So I had one interview this Tuesday the 8th, after school program (SFO). It didn’t feel like an interveiew at all, more like they had to many to meet. And I also got a negative vibe in the spiritul world. And I am not so keen on this job, mostly cause it’s only 50%.
Late yesterday (9th) I read my email and there it was a new request for an interveiew. I just called them now (09.30am, the 10th) about the time and they will call me back.
Interveiw Friday 08:30, August 11th, kindergarten. Not what I really want but I can work there if I don’t get anything else.
I will also call the rest of the schools I’ve applied to, to hear where they are in the process of applications today (10th).
This job journey is for sure very different from the last years! Yet I am trusting the Lord to open up the right Door of job. Cause the Lord have giving me Peace.
Friends and Family praying.
The peace the Lord have giving me, where most people would freak out cause they yet don’t have a job when the school starts in a week. I just trustHim who will and can provide.
August 10th, afternoon I recieved a txt msg that the posission (Tuesday interview) got filled. Oh what a relief!! Cause I really didn’t wanted it.
On the train Friday August 11th.
A chill walk to the train in the morning sun with the Lord, on the train trying to wake up… listening to a podcast. Soon walk to the bus towards the interview.
I just need to clear my brain with you. The preaching is about how God is repeating himself to get us to respond. Really interesting from Elevation Church with Steven Furtick.
Pictures a long my walk…
A lovely walk path around a small country side lake in Norway.
How the water helps me become calmer.
How much I smile seeing those cute 🐑🐑🐑.
How I love this view, half way around this lake. Time to blog. Share “my nature” with you.
Thank you Lord for peace for whatever comes in the way in my life. Thank you Lord for your loveand protection for my life. Thank you Lord for letting me see and understand warning signs. Thank you Lord for life no matter what it looks like. Thank you Lord for you repeating yourself for me to respond. Thank you Lord for whatever job you can see me doing and where you can use me and my knowledge.
I trust you Lord cause I know you will provide what I need and no more.
Thank you Lord for protection. Thank you Lord for you surroding me with your love. Thank you Lord for resturaction. Thank you Lord for that you repeat yourself. Again and again. ✝️.
An interesting situation has appered, I think. The guy I have been chatting with for five weeks, and have talked about here before. Is Christian, but I believe my faith is stronger then his. When it comes to not panic and trust the Lord when he struggling doing things his way. I have been praying for him and the situation he is in right now.
I can’t help him but I can pray.
And “the feeling” from his respons are he is trying a bit to much of his ovn and not wait on the Lord to actually provide what he needs 😥. I understand he is panicing.
My personal experence in similar situations are, always trusting the Lord cause he can and will provide what I can’t fix in my ovn way.
…July 27th. Me and the earlier owner of Aslan stayed in contact all the way after I took him in, in April and today I got a txt msg from her, where she told me they lost two cat’s during the spring and the one left become so lonely. Same age as Aslan. And they had been talking (cause I told her earlier this week I have to give him away becuase my asthma haven become worse over the last two months) about trying with Aslan with the one they have home.
So around 6:45pm today (27th of July) they came and Aslan recognized them so he went home with them <3.
I think this will be the best sulution for us all.
Silver will settle down and hopefully become a bit more cozy again and I will be able to breath better – that my asthma will improve over time.
We are both getting better. I have vacuuming the house and cleaning it and washed – laundry – almost every blanket Aslan used to get rid of jis fur and be able to breath better.
Silver 💙🐈💙 has started to sleep nxt to me in my bed during the night 😊😊 .
Today, August 2nd, Silver is totally done with medication 😊😊. He has done it so well!! I am sp impressed of him. My old cat-boy 💙🐈💙.
I have now been talking to this man for approxy 4 weeks. We went from talking on the dating app to Snap to WhatsApp. It’s been a journey of it’s own! We don’t have any issue to talk about anything and everything. We have figured out that we have a lot in comman yet many things where we are the opposite which I think is good.
We both want to get to know the other on a friend level and build the relationship from that place. We share values and we are both Christians – which is the part I never though I actually would find a Christian man – but here he is.
My question to myself is – will it be as good when we meet as it is now when we are talking or will it not be anything at all or could it be even better? Am I doubting this concept? Well for sure I can feel I am doubting.
I don’t have good experience of online dating so far in my life, and i started to do oline dating all ready 15-20 years ago(!)
My prayers are; pls let it be good chemistry between us when we meet so all thing we have been talking about won’t be for nothing! Pls let it be better then when we talking. And pls let us be able to continue on this friendship, let it grow into love and bigger.
The Journey of Oline dating, isn’t as streight forward as people migth think… It’s many bumps and other obstacles on the road, many questions, doubts and more especially if you don’t live or work on the same continent or in the same land!!
To have focus on the good feeling, the feeling of chemisrty is important and pray together and for each other if you share that. If you don’t share it, pray for him/her. In prayers the Lord can sow and harvest things you can’t.
To be adults and be able to be open of everything is important for me. So I asked questions very early in our conversation, things that are important for me. And he has done that too. 🙂
Offcourse we have different thoughts about things, but I think one of the most important thing when you trying to get to know a man/woman through online dating is to be flexible and open to change yourself if it something he/she like to so and you never tryed it before or never done it, like in my case. He loves snorkling – something I never done. But just because I never done it doesn’t mean I will never do it – so if I am open minded here I might be able to have a good experience one day with him for what he likes 🙂 .
