God has given me lots of patience over the last 8 years!
In 2011 I had to stop working because of a accident where I was working (kindergarten). I had a bad felt backwards with my back to the ground, the “forest floor”. I hurt my back badly.
I could not work for about 2 years. 😢
In 2013, February had I mine knee surgery. I had to learn to walk from scrach. Had rehab for 11month!
In September 2014, I started a coures to further educate me within Office and administration. I had a desire to use the knowledge I carried with me in this profession. Despite having two years of practice i this profession, I never got into a job…☹️
In August 2016, was the year I started to have internship/work-experience. The first lasted a year and led to another internship in a Hotel(in back office) which didn’t lead anywhere but it led to an other internship (also office). Forthtime of internship, which is the one I have had until today the 28th of February.
And tomorrow 1 of March I start working, first time in 8 years!!
Woop woop. 🤩🤩🤩
I have worked hard and tried to find a Job I thought was in the right field but Godshowedme whatHe wanted for me lastMay (2018).
Most people and friends I know, don’t understand how I could live in this situation/ have this life. I only trusted my heavenly Father to lead my steps.
I have asked myself “what do I want to work with?” Many times in life and the answer has always ended in “I want to work with youth”.
Now I will. 💖
From internship at the School (college) to job 😊 at the same School.
In October 2016 did I start to look for a new cat, a cat that could live with me and Silver. I found Sussi-P.
She came to us the 3rd of October 2016.
She showed me her personality quite fast. A bit stubburn, always on her terms.
Curious in many ways.
She showed me she loved to go for a walk. I will miss those. I was planing a walk with her today. 💔💗🐈
She loved to play with water.
She slept on my legs when I was sleeping. 💗💗💗
She slept in my lap in the afternoon. 💗💗💗
I have not had such a cozy cat as Sussi-P. 💗💗💗
And today, she was just gonna jump from the table. Didn’t land on her paws. 😢😢😢😢 Stayed down 💔💔😢😢💔💔 did not move 😭😭 did not breath good 😭😭 I could not help her. 😭😭
She is gone.
Laying there like she is sleeping. 💕
I will miss her kindness, cozyness, her way of being Sussi, my girl.
When I started to blog I did it clear my head, not really to get people to start following my blog for sure! But here I am, few years later with around twenty followers!
It’s been a Journey, my Journey to figure things out. A positive exploring journey. Where I have had to trust Dad’s Word to me, to listen to what He says and understand that this is what He want me to do not just for me but also for you who read.
It’s about to share the good and fun
and bad or sad
things in life.
God has given me the gift of greetings to other people. He gives me uplifting words, pictures or Bibleverses. He has also given me prophetic words back to me through friends this year – 2018.
*The first greeting I got this year was; the 28th of April.
I did not really understand, so I Said “Dad if you give me the same message 3 times I know it is from you, but you also have to show me clearly what this is about.”
*The second greeting came in June and *the third in November.
All with the same message:
“I will make your Creativity bigger”.
Was I or Am I up for a new challenge?
In November and December I started to see clearly and understand what Dad wanted for me and this blog. When more and more of you who are now following my blog. I understood this is my challenge, my gift from Dad my Lord. This is what He wants for me.
This is the greeting “I will make your Creativity bigger“.
To share.
My Dad, our heavenly Father, has spoken to me, to share my Christian life, my Daily life to inspire others. To follow Him and let Him guide me.
I do not know my future but I know He will guide me and give me the right words.
I am not good to read the bible… But Dad has pointed this out to me;
“You are willing to hear my voice and do what I ask you to do, which for me is better then to read and not understand the words.”
Not that I don’t want to not read the bible. No no no. I want it but I fall a sleep ☹️ no matter what time it is. It is all about to get good habits. Which for me is to read through the Bible-app and read uplifting week-plans.
So now I’m looking 4ward to next year and the year after that! With Dad and this blog. 😊
I wish you all a Happy New Year🎇, Happy life🎉🎉, a good relationship with Dad our heavenly Father where ever you are around the 🌏🌎🌍.
I will Try to post more often then until December-18, which was special. I hope my blog will be full of inspiration and that you will let your network know about me, if you like it. 😉
It’s Christmas eve 🎄 it’s finally here. The Day I have been waiting on.
