Category: July

Thoughts of my nearest future, my life here and now and the loneliness I feel.

It’s nearly been a week since I got back from my holiday (July 22nd today).

After I’ve been home for two days I realised I really want to have a family around me. A husband with family. If it’s his growen kids or his siblings it doesn’t really matter as long as its family (person’s).  It also means I litterly need to meet people every day, especially when I have a school break. Because when I work I always have people around me and my quote for the social part gets quite high but than when I don’t have a work to go to because it’s Summer, my quote goes down to fast 😔.

Anyway, I have been a bit creative yet not been sewing 😬🤪🙈.

On Saturday (20th) me and my 74 years old neighbour went to a plant store. I bought soil, orchid peat and basicpon to my flowers and 4 new plant pot’s in two sizes. Gave my outdoor plants and my aloe vera basicpon. And new seed soil and clay balls to my indoor flowers. And it looks like they liked it.

Painting a drawer which I’ll use as flower shelf.

Sunday 21st I finally managed to go to Church 😊 on my way I walked on my favourite bridge which also is a roundabout for traffic under. The weather forecast said rain from morning to evening, but we were lucky to not have the rain until during the service. Met a close friend from Oslo after the service, I haven’t seen since I moved three years ago. (It feels like this summer is the summer for meeting up with friends I haven’t seen in too many years.)

My favourite bridge in Stavanger. Because of the colours!
It was raining after Church.

Painting…

This door haven’t I done much with for the past year.

Now I paint it with acrylic turquoise colour to figure out if this is the colour I want. And I think so. So until I can afford the reel paint this stays.

I still haven’t decided if I will have black or white edges 🤔.  I guess it has to grow on me as everything else I do 😆.

I chose to paint this too. The furniture I don’t know what you call, but it’s mostly used as a writing table back in the day’s both with drawers and cupboards. And the turquoise colour pop’s more to the black than the red colour did.

Today, Monday 22nd, I haven’t done much 🙈. I have cleaning my mother’s sewing machine and I found a bulb that fit 😍 and giving the machine some oil. I have the luxury to own two sewing machines now. My mother’s sewing machine was made in 1953 and I think mu mother bought it in the 1960’s.  So it’s been along quite long time! A good but heavy machine.

The best part with this machine is the sewing table 😍

I haven’t been sewing yet 🙈😆 but I will 😉. 

Faith and Trusting the Lord. I still don’t know what or where I will work in August yet I have peace inside me for this autumn. I am Trusting the Lord and have faith he will guide my steps. He has already blessed me to be able pay a bit less next time I have to pay the rent 😍🙏✝️.  I gave money to the missionary work my church, yesterday, they are doing in Thailand and trust that God will bless my money for how I will live and pay bills in August.

Thoughts for the future… one of them are if I should save up for a used car (becoming an adult in an other level). I know I need a job to be able to save up money  – to realistic brain to think otherwise.  I have been looking at job’s but nothing so far fit’s me 🙈😔.

Sunday service, July 14th, Falun.

Is it possible to live like Jesus wanted, today and alone?

Romans 12:4-10 – how we are breches to work with each other in this tree (verse 5)

If someone asks to hlp you and you respond “no I don’t need your help ” – this is a mirror of our society.  A sad picture but in so many ways the hard truth.

If we take football as an example (mostly because it’s right now are football games)  those who play football play as a team and work together and practice on what they all already are good at  – we all need each other to be able to how we live as Christians and if we can follow Jesus and live alone. 

We were made for something bigger than to earn a lot of money!  What is the goal for the Churches?

First Peter 4:10-11 – The love we receive from the lord.

(John 16:7 – about the Holy Spirit. Our guide, our helper when we pray, )

Say Yes to help from those you have around you, where you live.

Lacking of friends  – continueing…

I have now throughing myself out there to be more outgoing and find new friends. Twice, two day’s in a row.  And totally worth it!

I met two women yesterday (Thursday  July 4th) that I probably will meet again for a chat over a coffee or similar. But it wasn’t contacting on how we are as personality or maybe it was hard to get to that level 🤔 when one of us spoke broken English and the other floating English and me also floating English. We didn’t got deep enough to explore hobbies.

Today (July 5th) I met Amber, just me and her talking. And we had the contacting 😊. We talked like we been knowing each other much longer! And we will stay in touch so that we can meet again as soon as the summer holidays are over and start to ‘hang’, talk or do things together 😊.

Thankful is was is left inside me right now.

I feel I have had lost my outgoing side of myself for the past years but I am getting closer to whom I once was 😊😊. This is promising!  To challenge yourself can be so good for yourself!

Thankful to the Lord showing me what I need in life.

