Life as a student, day’s from my work experience school, nature, day light’s, Hallowee decoration with touch, wood assignments and All Saint’s Day more.
Picture from my life those last weeks.
It’s been essay writing, new learning 🙈🤪😅 , the hardest part of learning for me as a student I have had! But God is good! And I have good friends that are willing to help me 😊🤩.
November 12th to 18th.
I have been laying in my couch since Tuesday 7th (which you can read in the post before this one), been dizzy every day. Got an appointment with my GP on Friday (November 10th) a not so good day cause everything was spinning around. Both at the GP and after when I got home. Yesterday (Saturday) I managed to walk upright around in my home, first time since Monday 6th when I was working, but I had to support myself to walls or furnitures, dizzy every time I turned or turned my head normal = to fast.
Sunday 12th I have just been llistening to preaching from my home church on their podcast (between 11am to 12pm), about miricales when we come with expectations on what God can do when we pray.(while hearing those words I said in my head «I come with expectations on healing here and now»). How I felt God doing things in my head while I just listen to the preaching (I still have concussion when I type this) about healing. When I started to listen to that preaching I was dizzy in my head and I couldn’t whatch a screen and now approxy 30 minutes later am I typinging on my laptop. Doesn’t feel dizzy at all 🙂 . Amen.
How God’s power can touch us wherever we are when we hear about miricales and what God can do. When we believe on what God can do when we come with expectations towards him.
Hear I am in my couch, 12:30 pm Sunday, and the dizziness isn’t so intense as it was one and half hour ago! How God can heal when I come with expectations! I am looking forward to get up, not to fast, just be careful, and believe God has heald my head. That I will be able to walk normal and not feel dizzy or that everything is spinning. I am looking forward to be able to go outdoors for some fresh air, to be able to wear my glasses I haven’t wear since Monday (trying them on right now, I think it will take a bit time for my eyes to adjust. I will not force my eyes with glasses here and now. I will take in small steps during the day).
Monday 13th. The dizzieness is gone. Thank You Lord! From dizzieness to wobbly walking indoors, stumbling on my own feets… but have been able to walk each Day since last Sunday 🙂 . I managed to watch a movie on Monday with glasses on – a really good feeling – some good things has started to happend. But on Tuesday I was tired all day 😦 . Constantly tired. I even reacted on the light outside through the window. Until Tuesday I have had the blinds down cause it has been to light outside, but on Tuesday I wanted to try and get use to the light and get more daylight in.
Wednesday 15th.Today I managed to walk, wobbly, out to my mailbox and pick up the mail. A good feeling. I even went out with garbage. I was thinking to go and grab my cruches just in case I would try to go for a slow walk. But I neither got the cruches or went for a slow walk. I managed to order food from the online store (the only one who has that service where I live) with delivering on Friday. YAY.
Thursday 16th. Constantly tired again… Didn’t manged much. Sat in the couch all day. Watch some movie and series but not much. I did managed eat and drink coffee and juice othervice I was just in the couch. Got in bed around 10pm. Slept bad. We had snow coming down today, it didn’t really stay, but just the fact we had snow is happiness for me. How I “suddenly” could turn my head normally without feeling wobbly in my head – Yay! And how I have been healing in small steps! How the Lord provides for me in small steps! How thankful I am for every new Day with all “new” things I managed to do 🙂 .
Friday 17th a much better day! More productive Day! I woke around 9am, had coffee and breakfast, got food delivered 10.15am. Ran the washing machine. Was creative on the floor – YAY. Went out (Yes you read right), for a slow walk in my neighbourhood. Walked approxy 20m had a break for few minutes and try to enjoy the sunlight but it was a bit to bright for me. Went on walking slowly 20 more meters, a small break counting to ten, kept walking. Repeating my 20m with a break counting to ten. Walked approxy 100m in total, up the small hill (street) from me. Standing there trying to get used to the brightness. Waited maybe 2 minutes before i walked the same hill (street) down back home repeating walking 20m with a break. I was out for approxy 15-20 minutes. Totally worth it!!
Later that Day I got more and more energy to be creative 🙂 . I was creative in my couch until i «fell onto bed» around 11pm. I was finally tired by myself – happiness!!
