… if it’s time or just life I don’t know, but something has hit me. (Not so hard thankfully.)
It’s like the fog on the picture above, it’s something beautiful and scarry in the same time.
I have, since I moved back to Oslo area ten years ago (2011) this month, been missing the West coast of Norway.
I moved to Stavanger in september 2010, after the Lord open up a job in a kindergarten. I felt how the Lord was talking to me and how He led me. But I did not stay as long as planned…
I lived there for 6,5months. The plan was a year, I thought. The years here on the East side have had the purpose and the Lord has worked within me and with me. And I would not be who I am if I had not moved back!
And the Lord gave me the reason why I needed to moved back to Oslo area, so I did not just move just becauce I did not like the job in Stavanger. Oh no, it was deeper than that.
But now, ten years later things are different again. And once again I have peace from the Lord about moving. Where? Well I do not now. 🤪.
So I apply for the jobs I have enough knowledge for and trusting the Lord in this too. 🙏 ✝️.
I just want to share this bibleverses with you; Proverbs 9: 7-12.
Anyone who rebukes a mocker will get an insult in return. Anyone who corrects the wicked will get hurt. (9:7)
So don’t bother correcting mockers; they will only hate you. But correct the wise, and they will love you. (9:8)
Instruct the wise, and they will be even wiser. Teach the righteous, and they will learn even more. (9:9)
Fear of the Lord is the foundation of wisdom. Knowledge of the Holy One results in good judgment. (Proverbs 9:10, the vers of today, february 27.)
Wisdom will multiply your days and add years to your life. (9:11)
If you become wise, you will be the one to benefit. If you scorn wisdom, you will be the one to suffer. (9:12)
Today’s vers did not speak much to me, so I had to read more. And than it really spoke to me. And I hope it does to you too. Maybe it’s just the fact that my brain has woke up propper yet that this vers did not “kick in” but that’s my issue.
Okay I am gonna try to think about all things that has happend since last blog. And see if I can maybe encourage someone or however this blog ends up as.
And yes, I ended the thing with the guy in november 2020, jumped with faith into an other app of dating-opportunities in mid December. 🤪😂🤩 and with all new Corona measures and rules 🤪.
January came and past too fast. School started, still Corona but now with the two new mutations… from UK and the other from Africa.
Here in Norway we still have had the Schools open for the students up to age 19 more than less. Which means I go to work ever Monday to Friday. I travel by region bus. One of them starts in Oslo, crossing the community border into my community. Which means that it is potensial more Corona bugs traveling my way to work. ☹.
Sandvika bus hub.
We have had a quite cold Winter with lots of snow negative 19°C, but also 3 day’s of rain and positive degrees ☹ where the snow dicapared some places like where I live. I did managed to make a snow angel just before the rain.
February came with more Winter. Back to negative degrees. 😍. The coldest has been negative 17°C I think.
Outside my school.
I have been given peace from the Lord that I will apply for a new job (that’s starts in the autumn), after my principal said that they do not know if they can keep me. As I only have an extended one-year contract. Thank you Lord for peace.
So now I am back in a situation to search for a job, the different part is I have peace about it. Like it’s gonna be a goodperiod of applying. I know and trust the Lord in this. Whatever door He will open for me will be good, and I will be able to get even more experence in this field.
I have also recived peace to not apply for a University.
About my future hubby, I recived peace to not stress ” he, the hubby, will come when it’s time “. 😍. I am so greatful for those things! The Lord is really showing me step by step what is on it’s way. And to fully trust that He knows what is the right thing or time will be worth the waiting on all levels!
Frozen river.
I am now typing this in my bed, the night into Wednesday 24th of February, 01am… after a great day with friends. Where I have helped them with some practical things. Including tools 🔨🔧. 😍😍. I am cleaning my brain so it will be easier to sleep. And hoping that someone of all of you who following my blog will be touch by the Lord through my post.
Zig-zag, sewing day.
It’s the Winter break and I have had two good day’s of sewing and hoping to finish up my ” 12 par of jeans project ” I started on in mid January.
Happiness and energyboost is the sewing for me.
With love to the all of you. And hoping the Lord will speak to everyone of you often this year.
I have so much in my head I don’t know where to start… So much has happend since last blog 🤪. I need to sort my thoughts and… but first some sleep.
I mean it’s nearly 02am night to Tuesday February 23rd. So I am gonna post this weard post and try to figure out what to share and maybe it will end up as more than just one this week. I guess we all just have to see.
So se at ” tuned ” and wait on what’s coming og you are curious.
2020 ended with tragedy in Norway, a landslide in a municipality where I have friends. My friends do not live in the resident of the landslide. But 11 people lost their lives. A residential area up on quick clay and the seabed that suddenly just disappeared in a landslide the night before New Year’s Day.
It is a really sad situation. Great work from all emergency services for the first 7 days. Where they found 7 of 11 dead.
This Christmasstar will be my symbol on love and care for all those people who live there.
How sad this is. Hard to describe. Hard to put words on. 💔.
