Six weeks has past since I let Silver-boy fall asleep and never wake up again here on earth. And it is a bit hard to understand it has past 6 weeks! Yet that’s the facts. I am thankful for work and that I have got more hours as a substitute teacher. And actually got the responsibility for more classes in Art&craft, planning and contact with the teachers for those classes and the fact I’ve been throwing in to the goal and grade targets and criteria for the three grades. Somethings I love more and more.
It’s interesting how the Lord has guided me into this subject and this school! I’ve been working in the school for 6 years now and it isn’t until this year I have understand what the Lord have been trying to tell me 🤣🤣. Yet I am thankful for most of my experience to know where or where not I want to work or with what!
Those last two days (April 13th) have I also been able to sew 😊 first time since the 25th of March without backpain. And that is happiness.
I continue to take one Day at the time, I still talking to Silver like he was here, but not as often now as in the start, which I think is a good process. Because of more work hours I am glad Silver is in heaven and that the Lord watching over him when I am at work and that I don’t do have a bad conscience if Silver was home alone (as I have written about before). I am thankful for life and what the Lord has in plan for me and my future!
This is also a blessing in the way that it is just about me and that Silver-boy is in heaven. If Silver-boy had been here and sick on treatment I wouldn’t been able to both finish the driving license and pay for Silver’s treatment. I see more and more positive things being single without a pet. It might sound harsh but for me ut is a blessing.
💙🐈💙 One of my first driving when I past the practical driving test will be “with Silver’s cat-cage” on the car and just drive somewhere because I promised him that 😊💙🐈💙.
Those last weeks has also learn me how the silence is good to communicate with the Lord. To think out loud. To reflect on all good things that has happened in life with Silver and how I managed to live without a pet before I got Silver. Where and when and how I have enjoyed my life with and without Silver. And this helps me to grab around the facts of how I want to live forward 😊.
The first day I felt propper happiness again was April 4th working withthe7th graders doing really good work (12 day’s without Silver). I can’t say I have smiled every day after the 4th but I have felt more and more positive thoughts and being creative at work or at home helps a lot and is one kind of happiness for me.
I have since I layed down Silver, been sewing so much more 😍😍. The latest was the wool coat – separat post. But it didn’t last long 😆😆 yesterday – April 30st – I started on yet a new dress.
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