We talk a lot about what each of us want’s in the future partner, qualities and personal characteristics, hobbies, future place to live have we discussed – mainly cause we have a ocean between us (!) Even when he is at work, cause he is an engineer and work different place.
We have our own journey and backpacker we carry with us, all of ous who are dating. Where are our focus in all this? And how do we cope with it all? Well it’s up to each of us to find a pattern that fits us and share it with the one we date. If you are lucky to meet IRL or like me being online for weeks before the first meeting, yet I have to find a good pattern and spend time with him when it fit’s his schedule. And support each other even more important when it’s a distance between us/you two!
To dream by yourself and later with your partner, I guess that’s what we all are doing. Dreaming of a partner when we are single is one thing and an other thing when you meet someone you like not just for how he/she looks like but for whom he/she is. No matter where you are in life right now you are dreaming for something i life, I do. So we are all “the same”. We all have vissions about life and what we want to do, travel, for work etc.
This picture of the hot air balloon, is my dream cause I love heights – yes I do! If I had the money I would love to get married in a hot air balloon ride for sure.
I choose this picture of the hot air balloon for an other reason too, not just for dreams or cause I have it on my blog. No. it’s something about this picture I like and I think it’s the space around it, the freedom, the clouds, the simplicity of where it is and going. A bit like me and maybe you. We have a freedom, a simplicity if we want it from the Lord. We just need to see it 🙂 . Sometimes we are “to focused” on here and now that we forget about the plan that isn’t ours but the Lord. He can see us everywhere and places we have issues to see infront of us because we don’t allow us that picture.
But back to the “core” of this post….
I believe I met this man in the right time for me, maybe especially cause most other things in my life is so uncertan (work and if I am going to stay where I live right now). I hadn’t given up on “finding” someone. No, I had good conversations with the Lord on this. And the Lord gave me more and more patience on this area. The funny thing is that thirteen years ago when I moved to this region the first time I got a line from the Lord saying “next time you live here, you will meet a man a future hubby”. The Lord never said when or how long I had to live here before meeting this hubby ^^haha^^. But the point is, the Lord had a plan and on the way he gave me more and more patience to where I am and waiting on my future husband 😉 .
We have had a rough weekend 😢😢 that continue until Tuesday…
Friday July 21st; I’ve been on the phone to different veterinary clinics during the last 12 hours to get advice. And if he get werse I have to take him to a veterinary clinic. During the night or Saturday morning.
The night towads Saturday 22nd of July; I have checked him every 2nd hour this night, so now I feel like someone drove over me with a big machine 🤪😔😴😴😴.
I will try to sleep a bit.
I am laying so I can watch him from my bed. He slept in his favorite spot in the bathroom, on the top of the water tank is like a shelf and there he has his “tower bed”.
Saturday 22nd, at 1.30pm I went to the farmacia to buy pipette syringes so I could force him some water, which the veterinary told I should try. I were also looking for litter byt didn’t find any 😔.
You know the feeling (if you have a cat at home) when you really need litter and you haven’t slept as you should, you go on autopilot…
So I phoned a local grocery store and asked them if they had litter, they had plenty they said. 🤩🤩. So even if I just wanted to sleep I headed out at 4pm. Catch a bus at approxy 4.22pm. Went to this specific grocery store I’d phoned and bought 2 bags (one bag 5 liter = 1,32 gallons or 169.07 fl oz US or 175.975 fl oz UK) of 5 liter in each.
And Saturday showed us some blue sky and sunshine the first in more then a week!
So it felt so wrong to wear wool and a wind jacket. But should I do? Feeling almost sick becauce I lack sleep 🤪🤪.
The good signs from Silver started to show this afternoon 😊😊. The first sign, he met me when I got home 🤩 The second good sign, he wanted some snacks 💙💙. But that was it for some hours.
But I had to continue force him water…
We went to bed aroun 01am and he came to sleep in my bed, which he hasn’t since May this year becauce of Aslan. Aslan woke me up around 04.30am was hungry & playful. And Silver sat up and looking on me but I didn’t get it. But after I put my head on the pillow again I realized it! Silver was hungry 😊😊😍😍. So I gave gim soaked dry food so he could both drink and eat. Becauce I thought about that – during Saturday evening, it might be his teeths, that he has pain in them?!?.
Sunday 23rd was better. He showed good signs all day. He ate better, drank better and started to sleep more normal times and used the litterbox. ❤ Silver <3.
Monday 24th has been a bumpy ride for both me and Silver 😦 . He has been eaten okay, taken malt with vitamines but not drinking so well 😦 He has been awake aproxy every 4th hour as normal <3. He is still fighting <3.
But I have to say, and I have talked to him about it cause he has been with me for 7 long good years, that if he is to sick and will suffer before he gets better I rather “put him down”. I don’t want him to suffer. I can’t see him in pain. It hurts me too. I will miss him so much if I have to, but it is for him I’ll do it. Health first! It will be so empthy without him ❤ . Even if I’ll have Aslan a bit longer then I have to give Aslan away too or put him down too…I have been reacting on Aslans fur in the way I have issues to breath. Here it is again. Health first.
