I have been living in my new house/ home for 14 day’s. I have explored where the nearest grocery store is but that one is expensive! I have also found my route from the nearest bus stop coming from work. It’s a 12 minutes walk (fast walk) and approxy 1.1 km with or against the wind.
On the way from the newest Hospital and bus hub. My neighbourhood.
My view when I wait on the morning bus 😊.
Today, May 30th, I went on an adventure to Sola center not very big but they have many shopping opportunities and gas station!
I couldn’t just stand stil (in the cold wind) and wait 30 minutes on the bus… when I was done. So I started to walk. I think that is the best way to get to know a new place.
Here I was…
…walking ” towards ” my home pasting bus stop after bus stop… I didn’t walk that far though. But I walked almost 1.5 km with a quiet heavy small backpacker on my shoulders. And in the freezing wind I didn’t want to walk to far away and not knowing where the next bus stop was.
2023 wasn’t a good year of driving after my fall backwards at work in January 😐😒. I tryed to drive but had a lot of pain sitting for more then one hour. And then I was on sickleave in May. Moved in October… Been working or been sick this fall. But I am planing to finish everything with this driving license in 2024. I have a goal 😉 and I am motivated!
February2024. I had my first private driving the 3rd of February, first in10months! It went okay. I know what I need to practice on. I need to get a better flow while I’m driving. I need to feel comfy in and before a roundabout! As bigger the roundabout is as more freaking out I get. This hasn’t been an issue before… which I dislike a lot now!
April-24. I contacted my old and first driving school here in Stavanger and asked them about the last mandatory level and when it was possible to start that? Took a driving lesson April 22nd, it went well.
Meantime my plan is to drive as much as possible private until the practical driving test. The 4th and last mandatory level getting closer 🤩.
I have been blessed with tax money to complete the 🚘driver’s license 😊😊 and because of that I will start on the last mandatory level in May 10th 🤞😊.
Easter -24, re-planting seeds.I got a surprise outside my door, this Easter egg with candy 🍬.
I pulled myself together and forced myself to have enough energy to re-plant my seeds today even if my sad back really didn’t want it. I managed to split all my growen seeds into 20 smaller pot’s 🤩
I’ll grow them indoors until the weather here are more stable with warmer weather. I don’t have a clue if it will be in April, May or June.
I also had my first cup of coffee out on my terrace yesterday (March 30th) even if it wasn’t sun where I sat it was☀️ sunshine 😊 and (!) 🌡+11 °C 😊 some wind but hey it’s always wind here 😆😆.
My self drawing pattern trying to figure out how big/small baby size 62 are🤪
Same pattern on an other fabric.
The arm part, tiny!
I have tryed to find the right size of how big /tiny the pattern of size 62 would look like to on a baby dress. Interesting, frustration, annoying and fun all in the same time 🤪.
I have done things like I normally did before this season and before I lost Silver. Even talked to Silver every day like I did when he was alive and it helps to get through the day’s. I have, I think, kind of find new routines. It’s kind of hard to know because it will not be the same after the Easter break. But hopefully it will help me to the next break – holiday season.
After the Easter break I am back to work and then I have to figure out what I’ll do after work that will be new routines. Maybe I’ll sew more now when I don’t need to be social with my cat… Maybe the day’s will look like they did with Silver.
Whatever happens I am thankful for the love from the Lord and friends.
I am hoping I’ll have more energy to do things that gives me positive energy like exercise, walks, Church things or sewing or meet new people. Mostly I won’t feel guilty for not being home with Silver and that makes me glad becauseIhavehad a lot of vad guiltforhim being home alone 😔.
I know I will be able to travel again later when my financial will be better without feeling guilty.
Yesterday (March 9th) started with a little overslept because my Silver-boy woke me up 07 o’clock why I don’t know and I had put my alarm on 08.30 am. The reason was I had an appointment 10am to do some private practice driving. So when I did woke up almost 09am I was really late 😔😔.
Texted the person I had the appointment with asking if we could start 10.15am instead. I was also hoping this person would come to me which apparently was wrong.
I ate my breakfast and had my coffee and did the rest. Texted when I left home and wrote “I can’t walk to him cause I don’t have your address” which I didn’t have.
I walked to my workplace because I knew that was close to him. Was there at 10.30 am.
Waited until 10.50 am after I had texted him where I waited. When I didn’t hear from him at all and it was quite chill wind and only 🌡+3°C even if it was sunny, I walked. Couldn’t sit there longer!
I was so frustrated on what happened. I really tryed to do it right. You might think “why didn’t I call him?” Well my excuse is it was to cold and I don’t like to talk in the phone.
Anyway I didn’t want the rest of the day to be ruined so I went on my own adventure in my suburb Storhaug and down to suburb Lervig.
Walked streets I haven’t walked before to update my own GPS in my brain.
I walked past some street art I haven’t seen.
I went shopping some coffee one place and discovered a path I knew about but never walked before. In this block of apartments it’s also one grocery store, Coop Extra (the 1’st) a farmacy, a café, and hobby store.
This is suburb Lervig, close to the sea side on the North side of Stavanger.
Went to an other grocery store, to actually buy grocery. It’s three grocery store’s in this suburb and all in a distance of 5 min to each other. And what I discovered was It’s almost the same distance from me to all three 🤩.
Rema1000 Grocery store (the 2nd) behind and belove the bushes, down hill from where I stand and took this picture.
From where I stand, to my left 5 min walk is the third grocery store, Kiwi (as in the fruit). And from here I went back home.
Almost home and 2 hours later and over 6000 steps I had a GOOD WALK 😊.
The whole adventure walk was over two hours later 😊. I got lot’s of fresh air, saw a lot I haven’t been able to discover until now because of my sad back.
Got home rested my sore back and had some coffee 🤩 and …
Through out some carbon boxes, went into my storage and got the pots. Managed to bring not lift one of two 50 liter bags of soil inside 🤩🤩 so I could plant my newest addition of 🌱🪴 plant’s I bought two weeks ago.
6 new plants before new soil and bigger pots. This is my experiment of a nectarine. The Summer Season pots has seads that need to stay inside until they are around 5cm tall.
I also gave some of my old green plants new soil so they will grow better 😉. In total a very good day 🤩 even if it didn’t start so good 😊😊.
Thank you Lord for your help to change my mind find a new focus.
November 2021, I started with the theory part of the driving license. Studdy roles and law’s for how to drive, trafic signs and what to not do as a driver. A bit more motivated this time and doing it all in Norway (never again in Sweden!). I was studdy for four months before I booked a date for the Theory test which you have to past before you can book a date for the driving test, but you also have to past 4 different levels of driving before you can book the driving test – insane if you ask me!!
I have until now (2022) taken, according to myself, to many driving lessons… Slowly I am getting closer, step by step to actually take the driving license.. But I have also past the 3 first levels I have to past so I am happy for that!!
*In Norway you need to past a the theory exam and the driving school has manny moments that are mandatory to take and past before you can do the license test. It’s expencive and much more complicated than manny other countries.
I’ve been taking driving lessons since February 22, a gap of 3 weeks in July becauce of the Summer holiday here. Had one driving lesson in the end of July. Non in August becauce I were working long day’s. September22 came and I found a new driving school closer to home. And a co-worker told me that *passing the theory exam in Norway means that you have 3 years(!) untìl the time runs out to clear the driving test. That helps a lot for me, not that my goal got further away. It just helps becauce I can’t stress or be pushed (stress symptoms brain) and becauce of my work scheduel.
