Life has started to become less painful and I have started some new routines that helps the rest of the day to go easier 😊💕. I still say “good night” in the evenings and “I’m awake” in the mornings to Silver-boy 💕 and I think I will do that for some time.
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But I have started to smile again and feel so grateful and thankful for those 8 years I got with him 💕. So many good and fun memories with him. 😊.
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As time flies I am lucky to be able to work as a teacher in art&craft because of sickleave in in those classes. And I am working 100% at least this week (8th to 12th of April). I am responsible for the planing of the classes and motivation in the classroom. I also have the theoretical classes in art&craft too in 5th grade. And here I learn a lot myself 😊.
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I now know this is my future. I finally know “what I will be when I grow up”. The apple 🍏 doesn’t fall far from the tree 🌳, 😆😆. What does that mean for you, well my mother was a teacher for 40 years! I will never be able to be a teacher for that long! But the fact that I finally have figured out what I want to do, means that I will walk in my mothers footsteps of becoming a teacher. Something I have denied for many years 😆😆.
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I have started to smile again and life is getting easier each day 💕.
Easter -24, re-planting seeds.I got a surprise outside my door, this Easter egg with candy 🍬.
I pulled myself together and forced myself to have enough energy to re-plant my seeds today even if my sad back really didn’t want it. I managed to split all my growen seeds into 20 smaller pot’s 🤩
I’ll grow them indoors until the weather here are more stable with warmer weather. I don’t have a clue if it will be in April, May or June.
I also had my first cup of coffee out on my terrace yesterday (March 30th) even if it wasn’t sun where I sat it was☀️ sunshine 😊 and (!) 🌡+11 °C 😊 some wind but hey it’s always wind here 😆😆.
My self drawing pattern trying to figure out how big/small baby size 62 are🤪
Same pattern on an other fabric.
The arm part, tiny!
I have tryed to find the right size of how big /tiny the pattern of size 62 would look like to on a baby dress. Interesting, frustration, annoying and fun all in the same time 🤪.
I have done things like I normally did before this season and before I lost Silver. Even talked to Silver every day like I did when he was alive and it helps to get through the day’s. I have, I think, kind of find new routines. It’s kind of hard to know because it will not be the same after the Easter break. But hopefully it will help me to the next break – holiday season.
After the Easter break I am back to work and then I have to figure out what I’ll do after work that will be new routines. Maybe I’ll sew more now when I don’t need to be social with my cat… Maybe the day’s will look like they did with Silver.
Whatever happens I am thankful for the love from the Lord and friends.
I am hoping I’ll have more energy to do things that gives me positive energy like exercise, walks, Church things or sewing or meet new people. Mostly I won’t feel guilty for not being home with Silver and that makes me glad becauseIhavehad a lot of vad guiltforhim being home alone 😔.
I know I will be able to travel again later when my financial will be better without feeling guilty.
Which in the start of Easter isn’t the easiest but I will try my best. It is the small things I miss the most with Silver. The small-talk, like giving him raw meat (in tiny pieces) when I cook and that he was always home.
He is in Cat-heaven 💙 now. And I have peace with that.
For me it’s more the fact “okay I am not just single I am alone again”... I have friends but they don’t live “next door” I need my licence and a car to be able to be more flexible to meet them. I might need to find new friends again…
I know it is a lot of benefits in my “new” life in what I can do, plan and try. Yet the life with license will be even more flexible and I am not there yet… but 🤞 not to far away 🤞.
I did plant some flower seeds today 😊
and helped an “old” plant with new pot and new soil.
I hope I will be able to use my terrasse this summer 🤞🤞🤞 with the door open.
I will catch up with a friend tomorrow (March 25th) I haven’t seen since last summer… busy time for both of us because we both work in a school. And I will pick up a package of new shoes 😍😍 after. I will try to catch up with my own sewing 🤪
We’ve got to week 40 now, and I have lived in my new apartment a week! If you want you can start to count down to Christmas or Thanksgiving. I prefer to live on the moment.
Double Prayer answer this week… First; cause I recieved a positive answer from NAV (NAV is a public agency under the Ministry of Labor and Social Affairs which is responsible for organizing and financing labor market measures, social security benefits and social assistance.)Second; I was asked to work as a co-teacher and subtitute teacher more then once 🤩🙏✝️.
I was Substitute teacher in Arts and crafts (A&C) today Wednesday in 4th grade and by the day was over I was asked to be a Substitute teacher in 7th grade Thursday 5th in A&C. 🤩 It’s both a prayer answer 🙏🙏 and fun working with this age, which I never done before. I really enjoy it!
And just when I headed out & home after work today, the principal asked if I could come Tuesday, Wednesdayand Thursday in two weeks, after the Autumn break, so they could use me as a teacher. So so thankful for work!!
If they need me somewhere they call me the same morning around 07.30am, othervice they text me the evening before 🤩🙏✝️.
The Autumn rain🌧 is here again. It’s burtal, a lot and windy but yet so lovely!! But we also have few day’s with sunshine like today Thursday the 5th. It’s chill air but sun just like it should be in October 🤩🤩.
Curtainsmakes the different and it gets more cosy, comfy, snuggly and homely…I finally found my curtains after a week 😍. Less ecco in each room 😍 and more color and both pair goes in white and orange 😍.
