Tag: Christian life

Frustration that led to calling out loud to the Lord and inner peace from the Lord.

From frustration on Monday the 24th of November, afternoon and evening, letting it out to friends and talking about it to inner peace from the Lord the next 24 hours. While the Lord also planted a seed  thought in my brain. How I needed to be frustrated to see and understand I needed to be frustrated. To get even closer again to the Lord to fully trust Him in this situation.

I have been through a tough financial situation once again, and now I have peace again 😊 because I trust Him in everything!

After the frustration on Monday 24th of November, the Lord planted a seed thought in my brain on Wednesday 26th. A practical creative thought on how to earn money so I will be able to pay my rent for next month 🤩. 

In the middle of all this I have finally got some extra temporary job,  also doors the Lord has open up for me 🙏🙏 Thank you God for every day I am asked if I can work!  A huge blessing!

Wednesday 26th, I made an ad to sell my Tenor Saxophone I bought in the late 1990’s and has just following me from place to place 😆😆. But for a reason I see now. To be able to sell it so I can use the money to live. God is good! God is creative!  I am so so grateful for this!   But it wasn’t easy to think new in the middle of everything! A challenge I just needed there and then. And I was called in to work 😊 🙏 thank you Lord.

To be Thankful when He challenges us is hard but a Blessing after.

This vers helped me a lot!

It is so true, that we don’t need to be afraid. “Don’t be afraid, for I am with you.” Helps to be reminded of when the world feels like it’s upside down. I experienced a spiritual fight in the middle of all things in this situation. But so thankful that the Lord is my Lord. 🙏.   It’s Sunday (the 30th) today, I still have some financial issues I need to fix but trusting the Lord to help me be creative so I can earn the money I need.

This coming week (4th of December) I have an interview, a new SFO, 50% (which will work good for me and my studies). In the ad it was 2 vacation and 1 permanent positions. For it doesn’t matter which I get as long as I am offered one of the positions. That’s my pray right now.  Because I need a job! My head works so much better with my studies when I work.

An other thing the Lord has opened up in my head (or is it just realisation?). That is that I sadly need to move again 😭😭😭. I need to be able to live and not just survive in my life. But this time I am really looking for something for the whole study period of 4,5 years.  The Lord has open up doors when I need it, so He will continue to provide for me. 😊✝️.

How God open up doors that I couldn’t predict just wish🙌🙌🙏🙏.

Last week on Tuesday I had a chat with a SFO after I had sent some amount of open emails to schools nearby me. A chat about being able to work temporary if permanent workers are sick.  And today I received a text if I could work tomorrow and the day after.

SFO is after school activity, parents pay for it, and the pulpils can go there instead of a payed nanny.

Today I had an other appointment with another SFO and got more job 🤩🤩🙌🙌. Praise the Lord!  He is really providing when I really need it 🤩🤩.

God is good! He answers prayers when we ask!

Life as a student 2025. The huge difference towards having a job and colleges.

This week has for sure had it’s up’s and down’s! First proper week after the start in Notodden.

Digital teaching on Monday and Thursday. Mondays are easier because it isn’t so much book related as it us on Thursdays. Tuesdays are only digital if we need help with a practical task.

I haven’t found a good rhythm yet… Which I really need especially on Thursdays.

But thanks to the Lord I have House Church on Thursday evening 🙌🙏✝️.

Wednesday the 27th of August I went by the school I have signed contract with to work extra at, because I had some questions. After meeting with the principal I headed towards the city. Praying ” Lord I don’t want to ask you for sick teachers but for opportunities to work when in need. I will get crazy if I don’t get any hours.”

Friday the 29th of August I finally had 3 lessons as a substitute teacher in art&craft 🤩.

September 12th.

The weeks pasts so fast. It’s a month since I started this education 🤪. I have realised that sewing can work on Thursdays. I will work on something private that doesn’t have anything to do with my studies.

Today (12th of September) I finally received a positive message from the loan found here in Norway. I will get some support for my studies. The Lord still need to provide for me, but I trust Him. He has provided for me step by step until now. Can’t stop Trusting Him now.

What most people did in their twenties, I will do now. Go to University.

What most people I know did in their twenties, study at a University, because that’s how society tradition looks like. I out burned myself in that time of life. Was to sick for work for 5 years. And when I finally could work I could not work 100%. I have been working everything between 50 % and 80 % for fifteen years. My brain had still issues to cope with to much stress. But I have been working 100% the past two years and my brain cope 😊. It only took me twenty two years to get back 🤪.

This spring has been most interesting because I have applied to uni (university). And the waiting on “will I get in or not?” And make sure I always have something to do instead of worrying has been long! I applied in March and would get the results the 20th of July.

The Lord has prepared me for this period in life for the past four years.

I received a message, that I got in. Yay happiness for a very short moment 😆😅. Some where something went wrong 🤪😅. I know I double checked that I had applied to the right program. Anyway I got into a program I really don’t want to take!😆😆. So on the 20th of July I applied on rest spots. “🤞🤞🤞🙏🙏🙏 please let me get in”.

Deadline for the answer on the rest spots is 31st of July. So my holiday in Sweden was perfect so I would not think to much.

Today is the 30th of July. 4.40 pm I got a txt message that I had a message from the company my application goes through here in Norway.  I was surprised that I had a message already! And you know, I  got one of the rest spots 🙏🙏🙏🤩🤩🤩.

