We should all be thankful over what we have, this Christmas. What ever we have or will be gifted. The Lord is bigger than us and will be providing us with what we need.
If it is to be creative or that someone are creative for us. Have Faith in this pandemic can be harder for us all Yet the Lord is bigger than us and will give us just what we need.
To do it ” my way ” or the Lords way ? Are you still waiting on what the Lord gonna say? Than talk to Him and trust Him and He will answer you.
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I can’t say how the Lord will or when He will answer you, I can tell you that He will if you trust Him.
Your life might be a mess or you don’t experence the Lord close enough, Yet, He is with you. And maybe feels like those words are just are words without meaning, but, you try to believe them and they might touch you. Maybe you need to read it twice or loud. Yet, the Lord wants to have a bigger space in your life.
Let Him in, in to your life. Let Him in to your Heart. Let Him be a part of You.
He is the Light in our Darkness. He is the creative inspiration to our creativity. He is with US when everything feels even harder. He Wants to Walk with You.
He is Our Light. Our Path.
My experence is that, if I don’t trust Him to Walk with me or that He is the creative inspiration in my life, my life would be boring. If I don’t talk to Him, He will not answering me. If I don’t have Faith in is Power and Love how will I feel any of it? I would not. My life would be boring, sad, I would start to be bitter the opposite of what I want and need in my life.
With those words, not just from me but also as a greeting from the Lord while I was going this, hets through my thoughts inspired me I want to wish you all a very Merry Christmas.
Mom became 80 years old the 17th of November this year. ❤.
On Wednesday the 18th of November I called the head nurse, at mom’s home for the last 6 or 7 years, to check with her what was going on becauce I recived a wierd text message from our dad.
She answered that the function of swallowing food had dissapared. One step closer to not be here on earth with us. A step in the process of the end of demensia. Which was the first day without food and water for mom. 😢.
Me and Mom 2015.
A sickness she got approxy 13,5 years ago. The same year I moved to Norway…
On Saturday the 21st I phoned mom’s home at 7.30pm and everything was ‘ normal ‘ which doesn’t say much when you as a family member don’t know much of the end of this sickness…
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Monday the 23rd was okay. She was breathing normal, she was still piing. Which means some of the organs was still working. 😊.
Tuesday the 24th, mom or her body was starting to show symptoms that the end was getting even closer. Restlessness in the body and coughing efforts were worse. So then she got a syringe against it. And it made her calm. ❤.
2012 I think.
Wednesday 25th was okay stable. Not much of a changed. ❤. Dad went to visit her in the afternoon.
💜2014💜
Thursday 26th did not start well. 😢. For none of us. My brother T had phoned early in the morning and her breath was changed during the night. 😢😢😢.
Thursday 26 07:42am did I recive the first message. Glad I was awake. Preparing for work and eating breakfast. I became sad and tankful knowing ‘this is the very end’. I went to work and on the bus I called the head nurse to hear what the facts was there and than.
She told me Mom could stop Breathe at lunchtime or later that day. Hard to say. I told her that my brother T was on his way up to Mom. 08.45am ish. I came to work a bit sad inside. Had my classes with the students I normally have on Thursday.
A close friend of mine texted me during class telling me I should call my brother asking him to hold the phone close to mom’s ear and give her my last greeting to her for the last time. And I did, in my lunch break. Glad I did. ❤.
This was when the tears came.
A reviled momemt of tears and love to Mom. A moment of realizing that from now are just waiting, stay in touch with each other. A moment of feeling alone. A moment of where the only thing I wanted was a physical hug from anyone. A moment where I wished I wasn’t singel.
Mom in Norway 2011.
Trying to eat lunch was easier said than done. And I didn’t managed to have the class I was supose to have. Gave the information to the student on what to do and I tryed to pull myself together, stop the tears and preparing me for the last one and a half hour of assistent. Which I managed. And such a boost for me.
On the bus way home I got a message from my brother 4.56pm “shorter breathing”. 😢😢😢. This was next step in the process.
We siblings was online on Messenger between 4pm to 6pm. Following mom’s breathing process to the very end. She stopp her breathing 6pm on the clock. 😭❤.
She is now in Heaven 😊 with no more pain and no more sickness ❤.
And December 11, will we all be in Sweden for the funeral. 🌹. We will be able to say Good Bye in an other way. 🌹. Grieve in our own way. 🌹. Let the tears flow. 🌹. And just be and maybe feel close to her.
I know she is in heaven. She is in a place she has talked about many times.
She was a believer.
She was saved.
One of few favorite flowers Mom had. November cactus.
I started my grieving process around Mom’s 75th Birthday in 2015, knowing she would not become better. And two years later was the last time I talked to her on the phone becauce she did not recognize my voice anymore. 🥺. I have had peace since. Knowing she would end up with the angels in heaven with the Lord. ❤.
It feels wrong to say ” I am find ” but I am. I am not in the first grieving process I am some steps ahead. I will always miss her. But we did not live close for the last 13years… But we had a bond. After the Summer I had turned 16, we had a figth and cleanced the air and got a stronger bond. A bond of love and faith. And we both walked a lot after work and becauce of distance between us, we talked ” to each other ” as the other person was a part of the walk. And I am going to continue that. 😉😊❤.
I have made up my mind to start at a gym again becauce I need it so badly. My body is so out of shape and I need my muscles back!
Walking the body warm works fine. But I still can’t do the machines I love 😥 all becauce I went to the chiropractor on this Monday (July 20.) and he actually made my back werse 😭😭.
So today’s workout is all about streching my back, hips and legs.