I phoned a vet to get an appointment for Silver (today) Monday 24th, non had an appointment before earliest Tuesday 25th 2pm. I am praying every awake moment that Silver will fight as much as he can. He has been my “boy” for 7 years… I love him so much.
Tuesday 25th, we had an appointment 2pm, got there by friends 1.55pm. The vet checked Silver and he showed pain in the stomache. So they gave Silver some sedative medicine that made him tired and nauseous, so he threw up 3 times (poor thing).
The sedative medicine has started to kick in.
They took an MR. Luckly it didn’t show any bad. Then they checked the temperatur (normal temperatur at cat’s is between 38-39°C) Silver had 39,6°C 😢😢
Here we are outside the clinic.
I were worried all the time for him, becauce he is my “boy”. I have had him since he was 1,5 y.o. I would be destroyed if I lost him now. Thank you Lord for let me have a bit longer. I have prayed so many prayers for my Silver those last five day’s 🙏 he has been fighting.
He will be on antibiotics for 7 day’s from today 💙🐈💙.
Here he is laying resting after he ate some dry cat food 4:39pm.
We were home around 3.30pm ish and say, Aslan was happy! Silver will be “a bit groggy” after the sedative medicine most all day today 😢😢 but he is alive, living, breathing 💙🐈💙.
I have more energy after approxy 6pm mostly and therefor I’ll start with my projects later in a Day. For the last day’s I’ve started on “finding the right pattern”. You who sew probobly understand what I mean. For the rest of you, when you buy an old pattern you get a sheet of all the different parts in one sheet and then the challenge is to find all the parts. You’ll see in the end of this blog what I mean.
The first pattern here is; Linen pants in sand color.
Linen patns, my leg lenght (91cm or 35 ⁵³/₆₄ inch).
I measuredd my waist, cut a 10cm wide waist, fold it and sewed it and then I thought how cool it would be to sew a more fancy fabric on the inside. Both for fun and for comfty.
Fancy fabric on the inside of the waist.
I thought the same thing for the pockets.
The same fancy fabric on the inside of the pockets.
So I will sew pants in linen in my lenght 🤩. My legs are tall, cause I am 6″2’1 or 189cm. (My torso is quite tall to for my hight, which will be interesting when I start to sew more fitable dresses ^^haha^^.) My innerseam on pants are 91cm or 35 ⁵³/₆₄ inch = tall woman ;-). I got a par of linen pants years ago but they ar ea bit wide in the waist… and this summer I got linen fabric from a girlfriend and yes there we are. 🙂
The 2nd pattern & the 2nd dress here is: “fancy dress” the white curtain.
To find the right pattern isn’t easy…
But I did it 😍 Do you see the lines I filled in? That’s the pattern.
I haven’t written about this for a while mostly becauce I haven’t been on any dates lately. Still haven’t. But I am talking to a very interesting man those day’s 😊.
We both wanted to meet, but circumstances did we were not able to before he had to catch a ✈ to London and then an other ✈ to the Black Sea area for work.
So now we’ve been talking for approxy a week, I think he gets more and more interesting. Unusual experience for me. Not comman, but we have also learn we have more and more in comman 😊.
He is different then the others I’ve talked to in many ways!! Good ways.
We will be talking online until he is back from work in mid-August or maybe later 🤪🙂. 🤞 this just will be better the more we get to know each other.
I have been chatting with several man the two last months, and it’s “always” one part where they just have to talk about sex. And if you ask for a date and saying you don’t want to have sex on the first date they block you 😆😆. I haven’t even said why. I don’t think it’s worth talking with a man when he react that way.
Which is why this man I’m now talking to. The sex talk hasn’t been up yet, which I like. So,yes, he is different in a good way.
Left home 09:40am, bus 09:52am towards Sandnes bus & train hub. To catch a new bus at 10:13am.
Today I’ve been exploring 😊, walked in residential areas I never been b4. I’ve taken busses I just seen in Sandnes or Stavanger bushub. Seen where, e.g. Forus Arena is located (where most major concerts for Stavanger and nearby municipalities take place). And I haven’t been stressed just smiling.
Sola municipality, 10.30am.
The rain or wind wasn’t a bad thing. If I weren’t on a bus I found shelter 😉
On a bus between Sola and Randaberg.
I did all this both becauce I have been wanting this since I moved back but also becauce I found cheap books online (via a website here in Norway where you can buy used things, a common website for the whole of Norway) for my upcoming studies which start in mid-August.
Randaberg square, not much here. 12.30 to 13pm.
When I got off the bus I knew I had to eat b4 I headed home-over.
PizzaBakeren.
PizzaBakeren (the pizza chain that started here in Rogaland) is my favorite and today it was a pizza with a thin crust.
I catched an other bus back in to Stavanger train station (13:05pm) waited maybe 20 min at the train station (13:20ish pm) and sat on the train home to Ganddal. On the train it was raining but my walk home were not 😊.
So I’ve got to see and explore and buy non-fiction / subject literature during 4.5 hours 😊😊😊 .
So I went to my candycstore – selfmade – and bought what I needed and asked about the pattern. How to understand it and how it actually is gonna look, how to cut it right and then what kind of fabric I need under.
A lady helped me with all my questions 😊😊
And when I got home I started to cut new pieces and for one piece I had sew two together a seam you only notice when you know it’s there 😊
And I’ve overlocked all the pieces tonight.
