I am surpriced over the fact that some of you who are following my blog, works in the tourism. I can’t help thinking “why my blog?” But than I think well, I can only hope you get inspired from whatever I share.
My Summer Break, is probably quite “normal” anyone elses who can’t travel outside their own country.
I spend my day’s around my home mostly becauce I have a cat and no licence or a car. And it’s okay. I am lucky to have friends who also is home during the Summer.
Saturday’s task is to do my janitor job. Wash the floor in a chapell on about 120 ish squaremeters and offcourse clean the toilets.
When I am done I need to go and shop some necessary washing accessories such as green soap for washing floors and disposable folders.
And than, I can do whatever I want to do at home. If the rain stops, my sweet cute indoorcat can go for a walk. The Daily walk for him.
I might read. Continuing to finish the book I started on in…May (!) I will probably be on snapchat, msg and watch streamed TV. If the rain stops I might go for a walk or just stay indoors.
I need to remember to eat. A struggling I have had since I was 11 years old. Yes, as many other girls I have had some type of anirexia. Something few people and friends has not seen. I have had it under control since 2002, but I still struggling. It’s a daily reminding to eat. To eat propper. To eat regulary.
With my body most people tell me “if I was as thin as you I would be lucky “. Yea maybe. But it has been coming with a price I don’t want for anyone!
A price through bullying and self-hunger issues. No one shall or should go through this path!!
My strenght has the last 18 years been my own motivation to stop the shit. To workout and keep me fit in a good way. This combination has also a price. A price of “never” falling inlove, to “find the one man” for me.
Something my biological family doesn’t understand. “Why haven’t you been able to get married yet?”, “you are old enough to been able to have your own family by now”.
Well it is a combination of love or dislike yourself.
And why??? Is it so, that just becauce I am a Christian women, I automatic want my own family, my own kids? Why??
We do live in 2020! Not every girl or women want their own kids. I don’t. I am happy for you who do, and wish the best of luck. But don’t forse me to have something I don’t want.
I had to use some years on my self. To understand who I am and what I want in life. One of those things has been, I don’t want my own kids. An other thing has been to find the right type of job. A third and forth thing is good eating habbits & to afford the gym. To get healthy and love life again. And maybe be able to fall inlove with a man that has something of what I want in life.
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