I love when I have time and energy to fix what has been laying and waiting for some time!
Fixing and repairing Jeans. May 8th.
New earnings from upcycling paper clips & safety pins with beads from the floor in the art&craft room at work.
I am thankful for work, life and sparetime! The Lord has both showing me things in life and in dreams of my future and I keep trusting him in what will come that I yet don’t know. I enjoying every moment if I have more or less energy! Those last day’s has been a mix of both and yet I am smiling because life is good and I am trying to embrace it as much as possible.
Happiness. Finally I know what colours I have ð on all my threads ð
The Lord keep guiding my steps, give me inspiration to new things and ideas ð. And even after a tough work day I have energy to be creative at home ð. And interesting enough it feels like I have more energy to be creative now than when I had Silver ðĪ ðĪŠ … maybe I was more allergic ti him than I thought…?
It’s interesting how the Lord works! Ten years ago before I moved back to Oslo area the Lord gave me some hints about why I needed to move to Oslo area. What I needed to wait for, when living there, before being able to move back to the west coast.
Sunday April 18th, I went through some online preaching I haven’t listen to just “added” to my list to “some day I will start to listen to them”. And in one of the podcast’s they had questions in the end. One of the question where “what are you waiting on?” And I thought, this is perfect to this blog! What are you waiting on,haven’t the Lord answered your question or is itsomething else you waiting on? You who following my blog.
Why do we need to Wait on things?
Two of my closest girl friends needed to get married and become pregnet or even have a child before I could move. An interesting sentence from the Lord to recive. What about me? Should I wait even longer before I met “my hubby”???
An other thing was that the Lord needed to work within me and with me. Which He has. As one of the things ” a hubby “. When I was 19 y.o. I told everyone who asked me about life that I didn’t wanna have my own kids, which probably was a bit wierd to most people,sadly most of them were Christians. ” it will past ” they said. Like it was a cold or something… ð. But I haven’t ever had a feeling of “need to become pregnet” becauce I would rather have fosterkids or helping families who needs it with their kids when the time comrs for that. I just wanted ” a hubby “.
All about Believing.
It was a new journey a head of me. And I have to say a lot of things has happend with me, my faith and my friends those years.
We are all waiting on something.
A short story from those last ten years…
In 2011 I had to find something to do…
In 2012 I took an other course becauce I could not go back and work in kindergarten after November 2010, when I injured my back.
2013 I had a knee surgery and eleven months of physiotherapy. I had to learn to walk again.
In 2014, still no work, still a bad back. New longer course. But it didn’t leed to a job…
2015 – 2017, different types of administration and Hotel. BUT in 2015 I asked the Lord about moving and the thing I recived was “wait”. And in 2017 one of my closest friends got married. Was this an other sign?
2018 the year of many changes! My first job I kind of liked for 5 months. In May I started the fifth course (during those last seven years) which actually was of interest!! May 18th, the other close friend got married ðð. Now I knew time would not be to far away for ” the move back to the west coast ” In August I got my foot in to my first propper work in years ððĪĐð. The first school job, was this the job I had “been looking for all those years of waiting ?” It was a open door from the Lord. But it wasn’t ” the job “. I also knew other things needed to get in place…
2019 came, I got a new job, where I am now. And I know the Lord wanted me here.
In 2020 came Corona and my contract was extended until 2021. ðĪĐ. I moved from Oslo community to BÃĶrum community. A start on getting out of Oslo, the City I never liked but stayed there becauce the Lord wanted to use me there. In March I started as a janitor beside my orginal job. The first girl friend got pregnet (YAY the move getting even more closer).
The Autumn of 2020.
This last fall (Autumn-20) I knew that I wouldn’t stay in BÃĶrum community longer then next summer (which is now). I also recived a new sentence.
Those two girl friends are now married ðĪĐ. And I have been applying for jobs in Rogaland community since february ðĪŠ still no job. And now have I started to get panic!! Where will I move? Where will I work?? Gaaaa! The whole point of all this becauce I want and need to work more than 70%. I have so much panic and start to think “was I so wrong understanding the greetings?” Was it just me, who wants to move back to the only place I ever felt like home in Norway? am I moving back to Rogaland community? Or not?
I need to move out where I am living now July 31st!! It’s not to late to get a job theoreticly but I am starting to doubt on the whole thing…ð the panic is getting bigger. God give me one interview with a job-offer!! Or give me a hint on what I am doing wrong!!
I don’t know what to do more than apply.
But, is the Lord on my side in this?? I’m panicking and have started to doubt. I just want to cry!! is the Lord guiding me steps? I have been trusting the Lord so far but now?
