Interesting greeting, panic, all my thoughts?,where is my faith? doubting, grace…

It’s interesting how the Lord works! Ten years ago before I moved back to Oslo area the Lord gave me some hints about why I needed to move to Oslo area. What I needed to wait for, when living there, before being able to move back to the west coast.

Sunday April 18th, I went through some online preaching I haven’t listen to just “added” to my list to “some day I will start to listen to them”. And in one of the podcast’s they had questions in the end. One of the question where “what are you waiting on?” And I thought, this is perfect to this blog! What are you waiting on,haven’t the Lord answered your question or is it something else you waiting on? You who following my blog.

Two of my closest girl friends needed to get married and become pregnet or even have a child before I could move. An interesting sentence   from the Lord to recive. What about me? Should I wait even longer before I met “my hubby”???

An other thing was that the Lord needed to work within me and with me. Which He has. As one of the things ” a hubby “. When I was 19 y.o. I told everyone who asked me about life that I didn’t wanna have my own kids, which probably was a bit wierd to most people,sadly most of them were Christians. ” it will past ” they said. Like it was a cold or something… 😔. But I haven’t ever had a feeling of “need to become pregnet” becauce I would rather have fosterkids or helping families who needs it with their kids when the time comrs for that. I just wanted ” a hubby “.

It was a new journey a head of me. And I have to say a lot of things has happend with me, my faith and my friends those years.

We are all waiting on something.

A short story from those last ten years…

In 2011 I had to find something to do…

In 2012 I took an other course becauce I could not go back and work in kindergarten after November 2010, when I injured my back.

2013 I had a knee surgery and eleven months of physiotherapy. I had to learn to walk again.

In 2014, still no work, still a bad back. New longer course. But it didn’t leed to a job…

2015 – 2017, different types of administration and Hotel. BUT in 2015 I asked the Lord about moving and the thing I recived was “wait”. And in 2017 one of my closest friends got married. Was this an other sign?

2018 the year of many changes! My first job I kind of liked for 5 months. In May I started the fifth course (during those last seven years) which actually was of interest!!   May 18th, the other close friend got married 😍😍. Now I knew time would not be to far away for ” the move back to the west coast ” In August I got my foot in to my first propper work in years 😊🤩😊. The first school job, was this the job I had “been looking for all those years of waiting ?” It was a open door from the Lord. But it wasn’t ” the job “. I also knew other things needed to get in place…

2019 came, I got a new job, where I am now. And I know the Lord wanted me here.

In 2020 came Corona and my contract was extended until 2021. 🤩. I moved from Oslo community to Bærum community. A start on getting out of Oslo, the City I never liked but stayed there becauce the Lord wanted to use me there. In March I started as a janitor beside my orginal job. The first girl friend got pregnet (YAY the move getting even more closer).

This last fall (Autumn-20) I knew that I wouldn’t stay in Bærum community longer then next summer (which is now). I also recived a new sentence.

Those two girl friends are now married 🤩. And I have been applying for jobs in Rogaland community since february 🤪 still no job. And now have I started to get panic!! Where will I move? Where will I work?? Gaaaa! The whole point of all this becauce I want and need to work more than 70%. I have so much panic and start to think “was I so wrong understanding the greetings?” Was it just me, who wants to move back to the only place I ever felt like home in Norway? am I moving back to Rogaland community? Or not?

I need to move out where I am living now July 31st!! It’s not to late to get a job theoreticly but I am starting to doubt on the whole thing…😔 the panic is getting bigger. God give me one interview with a job-offer!! Or give me a hint on what I am doing wrong!!

I don’t know what to do more than apply.

But, is the Lord on my side in this?? I’m panicking and have started to doubt. I just want to cry!! is the Lord guiding me steps? I have been trusting the Lord so far but now?

I am missing to have a propper housechurch and meet & pray with, if not in person at least online. I have this last year lost some part of my faith becauce of where I live and the Corona. 😔😔😔. I miss the Church IMI in Stavanger, Rogaland. It feels like I have lost myself a bit to… I don’t know where to go, look, do…

On the other hand has GOD used me and blessed me a lot this last year…

Single or Get Married? Part one of three.

I am reading a book about this subject right now because I am interesting about the thoughts and mind. I want to get married. I don’t want to be single for the rest of my life. I have had my own struggle with this for some years. For many years I didn’t wanna get married for the course of get my own kids, no, I wanted to get married and then see if I/we could adopt kids. But during the last 4 years God has helped me to change my mind in this. It has been a struggle for me to come to the point I am today but probably worth it.

And during the Christmas holiday (December-15) God spoke to me about this much stronger then I have felt before. I got a longing desire from God to get married. I’ve got a desire to become a mom, a wife, have my family. And this is big for me.

In the book the writer talks about how we can’t really expect the «old style» any more about «how to sit and wait for the right one to show up» It doesn’t look like that in 2016! If you and me have a desire to get married we have to start looking for someone that are in our network and «qualifies» our personality. We have to be doing things and not just wait. Because if we wait, we will probably be waiting for the rest of our life.

It’s not just “what I want in your personality” its also to be able to see “what can you live with” and “how can we compromise each and an others issues?”.

Ask, Seek & Knock

To want to get married is a decision in life. It’s just like to be in-love with a person, it’s a decision you take. It is like if you or I want to take an education, we look for the right one, we apply and we starts it. Its a bit the same with I want to get married.

I am active.

I don’t just sit and wait.

Its not just the thought about «Yes I want to get married one day» well you might but it can take some longer time then you probably wanted. No, it is a decision «I want to get married» to start the process in your mind and soul, doing, acting and living!

Its How you Think about it.

It’s not just something that will just happen. It’s about you and me. Do I / you want to get married? If yes, then we have to something about it. We have to start talk about it like we talk about other normal things with our friends. We should not be afraid of talking about things we have on our heart with friends.

I think that if we talk more about this it want be so hard, tricky or awkward and both girls and guys will not be so sky or embarrass about the subject and actually ask someone out.

Whats the worst answer you can get? A no? 

Sometimes I think we all are to fast to say those words “no I don’t think we fit each others”. How and what are you grounding this on? Have you seen that much of the persons personality that you know what God’s plan is?

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This is my thoughts, what are yours?

/Mia-Simone