Here comes the verse for today; Psalm 37:21
The wicked borrows and does not repay, But the righteous shows mercy and gives.
This verse is just like what Christmas is all about. To show mercy and be giving.
We celebrate the newborn son that came to this World for us. Our Father gave us a son, to be able to show mercy to others. And we have the oppurtunity to give, show love and mercy.
It’s little Christmas eve, the last day to shop the very last things.
Here is the verse of today;
Psalm 31:7-8
I will be glad and rejoice in Your mercy, For You have considered ny trouble; You have known my soul in adversities,
And have not shut me up into the hand of the enemy; You have set my feet in a wide place.
And have not shut me up into the hand of the enemy; You have set my feet in a wide place.
It is the time to recieve, to enjoy with friends and family, to love and forgive. I hope you will be with someone you love or care for tomorrow and the Day after that.
Spend time is better then gifts you rap in paper. Remember, you can’t buy time but you spend time. 😉
Crochet or knit hats and scarves. The church’s input in Norway – Kirkens bymisjon – is in the process of the annual “doing a good cause for your city”. It means that if you can knit or crochet you can help those who are poor to have a better Autumn and Winter.
I have since last Sunday crocheting Winter hat’s in different sizes from rest yarn that is just laying at home.
This is the one I started on last Sunday during the Church service;
(Adult size)
It is relaxing and it goes so fast to crochet them. 😉 Those two I made during the week after work – internship – in-front of the television.
(Kids size)
(Adult size)
This one I just started on… (big adult size);
Soon it’s time to buy some yarn othervice I will not be able to crochet at all…. But this is one of the creative things I will be doing this Autumn.
Join in to to do some good cause’s for your city! 😉
I am so lucky to be a part of an other Wedding Party. This year I am the Wedding coordinater again but I have been a part of the planning since a bit before they actully picked a date. And the bride to come wants me to be a part om most everything.
This book is something I have been wanted for some time and now I got it. So nice to know where you wrote the last things and helpful to find everything inone place. 🤣😊😍
It hasn’t been much to do until now, and now it’s only 18 day’s left. 😂😣😲😊
It’s gonna be more to think of and fix and help and do the decoration, reading emails, be the communication person between the Wedding Couple and Hotel, where they not just gonna sleep but also have the party. 😊 It might be Stressful some day’s to both be working and do this on my speartime but I will be paid this year. I learned myself a lesson last year.
So far and so close up I am still enjoying it.
For exampel I was talking to the bride to be yesterday, we got back to my home after I was done at work. Went through the list for the day and the day’s before when most of her family is coming from America. How does it look like, when is whom coming, how to transport everyone to the BBQ Party and how naiv will some off the Americans be who never travled before?
The list did stop but it took us 2,5 hours including eating dinner. 😂😂
We are lucky that we think the same and both have we experience from behind the Wedding Planing 😍 so we both know how much it is to think of. But it is still a bit rough for my friend to see and understand it all. “Ithit me how many small details I have to think off”says the Bride to be.
To get her head around and understand that the small details need to be closing up. To put off time with the groom and make the program, menu, sitting, table map, guest book etc.
I take the metro each day to my workplace like most other people in Oslo. Everyone is on their way. Some are stressed some sleeps.
This morning I felt like one of those who sleep or rest their head. I felt like sombie even the first hour at work. Why? Because I went up one hour earlier then normal. I am not a morning bird! I like my extra hour in the morning! But right now it’s actully quite okay to be heading home. So it has the benefit of get up earlier to be home early.
One hour makes such a big different in the afternoon!
I will try to get up the same time until the sommer-holliday. I let you know how it goes. But this is only week-day’s!
My inspiration to colours in life comes mostly from some interior magazines.
This is my second book of inspiration, or scrap-book as most people would say, where I do my version of “the pins” you find online. I have to keep my inspiration or ideas when I find something I like. Most people who buy a interior magazines maybe keep it a month, I keep it for years. I go back and find something “new” I have not seen or maybe I did not like it when this magazine was new in my home..
Here is few pictures from my 2nd scrap-book… it’s a good mix of Christmas to how to organize flowers with candle ligths 😉…
Some ideas from my first scrap-book..
This is like a candy store for me.