I do not live that close that I can help directly but I want to if I can. I am trying to figure out how.
40 people lost their homes and were evacuated to a hotel in the neighboring municipality, where people still live who have not yet found a new house that can become their home. 🥺 💔. The youngest an unborn baby 💔 a boy and his family. They were all 4 sleeping when it happend. 😥.
Lets keep all those people in our heart and prayers. Lets us keep show how we care for them All. Lets stand up and help the way we can.
What I want to say is that when a nearby municipality is hit by a landslide, flood or hurricane. WE MUST SHOW THOSE WHO ARE MISSING that we are there no matter what we can do physically. WE MUST SHOW LOVE AND CARE. We have to line up with what we can. Light candles for the missing or stop taking down the poinsettias.
Lets pray for those people we have around us whereever we live, that are effective from loosing their homes, family or friends in a natural disaster.
We should live life little by little, step by step so God can be with us to grow in faith. Little by little get a bigger faith and walk with Him.
Little by little will we see all the things God has for us. You and me.
God Restoring us. Little by little God is working with us. If you have experence that 2020 made negative things in life, God will restore your life in 2021! ✝️
I personally will remind myself this year, by repeting those words: “God Restoring Us” & “Little by little”.
Little by little God wants us to grow in faith. Growing graduly. Things in our lifes doesn’t happend over night but little by little.
Those words was my inspiration from a preaching online from the Elevation Church and preaching by pastor Rick Wilkerson jr.
I have to say that I normally don’t watch or listen to American Churches but my Church didn’t stream ” today’s service, Sunday January 3″ so I had to find an other Church and asked friends for good inspiration. And yes I did. I hope you do too.
Lets live life little by little from today and see what God will do in our lifes. 😊✝️.
We should all be thankful over what we have, this Christmas. What ever we have or will be gifted. The Lord is bigger than us and will be providing us with what we need.
If it is to be creative or that someone are creative for us. Have Faith in this pandemic can be harder for us all Yet the Lord is bigger than us and will give us just what we need.
To do it ” my way ” or the Lords way ? Are you still waiting on what the Lord gonna say? Than talk to Him and trust Him and He will answer you.
✝️ ❤
I can’t say how the Lord will or when He will answer you, I can tell you that He will if you trust Him.
Your life might be a mess or you don’t experence the Lord close enough, Yet, He is with you. And maybe feels like those words are just are words without meaning, but, you try to believe them and they might touch you. Maybe you need to read it twice or loud. Yet, the Lord wants to have a bigger space in your life.
Let Him in, in to your life. Let Him in to your Heart. Let Him be a part of You.
He is the Light in our Darkness. He is the creative inspiration to our creativity. He is with US when everything feels even harder. He Wants to Walk with You.
He is Our Light. Our Path.
My experence is that, if I don’t trust Him to Walk with me or that He is the creative inspiration in my life, my life would be boring. If I don’t talk to Him, He will not answering me. If I don’t have Faith in is Power and Love how will I feel any of it? I would not. My life would be boring, sad, I would start to be bitter the opposite of what I want and need in my life.
With those words, not just from me but also as a greeting from the Lord while I was going this, hets through my thoughts inspired me I want to wish you all a very Merry Christmas.
I loved the Winter landscape the train went through. ❤❤❄❄.
The funeral was beautiful. And sad. I am thankful I went. Had a chance to meet people my Mom knew that I have not seen in approxy 15years.
The funeral, December 11th in Orsa, Sweden.
I had time to spend with my family. Maybe most with the “kids” which are two teenagers and one on eleven. But it is still quality time with them. 💜.
I brought some of Mom back home to my place. Some of mom’s clothes. 💜. My way to not just remember her but also let her be a part of my life. Continuing being with me. ❤❤.
This picture symbolizes mom becauce she often sat outdoors and drank her morning-coffee.
So many good memories from mom… drinking coffee together any time of the year. Outdoors or indoors. Building jigsaw puzzle at least 500 pieces, walk, our Summer house, go on our bicycles, cooking food, learn to wash (laundry) clothes when I was 6 or 7 years old, learn to cook as an 8years old kid, pikking berries with the mosquitos 😆, to have good routines and structuer at home, to love and appreciate the nature. ❤mom ❤, you will always be with me!
Back home, I have been and still are in quartine becauce of the trip to Sweden… But I have had Homeoffice, been produtive and efficion at work. And I have been knitting after work. 💜💜🧶🧶.
Christmas gifts.
I am now on day 8 og 10 in quartine. And can not wait until the 22nd and that it is after 3pm…when I finally can go to the stores I need to buy the very last things for Christmas to just like I want it!!!
Been able to finish up with my shelf-project 💜🖌😊.
It has so far been a really good December even if I want the ❄ to come and stay for a month.
In all the sad time I have had been both blessed with enough money for the trip and blessed with good energy. Blessed with good health no Corona in me. And good friends, family and colleages! And Peace. ✝️.
The Lord is both showing me love and giving me hints on what’s good og bad for me. ❤ ✝️.