Tomorrow comes the big challenge to sew all pieces together 🤪 a challenge I am both looking forward to and are totally scarred for.
But here are tonight’s picture after the folding the fabric right, cutting of new pieces, overlocking.
So we had Aslan (Gardfiled) on trial for 3 day’s in April. After those 3 day’s he stayed. Silver and Aslan (becuase he is orange and walks like a lion) become friends. they have there moments where Aslan is trying to show Silver he wants to be in charge but Silver answers with a small fight and winning by Aslan laying down on the floor “I give up for now”.
Time flies by and Aslan has now been with us for almost 4 months (!) He has becoming an indoor cat and accepting it, he were more of an outdoor cat before we got him. He will be able to learn to walk in leach just like Silver does, but his first issue was to let me put a “neckless” on him that he wouldn’t take off as fast as it got on ^^haha^^. He has been learning a lot this time here and he is young (only 3 years old) so he will be able to learn even more.
The nxt thing for him was to learn is to not eat up all the food, cause Silver also need food! He or both get less food now, I do have one bowl with dry food out all day but more important is it’s always water.
They are friends most the time but in the between they fight, Aslan still trying to set Silver to not be the oldest, the boss etc. But Aslan is the younger will always be more playful, have more energy, talk more because it’s his personality. Silver trying his best to adapt too, he was the only cat for 4 years, it’s not easy for him neither.
We all do our best to adapt ❤ the life we have. I couldn’t leave Aslan to not be able to live a life with us therefor I let him stay. He was probobly a Corona-Cat, left to himself to survive. He has his issues, but overall he is a very cozy cat. Loves to sleep in my bed, next to my back. He wakes me up in the morning, if he can decide 05am… But yet he has managed to go to bed my time approxy 11pm, and that I do pull down the blinds for the night (first of all for Silver so he wouldn’t start to play around 03am and wake me up) but also now with 2 cat’s.
Here it comes 🤩🤩🤩🤩 the Blue curtain length. Today’s 3rd project and I am so happy I did it 🤩🤩🤩.
I did my style. A bit wider in the neck and a fold-over-point a bit lower then my waist, just because it looked better when I tryed it on. Next picture is from the orginal pattern.
I woke up around 9.30am saw the Sunlight coming in through my window and just wanted to make coffee and sit outside, just like mom always did. So I did 😍.
Realizing how convenient it was to have the app for my blog on my phone, and how little I actually haven’t written since I took away from my phone… So I had to down load it again.
During my cup of coffee I took care of my flowers outside on the stairs – “my garden” – as I don’t even have a patch of garden…
Cleaning b4 fixing how the flowers should stand 😊.
My seeds that I sowed in April has starting to grow 🤩 and soon I will have sunflowers.
Yesterday I bought 4 different curtains lenths at a 2ndhand store, washed an off-white one together with a linen fabric. Today I drew a pattern for a dress I’ve wanted to try sewing for few years but didn’t have the courage. Now I’ll use the curtain length to sew different types of dresses.
Dress pattern.
Next step, after resting my back a bit in the couch, will be to add the pattern to the fabric 😊.
This is a short update about life. Lot’s have happend yet no job. But I trust the Lord for the right job and will not stress about it. I have made up my mind to relax, look for job every second day and the other day’s I’ll have summer Holiday. I will explore my county, my local area, Islands in Rogaland (county) or just sit home and sew. Learn new patterns, new types to sew.
Butterflies stands for changes. And I believe a good change will come, that the Lord are providing me a new good change. And I can for sure say He is works with my patience in this specific area!
Christian music – what I wish I would listen to it more often!! How much strength it is there! In my house the radio stands on for my cat’s, but this Summer I have to remind myself to listen to Christian music more!!
Tomorrow (8th of July) I am planing to go for a day trip to one Island called Kvitsøy, cause the weather should be nice and to windy for an island. Cross fingers here. And if I have more energy I’ll sew if not I’ll be sketching and paint clothes – something I figured out helps my brain – I literally enjoying it.
Yesterday were interesting! Or disapointment. The day started good but with an disapointment information from my land lady…They are planing to sell the house where I rent…Wich means I have to move again. I did hope that this time would I be able to live here for at least two years. But with this information I won’t. 😦 😦
I really like it here. It’s short way in to Sandnes and good trasportations for me who doesn’t have a car. The appartment I rent is big enough for me and my sewing and my two cat’s. To be able to rent something where you can have pets isn’t comman. So I am blessed! Also with the rent, lower then most others around in this suburb! Blessing! So, not do I need to find a new home I also applying for jobs. Yet I haven’t been that lucky to get that far (to get an interveiw). When I moved in I were hoping I could stay here for at least two years, but now I can’t.
So my plan is to get a job an then I can look for a new home. But I know me, so I will check if I can find something already now… So what am I looking for? Well jobbwice – school – and I would prefer to go back and work with the youth but it hasn’t been many positions out 😦 so I have to apply for jobs in elementary school too. I did start with one application yesterday and finished it today and send it 🙂 🙂 . And started on number 2 off interest, but got headache so I will sew after I done here.
Appartment-wise – big enough for me, my “boys” cats and my sewing!