This gives me lots of positive energy and it’s relaxing for me, it’s like to “go in to a hobby room” even if I just do this in my couch or sewing-corner. 😆😆😆
October is the month of breeze in the morning that looks like fog and with naked trees and lonely leafs hanging there. A beautiful season just like any other season of the year. How lonely a leaf can be in the wind but still shine up a person walking past. How all those colours that still meets us in the morning on our way to work, gives me a big doze of inspiration I bring with me the whole day. How wonderful the nature looks like every Day! I just can’t get enough! I love this season. Let it never end (I know it will) but right now, no please.
How the rain when it suddenly comes «from nowhere» and wash the street and clear the air. How the chilly air in the early morning really wakes you up and realizing the winter month isn’t far away anymore. November is just a round the corner. A new season is coming. But still, to stay in the moment, BE, THINK. To reflect over the Day’s that past.What did I do? Did I enjoy the day and all the colours?
Since I started at Radisson as a trainee I have realized I appreciate nature in an other way then I have done before, a bit like in the same way as I think I did as a child. I see, I watch, I enjoy. I think of what I see, how is it possible to get so strong colours on a single leaf? Could the human person make something similar? Or is it only one who is behind all this?For me it hasn’t always been for sure. I have been far far away from God for many years and I was not as sure anymore during those years. How far away was my thinking to someone else who doesn’t believe in something “bigger” than us human? I am curious how other thinks not that I will change my way of thinking over the day but still. How many are not living there lives day out and day in without reflecting on how other people think?
How do you think about seasons in the nature?
How do you think about the life you have made?
Are you happy or just pleased?
Here I am, sitting in my favorite chair, with my legs up on the “cat tree” with the view of the colorful trees outside my window and one of the cat’s above me on the shelf. The sky that changes all the time, slowly and nice. Giving me inspiration to write again. Listen to ABBA…
The swallows are still flying around wondering when they fly south? What a beautiful Day we got! And I have to clean my house before I’ll go out… But that’s okay.
I love the Autumn and have since I was a kid. It is something about all the colours, the rain and the air.
It gives me more energy then any other season. For me it’s a positive time.
I love the Autumn rain because it most the time comes fast, hard and leave most the time fast but I also like it when it’s rains for day’s. It’s something beautiful with rain.
But it’s also all about all those beautiful colours! The nature has in my eyes a special power when it comes to colours. Just how different all kind of leafs changes colours from Day to Day is a WOW feeling!
How a flower which is both blooming and over-blooming and still is so beautiful.
Or when a leaf goes from green to red!
How beautiful a yellow feld can be…
And how a waterstreem flows through a subarea and the sound of it give you harmony just pasting it above it..
How beautiful it is to walk with trees on both sides that shifting in colours ☺ or pasting this with the contrast.. 😉
It gives me lots of inspiration, Joy and energy even if I have a bad day or a cold. 😉
New season. New job. New clothing. New colleges. I have started my new trainee-job at Radisson Nydalen in north Oslo. So far have I had “one week” it was actually only two half day’s with information. This last week was the proper week with learning some of my tasks for the rest of my time here. Except for the part that this week is the first week I needed newclothing. For me that meant a new wardrobe well at least one part of only office clothes. I can wear darkblue or black Jeans or nice pants, the blazershall also be blue or black and I need high heels when I walk in and out from back-office. If you’d asked me ten years ago that wasn’t me. Luckily both I and my work has changed.
I enjoy this work so far. It’s not just a job for me. It is in the environment I like. I hope this can lead to a proper job.
Since I started the course in office and administration two years ago, my dream was to work in Radisson Hotel. Which apartment I did not know and which hotel did not matter either back than. Now, after a year in the reception I know thatisnot me or where I can do my best. It was okay for what it was but to usemyknowledgeandlearn even more in an office is where I get satisfied.
On Sunday I got an allergy reaction in my throat after I ate some food-snacks and I realized it must been nut in it.
Walnut.
Bad bad bad.
I had a similar reaction in my throat fifteen years ago on chic-peas. In that time a deathly reaction.
This was nearly the same feeling but I didn’t go to the ER as I probably should have done…
I went from “work” one hour before I was suppose too. Send an email to my boss about what happen on my way home. I just went home cause I thought I had medicine at home, didn’t find it but luckily the swelling went down by my normally allergy medicine.