Teacher Education, a master (5 years), art&craft 😍.

The Lord knew. He had his plan. He knows what is perfect for me. ✝️🙏

I am so happy and thankful that is my turn to do university.  It’s full-time, online and gathering studies, a master (5 years). My plan is to work two days a week and be online with my program three day’s a week.  Find a café or a library. I’m so motivated. Looking forward this new phase of my life!

Always Trusting in my Lord because he provides for me.

Church service, September 1st, The Word.

Re:jesus  – The Word [what my church’s plan for two years from last August].

The Word provides nourishment. (Mattew 4:1-4)

The Word shape us.  (Luke 6:46-49)

Jesus also pointing on the  (Mattew 5:18) [Roman 8:15 – in this verse did today’s preacher, get his motivation and what was the start to find his identity in Jesus]

The Word is Living. (Hebrew ) The word give us everything no matter if we feel anything. The word isn’t dependant on what or how we react or feel.  The word isn’t just for me alone.

“Do’s and Don’t’s “

  • Don’t do to much.
  • Don’t read just alone. (Very important to share and get word’s from other Christians)
  • Find your rythem.
  • Let you be formed by the word.
  • We read because we want to read, not by force.

Some words from the worship ;

Notes from today’s service at IMI (July 28th).

Luke 7:36-50 – about the sin and things that have a false or true value.

In Romans 3:19-20

Romans 3:19 NIV
[19] Now we know that whatever the law says, it says to those who are under the law, so that every mouth may be silenced and the whole world held accountable to God. Romans 3:20 NIV
[20] Therefore no one will be declared righteous in God’s sight by the works of the law; rather, through the law we become conscious of our sin.

Many Christians talkes behind other Christians, sadly, but it happens. We need to build each other not the opposite! Are you willing to look in the mirror and see who you are before you criticizing other Christians?

Can you see in the text, that this woman is clean and forgiven?

Earlier in this text, we know she met with Jesus and was forgiven (we can read it and understand it through the text).

Vers 48:
[48] Then Jesus said to her, “Your sins are forgiven.”

We are both sinners and been forgiven. We need to understand that we are free with Jesus.

Everything we been given from the Lord is grace. When we forgive those who has hurt us, Jesus wil help you and me to forgive myself and yourself.  We will not be able to forgive and feel forgiveness if we don’t forgive ourselves. 💜✝️.

I don’t know if this notes gives any of you any meaning, but I am going to share it anyway.

Job offer on 30% or not?

I have received a job offer on 30% on a High-school to be a teacher in art and craft  for the rest of this school year, which is approxy 4 month.  But it also means I have to work where I am working right now… Am I willing to work 2,5 day’s at each school?  I really don’t know.

The pro list isn’t longer then the con list in this situation. The pro list to stay where I am is longer in my head. I would maybe earn more as a teacher but I don’t know that yet. If that’s truth I guess I should considder the offer. But 30% isn’t much!

And I think that things I am doing on my spare time would be sat a side which I really can’t. I need to finish what I started, can’t wait longer, because I don’t have much more time.

So, I guess I have the answer.

I have peace for the school I am at, even if many of my friends thinks that working as a substitute teacher isn’t so stable. Well the Lord challenged me this last fall and I will trust him that he has a plan for why I am where I am.

Which means I should/ will turn down the offer. But I am going to pray over it and talk to the Lord about it this weekend.

2023 – is it possible to have such bad luck in a year?!

What a year!

Injury plus sickleave in January and February.

Psycholigical sad health for months and wierd feelings towards work and the staff there ( Bore school 22-23).

Some happiness in the middle of everything. April23. And I got few new friends through the job at Bore.

A good summer 🙂 . Some walks nearby Ganddal/Sandnes. Some day’s inside but Happy.

June was okay and Aslan wanted to stay but Silver wanted to be alone….and I got allergic to Aslan 😦 .

July23 – Summer and exploring Rogaland by bus. 🙂

August was a mix of lots of deny on job’s but I stayed positive and like the flower here bright full of colors and reaching to the sun, I stayed on my feets and

filled my life with more colors.

…but sad September….

October become good 🙂 with the move back to Stavanger, more jobs and more good routines. Good athmospher at work, like I really don’t want to be sick’n’home good! And walking distance!!

Walking in Faith-month! Concussion-month…. = November.

December. Snowy Winter weeks and then rain (which is the normal), a cold but also a lot of good work 🙂

I think I have had more then enough bad luck in one year! So I’ll do my very best to stay on my both feets all the way in 2024!!

Buy I have also been blessed in different ways during the Year which I am thankful for.

I spent Christmas Eve alone with my cat, but have enjoyed it! I bought two gifts to myself this year thanks to the blessing in beginning of December 🤩. One of the xmas gifts was a newer smartphone and the other was a memory foam seat pillow for my sore and often sad back. And how happy I am for it! It helps my back a lot!! I even think I might buy an extra.

With the new pillow I have today, both tryed to sew for more then 30min (and it worked) I was sewing for two hours! 😍😍. And I have almost finished my sewing projects from 2020.

I only need to sew buttons and one seam.

I am looking forward to 2024. I really do. I have plans and I’ll do my very best to keep them come true. I am curious on what the Lord has for me in 2024! I am in a good place and I am planning to stay here as long as the Lord can use me.

