom. The Joy will come back. I invite you into my arms & to walk with me.
Sailors boat.
Picture 4: The Sailors boat. Picture yourself. You are on the boat, don’t know where you are going. You just following the wind, wherever it takes you. Remember: I am with you & guide you.
Pray over them, if you don’t know if one of them are for you.
Othervice, if one of them speaks to you directly. Thank the Lord for giving you an answer you’ve asked for and be blessed.
I’ve got peace to stay in Stavanger municipality an other year, if that means I’ll stay where I live right now (on the island) or that I’ll move into the city I don’t know yet. What I still don’t know is where I’ll work. The job I have right now ends the 31st of July. Yet I do have peace over the fact I’ll get the job the Lord wants for me.
Does this mean that I’ll keep working with yought? Don’t know. Will I keep working in the School? Hope so, but don’t know.
Which path wil become mine?
Maybe I’ll become a substitute teacher somewhere or maybe I’ll get a job with yought like “after school hours”. Just the fact I’ve got peace helps a lot!! Last year I was so stressed about this thing “where will I get a job” and now I am in the same situation and I will just rest in it and see where the Lord is leading me. I am still applying to jobs of interest but no stress. And I have figured out I shouldn’t work more than 80%. Which also helps.
I am still applying, and won’t stop until I get something. But I feel more openminded about what I can and maybe want to try than I have been feeling for the last months. 😉 And I still have peace over the job I turned down, that it was the right thing to do.
I have been praying over this “Lord where will I work nest?” Because it is a bit frustrating some days to not know. But now, I just know it’s okay to just trust the one who have it all in His plans. So whatever everyone asks me I’ll answer I don’t know but it will be fine.
And my sparetime, well offcourse it would have been nice and easier to have the driving licence but hay, I take that when I have time and money. I will try to explore as much as possible this Summer by train, bus and ferries! I will not aloud myself to just be home and do nothing just because I don’t have a car!!
Right now I am just frustrated and annoyed…You know how life can “kick your as” sometimes… My is like that today. Got very annoyed already yesterday cause of a man I’ve started to talk to on a dating app and than on messanger on Friday evening. He very keen on a date and than 24 hours later no respond at all. Why and how come? Well I don’t know. Have no clue. Therefor am I very annoyed and frustrated. An I thought if I wrote about it (and maybe someone have been where I am could give me any kind of feedback) I would feel a bit better. Because thats how I work.
And I have to say it already helps. 🙂 Just typing it helps. But offcourse if you give me any feedback I would love that too!! 🙂
Why is it so that most people on a dating app are so not polite? Just because one write something the other person you write to, doesn’t like what you wrote, than it’s fine to totally ignore that and in worst case block that person? Since when is that polite? And if you met in real life??? I just don’t understand!!
Just because you are online, does that mean you can be rude to everyone?? It’s not just on a dating app, it’s others blog or other type of social media. Since when??
I doubt you would do that if you met the person. I wouldn’t. Am I trying to be “to polite” online? Am I rased in an other world, I am not rased by to beliving Christian folks so I can’t say my childhood is or was very different than most.
How do you think about this? Do you have any experience? And what would you do?
Anyway, I got an other date, today. And I am looking forward that. We have planned to just walk along the seaside and get to know each other. I might tell you how it went after. It’s not just about to date someone to see if you fit each other for me, some of them is worth a date just to get to know the other person. Maybe I get a new friend I can hang with who knows?
I will not say “offcourse I am looking for a man for the rest of my life” because I can’t say “for the rest of my life” cause I don’t know how long I live or if I’ll meet the “right person” now or later. I think most people should use other words even if I totally understand why people use the term. I have since I moved to Norway wanted to meet a man, yet haven’t that happend. I have been living here for fifteen years in September. Maybe I haven’t been ready as a person. Whatever reason I haven’t met the “right man” yet I guess is only the lord who knows. And I have come to peace with that fact, that whenever I do meet this man, I will be ready both as who I am and as a Christian. Wheneever it happends life will be good, I will be in a good place and mostly I am not stressed about it as I actually have been… And annoying family members has been more stressed. The different between me and my family is that they have been wanting a “good man who can give me kids” without asking me if thats what I wanted. They have just been assuming that’s what I wanted because “I am a christian” or because “I am a woman”. Which sucks!! I have since I don’t know, been wanted to meet a man with kids from before and not get my own once for years and years.
