Time to share something to all of you are following my blog. 🙂
I went for an interview the 19th of June two days before I ended my job and got my Summer break. I believe it went okay right after, but when I got home I was so so stressed in my brain of the fact I felt like they rushed through the interview like they didn’t have much time… I was tired and had a stressed brain for about 3 hours after the interview.
But I managed to send an other application that evening.
My life is based on that I trust God in all things I do or happening in my life. It’s just the way I have learn how to get the best relationship with God. I have to say that I doubted I could get the job and I also doubted that the job could make my financial going / making a positive side, cause it’s a 50% job. But I just have to trust God on this.
A friend of mine also told me that this might be the perfect job for me and this coming year and I just have to try to believe it.
The 26th of June they called from the School I had the interview at, and asked me if I wanted the job. I said yes, more then less cause I am in the situation that I can’t say no which means I even more have to trust God on this.
The 4th of July I signed the contract for the job. And I am working on the fact of trusting God on this. I don’t have a clue on what my salary will be… But God knows and He also know my financial situation and what I need to go on plus and not just survive. This last Saturday (July 13th) I met up with an other girlfriend and we talked about how to trust God and Love Him as our Father in our life’s so He can work in us. I am still in question about this job, I still wonder if I need to find an extra job to be able to live and just survive… I do not even know if I fit the job – connect with the teenager I am going to work with. Right now I am trying to not think to much about this and really trying to enjoy life without doubt in what God has open up for me. I mean, God did give me an interview and a job which is what I asked for.
I have figured that it is quite easy to talk about “Trust God and try to live like it” but to actually believe it for 100% and live it is harder when the doubt comes!
I can not recall that I have doubt about a job like I do about this. I have just been so happy I got a job, every time I got a job that I just Thanked God for it. So why am I doubting now? I know my Father and I know what he wants what’s best for me. And all my friends who know me and my journey to get where I am today, are happy for me. That I finally got a job after 7 years of trying, prayers and not given up the hope. My stubbornness has been my strength in combination of my faith. I have been able to turn all rejects into an attitude that I will get through and I will get the job God wants for me. And here I am doubting… I should be overwhelm of happiness and praise the Lord for what He has given me.
Maybe I just needed time to adjust with this Summer break to see this clearer?!
Maybe I needed to write down all my thoughts and share it with you to understand how great God is to me?!
Maybe I just needed to talk about this with my friends and the weight of believe, to get a better understanding?!
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