Outdoor day in the sun with the 2nd graders and teachers, ended not good.

april 19th. Was yesterday. Outdoor day in the sun with the 2nd graders and teachers, We startes to walk from the school yard around 09:40am with a temperature on +10 degrees celsius. A 45-60min walk in the sun…, cause some walks fast and some walks slow… And I walked with the D-class (they are A-B-C-D with approxy 20 students in each class). Everyone exept me was pleased for the warm day a head of us. I did what I could to prepar for a sunny day before I left home, but I also knew the consecvenses that would apear.

Heatstroke at work… :-/ it was a fact around 11am with a temperature on +14 degrees in the shadow! getting warmer each hour. **The forest-park-walley we went to doesn’t have much of wind so it gett hot/hotter then outside the walley. The first symptoms are that I’m boiling, then dizzy, then feel feverish and feel a little cold. Because I walked with one of the students with a diagnose, when everyone were heading back home or back to the after-school-program after 4 hours, we (me and the one student) were lucky to go by car half of the way back to the School, in the car it was an other 2nd grade student with the same symptoms as me, which is sad. I always feel sad for kids because I have been there myself. It’s always harder for kids who wants to play around but gets sick of the sun.

Then a little goes by and I mostly just feel discomfort in my body for a few hours. I left work around 2pm, (temperature up on +16 degrees celsius in the shadow) and I normally work until 4:30pm on Wednesday’s. Bought an Ice-cream while waiting on the 2nd bus. Tryed to cool down a bit. On the bus home the nausea came back. Got home around 3pm. *Does not sweat like a normal person when it gets hot from the sun.

Then the real frost comes a few hours later, around 3:50pm to 5:10pm under 2 wool blankets in the couch… freeeeeeziiiiing despite the fact that my body is boiling and I would probably really have sweated if it wasn’t I don’t do that… (according to the weather app, it was +17 degrees Celsius in the shadow at 6pm.)

Managed to take a warm shower around 9pm, but instead of feel warm after as I normally do I kept freezing with a hot-boiling body. Went to bed at 11pm.

Woke up hot and nauseous 07:14am today, April 20th. Home’n’sick from work 😦 .

Took something for the nausea 8 o’clock but is still nauseas…08:40am while I started to write this… to nauseas too eat or drink my coffee 😦 The weather app says it’s already +10 degrees Celsius 9am today…. I were home and didn’t do much. But managed to go to work on Friday.

Easter 2023, not how I thought it would be.

I got cold at work Wednesday the 29th of March and I had sore throat and fever Friday 31st of March. Gaaa. Fever at work is never fun! But I did work. That Friday evening didn’t I have any energy in my body. I was laying flat in the couch the whole weekend. On Monday 3rd of April I had one appointment in Sandnes – to pick up my new spectacles (glasses), so I took paracetamol and headed in to Sandnes and did that only thing, headed home an hour later and that were what I “had” energy to.

The red par is my normal glasses and then I got a par of glasses for computer or sewing as I use them for.

With new glasses at home and the trip outdoors, the day after I had more fever…Gaaa. Not what I wanted but just reality. I have been in the couch all day’s since Monday. Only had some extra energy the last two evenings where I have trying to understand a dress-pattern.

And when I thought I understood it, I went on next step – drawing up.

Got company of Silver, who doesn’t understand that I am doing other things on the floor then gonna be with him <3. I have got so far that my next step is to sew it all together, but not yet. To less energy and to much pain in the body :-((((

This dress, if that’s what it actually ends up as, is my very first try to sew a dress after a pattern! And if I manage I will use this pattern to many more and get good on this before I try an other pattern. My goal is to concer this task. I do want to be able to just buy fabric I like and then sew a dress that fits my body. And if you wonder, I am between sizes S and M in most exept the length. Everything in Small is to short on the length but fits good or perfect in my waist. My hips are “to wide” for a Medium and yes too short in the legs.

This is my length on this dress, look at the bottom of this dresslength – the last 10cm is my addition.

An other thing I had energy to do yesterday (Friday 7th of April) was to give my seeds new soil and divide the little flowers I sowed as seeds two weeks ago.

My only goal today (8th of April) is to force myself to the grocery store (the only day here i Norway the stores are open during Easter) and buy paracetamol for my headache before 4pm. Which I managed – Happy and free from pain after 6pm. And from that (no pain) I got energy to put into my dress-project.

It actually looks like a dress.

Tomorrow I will try it on and see how tight I will sew it and where to put a zipper, which I haven’t figured out yet…

Through sickness we get stronger.

Through sickness we get stronger day by day, that’s how we get out of bed and back to work. (And it can be all kinds of sickness, mine not so big/hard.) With me?!

I have just been home’n sick. It all started as a normal cold with sore throat and fever. But this cold was Covid-19 virus. 😔😔. I got the heavy headache on Friday, the only thing that I normally don’t get with a cold. I tested positive on Saturday the 19th.

Covid-19 rapid test.

So what did I get out of those day’s at home? Well I have been knitting, finished projects and watch to many not good movies.

Knitted a baby blancet to a friend.
February 22nd.