Mom became 80 years old the 17th of November this year. ❤.
On Wednesday the 18th of November I called the head nurse, at mom’s home for the last 6 or 7 years, to check with her what was going on becauce I recived a wierd text message from our dad.
She answered that the function of swallowing food had dissapared. One step closer to not be here on earth with us. A step in the process of the end of demensia. Which was the first day without food and water for mom. 😢.
Me and Mom 2015.
A sickness she got approxy 13,5 years ago. The same year I moved to Norway…
On Saturday the 21st I phoned mom’s home at 7.30pm and everything was ‘ normal ‘ which doesn’t say much when you as a family member don’t know much of the end of this sickness…
💜2008💜
Monday the 23rd was okay. She was breathing normal, she was still piing. Which means some of the organs was still working. 😊.
Tuesday the 24th, mom or her body was starting to show symptoms that the end was getting even closer. Restlessness in the body and coughing efforts were worse. So then she got a syringe against it. And it made her calm. ❤.
2012 I think.
Wednesday 25th was okay stable. Not much of a changed. ❤. Dad went to visit her in the afternoon.
💜2014💜
Thursday 26th did not start well. 😢. For none of us. My brother T had phoned early in the morning and her breath was changed during the night. 😢😢😢.
Thursday 26 07:42am did I recive the first message. Glad I was awake. Preparing for work and eating breakfast. I became sad and tankful knowing ‘this is the very end’. I went to work and on the bus I called the head nurse to hear what the facts was there and than.
She told me Mom could stop Breathe at lunchtime or later that day. Hard to say. I told her that my brother T was on his way up to Mom. 08.45am ish. I came to work a bit sad inside. Had my classes with the students I normally have on Thursday.
A close friend of mine texted me during class telling me I should call my brother asking him to hold the phone close to mom’s ear and give her my last greeting to her for the last time. And I did, in my lunch break. Glad I did. ❤.
This was when the tears came.
A reviled momemt of tears and love to Mom. A moment of realizing that from now are just waiting, stay in touch with each other. A moment of feeling alone. A moment of where the only thing I wanted was a physical hug from anyone. A moment where I wished I wasn’t singel.
Mom in Norway 2011.
Trying to eat lunch was easier said than done. And I didn’t managed to have the class I was supose to have. Gave the information to the student on what to do and I tryed to pull myself together, stop the tears and preparing me for the last one and a half hour of assistent. Which I managed. And such a boost for me.
On the bus way home I got a message from my brother 4.56pm “shorter breathing”. 😢😢😢. This was next step in the process.
We siblings was online on Messenger between 4pm to 6pm. Following mom’s breathing process to the very end. She stopp her breathing 6pm on the clock. 😭❤.
She is now in Heaven 😊 with no more pain and no more sickness ❤.
And December 11, will we all be in Sweden for the funeral. 🌹. We will be able to say Good Bye in an other way. 🌹. Grieve in our own way. 🌹. Let the tears flow. 🌹. And just be and maybe feel close to her.
I know she is in heaven. She is in a place she has talked about many times.
She was a believer.
She was saved.
One of few favorite flowers Mom had. November cactus.
I started my grieving process around Mom’s 75th Birthday in 2015, knowing she would not become better. And two years later was the last time I talked to her on the phone becauce she did not recognize my voice anymore. 🥺. I have had peace since. Knowing she would end up with the angels in heaven with the Lord. ❤.
It feels wrong to say ” I am find ” but I am. I am not in the first grieving process I am some steps ahead. I will always miss her. But we did not live close for the last 13years… But we had a bond. After the Summer I had turned 16, we had a figth and cleanced the air and got a stronger bond. A bond of love and faith. And we both walked a lot after work and becauce of distance between us, we talked ” to each other ” as the other person was a part of the walk. And I am going to continue that. 😉😊❤.
I don’t know what to think about it. This pandemic is hard and not much to do anything about more than to follow the rules and orders the government gives us with in whatever country we lives. What I can do is to think positive and be happy for everything I get.
Here in Norway we have had this recomand of using facemask on public transport for some weeks and I have used it every workday and every time I needed to catch the bus. How it is outside Norway I don’t really know. 😟. Just what I see on social media or read on the news.
Stay positive even in the darkest. ❤.
Now, the last two weeks, the virus has “exploded”. It’s like a ticking bomb. 😢😢. I am lucky I still can go to work, meet co-workers and students which not everybody can. That I still haven’t got the virus in me. Still living my life normal. Some schools are closing becauce of the virus. And whenever my school isn’t open anymore we are back in home-scholing just like it was in this Spring. 😟. Nothing I can say I look forward to for many reasons.
But right now I Enjoy the fact that I can sit in the library. Enjoy the noices. Be happy for no reason or one reason. Do nearly whatever I want long as I just remember to waer a facemask 😷. 😊.
