I’ve taken this year to read more in the bible and stay away as much as possible from all kinds of sex-temptations on social media, television and books. So far so good. I wanted to see for myself if I could and how I would managed it. I am not sin-free as a Christian, I have lusts as much as any other human but I can chose to not have lust and I can chose to not get deep into it as much as I can chose to not do or eat certain things in life.
In the beginning of this year I took a stand against “sex & the city” -series just because the hole series is about sex. How to get “one-night-stand” etc. I love the series out of Carries life even if it’s not even close to the actors life. I get inspirited out of how “Carrie” writes the column and how it shows that life isn’t as easy as many other series wants us the watchers to think. But it’s a lot in this series I do not like, so therefore I stopped watching for a year, to see how I might react to it if I watch it again (now in about six months).
When I read this;
“lust and normal sexual attraction are not the same thing. Lust is a form of selfishness and a dangerous ingredient to sexual temptation. Significantly, this kind of temptation can rear its ugly head both inside and outside of marriage.”
I knew I need to write, I needed to vent, I needed to get all my thoughts out somehow… So here I am writing out of my life.
So what is temptation…well everything you want to do but probably should not do. Like if you are in a relationship, you should not look at other guys/girls. You should focus on what you have! Your boy/girlfriend or husband/wife or partner you are living with or are engaged to.
I am still single but have since few years back (not all my life as most girls) got a desire to get married and the fact I want to be a mom (witch also is not something I have always wanted) (!) I do want to meet the guy that fits me, can balance me and in the end have sex and start a family. And until I meet this guy I know I have had lust (or as this line express it; “It might be more helpful to set aside the concept of lust in this context and to think instead in terms of insensitivity or disregard for the needs, preferences, and desires of one’s partner. This, is a serious form of sexual temptation”, in my life for years.
I know that even after the day I got Christian those thoughts was still there mostly because no-one told me how to get them out of my life or my brain. I had to find it out of my own… I have done stupid things even as a Christian but what I have learn the last year is that, if I know I sin (as a Christian) God forgives me. How? Well as long as I know I do something wrong I can confess it with my tongue and heart. And when I confess, God forgives me. It does not mean I should continue doing it! It’s a long walk of learning!
mia-simone. svenberg 