October cameand I finally had my first private peactical run with one of my work leaders. But I did the compulsory first aid course and passed 🤩🤩. November23rd had I the mandatory dark driving and past. 🤩🤩.
December 6th, I had my first normal driving lesson with the new driving teacher to check my status of “how far have I got and how much do I have left?” The nxt mandatory part is the legendary slippery course including theory of how we drive on slippery roads and winter roads. I past that too 😅.
In 2009, living in Norway and earning good money, I wanted to “pick up” my driving school project. So I contacted a driving school in Sweden near by the border, Karlstad so it wouldn’t be so expensive to get there and back.
It started good and I learned fast. Had to take some extra driving lessons in the city area cause I hated to driving in a city and had not so much experience of it. I had been driving with my mother for years and new most of those roads back and forwards ^^haha^^. But driving in a city center with my mother wasn’t fun so I didn’t choose that if I could.
So in 2009, I just had to do it. But with a good driving teacher I fixed it. 🙂 I got so far in the whole “project” that I was signed up to do the written test – the Theory test – but then suddenly the Tax authorities of Sweden said “NO you can’t, because you haven’t lived in Sweden for the past 6 months”.This was wierd for me, cause I knew other people had done the same thing and were aloud to do everything. I was frustrated. So everything I had done felt like I just throwen everything out in the thin air. I was upset, frustrated and sad. I was so close to finish what I started ten years back. Bureaucracy.
So I said “Fine. I put this on the shelf to the Lord and He will show me when it time.”
In 2019 – ten years later – my father told me he had been digging in this issue and told me the Tax Authorities had been wrong oversteped their own rules. Can you understand how much more frustrated I felt then???? At this point I just didn’t want to do a thing more about this license. This has become one of the reasons towards Sweden why I really don’t want to be a citisens of Sweden anymore I am sick of all the lies they tell people.
Psycholigical sad health for months and wierd feelings towards work and the staff there ( Bore school 22-23).
Some happiness in the middle of everything. April23. And I got few new friends through the job at Bore.
A good summer 🙂 . Some walks nearby Ganddal/Sandnes. Some day’s inside but Happy.
June was okay and Aslan wanted to stay but Silver wanted to be alone….and I got allergic to Aslan 😦 .
July23 – Summer and exploring Rogaland by bus. 🙂
August was a mix of lots of deny on job’s but I stayed positive and like the flower here bright full of colors and reaching to the sun, I stayed on my feets and
filled my life with more colors.
…but sad September….
October become good 🙂with the move back to Stavanger, more jobs and more good routines. Good athmospher at work, like I really don’t want to be sick’n’home good! And walking distance!!
Walking in Faith-month! Concussion-month…. = November.
December. Snowy Winter weeks and then rain (which is the normal), a cold but also a lot of good work 🙂
I think I have had more then enough bad luck in one year! So I’ll do my very best to stay on my both feets all the way in 2024!!
Buy I have also been blessed in different ways during the Year which I am thankful for.
I spent Christmas Eve alone with my cat, but have enjoyed it! I bought two gifts to myself this year thanks to the blessing in beginning of December 🤩. One of the xmas gifts was a newer smartphone and the other was a memory foam seat pillow for my sore and often sad back. And how happy I am for it! It helps my back a lot!! I even think I might buy an extra.
With the new pillow I have today, both tryed to sew for more then 30min (and it worked) I was sewing for two hours! 😍😍. And I have almost finished my sewing projects from 2020.
I only need to sew buttons and one seam.
I am looking forward to 2024. I really do. I have plans and I’ll do my very best to keep them come true. I am curious on what the Lord has for me in 2024! I am in a good place and I am planning to stay here as long as the Lord can use me.
Have a blessed 2024 all of you who following my blog. And keep sharing the posts you like or the posts that somehow have helped you forward.
In 1994 I got my very first driving license – for driving a Tractor – because I went to this Farmers school. But I didn’t continue doing anything with the real driving license until 1999.the Winter of 1999 I went to my first driving school (that how it work here in Skandinavia and it’s a lot to learn nothing like the american way!), started to drive a Volksvagen, TDI 1,6 engine, a nice car, manuel gear just because I was used to the tractor. This was in one of the Northen cities Örnsköldsvik approxy 550 km north of Stockholm along the East coast of Sweden. But I didn’t stay in that city long enough for different reasons to be able to finish the license…
Nexte time I “picked up where I left” was few years later, because of money issues (it’s expensive to take all the driving lessons you need to past!) And my parents didn’t pay a penny for me. I think, now decades later it was because it was only my mother who had money, a payment a job. I think I tryed again in 2002 but I don’t really remember much from that time.
I have been laying in my couch since Tuesday 7th (which you can read in the post before this one), been dizzy every day. Got an appointment with my GP on Friday (November 10th) a not so good day cause everything was spinning around. Both at the GP and after when I got home. Yesterday (Saturday) I managed to walk upright around in my home, first time since Monday 6th when I was working, but I had to support myself to walls or furnitures, dizzy every time I turned or turned my head normal = to fast.
Sunday 12th I have just been llistening to preaching from my home church on their podcast (between 11am to 12pm), about miricales when we come with expectations on what God can do when we pray.(while hearing those words I said in my head «I come with expectations on healing here and now»). How I felt God doing things in my head while I just listen to the preaching (I still have concussion when I type this) about healing. When I started to listen to that preaching I was dizzy in my head and I couldn’t whatch a screen and now approxy 30 minutes later am I typinging on my laptop. Doesn’t feel dizzy at all 🙂 . Amen.
How God’s power can touch us wherever we are when we hear about miricales and what God can do. When we believe on what God can do when we come with expectations towards him.
Hear I am in my couch, 12:30 pm Sunday, and the dizziness isn’t so intense as it was one and half hour ago! How God can heal when I come with expectations! I am looking forward to get up, not to fast, just be careful, and believe God has heald my head. That I will be able to walk normal and not feel dizzy or that everything is spinning. I am looking forward to be able to go outdoors for some fresh air, to be able to wear my glasses I haven’t wear since Monday (trying them on right now, I think it will take a bit time for my eyes to adjust. I will not force my eyes with glasses here and now. I will take in small steps during the day).
Monday 13th. The dizzieness is gone. Thank You Lord! From dizzieness to wobbly walking indoors, stumbling on my own feets… but have been able to walk each Day since last Sunday 🙂 . I managed to watch a movie on Monday with glasses on – a really good feeling – some good things has started to happend. But on Tuesday I was tired all day 😦 . Constantly tired. I even reacted on the light outside through the window. Until Tuesday I have had the blinds down cause it has been to light outside, but on Tuesday I wanted to try and get use to the light and get more daylight in.
Wednesday 15th.Today I managed to walk, wobbly, out to my mailbox and pick up the mail. A good feeling. I even went out with garbage. I was thinking to go and grab my cruches just in case I would try to go for a slow walk. But I neither got the cruches or went for a slow walk. I managed to order food from the online store (the only one who has that service where I live) with delivering on Friday. YAY.