Monday morning when I woke up the itching was still there so I phoned my doctor, got an appointment. Got there and got good medicine that was helping fast. 🙂 Went to “work” did my hours and everything was finally fine again.
Tuesday came and now I woke up with a bad red, swollen foot.. I thought it would go down during the day but it didn’t, so after the busy time on Tuesday between 7.30pm and 9pm my foot was so red and swollen I just had to call the hospital I had my knee surgery at (in February-13). They told me that I should go to the ER asap so I asked my co-worker if it was okay and he said “health first work always survive” and the night staff would be there quite soon anyway.
So I went to the ER. It didn’t take as long time as I thought it would (which it normally does). But when I met the doctor at ER the foot wasn’t so red any-more. The blood test was negative which was good cause then I could leave and try to get home. I knew that “my bus” didn’t go any more cause of the time of the night but I catch the tram to the central station and then the metro to the closest stop of walking distance. I had a good walk back home and a good chat with God.
Even if those days has been different I am thankful for the health system here in Norway and that I can get help when I need it without high bills.
Today Wednesday was my relaxing day and recharge my battery. And I have.
But when I checked Facebook I got a chock. A quite close friend have just past away. He and his wife was one of the first couple I got to know when I moved to Norway nine years ago. They kind of become extra parents to me. I have been looking up to them as Christians and as marriage couple. And now he is gone. He became 50+… I can’t really understand it. A cording to what his wife wrote on Facebook he was injured at his work in his head and brain.
R.I.P Danny Danson.
Prayers goes to the families. Lots of LOVE to everyone close to this family!
I just had to go for a walk, clear my brain and talk to God. I am still a bit in chock.
Since last blog I am Happy and Thankful for what happened during the meeting I had last Thursday. I went to this meeting at PS: Hotel to see and hear if I could start a work-experience there, and I will. I got all the information about how it work and what will be the plan for me when I start.
I will start the 1st of August. The first week will I be there – in the reception – hopefully from 0800am to 1200 (lunch) Monday to Friday. The second week I will be there also Monday to Friday 1400 to 1800. Those two weeks is all about learning as much as possible and after that I will start earlier and also work weekends.
But hey, right now I am just in the happiness-moon So Thankful I finally got a door open, have opportunity to get the opportunity to be in a Hotel reception and get the work-experience I need to get the dream-job.
This is what I have been waiting for, praying for and asked God for in my life to happened. God has been patience and given me so much patience the last year.
It is one year and one month since I was doing something where I had routines, things to do and had colleges. One more week of doing those things I have pushed a head of me… I have been to IKEA and other stores to get things I’ve needed for some time. I am going to the optician, my orthopedist those last days of this last week. And I manage to get the wrong date of my nieces Birthday. Big Ooooops! But it’s on its way in few hours.
Yea, since last blog I have actually been swimming three more times. Lovely to be in the water and swim some but the heat is not in a good combination with my body. I feel like I am a “siesta” person, that I am born in the wrong continent in the same time I know I would not survive to live in a warmer continent.
I love the winter, snow and when it is minus degrees.
In summer-time I love it when it is not more then around plus 22 degrees C, that’s perfect for my body and me! It is enough warm for me to live. Warmer and I do not live I just survive. And the different between “just survive” to actually “live” is big!
Anyway…
I am Happy and looking forward to start a new chapter in my life!
Yesterday I received a phone-call about my future. In my head I thought I would received a letter, but hey a phone-call is better and quicker.
I woke up of my phone vibrating in my bed, my consultant from NAV was calling because I send her a msg yesterday. …So today I’m sitting here in front of my lap top thinking about “who am I?” and “what is my qualities?” with my coffee on my left side of me in the mean time my cat Silver playing around with some paper. It’s not an interview it’s a small meeting with information about what they can offer and what kind of expectations I have.
Lets go back in time so I can explain what’s this is about.
SO I took a course in office and administration two years ago. A really good course I would say. I learned a lot new stuff I didn’t know and it went over 30 weeks and then it was a period of work-experience over 90 days or three months depending ho you want to express your self. I had three months of work-experience in the same building as I took the course, which for me wasn’t a problem. The problem was that I didn’t get a job there after the three months and I didn’t get the experience I needed to work in the field I wanted. I have had a year of applying to jobs with no luck because I don’t have what’s requested. But God has given me a new term of patience in my life and he let me be myself and enjoy life in a way I haven’t enjoyed it before.