Have a blessed 2024 all of you who following my blog. And keep sharing the posts you like or the posts that somehow have helped you forward.

Online dating or IRLD = InRealLifeDating

What do we like the best of those two? I would say IRLD! Have it happend me reasonly? No. Have I dreamt about it?Yes. This post is about IRLD. Why? Well because I have taken a break from Dating App’s and I think it will be possible to date someone I eventually meet in real life. I believe it can happend. So I will update you in this area if and when it happends. So just have patience and trust the Lord, he will guide me and you to meet our partner we want to meet.

How the Lord can meet us and Heal us wherever we are when we come with Expectations.

November 12th to 18th.

I have been laying in my couch since Tuesday 7th (which you can read in the post before this one), been dizzy every day. Got an appointment with my GP on Friday (November 10th) a not so good day cause everything was spinning around. Both at the GP and after when I got home. Yesterday (Saturday) I managed to walk upright around in my home, first time since Monday 6th when I was working, but I had to support myself to walls or furnitures, dizzy every time I turned or turned my head normal = to fast.

Sunday 12th I have just been llistening to preaching from my home church on their podcast (between 11am to 12pm), about miricales when we come with expectations on what God can do when we pray.(while hearing those words I said in my head «I come with expectations on healing here and now»). How I felt God doing things in my head while I just listen to the preaching (I still have concussion when I type this) about healing. When I started to listen to that preaching I was dizzy in my head and I couldn’t whatch a screen and now approxy 30 minutes later am I typinging on my laptop. Doesn’t feel dizzy at all 🙂 . Amen.

How God’s power can touch us wherever we are when we hear about miricales and what God can do. When we believe on what God can do when we come with expectations towards him.

Hear I am in my couch, 12:30 pm Sunday, and the dizziness isn’t so intense as it was one and half hour ago! How God can heal when I come with expectations! I am looking forward to get up, not to fast, just be careful, and believe God has heald my head. That I will be able to walk normal and not feel dizzy or that everything is spinning. I am looking forward to be able to go outdoors for some fresh air, to be able to wear my glasses I haven’t wear since Monday (trying them on right now, I think it will take a bit time for my eyes to adjust. I will not force my eyes with glasses here and now. I will take in small steps during the day).

Monday 13th. The dizzieness is gone. Thank You Lord! From dizzieness to wobbly walking indoors, stumbling on my own feets… but have been able to walk each Day since last Sunday 🙂 . I managed to watch a movie on Monday with glasses on – a really good feeling – some good things has started to happend. But on Tuesday I was tired all day 😦 . Constantly tired. I even reacted on the light outside through the window. Until Tuesday I have had the blinds down cause it has been to light outside, but on Tuesday I wanted to try and get use to the light and get more daylight in.

Wednesday 15th.Today I managed to walk, wobbly, out to my mailbox and pick up the mail. A good feeling. I even went out with garbage. I was thinking to go and grab my cruches just in case I would try to go for a slow walk. But I neither got the cruches or went for a slow walk. I managed to order food from the online store (the only one who has that service where I live) with delivering on Friday. YAY.

Thursday 16th. Constantly tired again… Didn’t manged much. Sat in the couch all day. Watch some movie and series but not much. I did managed eat and drink coffee and juice othervice I was just in the couch. Got in bed around 10pm. Slept bad. We had snow coming down today, it didn’t really stay, but just the fact we had snow is happiness for me. How I “suddenly” could turn my head normally without feeling wobbly in my head – Yay! And how I have been healing in small steps! How the Lord provides for me in small steps! How thankful I am for every new Day with all “new” things I managed to do 🙂 .

Friday 17th a much better day! More productive Day! I woke around 9am, had coffee and breakfast, got food delivered 10.15am. Ran the washing machine. Was creative on the floor – YAY. Went out (Yes you read right), for a slow walk in my neighbourhood. Walked approxy 20m had a break for few minutes and try to enjoy the sunlight but it was a bit to bright for me. Went on walking slowly 20 more meters, a small break counting to ten, kept walking. Repeating my 20m with a break counting to ten. Walked approxy 100m in total, up the small hill (street) from me. Standing there trying to get used to the brightness. Waited maybe 2 minutes before i walked the same hill (street) down back home repeating walking 20m with a break. I was out for approxy 15-20 minutes. Totally worth it!!

Later that Day I got more and more energy to be creative 🙂 . I was creative in my couch until i «fell onto bed» around 11pm. I was finally tired by myself – happiness!!

Saturday 18th has started good! I just had my coffee and will have breakfast just now. And I will go for a slow walk after. Imy goal is to be able to walk to the nearest grocery store, which normally take me 7 minutes one way. Which now probably take me 21 minutes and that is okay. The grocery store in just few minutes from where I normally work as a substitutet teacher and where I will go on Monday. So I have to managed this.

My goal today is to get out and walk at least twice.

During this last week has the Lord showen me he is with me and that all my friends who are praying for me have giving me more strenght every day. I am so thankful for all prayers cause it shows me that when we pray for each other the Lord can help and do miracles we human can’t do. The Lord has been with the whole way! He has healed my head slowly just the way it needed to be healed. He has given med more and more energy each day as I needed to get where I am now. Small miracles aech day to prove he is with me in this part of the Journey.