Thursday 16th. Constantly tired again… Didn’t manged much. Sat in the couch all day. Watch some movie and series but not much. I did managed eat and drink coffee and juice othervice I was just in the couch. Got in bed around 10pm. Slept bad. We had snow coming down today, it didn’t really stay, but just the fact we had snow is happiness for me. How I “suddenly” could turn my head normally without feeling wobbly in my head – Yay! And how I have been healing in small steps! How the Lord provides for me in small steps! How thankful I am for every new Day with all “new” things I managed to do 🙂 .
Friday 17th a much better day! More productive Day! I woke around 9am, had coffee and breakfast, got food delivered 10.15am. Ran the washing machine. Was creative on the floor – YAY. Went out (Yes you read right), for a slow walk in my neighbourhood. Walked approxy 20m had a break for few minutes and try to enjoy the sunlight but it was a bit to bright for me. Went on walking slowly 20 more meters, a small break counting to ten, kept walking. Repeating my 20m with a break counting to ten. Walked approxy 100m in total, up the small hill (street) from me. Standing there trying to get used to the brightness. Waited maybe 2 minutes before i walked the same hill (street) down back home repeating walking 20m with a break. I was out for approxy 15-20 minutes. Totally worth it!!
Later that Day I got more and more energy to be creative 🙂 . I was creative in my couch until i «fell onto bed» around 11pm. I was finally tired by myself – happiness!!
Saturday 18th has started good! I just had my coffee and will have breakfast just now. And I will go for a slow walk after. Imy goal is to be able to walk to the nearest grocery store, which normally take me 7 minutes one way. Which now probably take me 21 minutes and that is okay. The grocery store in just few minutes from where I normally work as a substitutet teacher and where I will go on Monday. So I have to managed this.
My goal today is to get out and walk at least twice.
During this last week has the Lord showen me he is with me and that all my friends who are praying for me have giving me more strenght every day. I am so thankful for all prayers cause it shows me that when we pray for each other the Lord can help and do miracles we human can’t do. The Lord has been with the whole way! He has healed my head slowly just the way it needed to be healed. He has given med more and more energy each day as I needed to get where I am now. Small miracles aech day to prove he is with me in this part of the Journey.
And he has blessed me with new friendship and food.
He helps us when we ask for help. He is with us when we ask him to be close.
Every evening before falling a sleep have I prayed«Thank you Lord today. Thank Lord for the healing gift, thank you for letting me recieve it and thank you lord for healing me.» And «I come with expectations for healing me, thanking you for what you do with and within me, thank you for protecting my brain, heart and soul. Amen.»
I believe that the Lord is with me when I pray this, that he is happy I am asking for healing and not just take it for granted. I believe God want us to come with expectations when we pray so he can do more in our lifes and that we can see he is with us when we ask with expectations.
And the goal for tomorrow Sunday is at least one walk and catch the local bus to Church. If I managed that I am really Happy.
I have now been talking to this man for approxy 4 weeks. We went from talking on the dating app to Snap to WhatsApp. It’s been a journey of it’s own! We don’t have any issue to talk about anything and everything. We have figured out that we have a lot in comman yet many things where we are the opposite which I think is good.
We both want to get to know the other on a friend level and build the relationship from that place. We share values and we are both Christians – which is the part I never though I actually would find a Christian man – but here he is.
My question to myself is – will it be as good when we meet as it is now when we are talking or will it not be anything at all or could it be even better? Am I doubting this concept? Well for sure I can feel I am doubting.
I don’t have good experience of online dating so far in my life, and i started to do oline dating all ready 15-20 years ago(!)
My prayers are; pls let it be good chemistry between us when we meet so all thing we have been talking about won’t be for nothing! Pls let it be better then when we talking. And pls let us be able to continue on this friendship, let it grow into love and bigger.
The Journey of Oline dating, isn’t as streight forward as people migth think… It’s many bumps and other obstacles on the road, many questions, doubts and more especially if you don’t live or work on the same continent or in the same land!!
To have focus on the good feeling, the feeling of chemisrty is important and pray together and for each other if you share that. If you don’t share it, pray for him/her. In prayers the Lord can sow and harvest things you can’t.
To be adults and be able to be open of everything is important for me. So I asked questions very early in our conversation, things that are important for me. And he has done that too. 🙂
Offcourse we have different thoughts about things, but I think one of the most important thing when you trying to get to know a man/woman through online dating is to be flexible and open to change yourself if it something he/she like to so and you never tryed it before or never done it, like in my case. He loves snorkling – something I never done. But just because I never done it doesn’t mean I will never do it – so if I am open minded here I might be able to have a good experience one day with him for what he likes 🙂 .
We talk a lot about what each of us want’s in the future partner, qualities and personal characteristics, hobbies, future place to live have we discussed – mainly cause we have a ocean between us (!) Even when he is at work, cause he is an engineer and work different place.
We have our own journey and backpacker we carry with us, all of ous who are dating. Where are our focus in all this? And how do we cope with it all? Well it’s up to each of us to find a pattern that fits us and share it with the one we date. If you are lucky to meet IRL or like me being online for weeks before the first meeting, yet I have to find a good pattern and spend time with him when it fit’s his schedule. And support each other even more important when it’s a distance between us/you two!
To dream by yourself and later with your partner, I guess that’s what we all are doing. Dreaming of a partner when we are single is one thing and an other thing when you meet someone you like not just for how he/she looks like but for whom he/she is. No matter where you are in life right now you are dreaming for something i life, I do. So we are all “the same”. We all have vissions about life and what we want to do, travel, for work etc.
This picture of the hot air balloon, is my dream cause I love heights – yes I do! If I had the money I would love to get married in a hot air balloon ride for sure.
I choose this picture of the hot air balloon for an other reason too, not just for dreams or cause I have it on my blog. No. it’s something about this picture I like and I think it’s the space around it, the freedom, the clouds, the simplicity of where it is and going. A bit like me and maybe you. We have a freedom, a simplicity if we want it from the Lord. We just need to see it 🙂 . Sometimes we are “to focused” on here and now that we forget about the plan that isn’t ours but the Lord. He can see us everywhere and places we have issues to see infront of us because we don’t allow us that picture.
But back to the “core” of this post….
I believe I met this man in the right time for me, maybe especially cause most other things in my life is so uncertan (work and if I am going to stay where I live right now). I hadn’t given up on “finding” someone. No, I had good conversations with the Lord on this. And the Lord gave me more and more patience on this area. The funny thing is that thirteen years ago when I moved to this region the first time I got a line from the Lord saying “next time you live here, you will meet a man a future hubby”. The Lord never said when or how long I had to live here before meeting this hubby ^^haha^^. But the point is, the Lord had a plan and on the way he gave me more and more patience to where I am and waiting on my future husband 😉 .
So we had Aslan (Gardfiled) on trial for 3 day’s in April. After those 3 day’s he stayed. Silver and Aslan (becuase he is orange and walks like a lion) become friends. they have there moments where Aslan is trying to show Silver he wants to be in charge but Silver answers with a small fight and winning by Aslan laying down on the floor “I give up for now”.
Time flies by and Aslan has now been with us for almost 4 months (!) He has becoming an indoor cat and accepting it, he were more of an outdoor cat before we got him. He will be able to learn to walk in leach just like Silver does, but his first issue was to let me put a “neckless” on him that he wouldn’t take off as fast as it got on ^^haha^^. He has been learning a lot this time here and he is young (only 3 years old) so he will be able to learn even more.