But I also need to go to Sweden this Summer to fix something important…and from here I live it takes approxy 8 hours from Sandnes – Oslo by bus, plus 5 hours depending on where in Sweden I go one way (bus is the cheapest alternative on a low budget). So if I don’t want to feel like sombie or dead I need at least 72 hours on this trip. And yes it would be nice if I felt like it was a holiday and could meet up with someone I know. I know it’s all in the Hands of our Lord, yet…it’s sometimes hard to trust.
It has happening to much in a quite short time and I don’t know where to begin to tell you… The week after my last blog post, I worked extra at the after-school program (sfo) and I worked 100% 5 days. Totally exhausted each day. So exhausted I just didn’t have enough energy to blog or do any other creative things I normally do… And when the weekend came I had to priotate to relax and “charge my battery” – body. I did some fun and creative thing that weekend. I started to paint an old suitcase I have had “forever”. The ordenary colouring was brown-green ish and I think I got it after my grandma’ (dads mother) during the 90’s. Now it’s black and fits the other old suitcases I have :-).
First painting brush.Original color on the suitcase.
This last week I was back in my normal rythm and have had much more energy and met a new person (Yay for new accointances) and I have had more energy after work to plan for things I want to do this Spring and Summer and even what I want to do next fall.
13th of March my jeans tore at work…so when I got home I sat on the couch and popped the pants to sew – repair what had become a big hole. I just need to sew the back pocket on and then I can go to bed. This is something I haven’t had enough energy to or been able to sit this long since mid January. 🙂 Happiness! (see pictures under, to the left is where they tore in the front and to the right how it looks like after some new fabric.)
Maybe it’s the light Day’s that I never thought about before, that helps me on the energy level?
I finished up the Suitcase two weeks after I started. And it’s now in a good mix of the other two I have re-painted from this last fall.
This last week I have spend more time with my sketch pad then on social media :-). It helps a lot for my brain in those day’s when work hasn’t been the best place to be. To not focus on anything and just sketch whatever comes to mind – wow what a relife feeling! It’s been dresses and shoe designs lately. And here is a taste of what I’ve done. Hope you enjoy it.
Every sketch is in color but you’ll just get one. Mostly cause I don’t want to spoil to much. Hope you’ll understan. 😉
It’s May 9th today. I went to work with the 9 o’clock bus and got 15 min at work before I started. And were done 11:45 am. Not a very long day, which was perfect for me today. My “dear” Aslan (cat boy that was here on trial and was lucky to stay) woke me up 04:20 am this morning starting to play in my bed and later on the floor. I got angry cause I were tired and just wanted to sleep. He kept me awake for 30 minutes… I did fell a sleep again, but when my alarm clock woke me up I were so tired!!!!!!!! Not fun!
So when I finally were done at work, I knew I had to do something to stay awake for the rest of today. So I catched the train to Sandnes. Walked the few hundred meters to one of my favorited stores that sells mostly things to the household and some creative things. I used one hour in that store 🙂 Happiness!! All I needed. Found just what I had in mind. Some tubes with acryl paint, painting canvas one white and one black, one thin paintbrush, a small notebook with flowers on the front and a sketchpad, tiny tiny white pearls to my yellow dress 🙂 some kitchen tools, a flower pot for “the garden” and a tiny embroidery frame.
This is (the canvas) what I have spend time on since I came home today around 3 pm 🙂 .
I hope that I can use this notebook to write down both what makes me happy and sad to be able to get back to the person I am. But I need time! How my faith up in all this are effected and how to be more inspired through Christian music, bibleverses and more? How to get out well on “the other side” of this depression? How did I loose myself? Well this is what I hope I’ll manage to write down in this notebook that made me smile when I saw it.
Only by grace from the Lord will I be able to move forward and find myself again?!?
This week have I had my birthday at work on Wednesday, which my only wish were to hear the approxy 80 stundents in the 2nd grade to sing the Norwegian happy birthday song, which they did!! 🙂 It made my day 🙂 I normally don’t celebrate my birthday on the day if it’s not on a Friday or in the weekend. Mainly cause I don’t have many friends to celebrate with or a hubby/ or boyfriend.
I had a doctor appoinment May 5th, I got an sickleave for 50% and 22 day’s, if my leader at the after-school program don’t let me be off 50% my doctor will change it to 100% sickleave those 22 day’s. I really need to be off the after-school-program for a while. My doctor told me I got depression. That’s why I don’t have motivation, or smile or have any extra energy over. And I have felt like this off and on since October 22…. I haven’t had a job until now, where I have felt like this. But to be able to be on sickleave is good. I could probobly also be on 100% sickleave but then it would probobly feel like I had some kind of Holiday in my body. So 50% helps me in the way I get up to something and get out of the house and help some young students. I’ll meet with those colleges I like and don’t get negative feedback from. I still don’t like the age of students but now it’s only approxy 30 school day’s left with all the Holly day’s in May and June we have here in Norway.
I celebrated myself this Friday with sushi buffè in Stavanger after my doctor appoinment. The best Sushi I’ve eaten in many years :-). So totally worth the money!! But I am now keen to try out other sushi places in Stavanger and Sandnes – which is my town. I also forced myself to go out after the work day was over, went out with a new friend here in Sandnes. We went to one of the few places that still was open, Egon is a restaurante.I got an alcohol free drink called Passion Explotion and my friend got a baked potatoe with meat. We chatted and had a good time, sat for approxy 2,5 hours 🙂 . But wow I were so tired in my brain when I got home 😦 Got in bed before the normal time during a job-week!