And he has blessed me with new friendship and food.

He helps us when we ask for help. He is with us when we ask him to be close.

Every evening before falling a sleep have I prayed
«Thank you Lord today. 
Thank Lord for the healing gift, 
thank you for letting me recieve it and 
thank you lord for healing me.» 
And «I come with expectations for healing me, 
thanking you for what you do with and within me, 
thank you for protecting my brain, heart and soul.
 Amen.»

I believe that the Lord is with me when I pray this, that he is happy I am asking for healing and not just take it for granted. I believe God want us to come with expectations when we pray so he can do more in our lifes and that we can see he is with us when we ask with expectations.

And the goal for tomorrow Sunday is at least one walk and catch the local bus to Church. If I managed that I am really Happy.

Home and sick when it’s finally the Autumn Break but being thankful for what the Lord given me instead.

Isn’t it tipical that when you finally have the opportunity to make extra money, to get a cold with fever 🤪🤧!! Well that’s life right now for me. I managed to get a bit cold on my back on Wednesday this week and I also forgot to take my D-vitamin 😔.

And here I am. Home with the cold and fever. When I get a cold I get the fever in about 24 hours, and the shit stay longer in my body then all the other symptoms. 😔😔. I have past having sore throat and when it’s hurtful to talk. I am in the stage of sneezing and chouching and I am on day 4 today with this cold.

Yesterday Saturday I forced myself to the nearest grocery store to buy 🍯 Honney and the most nessesary of food. The walk to the grocery store was fine but in the store I started to sweat 🥵🥵🥵 due to a lot of wool on and the walk home got even werse 😆😆. I felt like I was melting away 😆😆 and zero energy. I spend the rest of the day in my couch watching internet-TV.

In the middle of my cold, I got a piece of the fresh air, blue sky and Autumn when it is stunning beautiful.

Why am I sharing this now you think? Well my wish for this weekend was to relax, explore my new neighbourhood and go to Church. That didn’t happend 😔. The next wish I had was to be able to work extra – that will not happend with fever in my body 😔. I might be able to visit a friend and be a bit crafty with her and her two young adults/teenagers.

I think the Lord want me to enjoy life as it comes even if that includes a cold. He has given me this wonderful apartment to rent, to enjoy life in, to relax in, to do want I have been wishing for outdoors for two years and a cold will not stop me live, it will only put things on hold. Something I have to accept and try to enjoy my best of.

I did, I was a bit creative both Friday and Saturday in the couch 🙂 . I used yarn to sew those pieces together by hand.

On Friday I found my “poncho” I started on last year, where I never figured out how to fix the arms. So on Friday I thought okay, let’s just re-design this to something I actually can use. So I am now ripping the small squares apart from each other and sewing by hand, them on to the bigger pieces of the blancet 🙂🧶. Actually very nice and easy thing to to while I am doing my best to get well soon.

I am gonna live, breath and more now.

My goal right now is to be happy and singel and enjoy life and see where the Lord takes me. I’ll be moving tmrw and on Friday 🤩. The date is finally here 🤩🤩. Yes I have got some issues to sort out but I trust the Lord! I am gonna breath in what’s around me and become active in the Church I feel is my spirital home here in Stavanger.

Life is to short to be angry, to analyse things that just such energy!

Singel sounds good for now and a good periode forward. I don’t want to stress to find my future husband! So I am going to live! And try to enjoy every day now. No matter how painful it feels. The lord is my life!

He IS the LIGHT.

The fight between my faith and the enemy.

I have never been in a battle like this until now in my life as an Christian. This situation where I become a victum of fraud is a battle between my faith on the Bible and what I live after. What is my Faith and how big the enemy trying to be. That’s the only thing I can say for sure. The world are for sure tougher today then it has been for us Christians. It’s an ongoing fight on who is bigger and who is the true and who will win this fight. And we Christians needs to be even more careful of what we do and not do. How we respond.

This is a new fight for me. But I’m not alone in this. Amen!

I am listening to Evelation Church right now while I am typing, the headline for the preaching is “Now Turn North” – the preaching text is about the man at the pool, who has been there for 38 years. Where the Lord say’s “pick up the mat and walk”. The Lord picked this man because he could use this man from his experiances. And the words “Now Turn North” is about where you are in life, have you turned South? Have you lost your way? But to Turn North isn’t just about geographic it’s about where you are on your path with the Lord. I can see I were walking South those day’s I have had, but I am now turning North!

To Turn North is about if you will confess with your mouth and believe with your heart that God raised Jesus from the dead, you will be saved. (That sounds like turning north to me – preacher.) The word repent does not mean to feel bad about what you’ve done; it means to turn and change your mind. It means to come back to your Father. For somebody who has been going south today, and God is turning you in a new direction. I want to remind you that the cross is the turning point of a human history. the resurrection was the proof that Jesus was God’s Son, and today will be the defining moment of your new life in Christ. And the prayer is a connection point with you and God. And if you mean this with your heart today, God will hear from heaven, heal you of your sin, forgive you and redeem you for your wrongs, and give you a new beginning.

I have to say – this was just what I needed to hear! The beginning of this preaching didn’t give me much. But this!! Thank you Lord for speaking to me like this!!!

I will be able to move forward in this havey mess I’ve been a part of ❤ . Only because the Lord Loves me and want me the best. ❤ .