The nxt thing for him was to learn is to not eat up all the food, cause Silver also need food! He or both get less food now, I do have one bowl with dry food out all day but more important is it’s always water.
They are friends most the time but in the between they fight, Aslan still trying to set Silver to not be the oldest, the boss etc. But Aslan is the younger will always be more playful, have more energy, talk more because it’s his personality. Silver trying his best to adapt too, he was the only cat for 4 years, it’s not easy for him neither.
We all do our best to adapt ❤ the life we have. I couldn’t leave Aslan to not be able to live a life with us therefor I let him stay. He was probobly a Corona-Cat, left to himself to survive. He has his issues, but overall he is a very cozy cat. Loves to sleep in my bed, next to my back. He wakes me up in the morning, if he can decide 05am… But yet he has managed to go to bed my time approxy 11pm, and that I do pull down the blinds for the night (first of all for Silver so he wouldn’t start to play around 03am and wake me up) but also now with 2 cat’s.
This is a short update about life. Lot’s have happend yet no job. But I trust the Lord for the right job and will not stress about it. I have made up my mind to relax, look for job every second day and the other day’s I’ll have summer Holiday. I will explore my county, my local area, Islands in Rogaland (county) or just sit home and sew. Learn new patterns, new types to sew.
Butterflies stands for changes. And I believe a good change will come, that the Lord are providing me a new good change. And I can for sure say He is works with my patience in this specific area!
Christian music – what I wish I would listen to it more often!! How much strength it is there! In my house the radio stands on for my cat’s, but this Summer I have to remind myself to listen to Christian music more!!
Tomorrow (8th of July) I am planing to go for a day trip to one Island called Kvitsøy, cause the weather should be nice and to windy for an island. Cross fingers here. And if I have more energy I’ll sew if not I’ll be sketching and paint clothes – something I figured out helps my brain – I literally enjoying it.
Yesterday were interesting! Or disapointment. The day started good but with an disapointment information from my land lady…They are planing to sell the house where I rent…Wich means I have to move again. I did hope that this time would I be able to live here for at least two years. But with this information I won’t. 😦 😦
I really like it here. It’s short way in to Sandnes and good trasportations for me who doesn’t have a car. The appartment I rent is big enough for me and my sewing and my two cat’s. To be able to rent something where you can have pets isn’t comman. So I am blessed! Also with the rent, lower then most others around in this suburb! Blessing! So, not do I need to find a new home I also applying for jobs. Yet I haven’t been that lucky to get that far (to get an interveiw). When I moved in I were hoping I could stay here for at least two years, but now I can’t.
So my plan is to get a job an then I can look for a new home. But I know me, so I will check if I can find something already now… So what am I looking for? Well jobbwice – school – and I would prefer to go back and work with the youth but it hasn’t been many positions out 😦 so I have to apply for jobs in elementary school too. I did start with one application yesterday and finished it today and send it 🙂 🙂 . And started on number 2 off interest, but got headache so I will sew after I done here.
Appartment-wise – big enough for me, my “boys” cats and my sewing!
But I also need to go to Sweden this Summer to fix something important…and from here I live it takes approxy 8 hours from Sandnes – Oslo by bus, plus 5 hours depending on where in Sweden I go one way (bus is the cheapest alternative on a low budget). So if I don’t want to feel like sombie or dead I need at least 72 hours on this trip. And yes it would be nice if I felt like it was a holiday and could meet up with someone I know. I know it’s all in the Hands of our Lord, yet…it’s sometimes hard to trust.
It has happening to much in a quite short time and I don’t know where to begin to tell you… The week after my last blog post, I worked extra at the after-school program (sfo) and I worked 100% 5 days. Totally exhausted each day. So exhausted I just didn’t have enough energy to blog or do any other creative things I normally do… And when the weekend came I had to priotate to relax and “charge my battery” – body. I did some fun and creative thing that weekend. I started to paint an old suitcase I have had “forever”. The ordenary colouring was brown-green ish and I think I got it after my grandma’ (dads mother) during the 90’s. Now it’s black and fits the other old suitcases I have :-).
First painting brush.Original color on the suitcase.
This last week I was back in my normal rythm and have had much more energy and met a new person (Yay for new accointances) and I have had more energy after work to plan for things I want to do this Spring and Summer and even what I want to do next fall.
13th of March my jeans tore at work…so when I got home I sat on the couch and popped the pants to sew – repair what had become a big hole. I just need to sew the back pocket on and then I can go to bed. This is something I haven’t had enough energy to or been able to sit this long since mid January. 🙂 Happiness! (see pictures under, to the left is where they tore in the front and to the right how it looks like after some new fabric.)
Maybe it’s the light Day’s that I never thought about before, that helps me on the energy level?
I finished up the Suitcase two weeks after I started. And it’s now in a good mix of the other two I have re-painted from this last fall.
This last week I have spend more time with my sketch pad then on social media :-). It helps a lot for my brain in those day’s when work hasn’t been the best place to be. To not focus on anything and just sketch whatever comes to mind – wow what a relife feeling! It’s been dresses and shoe designs lately. And here is a taste of what I’ve done. Hope you enjoy it.
Every sketch is in color but you’ll just get one. Mostly cause I don’t want to spoil to much. Hope you’ll understan. 😉
It’s May 9th today. I went to work with the 9 o’clock bus and got 15 min at work before I started. And were done 11:45 am. Not a very long day, which was perfect for me today. My “dear” Aslan (cat boy that was here on trial and was lucky to stay) woke me up 04:20 am this morning starting to play in my bed and later on the floor. I got angry cause I were tired and just wanted to sleep. He kept me awake for 30 minutes… I did fell a sleep again, but when my alarm clock woke me up I were so tired!!!!!!!! Not fun!
So when I finally were done at work, I knew I had to do something to stay awake for the rest of today. So I catched the train to Sandnes. Walked the few hundred meters to one of my favorited stores that sells mostly things to the household and some creative things. I used one hour in that store 🙂 Happiness!! All I needed. Found just what I had in mind. Some tubes with acryl paint, painting canvas one white and one black, one thin paintbrush, a small notebook with flowers on the front and a sketchpad, tiny tiny white pearls to my yellow dress 🙂 some kitchen tools, a flower pot for “the garden” and a tiny embroidery frame.
This is (the canvas) what I have spend time on since I came home today around 3 pm 🙂 .
I hope that I can use this notebook to write down both what makes me happy and sad to be able to get back to the person I am. But I need time! How my faith up in all this are effected and how to be more inspired through Christian music, bibleverses and more? How to get out well on “the other side” of this depression? How did I loose myself? Well this is what I hope I’ll manage to write down in this notebook that made me smile when I saw it.
Only by grace from the Lord will I be able to move forward and find myself again?!?
This week have I had my birthday at work on Wednesday, which my only wish were to hear the approxy 80 stundents in the 2nd grade to sing the Norwegian happy birthday song, which they did!! 🙂 It made my day 🙂 I normally don’t celebrate my birthday on the day if it’s not on a Friday or in the weekend. Mainly cause I don’t have many friends to celebrate with or a hubby/ or boyfriend.
