It’s May 9th today. I went to work with the 9 o’clock bus and got 15 min at work before I started. And were done 11:45 am. Not a very long day, which was perfect for me today. My “dear” Aslan (cat boy that was here on trial and was lucky to stay) woke me up 04:20 am this morning starting to play in my bed and later on the floor. I got angry cause I were tired and just wanted to sleep. He kept me awake for 30 minutes… I did fell a sleep again, but when my alarm clock woke me up I were so tired!!!!!!!! Not fun!
So when I finally were done at work, I knew I had to do something to stay awake for the rest of today. So I catched the train to Sandnes. Walked the few hundred meters to one of my favorited stores that sells mostly things to the household and some creative things. I used one hour in that store 🙂 Happiness!! All I needed. Found just what I had in mind. Some tubes with acryl paint, painting canvas one white and one black, one thin paintbrush, a small notebook with flowers on the front and a sketchpad, tiny tiny white pearls to my yellow dress 🙂 some kitchen tools, a flower pot for “the garden” and a tiny embroidery frame.
This is (the canvas) what I have spend time on since I came home today around 3 pm 🙂 .
I hope that I can use this notebook to write down both what makes me happy and sad to be able to get back to the person I am. But I need time! How my faith up in all this are effected and how to be more inspired through Christian music, bibleverses and more? How to get out well on “the other side” of this depression? How did I loose myself? Well this is what I hope I’ll manage to write down in this notebook that made me smile when I saw it.
Only by grace from the Lord will I be able to move forward and find myself again?!?
mia-simone. svenberg 