The Sunlight that shining through the leafs in this picrues is my way of feeling calm on what the Lord is doing in my life right now.

Online dating (annoying or not) part 9.

I have now been talking to this man for approxy 4 weeks. We went from talking on the dating app to Snap to WhatsApp. It’s been a journey of it’s own! We don’t have any issue to talk about anything and everything. We have figured out that we have a lot in comman yet many things where we are the opposite which I think is good.

We both want to get to know the other on a friend level and build the relationship from that place. We share values and we are both Christians – which is the part I never though I actually would find a Christian man – but here he is.

My question to myself is – will it be as good when we meet as it is now when we are talking or will it not be anything at all or could it be even better? Am I doubting this concept? Well for sure I can feel I am doubting.

I don’t have good experience of online dating so far in my life, and i started to do oline dating all ready 15-20 years ago(!)

My prayers are; pls let it be good chemistry between us when we meet so all thing we have been talking about won’t be for nothing! Pls let it be better then when we talking. And pls let us be able to continue on this friendship, let it grow into love and bigger.

The Journey of Oline dating, isn’t as streight forward as people migth think… It’s many bumps and other obstacles on the road, many questions, doubts and more especially if you don’t live or work on the same continent or in the same land!!

To have focus on the good feeling, the feeling of chemisrty is important and pray together and for each other if you share that. If you don’t share it, pray for him/her. In prayers the Lord can sow and harvest things you can’t.

To be adults and be able to be open of everything is important for me. So I asked questions very early in our conversation, things that are important for me. And he has done that too. 🙂

Offcourse we have different thoughts about things, but I think one of the most important thing when you trying to get to know a man/woman through online dating is to be flexible and open to change yourself if it something he/she like to so and you never tryed it before or never done it, like in my case. He loves snorkling – something I never done. But just because I never done it doesn’t mean I will never do it – so if I am open minded here I might be able to have a good experience one day with him for what he likes 🙂 .

We talk a lot about what each of us want’s in the future partner, qualities and personal characteristics, hobbies, future place to live have we discussed – mainly cause we have a ocean between us (!) Even when he is at work, cause he is an engineer and work different place.

We have our own journey and backpacker we carry with us, all of ous who are dating. Where are our focus in all this? And how do we cope with it all? Well it’s up to each of us to find a pattern that fits us and share it with the one we date. If you are lucky to meet IRL or like me being online for weeks before the first meeting, yet I have to find a good pattern and spend time with him when it fit’s his schedule. And support each other even more important when it’s a distance between us/you two!

To dream by yourself and later with your partner, I guess that’s what we all are doing. Dreaming of a partner when we are single is one thing and an other thing when you meet someone you like not just for how he/she looks like but for whom he/she is. No matter where you are in life right now you are dreaming for something i life, I do. So we are all “the same”. We all have vissions about life and what we want to do, travel, for work etc.

This picture of the hot air balloon, is my dream cause I love heights – yes I do! If I had the money I would love to get married in a hot air balloon ride for sure.

I choose this picture of the hot air balloon for an other reason too, not just for dreams or cause I have it on my blog. No. it’s something about this picture I like and I think it’s the space around it, the freedom, the clouds, the simplicity of where it is and going. A bit like me and maybe you. We have a freedom, a simplicity if we want it from the Lord. We just need to see it 🙂 . Sometimes we are “to focused” on here and now that we forget about the plan that isn’t ours but the Lord. He can see us everywhere and places we have issues to see infront of us because we don’t allow us that picture.

But back to the “core” of this post….

I believe I met this man in the right time for me, maybe especially cause most other things in my life is so uncertan (work and if I am going to stay where I live right now). I hadn’t given up on “finding” someone. No, I had good conversations with the Lord on this. And the Lord gave me more and more patience on this area. The funny thing is that thirteen years ago when I moved to this region the first time I got a line from the Lord saying “next time you live here, you will meet a man a future hubby”. The Lord never said when or how long I had to live here before meeting this hubby ^^haha^^. But the point is, the Lord had a plan and on the way he gave me more and more patience to where I am and waiting on my future husband 😉 .

I just have to believe and trust the Lord.

Birthday week..doctor appointment and sewing-23.

This week have I had my birthday at work on Wednesday, which my only wish were to hear the approxy 80 stundents in the 2nd grade to sing the Norwegian happy birthday song, which they did!! 🙂 It made my day 🙂 I normally don’t celebrate my birthday on the day if it’s not on a Friday or in the weekend. Mainly cause I don’t have many friends to celebrate with or a hubby/ or boyfriend.

I had a doctor appoinment May 5th, I got an sickleave for 50% and 22 day’s, if my leader at the after-school program don’t let me be off 50% my doctor will change it to 100% sickleave those 22 day’s. I really need to be off the after-school-program for a while. My doctor told me I got depression. That’s why I don’t have motivation, or smile or have any extra energy over. And I have felt like this off and on since October 22…. I haven’t had a job until now, where I have felt like this. But to be able to be on sickleave is good. I could probobly also be on 100% sickleave but then it would probobly feel like I had some kind of Holiday in my body. So 50% helps me in the way I get up to something and get out of the house and help some young students. I’ll meet with those colleges I like and don’t get negative feedback from. I still don’t like the age of students but now it’s only approxy 30 school day’s left with all the Holly day’s in May and June we have here in Norway.