Saturday 18th has started good! I just had my coffee and will have breakfast just now. And I will go for a slow walk after. Imy goal is to be able to walk to the nearest grocery store, which normally take me 7 minutes one way. Which now probably take me 21 minutes and that is okay. The grocery store in just few minutes from where I normally work as a substitutet teacher and where I will go on Monday. So I have to managed this.
My goal today is to get out and walk at least twice.
During this last week has the Lord showen me he is with me and that all my friends who are praying for me have giving me more strenght every day. I am so thankful for all prayers cause it shows me that when we pray for each other the Lord can help and do miracles we human can’t do. The Lord has been with the whole way! He has healed my head slowly just the way it needed to be healed. He has given med more and more energy each day as I needed to get where I am now. Small miracles aech day to prove he is with me in this part of the Journey.
And he has blessed me with new friendship and food.
He helps us when we ask for help. He is with us when we ask him to be close.
Every evening before falling a sleep have I prayed «Thank you Lord today. Thank Lord for the healing gift, thank you for letting me recieve it and thank you lord for healing me.» And «I come with expectations for healing me, thanking you for what you do with and within me, thank you for protecting my brain, heart and soul. Amen.»
I believe that the Lord is with me when I pray this, that he is happy I am asking for healing and not just take it for granted. I believe God want us to come with expectations when we pray so he can do more in our lifes and that we can see he is with us when we ask with expectations.
And the goal for tomorrow Sunday is at least one walk and catch the local bus to Church. If I managed that I am really Happy.
Home with spinning head…
Went to work on Monday, was substitute teacher alone in a 5th grade class. Got a bit heavy for me 😔. My brain cooked after 3 school hours 😔🤯. And at my break 11:50-12:20, I couln’t think straight. Lucky me I had an other teacher with me in the last two school hours of gym 😅. But I was by accident hit by 2 handball balls to my front head. I didn’t think much of it when I got home cause my head was still cooking from earlier and I felt on some burnout symptoms. Around 6.30pm, I went to get something to drink from the fridge, and in that moment from the couch maybe 7 steps, my head just started to spinn like I had drinking alcohol 🥴🥴🥺. I had to sit down fast.
I have been home since. The spinning isn’t as intence as on Monday evening, thank you Lord for that 🙏✝️, but it’s still spinning 😔. And offcourse did I have other symptoms like hotflush (perimenopause) and 🤢 which in my head was becauce of the cooking brain.
So today, Thursday November 9th, I called my GP and got an appointment tmrw Friday. And just incase I ordered a cab (taxi) to be able to go and get back home.
But you know what, after that I managed to make and drink a small cup of strong espresso-coffee (I write it lik this cause I didn’t cook it as a normal espresso on a stove, I did it with coffee filter) my head is spinning less and I have managed to type this!😊 Which is the longest in 24 hours I’ve been on my smartphone without been needed to stop after few minutes 😊. I am still laying in my couch typing but yet 😊.
I am thanking the Lord for every hour that I get better and I believe of healing. But it will be good to see my GP and know what’s going on with my head. I hope I can be back working on Monday 13th.
My mothers last day in life, has past.
Mom became 80 years old the 17th of November this year. ❤.
On Wednesday the 18th of November I called the head nurse, at mom’s home for the last 6 or 7 years, to check with her what was going on becauce I recived a wierd text message from our dad.
She answered that the function of swallowing food had dissapared. One step closer to not be here on earth with us. A step in the process of the end of demensia. Which was the first day without food and water for mom. 😢.
A sickness she got approxy 13,5 years ago. The same year I moved to Norway…
On Saturday the 21st I phoned mom’s home at 7.30pm and everything was ‘ normal ‘ which doesn’t say much when you as a family member don’t know much of the end of this sickness…
Monday the 23rd was okay. She was breathing normal, she was still piing. Which means some of the organs was still working. 😊.
Tuesday the 24th, mom or her body was starting to show symptoms that the end was getting even closer. Restlessness in the body and coughing efforts were worse. So then she got a syringe against it. And it made her calm. ❤.
Wednesday 25th was okay stable. Not much of a changed. ❤. Dad went to visit her in the afternoon.
Thursday 26th did not start well. 😢. For none of us. My brother T had phoned early in the morning and her breath was changed during the night. 😢😢😢.
Thursday 26 07:42am did I recive the first message. Glad I was awake. Preparing for work and eating breakfast. I became sad and tankful knowing ‘this is the very end’. I went to work and on the bus I called the head nurse to hear what the facts was there and than.
