Struggle – mia-simone. svenberg

To stay in the trust when the doubts comes.

To stay in the trust to the Lord when the doubts comes and the time getting closer to the date of my new job. To not doubt. To focus on positive and be thankful for what I have, got, the prayer-answers.

A walk with podcast in my ears to clear my thoights. I am so bored at home. I need friends. I need to get to know people. I need a life. Not just a job. To not have anyone to hang with, take a coffee with just chill is boring! But how to meet new people? If you don’t go out, like in the evening, how and where do I meet new people? I don’t. 😔. It feels like my life is so boring.

It’s Monday 11am, I’m in the city. Just don’t know what to do. Would love to start work this week but I have to wait… so what to do this week?

July in Norway isn’t the best month to chill with people becauce almost everyone have theire vaccation. As a singel christian lady I don’t go out in the evening, I haven’t even been on a date, which I had hoped for. My church only have service at 6pm on Sunday’s. …

Watching people, trying to think on what to do today… It’s a cloudy day today. Just like my brain right now 🤪. But back to the title… to trust the Lord in all. To trust for a miracle, to not doubt when your search doesn’t give you anything of what you are looking for. To be able to encouraged others by standing in faith all the way, to not give up on the lord. To not fall for the doubts whatever happends.

I struggle to stay in focus in my faith to trust the Lord from day to day or even some day’s from hour to hour. I can be honnest on that. I ask the Lord as soon as it happend. I am human to doubt but I am also in need of the script & worship to not fall out. And Christian friends in my age to hang with. How many are we, singel Christians without kids that don’t want or can’t have kids? How often do you see or hear about ‘young adults without kids’ groups in your church? I haven’t in my church. Not even in my old church. Why? Well most churches has groups for young adults & students – an underline of “you might find your partner and we hope you become a family soon” is at least my feeling on what the church wants. How is it in your church?

When you don’t have a partner, life sucks!

Worship gives me peace and I get calm on the inside and in my soul. Right now the only thing, therefor I’ll stop writing and hope some of you out there will come with inspiration to me. How you do in your struggles and how you meet new people.

Overandout 12.22pm

Open up the Channel.

Open up the Channel to God. Don’t hassitate to do it some day’s or some hours. The Lord doesn’t work that way. Here I am, was eating while God started this post with me and He gave me those words.

Maybe this post will be even more relevante now a year after the big lockdown in many countries around the world. Then when the Lord gave me inspiration in January this year.

To encourage you, to open up the Channel doesn’t happend when you want but when the Lord has something he wants to get out there among all of you. This encouragement happends to you who need a push in the right direction, to you who need to be encourage, who maybe need more of Him or just you are in a situation where you don’t know or understand how to hear His voice.

Maybe extra unencourage with all those mutations we do have around us in March 2021.

In today’s society is it easy to think “I’ll do it later”. And sadly this is also many who do when it comes to God too. But to put God on hold isn’t very good. He will still be there no matter if you “shut him off” or stayed “tuned” with him.

So, where are you?

Do you listen?

Maybe HE wanted you to be connected when you took the break.

Do you know which wave you are on to reach the frequency God is on?

Did you close the door? Have you turned off the radio or closing the bible and maybe even stopped to pray?

The Lord is waiting on you to open up your channel, get on your frequency and be “on air” with Him.

I have to say I still struggle with the reading but my channel is open to the Lord. I talk to the Lord every day. I pray and give thanks in the evening. I catch up with other Christians when it’s possible. I listen to worships and podcast’s both home and on my way to work. And becauce of this, I can feel how He is guiding me step by step towards what he wants. To be open for what He wants.

Temptations in my daily life.

I’ve taken this year to read more in the bible and stay away as much as possible from all kinds of sex-temptations on social media, television and books. So far so good. I wanted to see for myself if I could and how I would managed it. I am not sin-free as a Christian, I have lusts as much as any other human but I can chose to not have lust and I can chose to not get deep into it as much as I can chose to not do or eat certain things in life.

In the beginning of this year I took a stand against “sex & the city” -series just because the hole series is about sex. How to get “one-night-stand” etc. I love the series out of Carries life even if it’s not even close to the actors life. I get inspirited out of how “Carrie” writes the column and how it shows that life isn’t as easy as many other series wants us the watchers to think. But it’s a lot in this series I do not like, so therefore I stopped watching for a year, to see how I might react to it if I watch it again (now in about six months).

When I read this;

“lust and normal sexual attraction are not the same thing. Lust is a form of selfishness and a dangerous ingredient to sexual temptation. Significantly, this kind of temptation can rear its ugly head both inside and outside of marriage.”

I knew I need to write, I needed to vent, I needed to get all my thoughts out somehow… So here I am writing out of my life.

So what is temptation…well everything you want to do but probably should not do. Like if you are in a relationship, you should not look at other guys/girls. You should focus on what you have! Your boy/girlfriend or husband/wife or partner you are living with or are engaged to.

I am still single but have since few years back (not all my life as most girls) got a desire to get married and the fact I want to be a mom (witch also is not something I have always wanted) (!) I do want to meet the guy that fits me, can balance me and in the end have sex and start a family. And until I meet this guy I know I have had lust (or as this line express it; “It might be more helpful to set aside the concept of lust in this context and to think instead in terms of insensitivity or disregard for the needs, preferences, and desires of one’s partner. This, is a serious form of sexual temptation”, in my life for years.

I know that even after the day I got Christian those thoughts was still there mostly because no-one told me how to get them out of my life or my brain. I had to find it out of my own… I have done stupid things even as a Christian but what I have learn the last year is that, if I know I sin (as a Christian) God forgives me. How? Well as long as I know I do something wrong I can confess it with my tongue and heart. And when I confess, God forgives me. It does not mean I should continue doing it! It’s a long walk of learning!

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