I celebrated myself this Friday with sushi buffè in Stavanger after my doctor appoinment. The best Sushi I’ve eaten in many years :-). So totally worth the money!! But I am now keen to try out other sushi places in Stavanger and Sandnes – which is my town. I also forced myself to go out after the work day was over, went out with a new friend here in Sandnes. We went to one of the few places that still was open, Egon is a restaurante. I got an alcohol free drink called Passion Explotion and my friend got a baked potatoe with meat. We chatted and had a good time, sat for approxy 2,5 hours 🙂 . But wow I were so tired in my brain when I got home 😦 Got in bed before the normal time during a job-week!

Saturday I spent at home, realxing and sewing 🙂 . Just what I needed. And I think I also landed in the fact I am on sickleave too, in my head. Realizing how tired my brain gets after doing almost nothing… And how good I feel when I am working on a sewing project 🙂 . Which I did yesterday 🙂 . I were able to do quite a lot on my yellow summer dress I’ll show you how far I got. It was +16 C degrees and sunny outside I were indoors ^^haha^^.

I have during the last few months starting to getting to know few new people, some of them I can now call my new friends. They are both Christians and non-christians just like I like it.

I have had a hope of be able to start go to a church this year, so far I haven’t, mostly cause of headaches or other type of pain in my body during the weekends… but now it’s my brain… My body wants more then my brain can handle… It sucks! But I do ‘tend’ to online church most Sundays. Today I have worship on, on my laptop. Worship is something I also try to listen to on my way to work to re-fill my soul and heart. …You know the feeling when you know you slept enough but when you start doing something your eyes just want to close… ‘Tired brain syndrom’ . That’s how it’s right now, while I am writing… I just want to sleep a bit more… Maybe I go for a nap later. Maybe I’ll just try to continue on my sewing project we’ll see.

Do you know how hard it is to get “the picture” out and look just the same in real life? It’s hard. I am prefering to my yellow summer dress. I have a picture in my head of how I want it to look, but I can’t say I’ll manage to get it like that. Maybe when I am done. Which in that case would be marvelous and fantastic!! But I am getting there 🙂 If I only do small steps I know it will end up like my inner picture 🙂

Different week, different tasks in the after-school-program.

This week has been different! I’ve been moved from working with the students in the after-school-program to do practical things just because two of my co-workers can’t handle how I do my job with the one student with Autism… They have complained and think I am afraid of conflict which I’m not but that is how they see it… My body isn’t fit to stand and walk a lot without a rest on a chair after the blod cloth I had ten years back, and my back isn’t pleased either with the tasks. But I stand in it just because I know I will not continue work here after this Summer. That’s the only thing that keeps me going right now. Sad. Yes.

An other sad part in this situation, while the boy who needs predictability because his autism, he just has to come to terms with the fact that suddenly someone else is with him… 😦

But what can I do? My leader in after-school-program think I have the qualities and are the right person because I am creative, to sort the storage and make a structure that will be easy to continue. Which is nice to hear. But just the fact that I have to do other things when my co-workers can’t deal with how I work… well I can only say I think that is the wrong way to do it.

So I have talked out loud to the Lord about this and next time I meet my House Church I’ll ask for prayers.

I’ve felt an empthiness inside me for a while and now it’s even bigger. I haven’t been liking what I do in the School since October and now this… I only go to work because I can’t afford to stop. I don’t feel joy for work anymore. The only Joy I have now, when I have enough energy, is at home when I sew…. Which is sad!

Last year, when I worked with the yought I felt “done” already in February but this year has been worse!! To not feel joy at work at all is the worsed part of all things for me! To feel empthiness every day you go to work makes it hard to smile to those you work with! It makes it hard to force yourself to go to work.

My motivation is to look for a new job and apply when I find something I know I have experience from and know I can handle. But it is always the question, will I get to an interveiw? And when I got the job, how will it be with the co-workers?

Right now, my head is “groggy” after medication from migraine few hours back. So I only write to “vent” my brain. To get rid of all my thoughts. Empty my brain. But I just want to sleep or relax cause of the side-effects from the medication… which I will do after.

To be a Christian, to believe in this situation is rough. But I know my Lord wants the best for me so I stay in my path. I also know He will open up the right door or window for the next job. He always do. That is my comfort. My believe is on the rocks and I know and have to believe that He will help me.

Silver gives me comfort in all the ways he can <3. I don’t know what I would have done without him. Therefor is he in the featured image for this blog.

Is Faith something unknown? Something you can tuch or just trust?

Questions, answers anda lot more.

In my house church, we r going through an alpha serie, with questions, movie and sharing. How will u discribe faith? And how did u get there?

Repentance & faith is how to get there.

Do u think over this? Do u share it with anyone?

Faith is trust. To trust something u can’t see or the trust u won’t fall off a chair. Faith is the unknown. Like the chair, u don’t know who made it or how u got it. It’s unknown.

Are all Christians wierd? Or can it be something unknown for the people who isn’t christians? How can we be for them around us, and not get the stamp of being wierd?

An other part of faith is, it is an relationship. A relationship to the Lord. To someone who loves u more then u ever can love a child, ur child if u got one (or several). God wants u to understand that he loves u as his child.

If u aren’t a Christian, ask him to get into ur life with a simple prayer. Ask him to forgive ur sins and be able to start a new life with him.

