Tag: Not easy

Sussi-P 🐈2010.12.13-2019.02.16

In October 2016 did I start to look for a new cat, a cat that could live with me and Silver. I found Sussi-P.

She came to us the 3rd of October 2016.

She showed me her personality quite fast. A bit stubburn, always on her terms.

Curious in many ways.

She showed me she loved to go for a walk. I will miss those. I was planing a walk with her today. 💔💗🐈

She loved to play with water.

She slept on my legs when I was sleeping. 💗💗💗

She slept in my lap in the afternoon. 💗💗💗

I have not had such a cozy cat as Sussi-P. 💗💗💗

And today, she was just gonna jump from the table. Didn’t land on her paws. 😢😢😢😢 Stayed down 💔💔😢😢💔💔 did not move 😭😭 did not breath good 😭😭 I could not help her. 😭😭

She is gone.

Laying there like she is sleeping. 💕

I will miss her kindness, cozyness, her way of being Sussi, my girl.

She stop breathing 12:38.

Rest In Peace., Sussi-P.

I will remember you well. 💓💕💖💗

/Mia-Simone.Svenberg

Frustration.

Frustration comes from nowhere most the time. It pops up. Mostly it disapare as fast as it came for me. But right now it’s still on my mind. 😐

Nothing is fun or feel positive right now. It’s more “how will I survive the rest of this month”- feeling with lots of frustration. ☹

My frustration is my life-situation. It’s the lack of getting a job. Lack of a better income. Lack of be able to have some money over in the end of the month.

The picture show my refridge. What I have and no more until the 20th this month.

I am not the kind of person that get depressed but this situation is close to that state of mind… Life isn’t easier just because I am a Christian (if you thought so). I have the same challenges in life as anyone else. I can through it on God and knowing I don’t need to think about it. Which if you who don’t believe, probably struggel with challenges.

I did struggel a lot about most thinking of economics before I started to believe on what the bible says.

I just have to trust God for a miracle to be able to take one day in the time. At least my cat’s have what they need.

/Mia-Simone.Svenberg

Relationship’s

Relationship is….hard, difficult, not easy no matter if it is to your partner or to your family. It is all about to work on it all the time.

I guess it is simulary in most families. I am just so used to not hear complements from my own family. Sad but true. But from my nearest friends and bonus-family I hear more and I am so thankful for that and those people in my life!

What I do hear is *”have you found anyone yet?” or *”you are old enough to get married if you want a family”. Like that is the easiest thing in the world ?!? And why is it so hard to just respect that “everyone” doesn’t find the life-partner early in life ?!? And “everyone” might not want kids or can have there own.

Why is it like this, “you” are somehow a load ask about sore subject to me but if I ask the same question I am rude ?!

Why is it okay to “assume” that a couple wants kids just because they are engaged or married ? Or why is it okay to ask “aren’t you gonna have kids?” What happen with the private frame, “this space is my – that space is yours”?

Who says everyone wants kids? or for the matter want to let you know? Why is it okay to ask “the question” more then once?

Where is the respect for one and another choices today?

I can’t say I saw myself being single in 2015 few years ago, but that’s how life is. And just because I am single I get *the question every time I meet my family and it is more then just enjoining! All I want is respect and non questions about who or if I have met someone.

If I would tell someone about my private life, I do it to close friends or my two bonus-sisters. Before my mom got sick could I tell her, well I guess I could do it now too just knowing she wont even remember it after ten seconds.

I do dream to get married. And I have realized that when that day come it will not please my family. But in the end it is my life, my dream.

/Mia-Simone