The only downside these day’s has for me right now, is the fact that I can’t go to the place I want most of all things. Well I could but I chose to not, becauce I don’t want to be the one spreadig the virus from one are to my area. I do have asthma and therefor I’m really in the risk group and need to remember that… But for the last one and a half month the only thing I want to do is to visit the town where “he” works… meet him and get to know him even more. … it shall not be easy…
✝️I feel Thankful for how the Lord is guideing me in this pandemi. Thankful for how the Lord is providing for me. Thankful for how the Lord is challenges me. And Thankful for how the Lord is blessing my life. ✝️
I have just been listening to a preaching from my Church and wanted to share with you some of the parts I felt was related to us. Questions in the preaching and some of my thoughts.
How can I be a better version of myself in the world I live in today? Like an interveiw and the most comman question ” where will you be in 5 years?”
Are you and I like Epaphras friend who adding Jesus on the top of all other Gods in your life? Are you and I looking for a easy fix in your / my life? (Colossians 3: 5-11)
New clothing. How can you get those new cloths? We can have good things in life, a job, family etc. The only thingis All this is temporary. It is a challenge for us Christian people. What happends if you don’t have all those temporary things around you? What happends when you loose someone or something like a job? Like the society is today with the Virus the whole World got a taste off in 2020. What do you have left in life? Well if you have Jesus in your life, you still have Him when everything else of the temporary is gone. If you don’t have the Lord in your life what do you have than? Do you know your base? Your foundation? I do know mine.
“In this new life, it doesn’t matter if you are a Jew or a Gentile, circumcised or uncircumcised, barbaric, uncivilized, slave, or free. Christ is all that matters, and he lives in all of us.” Colossians 3:11 NLT https://bible.com/bible/116/col.3.11.NLT
… How we are changing through what the Bible says. Where will you be in 5 years? Will you have the New or old cloths on? Good and important questions to ask. We can chose where we want to be. We havea choise to sort out of things in ourlife. By trusting the Lord and live a closer life with Him. We can put on the new clothing by choosing Jesus into our lifes. And with Jesus Christ as our foundation. Or we can those to still wear the old clothing and continue with what we think is the best for our life. We have a choise.
With Jesus Christ as our foundation we know where we are, where we are going. Maybe not the same overview as the Lord has for our life. But we know our direction. Whereever we comes from, whatever we have done, whatever we want in our lifes, the Lord is with us as long as we are with Him.
To be happy for the small things in life. I talked to a friend over msg yesterday – a small thing to be happy for – you might wondering why. Well we have missed eacher cause of work. We have not in touch for weeks. 😥. But yesterday we had or took time to kind of catch-up and planned a friend-date. And I was creative at work today. 😍🤩😍🤩🖌.
An other small thing to be happy for, is to know that friends you may not talk to every week are still there and you just need to send a txt msg and you are back in the ” game “. 😊😊.
Friendship.
Or to see that “the someone ” has read or watched what you send two weeks ago. 😊😊.
Or to take that call knowing you making a person HaPPy just becauce you took the phone. 😊😊.
Or to send something that maybe isn’t ” a big deal ” for you but for the receiver. 😊😊.
The small things matters. And it can make happy just in that moment or for the rest of the Day. 🤩🤩.
How often do you trust your feelings before you trust the Lord? When it comes to listen to His voice, knowing his voice or obey Him?
How often do you trust your feelings and not believe it is the Lord speaking to you and no it’s not your own thoughts?
Is it like this in all your things in life, that you doubt on the Faith you took you become one of the Lords 🐑🐑? When you received Jesus into your life, you where probably eager to do your best, be the best Christian and then later life and duties came… where are you now in your Faith?
Faith. Is it not as big as it was before? Feel. Do you prioritize your feelings before in other things in life and don’t understand how the Lord can be a part of it? Or are you where you think that Jesus has forgotten you? He will never forget you! And He is closer than you think! He draws himself closer to us when we feel like he is far far away.
Look up, Talk to Him like is in the room or walking beside you to work, or is in the car with you. Talk to Him as He really is your best friend! Have faith in what He can do! Listen to His voice. Trust what He has started in you.
He gave us feelings to feel but He also gave us trust to trust. ✝️. To trust Him when we need it at most. ❤. And to love him no matter what. And to talk/ pray to him whenever we need. 🙏.
No matter where you are in your spiritual life with the Lord He loves you and will never ever leave you, becauce you are His Child.
Words I recived for you who feel you struggling in your faith.
We all wait on something. It can be the bus or the train, it can be the mail or a interview, or kids after a school day. You got the picture.
But how do you wait? Do you feel you do not have enough patience for your waiting? Do you think someone else should be the one that should be the waiting person? Do you just sit ” up-side-down “and do nothing else while you’re waiting? Or do you use the time to something else?
I am waiting. Waiting to know when the next step comes. Waiting on to be able to meet “the guy “. Waiting with excitment on what will happend after we met. Waiting could be exhausting but the Lord is giving me so much patience that I am overwelmed.
The patience does not end, no it’s continuing every day. And I have to say that most people had probably already given up by now. And here I am still waiting on what the Lord wants with this. I still don’t have a clue what the Lord will bring me, of this journey.