Saturday I spent at home, realxing and sewing 🙂 . Just what I needed. And I think I also landed in the fact I am on sickleave too, in my head. Realizing how tired my brain gets after doing almost nothing… And how good I feel when I am working on a sewing project 🙂 . Which I did yesterday 🙂 . I were able to do quite a lot on my yellow summer dressI’ll show you how far I got. It was +16 C degrees and sunny outside I were indoors ^^haha^^.
I have during the last few months starting to getting to know few new people, some of them I can now call my new friends. They are both Christians and non-christians just like I like it.
I have had a hope of be able to start go to a church this year, so far I haven’t, mostly cause of headaches or other type of pain in my body during the weekends… but now it’s my brain… My body wants more then my brain can handle… It sucks! But I do ‘tend’ to online church most Sundays. Today I have worship on, on my laptop. Worship is something I also try to listen to on my way to work to re-fill my soul and heart. …You know the feeling when you know you slept enough but when you start doing something your eyes just want to close… ‘Tired brain syndrom’ . That’s how it’s right now, while I am writing… I just want to sleep a bit more… Maybe I go for a nap later. Maybe I’ll just try to continue on my sewing project we’ll see.
Do you know how hard it is to get “the picture” out and look just the same in real life? It’s hard. I am prefering to my yellow summer dress. I have a picture in my head of how I want it to look, but I can’t say I’ll manage to get it like that. Maybe when I am done. Which in that case would be marvelous and fantastic!! But I am getting there 🙂 If I only do small steps I know it will end up like my inner picture 🙂
As more time I am working at Bore primary school and in the after school program I feel dissatisfaction. The only reason I felt when I got the job this were the “right door was open” were because I felt the Lord wanted me there for an other person. Which were right. It was one other assistent an Christian lady who has become my friend.
The sad part isn’t just that I don’t have any motivation anymore, no it is to go to work at this school because I don’t feel I am doing any good or using any of my skills and knowlegde. And the part of the 50% of my position which is in the after school program for the students. I like the students and I can only hope they like me. No the sad part is the adults there. They don’t trust me and my knowlegde when it comes to some disabilities and diagnosis and they don’t like the way I am use to work. But even more sad is they (most of them) are friendly face to face but repoort me to the manegement behind my back and saying I lack communication.
It has escalated so much that I really don’t like to be near them yet I have to work with them. In my head I am counting down to the day I am done there!
It is also a harsh enviroment to work at as an Christian. It was okay in the start but as far as the weeks goes it’s very clear it’s not a positive enviroment for me for many reasons. I have started to dislike my workplace. I can’t say I hate it but it’s close.
I feel like those rubbish bins, empty and alone. That’s the easiest way to put it.
I haven’t felt like this ever, when I have been working. I am exhausted and feel empty inside when I get home, just want to cry of sadness. I really need a change of workplace and I am asking the Lord for a good enviroment in my next job.
I stay in this job only because I can’t efford to go on sickleave and because I have a contract until June 30st.
I just know for fact that I will not work with so young students again, it’s not my place!! I am ment to be working with teenagers. Which is why I am applying for jobs in that area again and only that. It hasn’t been many jobs to apply to so far, just few and thos I have applyed too. I am writing an aplication in English those day’s to a British school in hope to get a “foot in there” and get even more experience. To expand my experience among youth.
In all this I struggle with a sad body and sad mind.
As you know, I have been checking around to see if I could find an other cat to mine. And since Thursday April 20th we have a catboy on trial. I have been hoping since he came that they will accept each other. In total of the small steps they show signs on it. But in between they fight 😦 And my right hand is sore…
We are now on Day 2,5 And silver got his walk around 09:30am and Pusur (Garfield) was locked in at the bathroom, just because he wants to go out because he is used to be able…and if he stays he will become a indoor cat and later learning to walk in leash. Which also means I need to take measure on him to sew a harness in colors that suit him…maybe I go for a dark color because he is orange.
Here are som pictures of them…
A playful catboy (the Orange) In Norwegian he is called Purus which is Garfield.
april 19th. Was yesterday. Outdoor day in the sun with the 2nd graders and teachers, We startes to walk from the school yard around 09:40am with a temperature on +10 degrees celsius. A 45-60min walk in the sun…, cause some walks fast and some walks slow… And I walked with the D-class (they are A-B-C-D with approxy 20 students in each class). Everyone exept me was pleased for the warm day a head of us. I did what I could to prepar for a sunny day before I left home, but I also knew the consecvenses that would apear.
Heatstroke at work… it was a fact around 11am with a temperature on +14 degrees in the shadow! getting warmer each hour. **The forest-park-walley we went to doesn’t have much of wind so it gett hot/hotter then outside the walley. The first symptoms are that I’m boiling, then dizzy, then feel feverish and feel a little cold. Because I walked with one of the students with a diagnose, when everyone were heading back home or back to the after-school-program after 4 hours, we (me and the one student) were lucky to go by car half of the way back to the School, in the car it was an other 2nd grade student with the same symptoms as me, which is sad. I always feel sad for kids because I have been there myself. It’s always harder for kids who wants to play around but gets sick of the sun.
