It has been so far! It all started with a panic atack after work on Friday (May 6th) trying to get into my online banking 🤪🤪😬🤐😢 which didn’t work.
Than trying to not think about it and asking the Lord for help to not think do much about it to freaking out in small dozes… And trying to prepare myself for an interveiw I’ve got on May 9th… what a bad combination of a weekend!
Went for one walk to checking an ATM if I could buy food, then to the grocery store, basically to fill up my fridge & freezer at home. The other walk was with Silver to actually cleanse my head, but the Northen wind was to chilly to help me 🤪🤪
Yet I am Thankful for life and challenges, maybe not this big so I freak out…
To this morning asking friends of help to pray🙏 for me and my panic. To maybe have found a solution “talking” to a girl friend over messanger. Giving me peace about the whole thing. 🙂
The burdens of the past are going to fall away as all things are being renewed.
So now is the time for dinner, cause I am hungry! And literally need food. But, I willalso listen to preaching online for my head & soul.
To read my Daily Verse ” The burdens of the past are going to fall away as all things are being renewed.” God has humor!
It’s interesting how the Lord works! Ten years ago before I moved back to Oslo area the Lord gave me some hints about why I needed to move to Oslo area. What I needed to wait for, when living there, before being able to move back to the west coast.
Sunday April 18th, I went through some online preaching I haven’t listen to just “added” to my list to “some day I will start to listen to them”. And in one of the podcast’s they had questions in the end. One of the question where “what are you waiting on?” And I thought, this is perfect to this blog! What are you waiting on,haven’t the Lord answered your question or is itsomething else you waiting on? You who following my blog.
Why do we need to Wait on things?
Two of my closest girl friends needed to get married and become pregnet or even have a child before I could move. An interesting sentence from the Lord to recive. What about me? Should I wait even longer before I met “my hubby”???
An other thing was that the Lord needed to work within me and with me. Which He has. As one of the things ” a hubby “. When I was 19 y.o. I told everyone who asked me about life that I didn’t wanna have my own kids, which probably was a bit wierd to most people,sadly most of them were Christians. ” it will past ” they said. Like it was a cold or something… 😔. But I haven’t ever had a feeling of “need to become pregnet” becauce I would rather have fosterkids or helping families who needs it with their kids when the time comrs for that. I just wanted ” a hubby “.
All about Believing.
It was a new journey a head of me. And I have to say a lot of things has happend with me, my faith and my friends those years.
We are all waiting on something.
A short story from those last ten years…
In 2011 I had to find something to do…
In 2012 I took an other course becauce I could not go back and work in kindergarten after November 2010, when I injured my back.
2013 I had a knee surgery and eleven months of physiotherapy. I had to learn to walk again.
In 2014, still no work, still a bad back. New longer course. But it didn’t leed to a job…
2015 – 2017, different types of administration and Hotel. BUT in 2015 I asked the Lord about moving and the thing I recived was “wait”. And in 2017 one of my closest friends got married. Was this an other sign?
2018 the year of many changes! My first job I kind of liked for 5 months. In May I started the fifth course (during those last seven years) which actually was of interest!! May 18th, the other close friend got married 😍😍. Now I knew time would not be to far away for ” the move back to the west coast ” In August I got my foot in to my first propper work in years 😊🤩😊. The first school job, was this the job I had “been looking for all those years of waiting ?” It was a open door from the Lord. But it wasn’t ” the job “. I also knew other things needed to get in place…
2019 came, I got a new job, where I am now. And I know the Lord wanted me here.
In 2020 came Corona and my contract was extended until 2021. 🤩. I moved from Oslo community to Bærum community. A start on getting out of Oslo, the City I never liked but stayed there becauce the Lord wanted to use me there. In March I started as a janitor beside my orginal job. The first girl friend got pregnet (YAY the move getting even more closer).
The Autumn of 2020.
This last fall (Autumn-20) I knew that I wouldn’t stay in Bærum community longer then next summer (which is now). I also recived a new sentence.
Those two girl friends are now married 🤩. And I have been applying for jobs in Rogaland community since february 🤪 still no job. And now have I started to get panic!! Where will I move? Where will I work?? Gaaaa! The whole point of all this becauce I want and need to work more than 70%. I have so much panic and start to think “was I so wrong understanding the greetings?” Was it just me, who wants to move back to the only place I ever felt like home in Norway? am I moving back to Rogaland community? Or not?
I need to move out where I am living now July 31st!! It’s not to late to get a job theoreticly but I am starting to doubt on the whole thing…😔 the panic is getting bigger. God give me one interview with a job-offer!! Or give me a hint on what I am doing wrong!!
I don’t know what to do more than apply.
But, is the Lord on my side in this?? I’m panicking and have started to doubt. I just want to cry!! is the Lord guiding me steps? I have been trusting the Lord so far but now?
I am missing to have a propper housechurch and meet & pray with, if not in person at least online. I have this last year lost some part of my faith becauce of where I live and the Corona. 😔😔😔. I miss the Church IMI in Stavanger, Rogaland. It feels like I have lost myself a bit to… I don’t know where to go, look, do…
On the other hand has GOD used me and blessed me a lot this last year…
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