She told me Mom could stop Breathe at lunchtime or later that day. Hard to say. I told her that my brother T was on his way up to Mom. 08.45am ish. I came to work a bit sad inside. Had my classes with the students I normally have on Thursday.
A close friend of mine texted me during class telling me I should call my brother asking him to hold the phone close to mom’s ear and give her my last greeting to her for the last time. And I did, in my lunch break. Glad I did. ❤.
This was when the tears came.
A reviled momemt of tears and love to Mom. A moment of realizing that from now are just waiting, stay in touch with each other. A moment of feeling alone. A moment of where the only thing I wanted was a physical hug from anyone. A moment where I wished I wasn’t singel.
Trying to eat lunch was easier said than done. And I didn’t managed to have the class I was supose to have. Gave the information to the student on what to do and I tryed to pull myself together, stop the tears and preparing me for the last one and a half hour of assistent. Which I managed. And such a boost for me.
On the bus way home I got a message from my brother 4.56pm “shorter breathing”. 😢😢😢. This was next step in the process.
We siblings was online on Messenger between 4pm to 6pm. Following mom’s breathing process to the very end. She stopp her breathing 6pm on the clock. 😭❤.
She is now in Heaven 😊 with no more pain and no more sickness ❤.
And December 11, will we all be in Sweden for the funeral. 🌹. We will be able to say Good Bye in an other way. 🌹. Grieve in our own way. 🌹. Let the tears flow. 🌹. And just be and maybe feel close to her.
I know she is in heaven. She is in a place she has talked about many times.
She was a believer.
She was saved.
I started my grieving process around Mom’s 75th Birthday in 2015, knowing she would not become better. And two years later was the last time I talked to her on the phone becauce she did not recognize my voice anymore. 🥺. I have had peace since. Knowing she would end up with the angels in heaven with the Lord. ❤.
It feels wrong to say ” I am find ” but I am. I am not in the first grieving process I am some steps ahead. I will always miss her. But we did not live close for the last 13years… But we had a bond. After the Summer I had turned 16, we had a figth and cleanced the air and got a stronger bond. A bond of love and faith. And we both walked a lot after work and becauce of distance between us, we talked ” to each other ” as the other person was a part of the walk. And I am going to continue that. 😉😊❤.
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This pandemic…
I don’t know what to think about it. This pandemic is hard and not much to do anything about more than to follow the rules and orders the government gives us with in whatever country we lives. What I can do is to think positive and be happy for everything I get.
Here in Norway we have had this recomand of using facemask on public transport for some weeks and I have used it every workday and every time I needed to catch the bus. How it is outside Norway I don’t really know. 😟. Just what I see on social media or read on the news.
Now, the last two weeks, the virus has “exploded”. It’s like a ticking bomb. 😢😢. I am lucky I still can go to work, meet co-workers and students which not everybody can. That I still haven’t got the virus in me. Still living my life normal. Some schools are closing becauce of the virus. And whenever my school isn’t open anymore we are back in home-scholing just like it was in this Spring. 😟. Nothing I can say I look forward to for many reasons.
But right now I Enjoy the fact that I can sit in the library. Enjoy the noices. Be happy for no reason or one reason. Do nearly whatever I want long as I just remember to waer a facemask 😷. 😊.
The only downside these day’s has for me right now, is the fact that I can’t go to the place I want most of all things. Well I could but I chose to not, becauce I don’t want to be the one spreadig the virus from one are to my area. I do have asthma and therefor I’m really in the risk group and need to remember that… But for the last one and a half month the only thing I want to do is to visit the town where “he” works… meet him and get to know him even more. … it shall not be easy…
✝️I feel Thankful for how the Lord is guideing me in this pandemi. Thankful for how the Lord is providing for me. Thankful for how the Lord is challenges me. And Thankful for how the Lord is blessing my life. ✝️
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I have just been listening to a preaching from my Church and wanted to share with you some of the parts I felt was related to us. Questions in the preaching and some of my thoughts.
How can I be a better version of myself in the world I live in today? Like an interveiw and the most comman question ” where will you be in 5 years?”