But I know, and have learned the long way, that if I stick to this, God will not just bless me on the way but also the whole way! ❤✝️
To stay on the sea with the Lord. Be in the boat.
I went for a walk with the Lord yesterday, Saturday, down to the fjord. The marina, a place where I feel comfortable to just be, breath, think and talk to the Lord. Asking the Lord about this waiting. And thanking Him for all the patience He is giving me.
Lights far away.
To be the light in an other persons life without really knowing that person or not really knowing that persons life just few pieces. To be able to pray for that persons life every day. 💜 That is a Joy I haven’t thought much about before yesterday. ✝️ How my prayers can bless is one thing. But how the prayers for an other person can give me a new level of patience and calmness. That is what I recive. A new level of fresh air from the Lord.
To stand in the waiting and trusting the Lord, who knows how it will end. What a blessing!! To do something different and where I normally would have given up if I just went on my own thoughts and feelings. But how the Lord is showing me how He is guideing me through this when I am putting this in His hands. ✝️
Things on distance.
To have focus on what the Lord wants for me.
My situation with this guy is on distance, which could make it even harder and more frustrarted. Which is where I have been but instead of putting energy on something negative and thinking it could be difficult then I choose to think of it as something exciting and it gives me positive energy.😉😊
Positive energy like all the lovely colours we have around us in this season. 😊
I went to Church for the first time in months today. I can’t say that the preaching hit me with anything but the worship!❤ To just stand there listening a bit and sing along on the songs I knew. 😊 To be filledlike no other place can give me then in theChurch room with the acoustics, rhythm from the drums and guitar 😊😊 that harmony… in my own waiting gave me a calm peace I hardly can explain with words. But very Thankful for the moment I got!!
Which reminds me to play worship at home. Right now. To turn off the radio and turn ON the Channel to the sky and Lord. ❤
Don’t be desperate in your waiting!just becauce you wants something. Let the Lord guide you. Let it take time.
I am so Happy and Thankful right now. I have had so much other things going on i my life that the Lord hasn’t had the first place in my life for a while… And than tonight he used me and reminded me of the biggest thing.
His love.
And how much he loves me.
And how much he care for me.
A small greeting that become so big for me here and now.
Whatever going on in my life, he needs to come first! How will I otherwise be able to do what he wants for me? And how a simple worship song can change the atmosphere and my mood. 😊
The Lord is blessing my life in so many ways now days. One blessing is to write here and knowing that someone of all of you who follow my blog will be blessed or feel God’s present when you read. An other blessing is how he has turned my financial situation to the positive after years of struggling. Or how he has blessed me with a good part time job on 70% and this year as a janitor beside.
Even if I have challenges in my life he blesses me double up. And I can feel his present.
It’s a Joy I haven’t had in long time now.
This year so far is such a blessing!! Some day’s feel crap but in the end of the day when I go to bed and thanking God for the Day I recive peace and love from Him. ✝️
I just needed to share! And pray and hope you will be able to get this amazing walk with the Lord you too! 😊
You can be creative in all different ways. I am most practical creative when I sew or knitt but I am also creative when I write. I love to sew becauce than I can redesign what I had into something I know I actually will use, put on and be proud of.
This was a par of pants my mom loved when I was a teenager (!) Which is a long time ago. No I made a simple skirt of them. High waist, not my favorite but I’ll get used to it.
I am also creative when I knitt. This picture gonna be a sweater….
…when I have gotten my new circular needles I can continue. 😊
My next project to finish, which I started on last fall/ Autumn is also a skirt. This skirt has also been a par of pants/Jeans. Which I bought in the late teens (!) Been using the a lot and therefor is the cotton fabric very thin.
Before I started make a skirt out of this jeans.
Trying out fabrics, get the feeling of ” is this the combination I really want?”
How you are creative is important for you. God has given you a gift of how to express yourself! What it is, I don’t know. But remember to let God guide you in your creative zone. It can be an instrument you play or that you take good photos or maybe you are a writer, a baker, a singer. Whatever it is, He gave it to you! Becauce He knows how to use you and your gift! He knows how important this gift is for you and me. To express something and maybe even touch other people with what you do! 😊
So go out and explore your gifts with the Lord and create something new. Make sure you have fun while you doing it.
To stand up straight in a battle. Your battle. To find tools and trust what you know. To have faith. To have patience. To believe.
To stand up straight in what you belive is the right for you. In this moment. This periode. To feel the present of the Lord in your prayers.
To stand up straight for your faith. To pray for advice from the Lord. To have patience with the Lord. Knowing He take care of your burden. Your prayers. Your life. He and only he who knows you and can give you the love you need in your battle.
To stand up.
Not fall apart.
Belive.
Listen to His voice. Obey when you need to. And just relax in His big arms. Knowing He take care of it all. Knowing He care for you. Knowing He carring you. Knowing His love to you.
Patience.
Trust.
Love.
To stand up straight. Against the enymy. Knowing your faith. Relax in faith. Relax in His big arms of love.