I had a doctor appoinment May 5th, I got an sickleave for 50% and 22 day’s, if my leader at the after-school program don’t let me be off 50% my doctor will change it to 100% sickleave those 22 day’s. I really need to be off the after-school-program for a while. My doctor told me I got depression. That’s why I don’t have motivation, or smile or have any extra energy over. And I have felt like this off and on since October 22…. I haven’t had a job until now, where I have felt like this. But to be able to be on sickleave is good. I could probobly also be on 100% sickleave but then it would probobly feel like I had some kind of Holiday in my body. So 50% helps me in the way I get up to something and get out of the house and help some young students. I’ll meet with those colleges I like and don’t get negative feedback from. I still don’t like the age of students but now it’s only approxy 30 school day’s left with all the Holly day’s in May and June we have here in Norway.
I celebrated myself this Friday with sushi buffè in Stavanger after my doctor appoinment. The best Sushi I’ve eaten in many years :-). So totally worth the money!! But I am now keen to try out other sushi places in Stavanger and Sandnes – which is my town. I also forced myself to go out after the work day was over, went out with a new friend here in Sandnes. We went to one of the few places that still was open, Egon is a restaurante.I got an alcohol free drink called Passion Explotion and my friend got a baked potatoe with meat. We chatted and had a good time, sat for approxy 2,5 hours 🙂 . But wow I were so tired in my brain when I got home 😦 Got in bed before the normal time during a job-week!
Saturday I spent at home, realxing and sewing 🙂 . Just what I needed. And I think I also landed in the fact I am on sickleave too, in my head. Realizing how tired my brain gets after doing almost nothing… And how good I feel when I am working on a sewing project 🙂 . Which I did yesterday 🙂 . I were able to do quite a lot on my yellow summer dressI’ll show you how far I got. It was +16 C degrees and sunny outside I were indoors ^^haha^^.
I have during the last few months starting to getting to know few new people, some of them I can now call my new friends. They are both Christians and non-christians just like I like it.
I have had a hope of be able to start go to a church this year, so far I haven’t, mostly cause of headaches or other type of pain in my body during the weekends… but now it’s my brain… My body wants more then my brain can handle… It sucks! But I do ‘tend’ to online church most Sundays. Today I have worship on, on my laptop. Worship is something I also try to listen to on my way to work to re-fill my soul and heart. …You know the feeling when you know you slept enough but when you start doing something your eyes just want to close… ‘Tired brain syndrom’ . That’s how it’s right now, while I am writing… I just want to sleep a bit more… Maybe I go for a nap later. Maybe I’ll just try to continue on my sewing project we’ll see.
Do you know how hard it is to get “the picture” out and look just the same in real life? It’s hard. I am prefering to my yellow summer dress. I have a picture in my head of how I want it to look, but I can’t say I’ll manage to get it like that. Maybe when I am done. Which in that case would be marvelous and fantastic!! But I am getting there 🙂 If I only do small steps I know it will end up like my inner picture 🙂
As more time I am working at Bore primary school and in the after school program I feel dissatisfaction. The only reason I felt when I got the job this were the “right door was open” were because I felt the Lord wanted me there for an other person. Which were right. It was one other assistent an Christian lady who has become my friend.
The sad part isn’t just that I don’t have any motivation anymore, no it is to go to work at this school because I don’t feel I am doing any good or using any of my skills and knowlegde. And the part of the 50% of my position which is in the after school program for the students. I like the students and I can only hope they like me. No the sad part is the adults there. They don’t trust me and my knowlegde when it comes to some disabilities and diagnosis and they don’t like the way I am use to work. But even more sad is they (most of them) are friendly face to face but repoort me to the manegement behind my back and saying I lack communication.
It has escalated so much that I really don’t like to be near them yet I have to work with them. In my head I am counting down to the day I am done there!
It is also a harsh enviroment to work at as an Christian. It was okay in the start but as far as the weeks goes it’s very clear it’s not a positive enviroment for me for many reasons. I have started to dislike my workplace. I can’t say I hate it but it’s close.
I feel like those rubbish bins, empty and alone. That’s the easiest way to put it.
I haven’t felt like this ever, when I have been working. I am exhausted and feel empty inside when I get home, just want to cry of sadness. I really need a change of workplace and I am asking the Lord for a good enviroment in my next job.
I stay in this job only because I can’t efford to go on sickleave and because I have a contract until June 30st.
I just know for fact that I will not work with so young students again, it’s not my place!! I am ment to be working with teenagers. Which is why I am applying for jobs in that area again and only that. It hasn’t been many jobs to apply to so far, just few and thos I have applyed too. I am writing an aplication in English those day’s to a British school in hope to get a “foot in there” and get even more experience. To expand my experience among youth.
In all this I struggle with a sad body and sad mind.
As you know, I have been checking around to see if I could find an other cat to mine. And since Thursday April 20th we have a catboy on trial. I have been hoping since he came that they will accept each other. In total of the small steps they show signs on it. But in between they fight 😦 And my right hand is sore…
We are now on Day 2,5 And silver got his walk around 09:30am and Pusur (Garfield) was locked in at the bathroom, just because he wants to go out because he is used to be able…and if he stays he will become a indoor cat and later learning to walk in leash. Which also means I need to take measure on him to sew a harness in colors that suit him…maybe I go for a dark color because he is orange.
Here are som pictures of them…
A playful catboy (the Orange) In Norwegian he is called Purus which is Garfield.
april 19th. Was yesterday. Outdoor day in the sun with the 2nd graders and teachers, We startes to walk from the school yard around 09:40am with a temperature on +10 degrees celsius. A 45-60min walk in the sun…, cause some walks fast and some walks slow… And I walked with the D-class (they are A-B-C-D with approxy 20 students in each class). Everyone exept me was pleased for the warm day a head of us. I did what I could to prepar for a sunny day before I left home, but I also knew the consecvenses that would apear.
Heatstroke at work… it was a fact around 11am with a temperature on +14 degrees in the shadow! getting warmer each hour. **The forest-park-walley we went to doesn’t have much of wind so it gett hot/hotter then outside the walley. The first symptoms are that I’m boiling, then dizzy, then feel feverish and feel a little cold. Because I walked with one of the students with a diagnose, when everyone were heading back home or back to the after-school-program after 4 hours, we (me and the one student) were lucky to go by car half of the way back to the School, in the car it was an other 2nd grade student with the same symptoms as me, which is sad. I always feel sad for kids because I have been there myself. It’s always harder for kids who wants to play around but gets sick of the sun.
Then a little goes by and I mostly just feel discomfort in my body for a few hours. I left work around 2pm, (temperature up on +16 degrees celsius in the shadow) and I normally work until 4:30pm on Wednesday’s. Bought an Ice-cream while waiting on the 2nd bus. Tryed to cool down a bit. On the bus home the nausea came back. Got home around 3pm. *Does not sweat like a normal person when it gets hot from the sun.
Pictures from the warm Day at Kleppeloen.
Then the real frost comes a few hours later, around 3:50pm to 5:10pm under 2 wool blankets in the couch… freeeeeeziiiiing despite the fact that my body is boiling and I would probably really have sweated if it wasn’t I don’t do that… (according to the weather app, it was +17 degrees Celsius in the shadow at 6pm.)
Managed to take a warm shower around 9pm, but instead of feel warm after as I normally do I kept freezing with a hot-boiling body. Went to bed at 11pm.
