Tag: The love from the Lord

To admit when you mess it up.

10.30pm evening to the 4th of February…. I should probably not type with this head right now, cause I am so tired. And I will go to bed in a bit.

I just have to clear my head a bit.

The last two weeks been full of things I have been thinking of or trying to do next when it comes to education and work after this year. Trying to get to know a guy over several months, working and being creative when life is better than just good.

Messing up some of it, yet the Lord have given me more peace and love than any human could do.

To admit when you mess it up is a strength & a positiv trait.

It feels like what I wrote and shared in the blog the other day, the words I needed while I was waiting on the bus in the morning. About His love for me even in my struggles.

To have enough faith and understand the mess I got myself into in the same time trying to understand the love from the Lord.

Yet I know He will help me through every step in my life.

To jump – different.

To jump – different, for me doesn’t necassary mean to actually jump. In one way it is a jump. Emotional. Jump.

To dear to take the step. The Emotionals Step. The Emotional Jump. To be scared. To feel. To get into a roller coaster. To share. To be. To trust. To live. To be able to focus…

To let someone in. Let a male in (for me). To get to know me.

Something most people take quite easily on. Not me. I have burned to many bridges.

My bridges in my own life.

To jump on the emotionals train… To let feelings pop up, to trust the feeling. To trust not just the Lord.

And than comes those other things in my life… where I am right now. Am I ready? Can I ever be ready again? Or will I do the same mistakes again? Have I learned enough about me to take this jump? Do I know myself enough to do this huge thing that scares myself? Slowly is good isn’it? To figured out things on the way…

I know I have started the ride with a train. That I have jumped.

Where will this lead? Can I trust it? How do I react on my own feelings? Chaos in my head…

What I have learn so far? To trust the Lord. ❤ No matter what I feel, I need the guidance from the Lord to know I am on the right path! And from Day one I have had peace and I know from where this is for me. 😊✝️😊 To have Faith and Believe. To stay on the track with Him.

I have since Day one put the whole situation in the hands of the Lord. 😊 and He shows me daily and through the whole day that He the Lord loves me and is guiding my steps. 😊

I am trying to not doubt this thing for once. It’s hard! But I’m trying.

It’s hard to jump and not knowing the outcome 🤪🥴. And ” they ” say it’s Love.

Whatever I feel, I need to trust the Lord. He knows whats best for me. He knows my life. He has been a part of my life for at least 13 years. He has been there in my roller coaster of feelings.

And my experence is that when I talk to Him, He is near.

Whatever I feel I know He care for me. He will guide me. He will surround me and I will be protected by His grace. And He will bless my life. ❤✝️

/Mia-Simone.Svenberg.2020