I have to say I love this apartment it is cosy, big enough for me and Silver-boy🐈 , it’s easy to move around, lovely view throught the windows 🤩, and yes the small garden part that makes even better for a cup of coffee all the year around. It just need some tlc of colors and lightning 😉 . I am hoping for a good amout on my pay date for decoration and outdoor flowers 🤞🤞🤞 . I don’t want to move in a long while cause I love this place!! It’s such a Blessing living here!🙏✝️
By exploring a bit on the other side off my suburb I walked past these two street art painted pictures on Tuesday this week;
New season. New job. New clothing. New colleges. I have started my new trainee-job at Radisson Nydalen in north Oslo. So far have I had “one week” it was actually only two half day’s with information. This last week was the proper week with learning some of my tasks for the rest of my time here. Except for the part that this week is the first week I needed newclothing. For me that meant a new wardrobe well at least one part of only office clothes. I can wear darkblue or black Jeans or nice pants, the blazershall also be blue or black and I need high heels when I walk in and out from back-office. If you’d asked me ten years ago that wasn’t me. Luckily both I and my work has changed.
I enjoy this work so far. It’s not just a job for me. It is in the environment I like. I hope this can lead to a proper job.
Since I started the course in office and administration two years ago, my dream was to work in Radisson Hotel. Which apartment I did not know and which hotel did not matter either back than. Now, after a year in the reception I know thatisnot me or where I can do my best. It was okay for what it was but to usemyknowledgeandlearn even more in an office is where I get satisfied.
Time flies fast, when you have fun or have something to do.
It was first of August just now, well at lest in my head, life, world. But it is the twenty-first! That’s more then half the month. Where did those days and weeks go?
I started as a trainee in a hotel here in Oslo the first of August and I love it! It is a big prayer-answer! Friends have been with me in prayer for this for so may years! It has been a journey with God, where he has tout me how to trust him on 100% and not less. How God has provide my life, financially, with food, with getting to a doctor when I was to sick to catch a bus and a friend drove me. It is so much God has shown me and how great it is when I trust God.
It has been my journey I needed to learn to trust God more.
To understand that this is my foundation for my faith in life. Most people would maybe get mad or crazy to not have a job over five years. It has been a journey with tears, joy, struggles, “whys”, many prayers of “open the right door” and “close those doors that shall not even show some lights”. But I have to say, I have always something to do, one of the things is my customers and secondly is every project I start where I live. And I have been taking some courses during those years, but manly I have trusted God to get into some-kind of work-experience where God wants me, can use me. And here it is. The answer.
As I said above, I have started as a trainee in a Hotel here in Oslo. I love it! It’s fun even those days when we do not have so much to do. Even if my wish was that it would be more that happen during those days I guess that in one way it is good to be here as a trainee in Oslo’s smallest Hotel in the way that it does not take long time to get in to the Hotel-routines, but and yes I have to say but. But I wish it was more going on manly because I need it. I am the kind of person that need the “busy time” to refill my battery (energy) I get energy of meeting and helping people, and here at this Hotel does it feel like everything goes in s-l-o-w-m-o-t-i-o-n or a better description is that when the guests are arriving do they not come everyone in the same time (which is normal) or not even close to each other. A normal day few guest comes maybe around 3pm when we start the in-check and then its a long gap (more then an hour) until next group of guest comes, it can even pasting more then two hours before next guest…
In the same time these days going so fast and I only do four hours per day.
I will start with eight hours next week, which is a bit scary for me. Manly because I have not been working for the last five years, have had back-issues since the summer of 2000 and the worst pain the most recently in the last two years.
But I am to curious to start on those eight hours per day. I am curious and anxiety in the same time about how it will go. And I am to stubborn to not try.
The 17th was my free day – off work. A day I priority to go to the gym, for my health. A routine I got out of during summer, a routine I now struggle to get back into. I miss it so much! But I guess it is normal with new routines in life whatever it is a new job or studies, to get the time to reach to do those things that makes you happy or build up your life in a long term. I guess it is normal when your weeks looks different.
Anyway… I am looking forward to get into a work-routine my body manage.
I received a message from a friend through messenger on Thursday this week, where I had told here about my struggle to get a new routine in my life. And she answered that “it’s normal before all new things get into routines about everything in life” It was just so nice to “hear it” from someone I know and someone who has been in the situation quiet recently.
An ironic detail happen on Thursday.. I managed to get off work thirty minutes before I was suppose to get off. I guess I just was just tired in my head or that I had an other day in my mind. I realized that on my way to the bus so I called the Hotel and talked to the guy in charge. Which in my mind made it normal to think I will start thirty minutes earlier on Friday. Something weird happen there, I can still not say what happen.
During those days at the Hotel have I learn out-check, in-check, double-checking the booking system the hotel is using, where all the rooms are, how many it is, how many conference rooms we have, overbooking, where the fire signs are and some more. How close everyone in the hotel is working together no matter if you are in the housekeeping or in the restaurant. Which also means that “your routine” is not always the original routine, it can be to help someone else in an other ares. Quite many new things, I have got to know around twenty-five new colleges and started to walk much much. All good things in life.
This is how to Relax!
Today is it Sunday, laundry-day and relaxing, charge my energy-day. I have realized that when I am at the Hotel I do not have enough energy when I get home to do more then necessary like eat, maybe check my email, maybe order things that I need (that other people rather buy in the store) to keep up in life. But it is okay for me. Life is to short to think about what other people think I should or could do so I do not do that.
For the future,I really hope and wish I will be able to start to go next to the night-shift worker in a sooner future then I had in mind when I started three weeks ago, and that the night-shift will fit me as much as I think it will. Because that has been my dream so many years now…
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