So in December last year I had an appointment with my consultant at NAV about what this KVP (Qualifying Program) is and how to apply to it, what I needed from my doctor and if it was something else we needed to think of. I got the appointment with my doctor, got the paper to my consultant and the process was there.
In March I started a process to “pick up the phone” and ring all kinds of Hotel’s because that’s my dream. I want to work with booking and in the reception in a Hotel, I would fit perfect to work during the night. (For those who knows me, they would say yes, that’s where you belong. Because I am so much a night-owl.) Unlucky no Hotel’s could give me a spot. One of the reasons was they went all out on strike in April and during May. So when June came along I felt this is over and I texted my consultant and we started the process we are in now.
In the end of May we applied for me to get a spot in this Hotel, (PS: Hotel in Oslo) to have work-experience. And yesterday as I said before, I received the phone-call and will have a meeting tomorrow.
I am now looking forward to start asap even though I would like to have some-kind of Holiday before. Well I guess I’ll know after tomorrow when I can start and how soon I’ll have Holiday.
I been thinking about what I’ve done for the last few month since I moved in here…It’s actually been quite much.
Since I moved in here I’ve met new people from an ecumenical Christians group, the 3rd of June I took my first swim in the Fjord, it was at least +20 C in the water. Lovely! (but I have not done it since…)
(The trip went the 18th of June with two male friends from my Church, I’ve been writing of this before so I skip it.) This week was also a creative week at home. I made some hanging basketsfor my flowers, fixed some pants and made a home-made pizza.
The 11th of June had the ecumenical group a new gathering with this group. An evening in the team of “prophetic gives”. Very interesting!
The Monday after I had dinner with my friend (who been to Bible-school) and catch up time for the last year and shared with her a bit from the Saturday evening. Lovely time!
And how much that have been happening during this year in both her and my life! Good stuff!!
I went back to the same area the day after but to visit my friend with the twine’s. Great time to spend with them!!
A bit more then a moth ago now, got I a summer-haircut, a bit to short for my taste but hey my hair grows like grass. So now one and a half month later I have the length I like. 🙂
before and after.
Two days after the Sweden-trip a friend of mine came to visit me in this apartment. We had some good few hours just chatting and catching up what’s going on in each others life’s. It was nice!
I’ve been cooking both soup and dinner that now is in the freezer, I love it when I have the energy to do that and fill up my freezer.
I would love to have a bigger freezer but hey, I can’t have everything at once.
In the boxes (from Sweden) I have found so many things that I both didn’t know I was missing until I found them and off-course things I do have been missing. One of those thing was the mop-set to clean my apartment with the green soap.
I love that scent!
I found the cross-stitching box so I started to make something to a friend (I can’t write what because she hasn’t got it get).
In the end of June I had a friend (who lives in Seattle) staying in my home. Nice, cool and fun. She stayed four days. Lovely time to have! I have to get a job so I can go and stay in her home!
Bobbi Jo from Seattle.
About two weeks ago I realized I needed and wanted new shoes, some kind of boots that I could use during Spring-Summer-Autumn. A shoe I actually been looking for, for some time. So I went into a store just looking around to see if I could find something I liked. And I didn’t want something “normal” like brown or black. No I wanted something more colorful (because that’s me). But what did I buy? Brown boots. Haha moment! But I realized brown is good. They match my two brown purses I have perfectly.
I’ve been creative with fabric colors, screen print and shoe-pattern. I have not been sewing as much I’d hope for but hey I’ll do it later.
I’m on Instagram as well. By name; creativemiasimone.new earrings for the moment.
I made pie of cherries from the garden and forest berries from the freezer yesterday. Yummy!
I’ve been to the island Bygdøy here in Oslo with a friend, to chill, talk and walk, I’ve been social with other friends on a movie (which I normally do twice a year).
Bygdøy.
I enjoy life!
So far has this summer showed us a mix of weather like thunder-storms, sun and rain still with summer-temperature between +13 C to +24 degrees C. Which I think is totally fine.
I’ve been reading books on the nights – just the thing I love to do during the summer!!! I gives me Summer-feeling maximum. A happy feeling.