Then a little goes by and I mostly just feel discomfort in my body for a few hours. I left work around 2pm, (temperature up on +16 degrees celsius in the shadow) and I normally work until 4:30pm on Wednesday’s. Bought an Ice-cream while waiting on the 2nd bus. Tryed to cool down a bit. On the bus home the nausea came back. Got home around 3pm. *Does not sweat like a normal person when it gets hot from the sun.
Pictures from the warm Day at Kleppeloen.
Then the real frost comes a few hours later, around 3:50pm to 5:10pm under 2 wool blankets in the couch… freeeeeeziiiiing despite the fact that my body is boiling and I would probably really have sweated if it wasn’t I don’t do that… (according to the weather app, it was +17 degrees Celsius in the shadow at 6pm.)
Managed to take a warm shower around 9pm, but instead of feel warm after as I normally do I kept freezing with a hot-boiling body. Went to bed at 11pm.
Woke up hot and nauseous 07:14am today, April 20th. Home’n’sick from work 😦 .
Took something for the nausea 8 o’clock but is still nauseas…08:40am while I started to write this… to nauseas too eat or drink my coffee 😦 The weather app says it’s already +10 degrees Celsius 9am today…. I were home and didn’t do much. But managed to go to work on Friday.
This week has been different! I’ve been moved from working with the students in the after-school-program to do practical things just because two of my co-workers can’t handle how I do my job with the one student with Autism… They have complained and think I am afraid of conflict which I’m not but that is how they see it… My body isn’t fit to stand and walk a lot without a rest on a chair after the blod cloth I had ten years back, and my back isn’t pleased either with the tasks. But I stand in it just because I know I will not continue work here after this Summer. That’s the only thing that keeps me going right now. Sad. Yes.
An other sad part in this situation, while the boy who needs predictability because his autism, he just has to come to terms with the fact that suddenly someone else is with him… 😦
But what can I do? My leader in after-school-program think I have the qualities and are the right person because I am creative, to sort the storage and make a structure that will be easy to continue. Which is nice to hear. But just the fact that I have to do other things when my co-workers can’t deal with how I work… well I can only say I think that is the wrong way to do it.
So I have talked out loud to the Lord about this and next time I meet my House Church I’ll ask for prayers.
I’ve felt an empthiness inside me for a while and now it’s even bigger. I haven’t been liking what I do in the School since October and now this… I only go to work because I can’t afford to stop. I don’t feel joy for work anymore. The only Joy I have now, when I have enough energy, is at home when I sew…. Which is sad!
Last year, when I worked with the yought I felt “done” already in February but this year has been worse!! To not feel joy at work at all is the worsed part of all things for me! To feel empthinessevery day you go to work makes it hard to smile to those you work with! It makes it hard to force yourself to go to work.
My motivation is to look for a new job and apply when I find something I know I have experience from and know I can handle. But it is always the question, will I get to an interveiw? And when I got the job, how will it be with the co-workers?
Right now, my head is “groggy” after medication from migraine few hours back. So I only write to “vent” my brain. To get rid of all my thoughts. Empty my brain. But I just want to sleep or relax cause of the side-effects from the medication… which I will do after.
To be a Christian, to believe in this situation is rough. But I know my Lord wants the best for me so I stay in my path. I also know He will open up the right door or window for the next job. He always do. That is my comfort.My believe is on the rocks and I know and have to believe that He will help me.
Silver gives me comfort in all the ways he can <3. I don’t know what I would have done without him. Therefor is he in the featured image for this blog.
I got cold at work Wednesday the 29th of March and I had sore throat and fever Friday 31st of March. Gaaa. Fever at work is never fun! But I did work. That Friday evening didn’t I have any energy in my body. I was laying flat in the couch the whole weekend. On Monday 3rd of April I had one appointment in Sandnes – to pick up my new spectacles (glasses), so I took paracetamol and headed in to Sandnes and did that only thing, headed home an hour later and that were what I “had” energy to.
The red par is my normal glasses and then I got a par of glasses for computer or sewing as I use them for.
With new glasses at home and the trip outdoors, the day after I had more fever…Gaaa. Not what I wanted but just reality. I have been in the couch all day’s since Monday. Only had some extra energy the last two evenings where I have trying to understand a dress-pattern.
And when I thought I understood it, I went on next step – drawing up.
Got company of Silver, who doesn’t understand that I am doing other things on the floor then gonna be with him <3. I have got so far that my next step is to sew it all together, but not yet. To less energy and to much pain in the body :-((((
This dress, if that’s what it actually ends up as, is my very first try to sew a dress after a pattern! And if I manage I will use this pattern to many more and get good on this before I try an other pattern. My goal is to concer this task. I do want to be able to just buy fabric I like and then sew a dress that fits my body. And if you wonder, I am between sizes S and M in most exept the length. Everything in Small is to short on the length but fits good or perfect in my waist. My hips are “to wide” for a Medium and yes too short in the legs.
This is my length on this dress, look at the bottom of this dresslength – the last 10cm is my addition.
An other thing I had energy to do yesterday (Friday 7th of April) was to give my seeds new soil and divide the little flowers I sowed as seeds two weeks ago.
My only goal today (8th of April) is to force myself to the grocery store (the only day here i Norway the stores are open during Easter) and buy paracetamol for my headache before 4pm. Which I managed – Happy and free from pain after 6pm. And from that (no pain) I got energy to put into my dress-project.