If u have God in ur life, when did u open the door (or window) [a picture of how u met Jesus] to let him in to ur life? How is ur Journey with him? Tell someone u trust or ur house church. It will encourage those u have around u.

How have your faith grown? And how have your journey been from the start to now?

My thoughts, ur thoughts, facts, the thread through the Bible who can help us through life.

12th of December, -22.

Words from the Lord.

Today I have been thinking of the word grace. How we use it and how we use it. Mostly “we can recieve grace from the Lord “, but how can we use it in our daily life as christians? Well, I think that by being thankful for what the Lord is doing in us every day we recieve grace and by grace we can reach our co-workers in a higher level then they understand. So, what is my piont? Well, I say pray for your co-workers every day and the Lord can do miracles.

online dating (annoying or not) part 4.

The 2nd date was nice too. I wont give you details becauce that’s private. But I can tell you, we watched a movie he liked and was too predictable action for me… We thought we liked the same kind of movies, now I’m not so sure anymore 🤣🤣.

Here and now the day after the date evening, I’m not so sure we gonna go on a 3rd date. I don’t have a good feeling that we actually have so much in commen… but hey! Two dates with the same man is more then I have had in a year 😊😊. And I am actually quite okay with that! 😊

I’ll trust the Lord and my inner voice that telling me “maybe not more dates with him, we might not look for the same things in life”. And that is fine for me!

I have had two fun dates and I’m very okay with that. 😊.

To know when enough is enough with the one you date. And focus on other fun things. Now it’s time to focus on Advent 😊🤩 . Maybe I go on other dates maybe not until after New Year. Who knows?!? I don’t and I am fibd with that! 😉.

Continue reading online dating (annoying or not) part 4.

Wierd atmosphere, speed-interveiw & Gods protection.

I got an interveiw yesterday the 9th in the suburb Ålgård about 30 minutes east of Stavanger. I came 45 minutes early (becauce I hate to be late) sat down outside the School and talked out loud with the Lord what I was thinking there and then.

One thing I knew directly when I sat down, but also on the bus on the way there, was that I don’t want to work in an area where I only see mountains. Which this area /county has a lot of.

Small town Ålgård, Gjesdal county.

As I was talking to the Lord I got a bad feeling inside of me. Like an emptiness. Like a spiritul thing is the closest I can describe it.

Time flew fast and sudden it was time to go inside to the speed-interveiw.

I met one of five of the people that would interveiw me few minutes later, in the hall where the emptyness and wierd feeling appeared again.

And during the interveiw, it felt like a hole of something not good would happend. Super wierd for me. I can’t describe it on any other way.

I answered the questions they had, and told them about who I am and my background. And in one way it felt like I was talking to wall on the other hand I was there with them…. 🤪🤔😬

And the last minutes of this speed-interveiw I got this really not good feeling, like I just wanted to run outside and not be there anymore. Like something bad would happend.

I got out with goose bumps and felt light dizzy in my head.

Catched the bus to Sandnes county where I needed to switch to the train to Stavanger, before catching “my” bus home. And there, in Sandnes, did I start to “feel normal” an hour later… Still talking to the Lord. Asking him to guide my life and let me feel better.

Back home, still talking to the Lord, I got a sentence in my head “it will come something else” and a peace inside took place to not take this job. Yet so so tired in my head, like I had been in a mall or worse with hundreds of people in many hours. But I guess that’s how it feels like when it is something going on in the spritual world.

Any other interveiw I have had before, I feel nervous directly after & until I recive any kind of answer. This was the very opposite! Like the Lord was protecting me. That’s the only way I see it.

Thank you Lord for the talk yesterday & your guidans & protection & the peace! I trust you heavenly Father.

PS. This is as scarry as when I knew I had to trust the Lord for a job & place last year this time.DS.

How to Listen to God…by the devotional.

If we only speak to God and never take time to listen, we make the same mistake.We do all the talking and we don’t actually listen to him. But our relationship with God is meant to be a two-way conversation. 

In Proverbs 3:1-10 it says… ‘ My son, do not forget my teaching, but keep my commands in your heart, for they will prolong your life many years and bring you peace and prosperity. Let love and faithfulness never leave you; bind them around your neck, write them on the tablet of your heart. Then you will win favor and a good name in the sight of God and man. Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight. Do not be wise in your own eyes; fear the Lord and shun evil. This will bring health to your body and nourishment to your bones. Honor the Lord with your wealth, with the firstfruits of all your crops; then your barns will be filled to overflowing, and your vats will brim over with new wine.’

To write down thoughts that come into my mind that may come from the Spirit of God. In a media-saturated age we have many voices that come to us on TV, radio, the Internet, Twitter, Facebook, Instagram, email and text message. We have the voices of family, friends and colleagues. And sometimes we have the voice of Satan tempting us to disbelieve God’s word and to doubt that God has our best interests at heart.

How do you hear the voice of God in the midst of the noise and distractions of life?

I hear my Lord in prayers and worship with other Christian people. That’s also how He share what he wants the other person. To help he/she to understand what the Lord is trying to say wants for that person. Most the times I feel the Lord use me and my gift to reach this other person when he/she has a hard time to understand it is from the Lord, what the he/she has asked for. But can’t hear the Lord for all the noices in the head or in the background in her/his life. Very related to hear the lords voice.