I could sit on this ball 4ever..
I’m in my own head when I’m at the gym. I don’t care much for the others which is a good feeling! I don’t care if someone look at me and what I’m doing.
Which right now maybe could be an issue…
Boxing corner just ahead of me.
This is my second time here. 💪💪😊 As for me as probably most people, the thing to get out is the hard part. But I have to say that today I kind of woke up with the “Exercise mood”. Which made it easier!
This is my motivation.
To be in the shape, especially my back without pain. To be able to push legs around 80-90kg. Knowing I have strong legs. Being able to push my arms on 40-50kg.
Knowing that my core muscles are back where they should be & holding me. Motivation to be able to once again be able to do push-ups & sit-ups normally. Motivation to be able to go for a run in the forest & on the runing machine at the gym without any pain in the back. That is my motivation in life.
I’m gonna do my best to reach my motivation goals. And by reaching them I need to forse myself to attend the gym at least twice a week. If I’m good I’ll go three times a week. 😊
And all this wouldn’t been able to if the Lord didn’t blessed me and my life.
I can only Thank Him. For making sure my financial situation is back on good terms. That He blesses me in other areas too. ✝️
I am surpriced over the fact that some of you who are following my blog, works in the tourism. I can’t help thinking “why my blog?” But than I think well, I can only hope you get inspired from whatever I share.
Torggata, Oslo, Norway.
My Summer Break, is probably quite “normal” anyone elses who can’t travel outside their own country.
I spend my day’s around my home mostly becauce I have a cat and no licence or a car. And it’s okay. I am lucky to have friends who also is home during the Summer.
Late breakfast mostly just on Saturday’s.
Saturday’s task is to do my janitor job. Wash the floor in a chapell on about 120 ish squaremeters and offcourse clean the toilets.
Janitor job.
When I am done I need to go and shop some necessary washing accessories such as green soap for washing floors and disposable folders.
And than, I can do whatever I want to do at home. If the rain stops, my sweet cute indoorcat can go for a walk. The Daily walk for him.
Silver. A indoorcat who loves to go for a walk.
I might read. Continuing to finish the book I started on in…May (!) I will probably be on snapchat, msg and watch streamed TV. If the rain stops I might go for a walk or just stay indoors.
I need to remember to eat. A struggling I have had since I was 11 years old. Yes, as many other girls I have had some type of anirexia. Something few people and friends has not seen. I have had it under control since 2002, but I still struggling. It’s a daily reminding to eat. To eat propper. To eat regulary.
With my body most people tell me “if I was as thin as you I would be lucky “. Yea maybe. But it has been coming with a price I don’t want for anyone!
A price through bullying and self-hunger issues. No one shall or should go through this path!!
My strenght has the last 18 years been my own motivation to stop the shit. To workout and keep me fit in a good way. This combination has also a price. A price of “never” falling inlove, to “find the one man” for me.
Something my biological family doesn’t understand. “Why haven’t you been able to get married yet?”, “you are old enough to been able to have your own family by now”.
Well it is a combination of love or dislike yourself.
And why??? Is it so, that just becauce I am a Christian women, I automatic want my own family, my own kids? Why??
We do live in 2020! Not every girl or women want their own kids. I don’t. I am happy for you who do, and wish the best of luck. But don’t forse me to have something I don’t want.
I had to use some years on my self. To understand who I am and what I want in life. One of those things has been, I don’t want my own kids. An other thing has been to find the right type of job. A third and forth thing is good eating habbits & to afford the gym. To get healthy and love life again. And maybe be able to fall inlove with a man that has something of what I want in life.
I want to share this. And experence I’ve just had. How the Lord answering when I trust Him and when I walk in faith.
I just have to use this picture again.
I was contacted by friends to me about the place they renting right now. It’s a bit outside on the West side of Oslo but still closer to my work. Before I had resinged my rented place. (!)
They told me they gonna move into the house they bought two years ago. Which means that the place they renting will be emtpy and they thought about me.
It’s a good two room with kitchen and livingroom and a space outdoors, which could fit me and my cat 🐈.
It made me think a bit more on “what does the Lord want for me ” rather than “what do I want”.
Since I moved back to Oslo 8 years ago I always wanted to move out of Oslo cause I am not a City girl!
So,
I talked with the Lord a lot(!) in a short week.
“Is this the right place?”, “is this a part of what God put on my heart about twenty years ago?”, “Am I ready?”
I have had friends with me in prayer if this was what God wants for me.
It is an apartment next to a Mission center so it comes with some tasks. It didn’t make me unsure. It actually made me more sure that if the Lord opened up this door He knew and knows why.
So, this Tuesday I went there for a interview-chat. I met two older men in theirs 70’s and they did interviewed me! Than they asked me to go next door – to my friends “for a visit” and check the house propper and ask them questions.
After the interview they told me they gonna talk to the rest of the Mission center board.
On Thursday January 9, one of men texted me “We have decided to offer you the caretaker possion & the caretaker’s recidence”.
= that’s our prayeranswer!
P.U.S.H. – Pray Until Something Happends.
To trust Him & Believe.
To put my life in His hands was the key.
He has a path for me and if I don’t trust Him to open up or close doors he can’t use me.
F.R.O.G. – Fully Rely On God.
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Question;
Do you trust Him or do you rather making your decitions?
I got this vers on my email today and for me this was just what I needed right now.What would have taken years to accomplish is now coming together quickly.For me this is about something the Lord put on my heart about twenty years ago. So yes “…have taken years to accomplish is now coming together..” is so true!
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