How to stay positive and have faith that I did not have/ got the virus. No matter how many have asked me or friends who has prayed. I just knew I only have fever and probably some kind of infection in the system.
Light through the window by night.
I have trusted and believed that I only have an infection in the system.
Monday this week, the 14th, when I got home after work I started to sneez. A very normal sign on a cold. And it is the time now especially for all of us who works in Schools. So I sneezed and texted my leader asking if I should stay home becauce of the roles here in Norway about Convid-19/Corona & working in a school.
I woke up with fever the next morning and stayed home. I phoned the Corona place in my community and got an home-appointment which means a nurce comes home to you, take the scary test and than you just have to wait. If you work in the School they make a prio to give you the result in 1-2 days other people has to wait 2-4 days.
I took the test on Thursday, still just fever. Starting recive more energy 🙌 moved my couch on Wednesday evening from one wall to infront of a shelf with the view of looking out my big windows.
A lovely view! Any time of the DAY. Friday came, I got even more energy, all glory to the Lord, made dinner. Homemade dinner first time this week 😊😊 and later on Friday I even made pai 🙌🙌. So, I have been home all week. With fever nothing else. No other symptoms 🙌🙌. Getting stronger each day.
First homemade dinner this week.
Berry pai.
I log in to the site online for health, here in Norway we have a good health system, checking for a result nothing there at 09.10am or at 2pm. So I thought okay I’ll just check it before I go to bed. Which I did, and there it was. Negative/not detected 🙌😊🙌
Thank you Lord for once again care for me and my life and blessing me with a negative result on such a bad virus. I am also very happy that it is 8 month since last time I had fever. Even here is the Lord watching over my body and imunesystem. (For you who reasonly started to follow my blog, I have had so many years of bad immune system where I could get a cold and have fever up to 16 days in a row. )
And during those day’s at home have I forced myself to ” have enough energy ” to do something with my hair. I was So tired on my bad hair I did this on Wednesday…
I might not be perfect but I am not perfect so I live with it. 😉
Last thing, today Saturday my goal is a shower and fresh air and a short walk with my cat Silver. He has been so keen to go out and he has had such good patience!! 🐈🥰🐈 and now first of all Coffee & breakfast. 😉
I have been up and awake since 08.11am today, Sunday. And already done the janitor task I was suppose to do yesterday evening, but yesterday I had headache and just couldn’t.
I just had my breakfast in the couch and gonna chill a bit, listen to podcasts and a preaching. Enjoy it’s Sunday.
I woke up from a cozy dream, being on a date. 😊 A very nice date. And I had a calm peace when I open up my eyes. Like I needed this dream or maybe this first date with this guy will end like the dream, I don’t know. And that is okay. So I ” will stay ” in this dream, in the way of knowing that: no matter how the real date goes I have recived a calm peace from the Lord about this, however this goes or ends. 😊
Calm peace just like this water is calm.
The Lord knows what He is doing and I just has to follow Him and I don’t need to be worried. Because I am his child and He will continue to guide my steps. ❤
Life is like a jigsaw puzzle. We don’t always knows how or what the next puzzle piece look like and it can take a while until we find the one that fits. Life and love is the same.
Do not stress about things you can not fix, it’s no point. The Lord knows what’s He is doing. He would not let us go through things, emotions in life you/we can’t handle. 😉
My Daliy Life is a part of my Lord. And He giudes me and my steps. I ask for help for different things in life and He do answers. 😊 It may not always be the way I wish or thought. But He answers. ✝️
All my worries is in his hands.🤲 And knowing the worries stays there is a is a liberating thought. Knowing He take care of all of my worries is His way of showing me Love.
You know when you want to say something to someone you care for and don’t find the right words?!
Well I had that moment today.
So I said, Lord help me write the words for this someone. And the words came. Not everything at once as normal for me when I ask the Lord. 🙂
In about one and a half hours later,I had written down all the words God gave me. Words I wouldn’t used. Words that very much was right on the spot. Words that describes a picture, which is the way the Lord uses me to give ferinds a greeting from the Lord when I pray for them.
Those words from the Lord to this someone went the same way. Like a greeting from the Lord to me trusting that the Lord knows the best for both me and this someone. The Lord just know how to show me, how ask a simple question and He is answering. Not the way I thought but in the way I needed to just let the words come from Him. ❤
So whenever you don’t have the words ask the Lord and He will give you them.
While I had my doubts I started to read one of many Bible plans called “Trusting God’s Process” and in this plan (like the Lord knew I needed it so badly) the writer talks about TRUST.
How God Perceives Your Trust. Is the first line for the 2nd day. ..this is what the writer write; It’s not only important to understand why trust is important as a whole, but also why, specifically, is trust important to God.
Further in the text; Trust is an indicator of our heart’s condition, reflecting where our loyalty and commitment lies.
Those words helped me in my struggling; Trusting God in the midst of our trials and storms shows Him that we count on Him, not the world.