Sometimes the Lord talk to me through pictures, other times through a bible vers. Most comman I hear the Lord talk to me with simple Positive and Encourging Words to reach the other person to recive.

We all need to learn our way how the Lord is talking to each of us.

If I don’t have the oppurtunity to be in worship or praying with other Christian people, I go for a walk to clear my brain to hear better. I rather have a noicy sea or a forest around me to hear the Lords voice than a city. But lately I have also heard his voice through music, pod cast’s. Very few times through a dream. And recived a message from Him.

He’ll use the same ways we use! We just need to be open for it.

A prophetic greeting, January 27th-22.

A prophetic greeting I recived this evening in my house church, to you who need it.

A picture from the Lord;

A bathing jetty. Strong wind around you. Stormy sea. Steady ground. The mountains in the background. The rays of the sun which are the light of Jesus. The clouds that create shadow in your life. The faith you have in me your Father. The cross that is your security and your reason for your faith. The flowers that give you the positive energy for the day. The stones around the pier that can provide support for tired legs. The waves around the pier that calm down when it clears up. The benches that are worn, so that we can recognize ourselves in how life can be.

A picture, where the words trying to give you a picture from the Lord about how you can feel like life is.

A picture ment like support and guidness, wisdom and love.

Inspiration and the Love from God. How good foundation you have in Him, the Cross and your Faith.

The rain and the storm can clean your thoughts, wondering and how you after can stand fri and feel like you have a new Body, Soul and Head.

Be blessed. Be Encourged.

January 15th, Success.

In today’s devtional Lord, give me success today. The text is about when the Lord talks about success not in the way of popularity as many today think is the same thing.

No, in the old testament, it talks about success as something good. And the word success occurs at least five times in the old testament. Every time as something positive.

Success is a blessing from the Lord.

Psalm 8, verses 1-9; Praise God for the success of his creation. In our galaxy there are probably over a hundred-billion stars like our sun. Our galaxy is one of a hundred-billion galaxies. When we consider the vastness of the universe it is easy to feel small and insignificant. “Davis starts and ends this psalm by worshipping God for the success of his creation. As he stares into the night sky, David says, I look up at your marco-skies, dark and enormous, your handmade sky-jewellary. Moon and stars mounted in their setting. Then I look at my micro-self and wonder, Why do you bother with us? Why take a second look our way? David marvels at the fact that a human begins are the pinnacle of God’s creation – a masterpiece – made in his image. …”

Reading and listen to this text, gave me a deeper knowledge of those words. I started to listen to this devotional on my way out of my house on Saturday January 15th, but I didn’t end it. I got distracted but started it again today, Sunday 16th. And While I listen on the audio on my phone (cellphone) I am reading/following through the text on my laptop and can reflect. What does it say? What is the point on the text?

Jesus redefines success. If you want to know what true success looks like, study the model of Jesus – his vision, life and teaching. It is the kind of success that is not universally recognised as such.

In the word and action Jesus ushered in the kingdom of God, bringing the reality of God’s rule and presence into the lives of those around him. – this is what Jesus-style-success looks like.

*To achieve Jesus-stule success you, like the twelve disciples, need to model your life on Jesus and share his vision. 1, The need is urgent. 2, The motive is love. 3, The trigger is prayer. 4, The potential is vast. Pray for success in guidance. Abraham’s servant wasn’t embarrassed to pray for success. No, He prayed a prayer that we can all emulate; ‘ Give me success today.’ *

We shouldn’t be embarrassed to pray for success in our lifes! If, as we can read in the old testamnet, God has given us success. We should ask for it. Success is a blessing from God. Why should we then be embarrassed? We should not think like the World thinks about the word but Thank God for what he ment it to be!

You know, I’ve learned so far those few (15) day listening to the script that if I don’t implement the Word into my life as I should I feel some kind of emptiness, but not like a hole no more like I have been missing out of something really good for a long time. It has occurred to me that I can do a lot of things and feel happiness. And I know “I’ve sholud have read the Bible as my Christian intake of food” but haven’t until this year… And now I start to see what friends has been trying to tell me. I know I know, “you want to say I told you so” and that is okay. At least I understand! I wont feel the presence from the Lord in the same way if I don’t read or listen to the script. I have got an eye-opener for this 🙂 . It took maybe a bit longer time then needed, but hey! I got it.

Maybe I needed this time in my life to understand God’s way and part in my life as an Christian. I don’t know. But here I am and I understand things 🙂 . And for me this bible app and blog kind of goes hand-in-hand. It might be an other part of how Jesus wants me to share my struggles as a Christian some day’s, to share with others that are struggling as Christians how to get through a day, a week a mounth or ever a year. I would be surprised if I am the only one that have those struggles in my life! The Lord has been challenge me with this blog for the last 4-5 years. And I believe this is an other part of sharing my life, struggles, happiness with you all. His way of using me the way He gave me the gift of writing. ❤

…or He just wants to use me showing you that everyone has there own time to figure stuff out. ^^haha^^. Anyway. Here I am sharing my thoughts with you about a text I never read before or got inputs I never heard before. It’s like all the preaching I have heard isn’t even close to this. And I am happy I did listen even to this devonational!

I do hope you got something out of both my thougts and from the text in the devotional. ❤

/Mia-Simone.Svenberg.2022.