I think I need to emthy me more… I don’t think I’m done yet with the whole thing of “I have become a victum of fraud” as you can read in ‘Online dating (Annoying or not) Very Painful this time – Part 12’. But I wrote it there bacuse it was for sure some kind of online dating feeling there!!
And I have taking a Break from Social Media because of this situation I just been a part of. Awful and Painful situation!! But my blog is my ventilation! It’s the only place I feel I can write what’s on my mind. The only place where I can clean my brian and also the place where the Lord can use my experience and share it with you all.
Whatever comes out here is my sanctuary. It’s Saturday the 23rd of September right now. And I am going to dig deep into an other blog post in few minutes. Encouragement is just what I need now. I have been listen to worship for the last 2 hours also something I just needed. My life has been turned up-side-down for the past 13 day’s. Thing I for sure rather had been without! But we always get stronger by failing and we learn what we never shall do one more time. But it is also getting harder to stand against the enemy in certain areas!! Like the one I ended up in. But with faith on the Lord, and by his grace we will be able to walk forward! Amen!
In the post ‘online dating…’ I talked about how I got tricked to do thing I really didn’t wanted to do – and that was for sure the enemy!! The nagging and convinsing that “yes you have to do this”. And I will hate myself for this for a long time!! But I can’t focus on the negative it’s not who I am! But I need to get it out here. Sorry if you don’t like it, but I need to. It has been so many different thoughts in my head lately. Thought I haven’t recognized being me. Which scarred the shit out of me – who had I become because of this chatting? Why is it so hard to stand on what you know is right when someone ask you to do something you know is so wrong??
I am so thankful for the peace the Lord has given me after all this shit!
To continue believe. To continue my path with the Lord, to Breath, to stop and think. Life can be good I know and we all have our “bumpy roads”, mine was more like with a big black whole in the ground!… But I got up and out of it. ❤
mia-simone. svenberg 