Thought I could go back on Monday but oh no that was the day of setback. Yet Wednesday I and today I have. 😊😊.

I am on my way back 😊.

Yesterday I went through five day’s in my bible for a year, the five day’s I didn’t have energy to anything less go between the bed and the couch.

I also started, no that’s not the right word. I picked up to listen to the pod with Evelation Church and pastor Steven Furtick. Both towards and back from work. Variation is something I need in life. Instead of any of the other non Christian pods.

It doesn’t matter what I do. Variation is needed. One of those variations can help me get stronger in my faith or in a hobby or spending time with friends, new or old. I do know, that with Him I get stronger each day in life with or without sickness.

We get stronger.

Love you Mom and will always do. ❤.

My mothers last day in life, has past.

Mom became 80 years old the 17th of November this year. ❤.

On Wednesday the 18th of November I called the head nurse, at mom’s home for the last 6 or 7 years, to check with her what was going on becauce I recived a wierd text message from our dad.

She answered that the function of swallowing food had dissapared. One step closer to not be here on earth with us.  A step in the process of the end of demensia. Which was the first day without food and water for mom. 😢.

Me and Mom 2015.

A sickness she got approxy 13,5 years ago. The same year I moved to Norway…

On Saturday the 21st I phoned mom’s home at 7.30pm and everything was ‘ normal ‘ which doesn’t say much when you as a family member don’t know much of the end of this sickness…

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Monday the 23rd was okay. She was breathing normal, she was still piing. Which means some of the organs was still working. 😊.

Tuesday the 24th, mom or her body was starting to show symptoms that the end was getting even closer. Restlessness in the body and coughing efforts were worse. So then she got a syringe against it. And it made her calm. ❤.

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Wednesday 25th was okay stable. Not much of a changed. ❤. Dad went to visit her in the afternoon.

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Thursday 26th did not start well. 😢. For none of us. My brother T had phoned early in the morning and her breath was changed during the night. 😢😢😢.

Thursday 26 07:42am did I recive the first message. Glad I was awake. Preparing for work and eating breakfast. I became sad and tankful knowing ‘this is the very end’. I went to work and on the bus I called the head nurse to hear what the facts was there and than.

She told me Mom could stop Breathe at lunchtime or later that day. Hard to say. I told her that my brother T was on his way up to Mom. 08.45am ish. I came to work a bit sad inside. Had my classes with the students I normally have on Thursday.

A close friend of mine texted me during class telling me I should call my brother asking him to hold the phone close to mom’s ear and give her my last greeting to her for the last time. And I did, in my lunch break. Glad I did. ❤.

This was when the tears came.

A reviled momemt of tears and love to Mom. A moment of realizing that from now are just waiting, stay in touch with each other. A moment of feeling alone. A moment of where the only thing I wanted was a physical hug from anyone. A moment where I wished I wasn’t singel.

Mom in Norway 2011.

Trying to eat lunch was easier said than done. And I didn’t managed to have the class I was supose to have. Gave the information to the student on what to do and I tryed to pull myself together, stop the tears and preparing me for the last one and a half hour of assistent. Which I managed. And such a boost for me.

On the bus way home I got a message from my brother 4.56pm “shorter breathing”. 😢😢😢. This was next step in the process.

We siblings was online on Messenger between 4pm to 6pm. Following mom’s breathing process to the very end. She stopp her breathing 6pm on the clock. 😭❤.

She is now in Heaven 😊 with no more pain and no more sickness ❤.

And December 11, will we all be in Sweden for the funeral. 🌹. We will be able to say Good Bye in an other way. 🌹. Grieve in our own way. 🌹. Let the tears flow. 🌹. And just be and maybe feel close to her.

I know she is in heaven. She is in a place she has talked about many times.

She was a believer.

She was saved.

One of few favorite flowers Mom had. November cactus.

I started my grieving process around Mom’s 75th Birthday in 2015, knowing she would not become better. And two years later was the last time I talked to her on the phone becauce she did not recognize my voice anymore. 🥺. I have had peace since. Knowing she would end up with the angels in heaven with the Lord. ❤.

It feels wrong to say ” I am find ” but I am. I am not in the first grieving process I am some steps ahead. I will always miss her. But we did not live close for the last 13years… But we had a bond. After the Summer I had turned 16, we had a figth and cleanced the air and got a stronger bond. A bond of love and faith. And we both walked a lot after work and becauce of distance between us, we talked ” to each other ” as the other person was a part of the walk. And I am going to continue that. 😉😊❤.

/Mia-Simone.Svenberg.2020

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In October 2016 did I start to look for a new cat, a cat that could live with me and Silver. I found Sussi-P.

She came to us the 3rd of October 2016.

She showed me her personality quite fast. A bit stubburn, always on her terms.

Curious in many ways.

She showed me she loved to go for a walk. I will miss those. I was planing a walk with her today. 💔💗🐈

She loved to play with water.

She slept on my legs when I was sleeping. 💗💗💗

She slept in my lap in the afternoon. 💗💗💗

I have not had such a cozy cat as Sussi-P. 💗💗💗

And today, she was just gonna jump from the table. Didn’t land on her paws. 😢😢😢😢 Stayed down 💔💔😢😢💔💔 did not move 😭😭 did not breath good 😭😭 I could not help her. 😭😭

She is gone.