Aslan has moved out…

…July 27th. Me and the earlier owner of Aslan stayed in contact all the way after I took him in, in April and today I got a txt msg from her, where she told me they lost two cat’s during the spring and the one left become so lonely. Same age as Aslan. And they had been talking (cause I told her earlier this week I have to give him away becuase my asthma haven become worse over the last two months) about trying with Aslan with the one they have home.

So around 6:45pm today (27th of July) they came and Aslan recognized them so he went home with them <3.

I think this will be the best sulution for us all.

Silver will settle down and hopefully become a bit more cozy again and I will be able to breath better – that my asthma will improve over time.

We are both getting better. I have vacuuming the house and cleaning it and washed – laundry – almost every blanket Aslan used to get rid of jis fur and be able to breath better.

Silver 💙🐈💙 has started to sleep nxt to me in my bed during the night 😊😊 .

Today, August 2nd, Silver is totally done with medication 😊😊. He has done it so well!! I am sp impressed of him. My old cat-boy 💙🐈💙.

Online dating (annoying or not) part 9.

I have now been talking to this man for approxy 4 weeks. We went from talking on the dating app to Snap to WhatsApp. It’s been a journey of it’s own! We don’t have any issue to talk about anything and everything. We have figured out that we have a lot in comman yet many things where we are the opposite which I think is good.

We both want to get to know the other on a friend level and build the relationship from that place. We share values and we are both Christians – which is the part I never though I actually would find a Christian man – but here he is.

My question to myself is – will it be as good when we meet as it is now when we are talking or will it not be anything at all or could it be even better? Am I doubting this concept? Well for sure I can feel I am doubting.

I don’t have good experience of online dating so far in my life, and i started to do oline dating all ready 15-20 years ago(!)

My prayers are; pls let it be good chemistry between us when we meet so all thing we have been talking about won’t be for nothing! Pls let it be better then when we talking. And pls let us be able to continue on this friendship, let it grow into love and bigger.

The Journey of Oline dating, isn’t as streight forward as people migth think… It’s many bumps and other obstacles on the road, many questions, doubts and more especially if you don’t live or work on the same continent or in the same land!!

To have focus on the good feeling, the feeling of chemisrty is important and pray together and for each other if you share that. If you don’t share it, pray for him/her. In prayers the Lord can sow and harvest things you can’t.

To be adults and be able to be open of everything is important for me. So I asked questions very early in our conversation, things that are important for me. And he has done that too. 🙂

Offcourse we have different thoughts about things, but I think one of the most important thing when you trying to get to know a man/woman through online dating is to be flexible and open to change yourself if it something he/she like to so and you never tryed it before or never done it, like in my case. He loves snorkling – something I never done. But just because I never done it doesn’t mean I will never do it – so if I am open minded here I might be able to have a good experience one day with him for what he likes 🙂 .

We talk a lot about what each of us want’s in the future partner, qualities and personal characteristics, hobbies, future place to live have we discussed – mainly cause we have a ocean between us (!) Even when he is at work, cause he is an engineer and work different place.

We have our own journey and backpacker we carry with us, all of ous who are dating. Where are our focus in all this? And how do we cope with it all? Well it’s up to each of us to find a pattern that fits us and share it with the one we date. If you are lucky to meet IRL or like me being online for weeks before the first meeting, yet I have to find a good pattern and spend time with him when it fit’s his schedule. And support each other even more important when it’s a distance between us/you two!

To dream by yourself and later with your partner, I guess that’s what we all are doing. Dreaming of a partner when we are single is one thing and an other thing when you meet someone you like not just for how he/she looks like but for whom he/she is. No matter where you are in life right now you are dreaming for something i life, I do. So we are all “the same”. We all have vissions about life and what we want to do, travel, for work etc.

This picture of the hot air balloon, is my dream cause I love heights – yes I do! If I had the money I would love to get married in a hot air balloon ride for sure.

I choose this picture of the hot air balloon for an other reason too, not just for dreams or cause I have it on my blog. No. it’s something about this picture I like and I think it’s the space around it, the freedom, the clouds, the simplicity of where it is and going. A bit like me and maybe you. We have a freedom, a simplicity if we want it from the Lord. We just need to see it 🙂 . Sometimes we are “to focused” on here and now that we forget about the plan that isn’t ours but the Lord. He can see us everywhere and places we have issues to see infront of us because we don’t allow us that picture.

But back to the “core” of this post….

I believe I met this man in the right time for me, maybe especially cause most other things in my life is so uncertan (work and if I am going to stay where I live right now). I hadn’t given up on “finding” someone. No, I had good conversations with the Lord on this. And the Lord gave me more and more patience on this area. The funny thing is that thirteen years ago when I moved to this region the first time I got a line from the Lord saying “next time you live here, you will meet a man a future hubby”. The Lord never said when or how long I had to live here before meeting this hubby ^^haha^^. But the point is, the Lord had a plan and on the way he gave me more and more patience to where I am and waiting on my future husband 😉 .

I just have to believe and trust the Lord.