Woke up hot and nauseous 07:14am today, April 20th. Home’n’sick from work 😦 .
Took something for the nausea 8 o’clock but is still nauseas…08:40am while I started to write this… to nauseas too eat or drink my coffee 😦 The weather app says it’s already +10 degrees Celsius 9am today…. I were home and didn’t do much. But managed to go to work on Friday.
This week has been different! I’ve been moved from working with the students in the after-school-program to do practical things just because two of my co-workers can’t handle how I do my job with the one student with Autism… They have complained and think I am afraid of conflict which I’m not but that is how they see it… My body isn’t fit to stand and walk a lot without a rest on a chair after the blod cloth I had ten years back, and my back isn’t pleased either with the tasks. But I stand in it just because I know I will not continue work here after this Summer. That’s the only thing that keeps me going right now. Sad. Yes.
An other sad part in this situation, while the boy who needs predictability because his autism, he just has to come to terms with the fact that suddenly someone else is with him… 😦
But what can I do? My leader in after-school-program think I have the qualities and are the right person because I am creative, to sort the storage and make a structure that will be easy to continue. Which is nice to hear. But just the fact that I have to do other things when my co-workers can’t deal with how I work… well I can only say I think that is the wrong way to do it.
So I have talked out loud to the Lord about this and next time I meet my House Church I’ll ask for prayers.
I’ve felt an empthiness inside me for a while and now it’s even bigger. I haven’t been liking what I do in the School since October and now this… I only go to work because I can’t afford to stop. I don’t feel joy for work anymore. The only Joy I have now, when I have enough energy, is at home when I sew…. Which is sad!
Last year, when I worked with the yought I felt “done” already in February but this year has been worse!! To not feel joy at work at all is the worsed part of all things for me! To feel empthinessevery day you go to work makes it hard to smile to those you work with! It makes it hard to force yourself to go to work.
My motivation is to look for a new job and apply when I find something I know I have experience from and know I can handle. But it is always the question, will I get to an interveiw? And when I got the job, how will it be with the co-workers?
Right now, my head is “groggy” after medication from migraine few hours back. So I only write to “vent” my brain. To get rid of all my thoughts. Empty my brain. But I just want to sleep or relax cause of the side-effects from the medication… which I will do after.
To be a Christian, to believe in this situation is rough. But I know my Lord wants the best for me so I stay in my path. I also know He will open up the right door or window for the next job. He always do. That is my comfort.My believe is on the rocks and I know and have to believe that He will help me.
Silver gives me comfort in all the ways he can <3. I don’t know what I would have done without him. Therefor is he in the featured image for this blog.
What happend in 2022? Well a lot! But I won’t write about it here, if you are curious, well read my blog.
New Years eve 2022 will be most like most other new year eve’s at home with my cat that are afraid of rakets and fireworks.
2 hours b4 midnight (10pm, 22).
I wish for a good, interesting, fun year of 2023 and that I managed to do my “to-do-list” for my body and that the Lord continue to guide my steps wherever that leads me. I am agaist those New Year’s resolutionslists. I have never managed to hold on to the kind of list and I have never understood why they are so popular. I am looking 4ward a New Year and what will come with it. Up’s and down’s. Time when I don’t understand or doubt, time when life is good and fun and everything in between. Becauce I trust the Lord.
Let’s celebrate 2023 all the way and not forget what we got from the Lord in life to actually be here!
Let’s enjoy life no matter how it turn.
Let’s stay positive through rough times 💝.
Let’s enjoy the small things in life different then other things in life.
Be happy, Trust the Lord, Walk with Him not away, Enjoy Life, Have fun, be sad when you need or cry, Sing worship to Him who given you a New life, be Creative, drink Coffee if that helps you to stay focused 😉, Love life and those you have around you, be Thankful, get angry if it helps you to move on but don’t stay angry, Enjoy the small things in life, do things you never tryed b4, keep calm, Laugh and have fun with friends, Live, dream big, show others you care, be inspired by others & inspire, Bake if it makes you happy, be with those you get energy from, Be Blessed!
To stay in the trust to the Lord when the doubts comes and the time getting closer to the date of my new job. To not doubt. To focus on positive and be thankful for what I have, got, the prayer-answers.
Daily life.
A walk with podcast in my ears to clear my thoights. I am so bored at home. I need friends. I need to get to know people. I need a life. Not just a job. To not have anyone to hang with, take a coffee with just chill is boring! But how to meet new people? If you don’t go out, like in the evening, how and where do I meet new people? I don’t. 😔. It feels like my life is so boring.
It’s Monday 11am, I’m in the city. Just don’t know what to do. Would love to start work this week but I have to wait… so what to do this week?
July in Norway isn’t the best month to chill with people becauce almost everyone have theire vaccation. As a singel christian lady I don’t go out in the evening, I haven’t even been on a date, which I had hoped for. My church only have service at 6pm on Sunday’s. …
My veiw right now 11.28am.
Watching people, trying to think on what to do today… It’s a cloudy day today. Just like my brain right now 🤪. But back to the title… to trust the Lord in all.Totrust for a miracle, to not doubt when your search doesn’t give you anything of what you are looking for. To be able to encouraged others by standing in faith all the way, to not give upon the lord. To not fall for the doubts whatever happends.
Outside the swimminghall 😉, Stavanger.
I struggle to stay in focus in my faith to trust the Lord from day to day or even some day’s from hour to hour. I can be honnest on that. I ask the Lord as soon as it happend. I am human to doubt but I am also in need of the script & worship to not fall out. And Christian friends in my age to hang with. How many are we, singel Christians without kids that don’t want or can’t have kids? How often do you see or hear about ‘young adults without kids’ groups in your church? I haven’t in my church. Not even in my old church. Why? Well most churches has groups for young adults & students – an underline of “you might find your partner and we hope you become a family soon” is at least my feeling on what the church wants. How is it in your church?
When you don’t have a partner, life sucks!
Worship gives me peace and I get calm on the inside and in my soul. Right now the only thing, therefor I’ll stop writing and hope some of you out there will come with inspiration to me. How you do in your struggles and how you meet new people.
(Got home approxy 11.30, sat in the couch and they called me back 11.59am(!))
And the school had allready called my references and wanted me. I said yes, mostly cause I had no other work and cause I felt the Lord had open this door for me. This job is on a new level of age for me and activities both before and after school. A system they have here in Norway. I know about it but never worked with it, so it’s totally new for me. I feel like the Lord is challenging me to do something totally new! In the same time as I am curious about the tasks as I am exited about how I can teach younger students to be creative. I am quite tired on teenagers right now so a younger level in school might fit my brain for a year. This job is from 1st grade to 6th grade (age 6 to 12) literally nothing I have worked with before, maybe this is just what I need, maybe this is the age I should work with. I don’t have a clue so I guess we’ll just see how it will go. ^^haha^^.
But than, it comes to an other thing. I (we – me and my cat-boy) need to move again…. nothing I really looking forward to, but is neccesary cause the distance is to far to do everyday without a car! So in my head I want to find a place that is approxy fourtyfive minutes from Stavanger and fourtyfive minutes to work by local transport, which we have a good system on. The question is, should I live in the same county or just on the boarder to my work county?