It actually looks like a dress.
Tomorrow I will try it on and see how tight I will sew it and where to put a zipper, which I haven’t figured out yet…
I have, since 8th of February, been able to start with my exercises again after my injury 🤩🤩🤩 and I’m a good flow where I have been able to do it almost every evening for the past week 🤩🤩🤩. And I have also been able to add things along the way that is good for my body.
This is two types I’ve been able to add the last week 💪🤩.
My regular exercise is;
And after almost 2 weeks I can feel how my stomache mucles are getting tighter and stronger 😊💪.
Theese are on my goal to add;
One step at the time, a new goal each week and then I compeet against myself 😉 on how many repeets I managed from day to day 😉😆😉. Like yesterday were my goal to do 15 butt lift & 15 reverse crunch but I couldn’t do them all cause of pain but I weren’t far from it 🙂 so I were pleased with what I managed.
I can only hope that my strategy helps you to be motivated 😉. To set up a goal isn’t the same thing as a “new year resultion” remember that.
From the preaching with Elevation Church online, February 19th.
Spring signs and the sky. February23.
A fun test to make a metal flower and see how it looks like day by day I continue working on it and how to implant the orange pearls was fun. I am pleased with the finished “product”.
Reparing wool socks.
A windy week, 13th to 19th of February 23.
The light has been coming more each day this last weeks and the mornings has been so beautiful in the sunrise.
I’ve been able to walk a bit more after work, not every day but I do enjoy it every time I do short or longer walk.
For me it isn’t how far I walk, it’s about to do it, to have the extra energy in my body.
In my house church, we r going through an alpha serie, with questions, movie and sharing. How will u discribe faith? And how did u get there?
Repentance & faith is how to get there.
Do u think over this? Do u share it with anyone?
Faith is trust. To trust something u can’t see or the trust u won’t fall off a chair. Faith is the unknown. Like the chair, u don’t know who made it or how u got it. It’s unknown.
Are all Christians wierd? Or can it be something unknown for the people who isn’t christians? How can we be for them around us, and not get the stamp of being wierd?
An other part of faith is, it is an relationship. A relationship to the Lord. To someone who loves u more then u ever can love a child, ur child if u got one (or several). God wants u to understand that he loves u as his child.
If u aren’t a Christian, ask him to get into ur life with a simple prayer. Ask him to forgive ur sins and be able to start a new life with him.
If u have God in ur life, when did u open the door (or window) [a picture of how u met Jesus] to let him in to ur life? How is ur Journey with him? Tell someone u trust or ur house church. It will encourage those u have around u.
How have your faith grown? And how have your journey been from the start to now?
My thoughts, ur thoughts, facts, the thread through the Bible who can help us through life.
Suddely and I mean that. Have I started to talk to a guy. Not believer Christian. But it’s okay for me because of the deal I have with the Lord. He took the first propper contact 😊😊.
And as more we talk as more he acts and respect my thoughts and if I don’t want hom to send a picture or msg je doesn’t 😊and in my head he becomes more and more as a gentleman. He surprise me in many ways. He isn’t like most other guys I’ve talked to on the same age as him. And this is positive!
Is this to good to be true or not?
I wont give you details but can say he is Norwegian. It doesn’t become awkward or silent if I ask him something oh no he is better then that. 🙂. He ask as much as me 😊. Seems really interesed. Wants to meet on a date and two if the chemesrty is there, which I think it actually can be. But we just have to wait…
I can’t say ‘he is more mature becauce he has a kid’ because I’ve talked to other guys with kids not as mature as this one! Trust me.
In this dating app, you can choose to take a test that looks at personality, openness, personal traits, housekeeping and order, sloppiness etc. It’s a personality test to find out who.one fits best with, a type of algorithm.
Me and this guy, score pretty much the same on the 5 biggest areas that the dating app prioritises. …like, 84% on cohabitation (sex and cohabitation, equality, house order, exercise and health). 94% on interest (sport, culture, music, travel and nature). 88% on communication and 76% on personality.
I am impressed! Not just on this guy, no. How the Lord has been with me so far and still is, His way of guiding me steps! I haven’t really been looking looking for a match so far this year. My words to the Lord were ” I’ll put this “chasing” and need you to guide my steps or answer the guy who contact me”. And that is what happend here 😊.
When I put my trust into the Lord he provides!
…But it will not be any date with this guy anyway 😔, he has blocked me. As sudden as it felt good it feels like a “poof” of something good just went away. Can’t really put words on what I think or feel for something like this. I guess it was too good to be true 😔.
This happend approxy a year ago too…
Well well, I “keep searching fir mr right” even though I don’t search more looking.
it was a fact around 11am with a temperature on +14 degrees in the shadow! getting warmer each hour. **The forest-park-walley we went to doesn’t have much of wind so it gett hot/hotter then outside the walley. The first symptoms are that I’m boiling, then dizzy, then feel feverish and feel a little cold. Because I walked with one of the students with a diagnose, when everyone were heading back home or back to the after-school-program after 4 hours, we (me and the one student) were lucky to go by car half of the way back to the School, in the car it was an other 2nd grade student with the same symptoms as me, which is sad. I always feel sad for kids because I have been there myself. It’s always harder for kids who wants to play around but gets sick of the sun. 
mia-simone. svenberg 