Goals – mia-simone. svenberg

Interesting greeting, panic, all my thoughts?,where is my faith? doubting, grace…

It’s interesting how the Lord works! Ten years ago before I moved back to Oslo area the Lord gave me some hints about why I needed to move to Oslo area. What I needed to wait for, when living there, before being able to move back to the west coast.

Sunday April 18th, I went through some online preaching I haven’t listen to just “added” to my list to “some day I will start to listen to them”. And in one of the podcast’s they had questions in the end. One of the question where “what are you waiting on?” And I thought, this is perfect to this blog! What are you waiting on,haven’t the Lord answered your question or is it something else you waiting on? You who following my blog.

Two of my closest girl friends needed to get married and become pregnet or even have a child before I could move. An interesting sentence from the Lord to recive. What about me? Should I wait even longer before I met “my hubby”???

An other thing was that the Lord needed to work within me and with me. Which He has. As one of the things ” a hubby “. When I was 19 y.o. I told everyone who asked me about life that I didn’t wanna have my own kids, which probably was a bit wierd to most people,sadly most of them were Christians. ” it will past ” they said. Like it was a cold or something… 😔. But I haven’t ever had a feeling of “need to become pregnet” becauce I would rather have fosterkids or helping families who needs it with their kids when the time comrs for that. I just wanted ” a hubby “.

It was a new journey a head of me. And I have to say a lot of things has happend with me, my faith and my friends those years.

We are all waiting on something.

A short story from those last ten years…

In 2011 I had to find something to do…

In 2012 I took an other course becauce I could not go back and work in kindergarten after November 2010, when I injured my back.

2013 I had a knee surgery and eleven months of physiotherapy. I had to learn to walk again.

In 2014, still no work, still a bad back. New longer course. But it didn’t leed to a job…

2015 – 2017, different types of administration and Hotel. BUT in 2015 I asked the Lord about moving and the thing I recived was “wait”. And in 2017 one of my closest friends got married. Was this an other sign?

2018 the year of many changes! My first job I kind of liked for 5 months. In May I started the fifth course (during those last seven years) which actually was of interest!! May 18th, the other close friend got married 😍😍. Now I knew time would not be to far away for ” the move back to the west coast ” In August I got my foot in to my first propper work in years 😊🤩😊. The first school job, was this the job I had “been looking for all those years of waiting ?” It was a open door from the Lord. But it wasn’t ” the job “. I also knew other things needed to get in place…

2019 came, I got a new job, where I am now. And I know the Lord wanted me here.

In 2020 came Corona and my contract was extended until 2021. 🤩. I moved from Oslo community to Bærum community. A start on getting out of Oslo, the City I never liked but stayed there becauce the Lord wanted to use me there. In March I started as a janitor beside my orginal job. The first girl friend got pregnet (YAY the move getting even more closer).

This last fall (Autumn-20) I knew that I wouldn’t stay in Bærum community longer then next summer (which is now). I also recived a new sentence.

Those two girl friends are now married 🤩. And I have been applying for jobs in Rogaland community since february 🤪 still no job. And now have I started to get panic!! Where will I move? Where will I work?? Gaaaa! The whole point of all this becauce I want and need to work more than 70%. I have so much panic and start to think “was I so wrong understanding the greetings?” Was it just me, who wants to move back to the only place I ever felt like home in Norway? am I moving back to Rogaland community? Or not?

I need to move out where I am living now July 31st!! It’s not to late to get a job theoreticly but I am starting to doubt on the whole thing…😔 the panic is getting bigger. God give me one interview with a job-offer!! Or give me a hint on what I am doing wrong!!

I don’t know what to do more than apply.

But, is the Lord on my side in this?? I’m panicking and have started to doubt. I just want to cry!! is the Lord guiding me steps? I have been trusting the Lord so far but now?

I am missing to have a propper housechurch and meet & pray with, if not in person at least online. I have this last year lost some part of my faith becauce of where I live and the Corona. 😔😔😔. I miss the Church IMI in Stavanger, Rogaland. It feels like I have lost myself a bit to… I don’t know where to go, look, do…

On the other hand has GOD used me and blessed me a lot this last year…

My 2015.

Yesterday was it the 28^th of December and here in Norway that’s apart of what they call «romjula» it’s the days after Christmas and before New Years-eve. And for me have those days in the between been days of «getting out in the snow and play» or if it was a bad winter stay inside and play with puzzle since I was a child but as an adult it’s most become «the traveling back to home time» from wherever I have been for Christmas. But this Christmas and all days of December I have been in Oslo, the city I live in. Different but very okay. I have had more then just interesting days! I have had an experience I did not see would come. A positive experience!

I have had time with just myself, do just what I wanted or not wanted to do. It has been a very relaxing Christmas. And we got snow on the 27^th of December – Yay!!

Yesterday was one of those slow days with a surprising cool thing. I went on Facebook just to check one thing and there one of my friends that lives in the state right now, was awake and on her way for work. And she said that the girls would be up at 5:45 am (9 hours behind us in Norway), and that she had told them that also meet her in the kitchen for early breakfast which for me meant Skype time with all three of them. Happy happy happy feeling. Most because I have not really heard much from the other two in a while. It was a good ending of Christmas for me! It is always nice to have the opportunity to catch up with friends especially over Skype when the friends does not live in the same country as I am living in!