I want to have a Holiday-feeling which I haven’t had since my last job…which is more then five years ago.. So maybe I’ll get some-kind of Holiday this Summer.
I went to Sweden Saturday the 18th of June because I had to go and get my things from the storage place I’ve used for all the years I’ve been living here in Norway (soon 9 years), if I didn’t go and get it it would have been send to a 2nd hand store which I did not want.
We left around 8:20 am from Oslo, me and two strong male friends from my Church. A trip that took longer then we thought it would take. It isn’t longer then 400km one way and it should take around 5,5 – 6 hours but it took nearly 7,5 one way. Well we had our lunch-stop at IKEA Karlstad…
IKEA Karlstad.
So we arrived to Svärdsjö, outside of Falun, Dalarna at 2 pm outside the chapel which was the storage place – Svärdsjö is really on the country side! Cozy farming area about 26km northwest of Falun. We walked around stretching our legs before we started the packing into our Van, which went smoothly even if I found stuff I totally had forgotten, we were done in 2,5-3 hours. Hitthe road hungry so our first stop was for food at MAX – a Swedish burger business. Back on the road at 8 pm with the same amount of Scandinavian miles a head of us (400km).. few necessary stop’s like peeing and gas otherwise just a lot of laughs in the car. We came finally home to Oslo around 2 am Sunday-morning maximum tired after nearly 17 hours on the road. Crazy trip!But now it’s over. 🙂
MAX Falun. The Van with the “burger as a crown” was our.
Borlänge, Sweden.Following E16 to Oslo.“Grab a coffee” at Djurås, Dalarna.Pasting on the road-trip..
God have prepared a lot before the whole trip started! and I have been SO blessed through the whole trip! God made me be able to borrow a business-car for free via a friend in Church only gas to pay. Strong male friends from Church and an other guy helped me unload on Monday. All this is a “WOW”-feeling for me who hasn’t a job and whom mainly just go to the gym twice a week and is home and “just being creative”. I feel blessed to have a Church with so nice and good friends that can help out in this kind of situation!
We carried it all in Monday and it look like a mountain on the middle of the floor…Luckily I can sort it out and that I have storage space in the apartment. 🙂
For the first time in my “new” apartment I finally have my table from my mom’s ant I been missing a lot to sit and be creative at, read, sewing or just write the blog-post’s. A table I in-harried from my mom’s ant in the 90’s. It’s just in-front of the window. I created a good inspiration-corner. It gives me “flash back’s” to Carrie in Sex & the City, how she sits and write her column to the news paper. It’s not near the same view but it is a window spot.
So here it is, in my not to big apartment my “creative-inspiration corner”…
I did quite much between 5 pm Saturday and 02 am Sunday morning! When I woke up Monday morning I started where I stopped. And one of the first thing I manage to do was to drag the table over the boxes in place. So nice! And in the middle of “to sort out” yesterday I had laundry Day…and it started to rain just after I had hanged my laundry out to dry in the wind… well well isn’t that life so say. 🙂
And here I am writing a blog-post on the laptop on the table. Happy feeling! But I still today have some boxes to sort out and to move away and see how much more that will go to Fretex (the 2nd hand store here in Norway).
I can only say I am blessed to live here not just because my Land Lord and Land Lady. I have been blessed in so many periods here in Norway. God is so real for me. He is a part of my Daily life and I know he provides everything in my life, both with the people I have around me and also everything that happens in my life. As I wrote higher up, I don’t have a job and I haven’t been working in the last five years and still God walk beside me in everything I do. I know that everything I have done so far has been a part of his plan for me. And God provides me with food, like dinner with friends and cloths when my finances is bad. He sorts out things in my life like I am sorting out my belongings in the boxes right now. He leads me into new social activities and groups so I can meet new people when I feel I walking around in a circle with many of my old friends. He leads me on new paths in life and what to do.
He have showed me several times during those soon nine years I’ve lived in Norway that it is here He wants me to Live and now I do not have anything left in Sweden that holds me there.
I’ll show you the creative thing I did yesterday.
Coffee cups with painting before they got into the Owen.
This blog-post will be repeated more then once but with new pictures and new text during this summer as an update of “what I found and finished up”.