Are you and I like Epaphras friend who adding Jesus on the top of all other Gods in your life? Are you and I looking for a easy fix in your / my life? (Colossians 3: 5-11)
New clothing. How can you get those new cloths? We can have good things in life, a job, family etc. The only thing is All this is temporary. It is a challenge for us Christian people. What happends if you don’t have all those temporary things around you? What happends when you loose someone or something like a job? Like the society is today with the Virus the whole World got a taste off in 2020. What do you have left in life? Well if you have Jesus in your life, you still have Him when everything else of the temporary is gone. If you don’t have the Lord in your life what do you have than? Do you know your base? Your foundation? I do know mine.
“In this new life, it doesn’t matter if you are a Jew or a Gentile, circumcised or uncircumcised, barbaric, uncivilized, slave, or free. Christ is all that matters, and he lives in all of us.”
Colossians 3:11 NLT
https://bible.com/bible/116/col.3.11.NLT
… How we are changing through what the Bible says. Where will you be in 5 years? Will you have the New or old cloths on? Good and important questions to ask. We can chose where we want to be. We have a choise to sort out of things in our life. By trusting the Lord and live a closer life with Him. We can put on the new clothing by choosing Jesus into our lifes. And with Jesus Christ as our foundation. Or we can those to still wear the old clothing and continue with what we think is the best for our life. We have a choise.
With Jesus Christ as our foundation we know where we are, where we are going. Maybe not the same overview as the Lord has for our life. But we know our direction. Whereever we comes from, whatever we have done, whatever we want in our lifes, the Lord is with us as long as we are with Him.
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The woman that has inspired me in many ways had biRthDaY yesterday. She became 79 yesterday 🎉🎉. She is ill with dementia and Alzheimer and she is my mom. She has learned me a lot of life, how cook food, how spend or not spend money. She is the person I look up to. She has been my inspiration in many ways.
Many people is surpriced she is still with us becauce of her illness and becauce she has been really sick twice in 13 months. Both times didn’t the doctors think she wouldn’t survive. But she is a strong woman. A lot of people was praying for her and she came back stronger. 🙏✝️
I am Thankful even though I have not seen her for the last four years. I love her even more now, than what I said or showed her when she wasn’t sick.
And I miss her.
I just want to hear her voice again…💖
She was the one that learned me to prepare food, wash clothes and make easy dinner with one of my brothers when I was 8 y.o. She nagged on me to clean my room as I become a teenager and she have helped me to move so many times 💖 (!) She has always been there even if we lived on a distance 💖 of minimum 350km to maximum 1200km for many years.
As long as I can remember she has been on a bycycle, to work or to the grocery store or prayer meeting. She loved to do easy exercice. She stoped using her bycycle about a year after she stoped to drive the car. We didn’t aloud her for safety of her self and others in trafic. But she’s been able to walk for many years. Even if it only were for 20minutes in the end, she walked. She had a small route she walked daily. 💜 She liked to be outside, she loved the forest, she went to the forest to pick wild berries and learned me where and how to find it.
This picture is from 2011 that Summer she and dad came visit me here in Norway. That was the last time she visit me. 💖 Her sickness had escalated this year and when they visit me I had to enjoy every minute I got with her being able to talk and walk. I miss that part of my mom 💖
Every year I pray I will have the opportunity to go and visit her for the last time before she is gone. 💖
I hope I make the trip in 2020 both financial and with someone that can watch my cat 🐈.
My mom was saved as a teenager and she had a relationship to the Lord. Now I 🙏 the Lord is with her every Day.
HaPPy biRthDaY Mom 💖💖💖
Love you!!
💖You have helped me in many ways in life! I can’t say it to many times, I love you Mom. 💖
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The winter breeze with there cold air blown in over Oslo few weeks ago. It means that the air is cold (minus degrees celsius) not just chilly anymore but the thermometer sais plusdegrees (read below) But the nature looks like this..
It means that most people wear feather jacket now, winter hat and knitted glows. It shows on the thermometer, it might say +3 (but it means -4° C) not that cold no. But this coldness is the one that goes straigt into your bones. 😑 Doesn’t matter how much wool you have on you you will freeze.
It might be hard to understand if you never experience it. It doesn’t look like it’s cold.
The mornigs are bright and lovely!
Today the 11th of November is the first morning when the thermometer shows under 0° Celsius
and the ground is white of frost 😊 and the weather cast sais the ❄ is coming 😊
Morning light the 10th of November..(above)
Cold ground, it could look like snow but it isn’t
But ice on the water is defenetive a sign of colder Days 😊
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