Laying there like she is sleeping. 💕

I will miss her kindness, cozyness, her way of being Sussi, my girl.

She stop breathing 12:38.

Rest In Peace., Sussi-P.

I will remember you well. 💓💕💖💗

/Mia-Simone.Svenberg

The Winter cold is here

I got it. 🤧🤧

I got it bad.

Fever, for 8 Days!

I went to the doctor o Monday the 4th.

Rough!

With fever and more and less no energi I forced myself to the Doctors office.

Took a blodtest and prayed that I wouldn’t got the bacteria.

Thank you Lord, it was just the virus.

As rough as it was to get to the doctor as less energi did I have when I struggled to get home.

My legs walked away like a machine. The rest of my body did not like to be outside at all.

I was home and sick until Thursday.

I will got rid of the fever. 😊

I went to work (internship) this Friday.

YAY.

I did it.

But I still struggle with the fact of that I don’t cope on 100%. ☹️

I did and do rest in my couch as much as I can to get rid of it all.

I pray for strength.

I pray that this past fast.

I trust in my lord for getting totally well soon.

It’s a bit rough to work where most students are sick, and this cold doesn’t have a end. ☹️

It’s mye 12th Day with the cold today. ☹️☹️

/Mia-Simone.Svenberg.2019

Gym journey

This Spring has not been easy when it comes to “get to gym”. It’s been and still is a bumpy road. Just the fact that when I wasn’t sick with a cold I had other issues… Headeach or period or feeling like a big big tractor been droven over me…

If you have knowledge about fibromyalgia you know that people with that get real pain in muscles when the weather is changing. I have a light version of that (thanking God for that!) But still I get sick and can’t do a thing. :-/

But it is hope and I have faith and it’s been wores then it is today. This all effects me on when, how often or how not often I hit the gym…the only thing that gives me a physical kick in life and so much more energy then anything else..

I pray for healing and trusting God that one day this shi*t will be gone and I can do what is good for my body.

/Mia-Simone.Svenberg

Faith in the hard time.

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Me & Mom Summer 2014 and lots of love.

To have faith on God in the hard time can be difficult. Why am I writing this? Well, my mom has for the last two weeks been in and out of the hospital.. She has Alzheimer (AD) and the end getting closer more then ever.

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It started with some cramps and she went to the ER by ambulance Monday the 29th of May.  She stayed there for about 12 hours, then they send her up to IVA (intensive care section) and from there to section 61 (Medical care). She had got a lung-infection and she got antibiotics.  She went stable and they could send her home to here Dementia service provider, Stenudden (see picture below).

Exactly one week later she went back by ambulance to the ER with new cramps, but this time it wasn’t the lungs. Thank God for that! But still… And both me and my brothers living far away from our Mom, my oldest biologic brother lives only 80km away but he has his family. And I don’t think it’s such big point for us to go and visit here in this last period. Cause we can’t really do nothing more then sit by her side. I don’t think Mom want us there either, cause that’s how she’s been saying all the years when she was healthy. We don’t know if she’s recognize us anymore… I makes all the calls to the different sections on the hospital and making sure that everyone has the right and newest information. Why, well I am such a copy of my mom and her personalities. I am a realistic person and have heard that through my whole life but the thing is that I like it too. I like to know the facts and to let to know that my family knows whats going on. 🙂 It just my way to show care and love.

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I guess it helps me to believe I am doing the right thing for mom. I like to coordinate things and help out my way. It helps me believe God is leading me to help others. My faith on the small thing like “let mom not have too much pain” or “let her live a bit more healthy from physical pain”. My faith also get stronger by knowing we have others standing in prayer for us as a family. I think its harder for my dad and brothers. The “hard part” for me is that she will not be there in the future, meeting new grand-kids or celebrate different things happening in life. The sad part I think is that she will never be apart of my future wedding, family and if children comes into the picture. But I know she will stay with me forever and she will be watching over each of us siblings. ❤

My ventilation is this blog. I clear my head and thoughts. I have faith on God to do what’s best for Mom here and now.

The nurses I’ve been in contact with on section61 is adorable! They care for mom ❤ they really wants to do the best for her and they let us know everything we asks for. I would like to send some flowers to them just saying “You helped us so much during those days of wonder. Thank you all”. I would like to go and meet them in person nest time I’m up there!

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Mora Hospital.

I don’t think we as a family could go through this whole process without all the prayers that we have around us. It is so many friends, family and others around us that prays for mom to not have to much pain in this last period in life with the sickness and for us as family to not “fall a part” but to get strength through this and love to each other.

I am SO Thankful for every-ones prayers!!! ❤ ❤ ❤

I pray for mom every evening before I fall asleep and I know whenever mom is leaving us, she will get it better! She has been an Christian believer in many years and she believes in Heaven and I know she will get it better up there. She will be healthy again and she will not have any pain. ❤ She will watch over us from above. ❤

 

 

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I love you Mom. I know you knew that before you got too sick. ❤

 

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Moms place, since 2015.