I wanted to sew a skirt or a jacket but I have to keep my budget strict this month, but during my search of an interesting pattern and not to complicated I found a bag of what I thought was just fabric. But oh so wrong I was, it was a start of a par of pants I stared on I think last Summer. Linen fabric, just so nice a warm Summer! Also something I have been thinking of “do I have any linen fabric at home?” And there it was. Such a nice feeling! I think I stopped those projects most because of lacking space and now I do have just that. Space. I have a hobby-room! 🙂
So I found my iron and started the new “face” of those pants. Iron them, sewing them together as far as I manage before my back “said” pain.
So this blog will be about all kind of “lost projects” I will find in all the hidden bags or boxes of fabric, which is quite much. I’ll also try to build a cloths-hanger during June because lack of space to hang my cloths, to my walk-in-closet by re-used parts from a bookshelf from the -50’s in metallic.
Here is my inspiration in life to get up every morning, to do what I manage, to live, to get through the day. My staircase..
The gym.Silver – my cute cat.
Life on a stick, isn’t that what the saying says? It’s a short line and expression of how life is…
Life is like a staircase. You walk up and some days you walk back. But to get up to the top is the best, because there you’ll see what’s hiding from you. You’ll see the light, all the things you know and don’t know.
It’s been almost three months of searching on my own to find a place where I could have a new work-experience, with no luck. It’s been a journey of it’s own. It’s been fun most days.I challenge myself and made it. But I have now come to an end and gonna apply for part-time jobs which is what I can manage with this body today. If I in the future will manage a full-time job is not in my head right now, but will see maybe I’ll be there again. I hope so. Right now I just need to focus on the gym twice a week and then get in to a good job-routine with structure.
I am still walking my staircase. It’s an interesting climbing to reach my future. And I am still looking forward to see what this year have to give me and what it will bring me even after five month into 2016. I am still as curious what new things I’ll learn on the way!
So today is the first day in three months I am gonna look for and hopefully apply for a job. In the meantime my consult at NAV will try to help me to get me a work-experience place that can lead to a job. So every day I have enough energy I’ll look for a job and I’ll have my breaks, I’ll find something that fits me! I haven’t given up! I see the light in the tunnel.
Different thoughts has past my brain the last two weeks about what I could write as a blog this time. Thoughts like how my moving-day went, how it is to do a re-start to get to the gym again, what my thoughts are if a guy shows me interests and how I react or not react to how fun it is to have enough space and a cat. I am not sure yet how this blog will end, but it will be one. Maybe a bit more random blog then most of them.
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The moving-day went well and we were done after four hours of carrying all my stuff from the basement to the attic. 60 stair steps up and down.
A good workout that day!
I had to put my cat Silver in the bathroom until we were done, just so he would not be in the way. I do not think he was happy with that, but SO happy when I let him out.
It was kind of cool to watch Silver when he starts to wander around, a discovery tour of the apartment nosy as he is (he is a cat). But it was not as popular from his his side when I started moving furniture. But then here one and a half weeks later, after we moved in here, he is as usual. He feels at home.
An other thing that have past my brain is how grateful and thankful I am for the moving! How thankful I am to have such a good bunch of friends that could help me with my moving. I feel blessed for those friends.
I am also thankful for my land lord he is a great man! He has blessed me every-time I am late to pay my rent, only late because I have not received my monthly money from the government support-system.
I am so blessed to live here! In so many ways. Good neighbors. Generosity from neighbors etc. The house it self is not in the best stand but the neighbors are awesome! Easy to talk to and get along with.
It is definitely more space for Silver too, which is the noise of his play I wakes up to around 02.30 am… but he also sleeps on top of my legs when he sleeps a hole night.
He loves to sit in the window when it is open by approximately 10 cm. He does not try to get out but love to smell everything he’s not used to.
He is so curious to watch what happens in the courtyard. For example, he likes to sit and watch when Greta (landlady) runs out her car from the garage, walk out of the car, shutting the garage door and go back to the car to then reverse out of the courtyard. This takes maybe 5 minutes, but Silver find it so funny to watch.
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As I wrote above have I thought about how I react and what I do if some guy trying to show that he is interested in me. I have been hurt before as many others, and I think that I would love to just drown in his eyes whenever the guy trying to get in contact with me. But I also know that if it is other friends around I don not dare to do drown. I know that’s the only thing I would love to do, to sit there and just sink into his eyes.