And this is once again, how the Lord works in my life when he open up for a job cause He knows what I can do and how I can be challenge. It’s a praying answer. It’s a sign of having faith and trusting His ways not mine. And I know that He will open up the right door for the next home too. He knows whats best for me both in distance and what my finacially situation will look like.
I have had 5 day’s of Summer vaccation today. I have enjoyed allmost every day so far. Yesterday wasn’t fun! Headache all day 😦 But I managed to get out and buy paracetamol :-). Today started a bit better. I got my strong coffee and breakfast, charged my Smartphone and headed out around 1.30pm. Shopping was “on the list”. Not just shopping for fun, oh no only what I really need for this Summer and the trip I’m going on in few day’s.
And by the way, as of today in Norway, there are aircraft technicians who are on strike, so if you are going to fly, you “should” have booked a plane that is not on the ground.
I booked a flight in the beginning of May, took a chance and booked with a aircraft that is quite new on the marked, but well, so far is zero of the aircraft technicians in strike. Maybe the Lord was with me on this or I have just been lucky?!? My flight leaves on Thursday. But before that!!
On the bus to one of the big Malls here in Stavanger, was I listen to a pod as normal, rang the phone. And I couldn’t take it, why? Well the whole bus was crammed with kids (at least 40 of them with aduldts) talking. I went of the bus, checked the voicemail and I called back to the number. One of the Schools I have had Applied to in the last two weeks called me! And I got an interview!!! 🙂 🙂 🙂Wednesday morning, June 28th, 08.36 will I arrive and start the interview. It takes me a bit more then one hour to get there… but it will be worth it! So if I get that job I will be needed to move again, but I think if the Lord open up this for me I’ll move to some place in-between of the school and Stavanger. But first the interview.
I’ve got peace to stay in Stavanger municipality an other year, if that means I’ll stay where I live right now (on the island) or that I’ll move into the city I don’t know yet. What I still don’t know is where I’ll work. The job I have right now ends the 31st of July. Yet I do have peace over the fact I’ll get the job the Lord wants for me.
Does this mean that I’ll keep working with yought? Don’t know. Will I keep working in the School? Hope so, but don’t know.
Which path wil become mine?
Maybe I’ll become a substitute teacher somewhere or maybe I’ll get a job with yought like “after school hours”. Just the fact I’ve got peace helps a lot!! Last year I was so stressed about this thing “where will I get a job” and now I am in the same situation and I will just rest in it and see where the Lord is leading me. I am still applying to jobs of interest but no stress. And I have figured out I shouldn’t work more than 80%. Which also helps.
I am still applying, and won’t stop until I get something. But I feel more openminded about what I can and maybe want to try than I have been feeling for the last months. 😉 And I still have peace over the job I turned down, that it was the right thing to do.
I have been praying over this “Lord where will I work nest?” Because it is a bit frustrating some days to not know. But now, I just know it’s okay to just trust the one who have it all in His plans. So whatever everyone asks me I’ll answer I don’t know but it will be fine.
And my sparetime, well offcourse it would have been nice and easier to have the driving licence but hay, I take that when I have time and money. I will try to explore as much as possible this Summer by train, bus and ferries! I will not aloud myself to just be home and do nothing just because I don’t have a car!!
I started this post in April 2020…have been editing it now and than…for the right moment to release it.
Writers comes in different shapes and from different genres and we all write different. I blog as you know, but it did not start there. For me it started as most kids. I wrote stories with a wild fantasy. Long and short ones, some has still not been finished and they are still waiting to be continued others I have forgotten.
My inspiration was (still is) my Mom.
My mother was a teacher and a believing Christian, she left us in November 2020, she taught med to write my name early. I think I was three and a half or maybe closer to age four when I could spell my name and write short sentences. I grew up with 2 biologic brothers, and to foster brothers during the 1980’s. And the impact they had on me as a child has for sure made who I am today!
On the “top of this” I have Journalists in my family, which also are writers. But they do it in another league! But yet they are writers. So I am not the only one that writes and other people read it, that’s what I mean.
Even though we moved around a bit during my childhood and I had to switch Schools and was bulled I have good memories of writing a lot! Yet the best part was how much my mother teached us to write in a early age. She put effort into traditions and taught us all kind of stuff. And now when she is in heaven I just want to share as much as possible from her life and what she gave me.
How are you expressing your creativity? And where?
I remember that I climb up to one of the house roof to find a good “study-spot” to sit and read books to get inspired to write. 😉 Something I would love to be able to today as an adult. But I can not do that for several reasons. The height is not one of them.
I had a happy childhood and wrote as much as I had time to until I was a teenagers, which was when I took a break. A bit longer break than I thought was possible. My mother was my biggest inspirations to write stories with lots of fantasy. I remember she once said “write it all down, one day you might have a book”, or she could say ” You should write down what you see and make a story”. Her imagination was rich, big and sometimes also wild. She loved to read books with excitement, adventure like in a thriller or crime book. That, she past on to me. I love a good crime book.
And I am so lucky to have had the chance to spend every Summer in the Northen part of Sweden (the picture gallery), in our cottage, until I was fifteen or sixteen. I loved to write stories at least in elementary school, after School, in the Summer break, wherever I had the chance (my dad did not like it at all). I have memories, where I sat in a barn with itching hay with a pen and paper. 🙂 Or in the grass watching the calfs and cows and horses on pasture and getting pictures and words in my head.
Örträsk, Lappland, Sweden. Where me & my mother comes from & where we spend as many Summer hollidays as possible.
The write-break, I did not take up the pen to write stories again until I was above twentyfive! Why I do not know. I mean I have always written on something here and there. And it has never been like it is now. The Lord gave me big inspirations, prophetic Words and kept helping me about what to share and how to share it.
To be creative is a part of my life. I can not say how old I was when I started to do other creative things. I do remember I was maybe 5, the first time I was woven something. Did I like it? I do not know. And do not remember what I made. Sorry.
The biggest change in my blogging came in 2019 after I recived a message from God, three times during a time line of (I think) 6 months.
Before (lets see… 🤔🤔🤔 …) December2018, did I use my blog as an ” ventilation ” to clear my thoughts. Nowdays the Lord gives me something to share. Most the times I ask Him “how is this useful to share?”. And you know what?, I always recive the peace inside. Like ” just becauce you do not understand does it not mean someone else does not need it, just the opposite”.
I still write about “this and that” to clear my brain, but nowdays it’s more with a guide from the Lord.
To reach out wherever in the world with my blog.
My blog started small and it has grown just like me and my writing.
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You who are following my blog comes from all around the world. Just like the picture above the smile. And what’s amazes me probably the most is how many of you who writes about traveling.
Opportunity to write, share, encourage other people I never would be able to meet.
Opportunities comes in different forms, different times and different types.
2020; I don’t know if this means that my blog will be even bigger, reaching even more people. Maybe.
2022; For sure it has happend! Today, June 2022, I am writing more and more often and I am paying for my blogsite which I never thought about to do when I started! But the Lord have made it clear. This is how he want me to touch other people.
The freedom just like a flight. You can choose your type of wings.
Hope you have found your way of being creative just like the way the Lord has given you Your gift into your life.
I am thankful for who I am, what I become and for I am not walking alone in this world!
Find Your Joy in Your Life and Journey.