The next thing I was doing was one of those things I have done for the last few years in the end of the old year and before the new starts, to write down Goals and Dreams for the year ahead. It is not a necessary to follow it but I am aloud do add things if I am in a situation that reminds me of a dream or goal. And one of my goals is exercising, to do it twice a week and get my body on an other level, get stronger physical and be able to stand against sickness more. And one of my dreams are to be able to travel more.

When I woke up today (not early morning) the snow was and is still here. The light from the snow is indescribable. It means so much for me to have snow during the winter, not just because I “always had it as young” no more because it lighten everything up it does get light with snow because it reflect the little daylight we have this time of the year, which is not much. And something else that reflect is our life, how we live it, how and what we show others. If you and I respect each and other and what’s going on in our life’s it will reflect to those we meet every day. It is the same with family, friends, cow-workers and people we just meet randomly in life. How do you want to your life to reflect on the ones you meet?

To respect a person for what’s going on in the persons life is so important but, yes it is a but here, but if you do not respect a person how will that person be able to respect you? I have been in a situation for some years where some of my family do not respect me in the way of the I am still single, that I have not met someone to share my life with. Those in my family “have been nagging” about “I should get married” like it is the easiest thing in the world… or “have you met someone yet?” like when is it there business? I respect them – those in my family – for what ever they do why can not they do the same for me?

This year that is nearly over… It is only two days left today. As an adult the days runs over to the next fast and if it is December today and January in two days is not the biggest different for me as it was when I was a child. It was such a bigger different then when I was a child. When did that disappeared? 2015 has been an interesting year in many ways. I have learn to be more patient in areas I did not have and I have learn new things from the course I started in sept-14 and ended this summer. I have got new friends, been there for friends that needed me in an other way then the years behind me. My faith has made me stronger. I have had fights I did not wanted but that I can see was good to have. I have learn that distance to my mom and her sickness has not made me weaker but stronger. I have learned to deal with things I did not know how to deal with it. I feel I have grown this year in knowledge, as a person, as a friend and with God in my faith.

I have had time to be creative in the way I needed to be. I have learned to sew after cloth pattern something I never done before. I have had costumers and still have two left that will slide over to the next year. And I will end this year with some sewing and be with friends. And I am looking forward for what next year has to come with! I am curious about next year!

I am thankful for this year.

I am thankful for my friends and my Church.

I am thankful for where I live and where I am gonna move.

I am thankful for life what ever it is giving me.

….here is a mix of picture from this year….

Me as Frosty the Snowman on a costume-party.

/Mia-Simone.Svenberg.2015.Oslo.

Dreams – goals – visions – good night-dreams…

The word “dreams” means different things for each of us. For you it can be a goal to do something, a daydream, vision or a good night-dream. It says that “to dream” is good for the brain and if you are a creative person you mostly dream more.

I dream a lot during the night. Mostly its unrealistic. Doesn’t make sense. But I still do it. I guess my brain has a lot to work with maybe because I am quite creative and have lots of ideas rolling around.

Some of my dreams are true. Like the one I had in the winter off 2005. I was living in Småland on the east coast south of Stockholm, Sweden. There and then it was just one of this unrealistic dreams. I dreamed I was sitting in a garden, didn’t know where I were. It was at the terrasse on the backside of a white stone house. And it was lots of fruit trees there and cozy. I was living there. And to dream this, when it was winter where I were and that I got all the details was in my head “one of those weird dreams”.

Two and a half years later or more was I sitting in that garden. I was living there, as in the dream. Weird! One of the days in May I think it was. I went out on the terrasse and got this “weird feeling” of “I have been here before”. It was there and then I realized this was the dream I had in Småland in 2005.

Most of my dreams are unrealistic but I remember they all when I wake up, and with every little detail, conversation, colors, area, how things are build or the team. I could write it all down but I have never done it because I remember it. Its like my brain has its own life..and just need to work all the creative ideas through hard. Every little idea becomes so big during the night.

But I also have dreams about what I wanna do later in life. I dream about to be able to buy a small house in the forest of Värmland, Västergötland or Halland, in Sweden. To have my own place where I can escape or just go and be alone, to create, to get inspiration and to invite friends for holidays. Or the dream of an old farm-Barn which I would like to change into a workshop for my business. I’m not a big “day dreamer” in the sense of what we as kids most did.

And I have dreams that has become goals in life. Like the thing to get a job and be able to travel more. To see the world.

As most of the friends I have, they like to travel. I want that too! I have started to dream of places I didn’t think about ten fifteen years ago that I wanna see, like New York, Chicago, Boston, San Fransisco, Seattle, Canada and Alaska. Maybe parts of Asia like Thailand or the Philippines – countries that in my head are “to hot” for me just because I don’t really like to much sun. But who says I have to go there when its the warmest period for the season? When I actually can travel when it fits me.

I wanna start travel now before its to late in life. I want to travel for the wish my mom had all my life and she in the end never did because of other things in her life stopped her. I want to see and explore Europe instead of my mom. My mom said many times “When I retired I’m gonna see Europe”. One of her biggest wishes where to see Praha and Berlin. She never got to see those places because of my dad got more then one stroke and she needed to be home with him.

I wanna do this for her and I will keep dreaming of new places.

/Mia-Simone

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