I am just whishing for a man with kids from an other relationship, sorry if you don’t like that. But the Lord have given me peace so I live with that.
Some of my bonus family totally undestands me others don’t and that’s okay. I live my life.
I started this post in April 2020…have been editing it now and than…for the right moment to release it.
Writers comes in different shapes and from different genres and we all write different. I blog as you know, but it did not start there. For me it started as most kids. I wrote stories with a wild fantasy. Long and short ones, some has still not been finished and they are still waiting to be continued others I have forgotten.
My inspiration was (still is) my Mom.
My mother was a teacher and a believing Christian, she left us in November 2020, she taught med to write my name early. I think I was three and a half or maybe closer to age four when I could spell my name and write short sentences. I grew up with 2 biologic brothers, and to foster brothers during the 1980’s. And the impact they had on me as a child has for sure made who I am today!
On the “top of this” I have Journalists in my family, which also are writers. But they do it in another league! But yet they are writers. So I am not the only one that writes and other people read it, that’s what I mean.
Even though we moved around a bit during my childhood and I had to switch Schools and was bulled I have good memories of writing a lot! Yet the best part was how much my mother teached us to write in a early age. She put effort into traditions and taught us all kind of stuff. And now when she is in heaven I just want to share as much as possible from her life and what she gave me.
How are you expressing your creativity? And where?
I remember that I climb up to one of the house roof to find a good “study-spot” to sit and read books to get inspired to write. 😉 Something I would love to be able to today as an adult. But I can not do that for several reasons. The height is not one of them.
I had a happy childhood and wrote as much as I had time to until I was a teenagers, which was when I took a break. A bit longer break than I thought was possible. My mother was my biggest inspirations to write stories with lots of fantasy. I remember she once said “write it all down, one day you might have a book”, or she could say ” You should write down what you see and make a story”. Her imagination was rich, big and sometimes also wild. She loved to read books with excitement, adventure like in a thriller or crime book. That, she past on to me. I love a good crime book.
And I am so lucky to have had the chance to spend every Summer in the Northen part of Sweden (the picture gallery), in our cottage, until I was fifteen or sixteen. I loved to write stories at least in elementary school, after School, in the Summer break, wherever I had the chance (my dad did not like it at all). I have memories, where I sat in a barn with itching hay with a pen and paper. 🙂 Or in the grass watching the calfs and cows and horses on pasture and getting pictures and words in my head.
Örträsk, Lappland, Sweden. Where me & my mother comes from & where we spend as many Summer hollidays as possible.
The write-break, I did not take up the pen to write stories again until I was above twentyfive! Why I do not know. I mean I have always written on something here and there. And it has never been like it is now. The Lord gave me big inspirations, prophetic Words and kept helping me about what to share and how to share it.
To be creative is a part of my life. I can not say how old I was when I started to do other creative things. I do remember I was maybe 5, the first time I was woven something. Did I like it? I do not know. And do not remember what I made. Sorry.
The biggest change in my blogging came in 2019 after I recived a message from God, three times during a time line of (I think) 6 months.
Before (lets see… 🤔🤔🤔 …) December2018, did I use my blog as an ” ventilation ” to clear my thoughts. Nowdays the Lord gives me something to share. Most the times I ask Him “how is this useful to share?”. And you know what?, I always recive the peace inside. Like ” just becauce you do not understand does it not mean someone else does not need it, just the opposite”.
I still write about “this and that” to clear my brain, but nowdays it’s more with a guide from the Lord.
To reach out wherever in the world with my blog.
My blog started small and it has grown just like me and my writing.
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You who are following my blog comes from all around the world. Just like the picture above the smile. And what’s amazes me probably the most is how many of you who writes about traveling.
Opportunity to write, share, encourage other people I never would be able to meet.
Opportunities comes in different forms, different times and different types.
2020; I don’t know if this means that my blog will be even bigger, reaching even more people. Maybe.
2022; For sure it has happend! Today, June 2022, I am writing more and more often and I am paying for my blogsite which I never thought about to do when I started! But the Lord have made it clear. This is how he want me to touch other people.
The freedom just like a flight. You can choose your type of wings.
Hope you have found your way of being creative just like the way the Lord has given you Your gift into your life.
I am thankful for who I am, what I become and for I am not walking alone in this world!
Find Your Joy in Your Life and Journey.
The Lord is my inspiration to write and I pray the Lord will help you with your creative side
mia-simone. svenberg 