The Lord is my inspiration to write and I pray the Lord will help you with your creative side
I got an interveiw yesterday the 9th in the suburb Ålgård about 30 minutes east of Stavanger. I came 45 minutes early (becauce I hate to be late) sat down outside the School and talked out loud with the Lord what I was thinking there and then.
One thing I knew directly when I sat down, but also on the bus on the way there, was that I don’t want to work in an area where I only see mountains. Which this area /county has a lot of.
Small town Ålgård, Gjesdal county.
As I was talking to the Lord I got a bad feeling inside of me. Like an emptiness. Like a spiritul thing is the closest I can describe it.
Time flew fast and sudden it was time to go inside to the speed-interveiw.
I met one of five of the people that would interveiw me few minutes later, in the hall where the emptyness and wierd feeling appeared again.
And during the interveiw, it felt like a hole of something not good would happend. Super wierd for me. I can’t describe it on any other way.
I answered the questions they had, and told them about who I am and my background. And in one way it felt like I was talking to wall on the other hand I was there with them…. 🤪🤔😬
And the last minutes of this speed-interveiw I got this really not good feeling, like I just wanted to run outside and not be there anymore. Like something bad would happend.
I got out with goose bumps and felt light dizzy in my head.
Catched the bus to Sandnes county where I needed to switch to the train to Stavanger, before catching “my” bus home. And there, in Sandnes, did I start to “feel normal” an hour later… Still talking to the Lord. Asking him to guide my life and let me feel better.
Back home, still talking to the Lord, I got a sentence in my head “it will come something else” and a peace inside took place to not take this job. Yet so so tired in my head, like I had been in a mall or worse with hundreds of people in many hours. But I guess that’s how it feels like when it is something going on in the spritual world.
Any other interveiw I have had before, I feel nervous directly after & until I recive any kind of answer. This was the very opposite! Like the Lord was protecting me. That’s the only way I see it.
Thank you Lord for the talk yesterday & your guidans & protection & the peace! I trust you heavenly Father.
PS. This is as scarry as when I knew I had to trust the Lord for a job & place last year this time.DS.
January 10th, Devotional was about Directions for life. Knowing what’s the importance of getting good directions. To follow God’s directions for life, and you will enjoy his blessing. The words that got stuck in my brain from this devotional was: wisdom, love and talk the truth.
January 11th, Devotional was about Your Double Blessing. William Shakespeare captured something of the wonder of mercy in Portia’s speech in *The Merchant of Venice*. The quality of mercy is not strain’d. It droppeth as the gentle rain from heaven upon the place beneath. It is *twice blest*. It blessedd him that gives and him that takes. You and I are blessed when we recieve mercy and you are blessed when you are merciful to others. The words that got stuck with me was: Are there times in your life, when you are really struggling and nothing seems to be right?
January 13th, Devotional was about Trust God to Put Things Right. Crosswords are somethings easy and sometimes we get stuck on one clue we can’t give up. Yet we move on to the next clue. And every time we find an answer it helpt us in resolving some of the other clues. In the end we are sometimes able to solve most of the puzzle. In one way, reading some difficult parts of the Bible is like trying to solve a crossword puzzle. Rather than getting bogged down in a tricky section, you can use the passages you do understand to help you resolve some of the more difficult ones. The best part is that *God will put things right*.
My thoughts from today (13ths) is this fits me and how I have tryed to read the Bible not understanding what I have been reading. And I’ve got in to a morning habit, a good one. While I walk to the (public) bus, sitting on the bus towards work I listen to the Devotional. So far so good. I can’t say I remember everything or a lot but some words get stucked. And if “today’s devotional” is over before I reached work I listen to worship to be filled up with God and knowing I am his child where he has put me – my job.
Today january 13th, I felt for listen to my favorite encouring preacher Chad Veach of Zoe Church on Spotify (I think you can find him and his Church on youtube too). He was preaching about *Highs and lows* in life with one of the questions “Do you want a vision, a prophetic vision for 2022?”. How to resch out to the Lord and ask for my prophetic vision for 2022. https://hillsong.com/contributor/chad-veach/
My challenge as a Christian right now is to remember to listen to the audio bible studdy during the weekends, when time flies away on a totally other way and I forget to listen. While I was listening to today’s devotional, I did some checking online, and realized I did not hear the devotional, so I listen one more time. And got it. Maybe it also was so that I didn’t hear it the first time because my brain wasn’t enough awake.
Anyhow, I am proud of myself to remember and to listen to it and knowing what it was about. Most things I listen to and just listening without listening propper I don’t remember afterwards what it actually was about. It’s a bit like working in the school, you see the students “listening” without getting the context.
I can’t say I have got in to a good routine yet, cause I’ve only done this now since January 5th. 4 day’s isn’t a habit. But it gives me hope! Normally I manage things like this for maximum a week. Which offcourse this is my goal to past more than a week!! My goal is to do this for the coming 4-6 weeks!
My challenge as a woman right now is…to get past my latest pain. Which started yesterday January 7th. from/after a new birth controll apointment. To have constant pain that I didn’t know I could get, is really here now. The whole point was to get less pain, better control of things you girls/women understands. Yet, here I am with a constant pain. It’s not as bad as it was at the doctor which was 10 of 10 on a scale, no now it’s maybe 1,5-2. Livable.
Which also makes it painful to move around, walk and carrie things like food from the grocery shop… Which I need to accomplish today (you know foodstores aren’t open on Sunday’s here).
To be able to sleep during the nigth, not wake up in pain..Yesterday or actually this morning I went a bed around 03.30am, woke up late even if I didn’t sleep more then six and a half hour.
My challenge in life is manage with “all the things” I haved plan for this Spring and Summer. To actually manage it, have the time for it and not just survive.
Enjoy life and not stress at all. Have late breakfast in the weekends, sew, knit, maybe even the futher offers me a boyfriend, that would be nice. And not turn my sleep all around again which is harder. Stay allert.
Helping out with Birthday gift cards to an other familymember, being good with administrion helps to fix stuff like this. To get credit from familymembers cause I do what they ask me to do it’s also quite nice.
To coop with work and sparetime, go for my walks I need, stay healthy and don’t get corona (!), have a good Christian life. Church.
Stay in contact with friends in Oslo area while I’m here. Enjoy the time here and now and not think so much of what will come yet just knowing what is coming. Just have some controll. Try to be more spontanies about things. Get me “out there” discover places in this county.
An other Challenge is to get back to the gym which I miss and need. My hope was to do it this weekend, but that will not happend as long as I have this annoing pain. 😦
Now it’s time for dinner or maybe it actually is late lunch?!? I had late breakfast should I then skip lunch just because of what time it is? Whatever, i need to cook something and I want to go for a small walk. I’ll guess I’ll see what and when I do things today…
it was a fact around 11am with a temperature on +14 degrees in the shadow! getting warmer each hour. **The forest-park-walley we went to doesn’t have much of wind so it gett hot/hotter then outside the walley. The first symptoms are that I’m boiling, then dizzy, then feel feverish and feel a little cold. Because I walked with one of the students with a diagnose, when everyone were heading back home or back to the after-school-program after 4 hours, we (me and the one student) were lucky to go by car half of the way back to the School, in the car it was an other 2nd grade student with the same symptoms as me, which is sad. I always feel sad for kids because I have been there myself. It’s always harder for kids who wants to play around but gets sick of the sun. 
mia-simone. svenberg 