The writer; wonder if part of the difficulties in our lives are for this very reason; so that we learn to trust God? Can you see this in your life? I can. This is how I learned to Trust!
Those words are from the first Day in this Bible-plan, and the writer describe it so well! Trust is one of the most important attributes of the Christian walk. Trusting God and His process is key to our faith journey, and yet for most of us, our experiences in our past can leave us scared to death or unsure of how to trust.
I still have two more Day’s of this plan and I am looking forward to read more about God’s Process!! 🙂
I have been going through a summer full of different feelings. Issues to actually Trust the Lord about this situation. Learning it doesn’t help to try by myself. Only helps to Trust the Lord.
The front picture is my symbol for how narrow my space has felt. How narrow the Lord has been. How narrow my mind has been. Yet, I can only see Gods Love through this Summer for me.
3 hours of creativity the other Day this week. ❤
How the Lord has given me timeto becreative to not think to much. Given me time with friends or to start at the gym, to not think to much.
My prayers; ” Thank you GOD for the peace in my weard situation. Only you know what I am going through. Only you can give me what I need. Only you know what’s coming. How my future look like. Only you know how to hlp me get through this. Thank you GOD for the peace, grace, patience, love you given me in this & for this. “
I use this picture to describes my longing for a man in my life. I stand on the road far away from the mountain which for me is a symbol of my future hubby/ husband.
My prayers; ” Thank you GOD for helping me understand on the way. Thank you GOD for given me this. Thank you GOD for your blessings. Guide my steps. Guide my future hubby. “
My doubts is there, not 24/7, but close. Is this the right time? Is this what you wants for me? How can I trust? Well GOD has given me peace lots of it every day I doubt. ❤ Every time I wonder the peace gets bigger and deeper. And his love! WOW!!
My prayers; ” Thank you GOD for this day, tmrw and the coming week and weeks. Thank you for taking care of me and my thoughts, prayers and life. ✝️ Guide him, guide me. Lead us. Bless us where we are and in what we are doing. Bless the times we will have together when that time comes. ❤
My prayers; ” Surprice me by given me patince & knowlegde. “
And the Lord does!🙂😍❤✝️
God allowed me to try something I was sceptical to; Tinder. You have heard about it I know that. You can find all different types of websides or app’s to find love now day’s. So I ended up on Tinder. Where it’s a lot of weard people for sure! But it is also some, meaning few!, who are more interesting!
I’ve been chatting with few more interesting guys this Summer. I ended up with one (good!) And this guy is the one I have had doubts about. All this blog is about him and God... This guy have I prayed for since day one,and I believe God is with Him. He is still a bit of a mysterious person but GOD has given me peace about him. And I trust GOD about him. I don’t have a clue where this will go or lead but just the fact I have Peace for him and whatever happends is good enough for me. ✝️❤✝️
Our path is God’s path. He will LEAD US when WE trust Him.
Imagine u are standing on the ground, looking up to the sky to the airplans that are there. One of them you gonna be in, in few minutes. You gonna jump out of the airplane.
Have this picture in your head.
I don’t know if you are afraid of heights or not and that isn’t the point eighter. The point is to feel safe before on the ground and in the air.
To be thankful for those who have the knowlegde, experience and education about this jump.
To trust them in this moment.
Take this picture into your life. Are you standing on the ground with the trust feeling in your life, your situation or to jump out of ” your plane ” ? Can you trust The same type of person?
I got this picture from the Lord the other night I was praying for strenght, love, guidance and patience. To encourage you in your faith.
To jump – different, for me doesn’t necassary mean to actually jump. In one way it is a jump. Emotional. Jump.
To dear to take the step. The Emotionals Step. The Emotional Jump. To be scared. To feel. To get into a roller coaster. To share. To be. To trust. To live. To be able to focus…
To let someone in. Let a male in (for me). To get to know me.
Something most people take quite easily on. Not me. I have burned to many bridges.
My bridges in my own life.
To jump on the emotionals train… To let feelings pop up, to trust the feeling. To trust not just the Lord.
And than comes those other things in my life… where I am right now. Am I ready? Can I ever be ready again? Or will I do the same mistakes again? Have I learned enough about me to take this jump? Do I know myself enough to do this huge thing that scares myself? Slowly is good isn’it? To figured out things on the way…
I know I have started the ride with a train. That I have jumped.
Where will this lead? Can I trust it? How do I react on my own feelings? Chaos in my head…
What I have learn so far? To trust the Lord. ❤ No matter what I feel, I need the guidance from the Lord to know I am on the right path! And from Day one I have had peace and I know from where this is for me. 😊✝️😊 To have Faith and Believe. To stay on the track with Him.
I have since Day one put the whole situation in the hands of the Lord. 😊 and He shows me daily and through the whole day that He the Lord loves me and is guiding my steps. 😊
I am trying to not doubt this thing for once. It’s hard! But I’m trying.
It’s hard to jump and not knowing the outcome 🤪🥴. And ” they ” say it’s Love.