The look of love.
So how do I react then?
Well I trying to meet his look for few seconds and then I go back to the others like nothing Happened. But inside of me I am happy and insecure of «is he really interested in me?»
I know me. I need something specific from the guy to understand he is interested in me. Like a card with few words, text-MSG with a smile of love, coffee-date or similarity were he put words on what he thinks or likes with me. And the best is also if that also fit’s him as a person to do.
Why am I so sky when it comes to like someone? Why can’t just be myself when I am such an outgoing person the rest of the time? Why is it so difficult to see how love looks like in different people? And why is most Christian guys so careful and slow?
I mean it is great they are careful to make sure but how am I supposed to understand what a guy means when I need some specific words or «hands up» to understand. I am not that kind of girl that analyzes every tiny word or detail or eye-contact that a guy do or say. No. I am to realistic there. I see the situation and try understand the situation and if I don’t understand I leave it to God.
The things that helps me is bible verse like those (below)…
It’s taken me all those years I have been living in Norway to understand why God wanted me to live here in Oslo and not on the countryside or in a smaller city. It has been a journey of its own to understand and to grow into. I can’t say I love Oslo, today but I can say I have started to understand what God wants for me in Oslo.
I grow up on the countryside in Sweden, and I have never been comfortable with the thought of «be living in a city». But here I am. I have started to like the thought and I think its more to come on that area.
I have been given pictures about my life here in Oslo during the last five years I have been living here since I moved back from Stavanger on the west coast. Pictures about whats gonna come in the job-area, how to live, were to live and even “the big thing” about marriage. Not who I am gonna marriage but more about to be married which for me is a bit scarring in the same time as I am exited to that. To get married and have a family. That’s my future and it’s not now which in one way is a relief…on the other hand I am looking forward that day with Joy!
I am still a learner of what God wants to give me in my daily life, by friends, through Church and HouseChurch and by my family. And I am willing to learn. As most people you do want to grow as the person you are the same with me. I love learn new things in life and about life. I love to be challenge so I can grow and I also like to get feedback on what I am not doing so well, so I can work on that to to better or be better.
If you have a job, mostly you get feedback on what you are doing right or wrong but as a job-searcher you don’t have that kind of feedback. It makes a bit harder to know how to be better.
God have showing me why I live in Oslo right now and why I shall stay. This is a for me an interesting path to walk on, to learn more about and get wisdom about. He has showing me by giving me “Passion on my heart” for teenagers, more love to teenagers, to focus on the next generation in different areas. I still don’t know where and how I am gonna use my knowledge. I just know this is from God and it will be a part of my future here in Oslo somehow.
I have been asking God about jobs outside Oslo area and clearly received pictures (because that’s how God is given me feedback) of different areas of Oslo where God wants to use me. He has every time drawn me back to Oslo when I have prayed about it to get wisdom, he has drawn me back to Oslo as “my city” where I shall work and live.
I think one of the clearest answer was when I got an offer to switch apartment in the same house I live in, after months of asking God for a new apartment that was a current size and not to expensive. Only God knew what I needed and he open it up for me exactly when I needed it as most.
So now I move in April this spring! I do it in faith.
To understand this has taken me few months… and it’s worth it! So even if I still don’t have a job I know where God wants me. And I just have to keep trust him for my future.
I am exited for what this years has to come with. I am still as exited as I was in December about this year! Exited about what God will do in my life. Exited to see how he will guide me, bless me and make my path during my walk.
When I was on the bus 23 to Brynseng yesterday I was started to think about “how clever was this?” It does take so much longer time to take the bus then catch the metro to Brynseng. Why did I think this was smart? Well one thing is that then I don’t need to change more then once on the other hand it takes the double amount of time..
For me, I mostly think its easier to just take as few transports as possible. But there I was on the bus…just waiting to “kill the time”. It could be smarter to just start to thinkwhat goes faster even if its more small stops & changes on the way to get from A to B.
Maybe I learn the lesson maybe I don’t… I guess I’ll just have to see next time I have to take the public transport.
The good thing about that I took the bus was I had time to write down my thoughts about this. To re-think about choices i “make & take”. It also made me see whats been going on on the structure side, the road construction, the buildings growing up in Oslo this summer which I haven’t past or knowing about.
mia-simone. svenberg 