I am missing to have a propper housechurch and meet & pray with, if not in person at least online. I have this last year lost some part of my faith becauce of where I live and the Corona. ððð. I miss the Church IMI in Stavanger, Rogaland. It feels like I have lost myself a bit to… I don’t know where to go, look, do…
On the other hand has GOD used me and blessed me a lot this last year…
Or do you want to stand on the same place becauce it bruings comfort? That’s how I felt when I asked the Lord about this journey.
Yesterday (April 13) I had a chat with God, said that I haven’t found a job of interest in TrÃļndelag county only in Rogaland county. Therefore, I focus on continuing apply for a job there. & that God will show me what job it will be.
Tonight (nigth between April 13 & 14) I dreamed that I had 2 interviews on Teams or Zoom. ð & I have peace. ð. So it seems like it becomes Rogaland ð on me.
All situations!!
No matter if I have confedence or not in this He will be there with me!
He will help me.
He is my compass, GPS, life.
It is both scary and like an adventure. ðĪŠð
I want to be able to live closer ti the sea on the west coast of Norway. ð.Is what’s needed here.
I just have this smile in my face and the peace og this is the next step.
I don’t have a clue of the future but I am trusting my peace I have. I have made up my mind. Focusing on one area geografic is enough. I just now He helps me hold on to the road or path that will lead my steps to the job that is ment for me. ð.
He, the Lord will guide my steps and open up the right door. It’s hard some day’s to stay on track. But He guides me in all areas in my life.
I have to trust for both a new home will show up where my cat also can live, will be cheap enough for this year and the years a head and the right new job.
I am moving back to the county, the only place in Norway, I felt at home. The area I have been missing for the last ten years… The area I have told friends I want back to “one day”. That day is getting closer ðĪĐðĪĐðĪĐ every day ðð âïļ.
A new opportunity, a new chance.
And this weekend (23rd – 25th) I have written two applications and need to write a third (!)ðĪŠðĪŠ.
This is my new life at the moment. Hectic but I choose it. On top of this, I was substitute for two teachers this last week at work on top of my regular hours ðĪŠðĪŠ but fun!!
We all wait on something. It can be the bus or the train, it can be the mail or a interview, or kids after a school day. You got the picture.
But how do you wait? Do you feel you do not have enough patience for your waiting? Do you think someone else should be the one that should be the waiting person? Do you just sit ” up-side-down “and do nothing else while you’re waiting? Or do you use the time to something else?
I am waiting. Waiting to know when the next step comes. Waiting on to be able to meet “the guy “. Waiting with excitment on what will happend after we met. Waiting could be exhausting but the Lord is giving me so much patience that I am overwelmed.
The patience does not end, no it’s continuing every day. And I have to say that most people had probably already given up by now. And here I am still waiting on what the Lord wants with this. I still don’t have a clue what the Lord will bring me, of this journey.
But I know, and have learned the long way, that if I stick to this, God will not just bless me on the way but also the whole way! âĪâïļ
To stay on the sea with the Lord. Be in the boat.
I went for a walk with the Lord yesterday, Saturday, down to the fjord. The marina, a place where I feel comfortable to just be, breath, think and talk to the Lord. Asking the Lord about this waiting. And thanking Him for all the patience He is giving me.
Lights far away.
To be the light in an other persons life without really knowing that person or not really knowing that persons life just few pieces. To be able to pray for that persons life every day. ð That is a Joy I haven’t thought much about before yesterday. âïļ How my prayers can bless is one thing. But how the prayers for an other person can give me a new level of patience and calmness. That is what I recive. A new level of fresh air from the Lord.
To stand in the waiting and trusting the Lord, who knows how it will end. What a blessing!! To do something different and where I normally would have given up if I just went on my own thoughts and feelings. But how the Lord is showing me how He is guideing me through this when I am putting this in His hands. âïļ
Things on distance.
To have focus on what the Lord wants for me.
My situation with this guy is on distance, which could make it even harder and more frustrarted. Which is where I have been but instead of putting energy on something negative and thinking it could be difficult then I choose to think of it as something exciting and it gives me positive energy.ðð
Positive energy like all the lovely colours we have around us in this season. ð
I went to Church for the first time in months today. I can’t say that the preaching hit me with anything but the worship!âĪ To just stand there listening a bit and sing along on the songs I knew. ð To be filledlike no other place can give me then in theChurch room with the acoustics, rhythm from the drums and guitar ðð that harmony… in my own waiting gave me a calm peace I hardly can explain with words. But very Thankful for the moment I got!!
Which reminds me to play worship at home. Right now. To turn off the radio and turn ON the Channel to the sky and Lord. âĪ
Don’t be desperate in your waiting!just becauce you wants something. Let the Lord guide you. Let it take time.
mia-simone. svenberg 