Whatever I feel, I need to trust the Lord. He knows whats best for me. He knows my life. He has been a part of my life for at least 13 years. He has been there in my roller coaster of feelings.
And my experence is that when I talk to Him, He is near.
Whatever I feel I know He care for me. He will guide me. He will surround me and I will be protected by His grace. And He will bless my life. ❤✝️
I just love the job as a janitor. To be able to just walk around in the garden and cut branches, that need a cut, and talk to the Lord about everything and nothing. ❤
To clear my thoughts. To put my burden on Him and knowing He take care of it all. ❤
All my worries will be all gone inside me and He fills me with peace. ❤
Whatever my issues are He take care of it all. ✝️
Whatever troubles my mind, He fills me with Love. ❤
I feel so Blessed with this sparetime job as a janitor. ✝️
Even those Days my body isn’t in good enough place, He blesses me in other areas. ❤
Today’s issue (July 23), cauesed by myself. I put it in the hands of the Lord. And straight ahead I recived Peace. ❤
To be outdoors in fresh air and just breath the air and be close to the Lord. ❤
I just feel so loved by Him.
I just know I am in the right place in the right time. ✝️
I have made up my mind to start at a gym again becauce I need it so badly. My body is so out of shape and I need my muscles back!
Walking the body warm works fine. But I still can’t do the machines I love 😥 all becauce I went to the chiropractor on this Monday (July 20.) and he actually made my back werse 😭😭.
So today’s workout is all about streching my back, hips and legs.
I could sit on this ball 4ever..
I’m in my own head when I’m at the gym. I don’t care much for the others which is a good feeling! I don’t care if someone look at me and what I’m doing.
Which right now maybe could be an issue…
Boxing corner just ahead of me.
This is my second time here. 💪💪😊 As for me as probably most people, the thing to get out is the hard part. But I have to say that today I kind of woke up with the “Exercise mood”. Which made it easier!
This is my motivation.
To be in the shape, especially my back without pain. To be able to push legs around 80-90kg. Knowing I have strong legs. Being able to push my arms on 40-50kg.
Knowing that my core muscles are back where they should be & holding me. Motivation to be able to once again be able to do push-ups & sit-ups normally. Motivation to be able to go for a run in the forest & on the runing machine at the gym without any pain in the back. That is my motivation in life.
I’m gonna do my best to reach my motivation goals. And by reaching them I need to forse myself to attend the gym at least twice a week. If I’m good I’ll go three times a week. 😊
And all this wouldn’t been able to if the Lord didn’t blessed me and my life.
I can only Thank Him. For making sure my financial situation is back on good terms. That He blesses me in other areas too. ✝️
I am surpriced over the fact that some of you who are following my blog, works in the tourism. I can’t help thinking “why my blog?” But than I think well, I can only hope you get inspired from whatever I share.
Torggata, Oslo, Norway.
My Summer Break, is probably quite “normal” anyone elses who can’t travel outside their own country.
I spend my day’s around my home mostly becauce I have a cat and no licence or a car. And it’s okay. I am lucky to have friends who also is home during the Summer.
Late breakfast mostly just on Saturday’s.
Saturday’s task is to do my janitor job. Wash the floor in a chapell on about 120 ish squaremeters and offcourse clean the toilets.
Janitor job.
When I am done I need to go and shop some necessary washing accessories such as green soap for washing floors and disposable folders.
And than, I can do whatever I want to do at home. If the rain stops, my sweet cute indoorcat can go for a walk. The Daily walk for him.
Silver. A indoorcat who loves to go for a walk.
I might read. Continuing to finish the book I started on in…May (!) I will probably be on snapchat, msg and watch streamed TV. If the rain stops I might go for a walk or just stay indoors.
I need to remember to eat. A struggling I have had since I was 11 years old. Yes, as many other girls I have had some type of anirexia. Something few people and friends has not seen. I have had it under control since 2002, but I still struggling. It’s a daily reminding to eat. To eat propper. To eat regulary.
With my body most people tell me “if I was as thin as you I would be lucky “. Yea maybe. But it has been coming with a price I don’t want for anyone!
A price through bullying and self-hunger issues. No one shall or should go through this path!!
My strenght has the last 18 years been my own motivation to stop the shit. To workout and keep me fit in a good way. This combination has also a price. A price of “never” falling inlove, to “find the one man” for me.
Something my biological family doesn’t understand. “Why haven’t you been able to get married yet?”, “you are old enough to been able to have your own family by now”.
Well it is a combination of love or dislike yourself.
And why??? Is it so, that just becauce I am a Christian women, I automatic want my own family, my own kids? Why??
We do live in 2020! Not every girl or women want their own kids. I don’t. I am happy for you who do, and wish the best of luck. But don’t forse me to have something I don’t want.
I had to use some years on my self. To understand who I am and what I want in life. One of those things has been, I don’t want my own kids. An other thing has been to find the right type of job. A third and forth thing is good eating habbits & to afford the gym. To get healthy and love life again. And maybe be able to fall inlove with a man that has something of what I want in life.
mia-simone. svenberg 