Thoughts – mia-simone. svenberg

Thoughts of my nearest future, my life here and now and the loneliness I feel.

It’s nearly been a week since I got back from my holiday (July 22nd today).

After I’ve been home for two days I realised I really want to have a family around me. A husband with family. If it’s his growen kids or his siblings it doesn’t really matter as long as its family (person’s). It also means I litterly need to meet people every day, especially when I have a school break. Because when I work I always have people around me and my quote for the social part gets quite high but than when I don’t have a work to go to because it’s Summer, my quote goes down to fast 😔.

Anyway, I have been a bit creative yet not been sewing 😬🤪🙈.

On Saturday (20th) me and my 74 years old neighbour went to a plant store. I bought soil, orchid peat and basicpon to my flowers and 4 new plant pot’s in two sizes. Gave my outdoor plants and my aloe vera basicpon. And new seed soil and clay balls to my indoor flowers. And it looks like they liked it.

Painting a drawer which I’ll use as flower shelf.

Sunday 21st I finally managed to go to Church 😊 on my way I walked on my favourite bridge which also is a roundabout for traffic under. The weather forecast said rain from morning to evening, but we were lucky to not have the rain until during the service. Met a close friend from Oslo after the service, I haven’t seen since I moved three years ago. (It feels like this summer is the summer for meeting up with friends I haven’t seen in too many years.)

My favourite bridge in Stavanger. Because of the colours!

Painting…

This door haven’t I done much with for the past year.

Now I paint it with acrylic turquoise colour to figure out if this is the colour I want. And I think so. So until I can afford the reel paint this stays.

I still haven’t decided if I will have black or white edges 🤔. I guess it has to grow on me as everything else I do 😆.

I chose to paint this too. The furniture I don’t know what you call, but it’s mostly used as a writing table back in the day’s both with drawers and cupboards. And the turquoise colour pop’s more to the black than the red colour did.

Today, Monday 22nd, I haven’t done much 🙈. I have cleaning my mother’s sewing machine and I found a bulb that fit 😍 and giving the machine some oil. I have the luxury to own two sewing machines now. My mother’s sewing machine was made in 1953 and I think mu mother bought it in the 1960’s. So it’s been along quite long time! A good but heavy machine.

The best part with this machine is the sewing table 😍

I haven’t been sewing yet 🙈😆 but I will 😉.

Faith and Trusting the Lord. I still don’t know what or where I will work in August yet I have peace inside me for this autumn. I am Trusting the Lord and have faith he will guide my steps. He has already blessed me to be able pay a bit less next time I have to pay the rent 😍🙏✝️. I gave money to the missionary work my church, yesterday, they are doing in Thailand and trust that God will bless my money for how I will live and pay bills in August.

Thoughts for the future… one of them are if I should save up for a used car (becoming an adult in an other level). I know I need a job to be able to save up money – to realistic brain to think otherwise. I have been looking at job’s but nothing so far fit’s me 🙈😔.

The latest sewing, creativity & energy – May24.

I love when I have time and energy to fix what has been laying and waiting for some time!

New earnings from upcycling paper clips & safety pins with beads from the floor in the art&craft room at work.

I am thankful for work, life and sparetime! The Lord has both showing me things in life and in dreams of my future and I keep trusting him in what will come that I yet don’t know. I enjoying every moment if I have more or less energy! Those last day’s has been a mix of both and yet I am smiling because life is good and I am trying to embrace it as much as possible.

Happiness. Finally I know what colours I have 😍 on all my threads 😍

The Lord keep guiding my steps, give me inspiration to new things and ideas 😊. And even after a tough work day I have energy to be creative at home 😊. And interesting enough it feels like I have more energy to be creative now than when I had Silver 🤔 🤪 … maybe I was more allergic ti him than I thought…?

Pray and have focus on the Lord.

Its 5.42pm and I’m waiting on the bus towards church. First time this Summer I managed to go. No pain anywhere 😊😊 Thank you Lord for that!!

I have no clue what the service will be about. Often I don’t though 😆🤪. But today nothing can stop me. I am going! Yay.

And I let you know more after the service.

I came in to the worship, just what I needed. A part of one werse ” I have notice, you are speaking”. It was peaceful, love and care both in the text and in the autmospher.

Here are the worship and lyrics;

A voice came to me during those few minutes I took part of the worship. I will bless you.

My question is still, where should I move? Should I move closer to work this year or should I just move in to the city of Stavanger? I have peace to be in Stavanger but it will cost money and time to go between every day, is it worth the travel? Where does the Lord want to use me?

The thread from the preaching is : bend your knees and pray. It doesn’t need to be on your knees if you can’t the point is to pray and have focus on the Lord.

To stay in the trust when the doubts comes.

To stay in the trust to the Lord when the doubts comes and the time getting closer to the date of my new job. To not doubt. To focus on positive and be thankful for what I have, got, the prayer-answers.

A walk with podcast in my ears to clear my thoights. I am so bored at home. I need friends. I need to get to know people. I need a life. Not just a job. To not have anyone to hang with, take a coffee with just chill is boring! But how to meet new people? If you don’t go out, like in the evening, how and where do I meet new people? I don’t. 😔. It feels like my life is so boring.

It’s Monday 11am, I’m in the city. Just don’t know what to do. Would love to start work this week but I have to wait… so what to do this week?

July in Norway isn’t the best month to chill with people becauce almost everyone have theire vaccation. As a singel christian lady I don’t go out in the evening, I haven’t even been on a date, which I had hoped for. My church only have service at 6pm on Sunday’s. …

Watching people, trying to think on what to do today… It’s a cloudy day today. Just like my brain right now 🤪. But back to the title… to trust the Lord in all. To trust for a miracle, to not doubt when your search doesn’t give you anything of what you are looking for. To be able to encouraged others by standing in faith all the way, to not give up on the lord. To not fall for the doubts whatever happends.

I struggle to stay in focus in my faith to trust the Lord from day to day or even some day’s from hour to hour. I can be honnest on that. I ask the Lord as soon as it happend. I am human to doubt but I am also in need of the script & worship to not fall out. And Christian friends in my age to hang with. How many are we, singel Christians without kids that don’t want or can’t have kids? How often do you see or hear about ‘young adults without kids’ groups in your church? I haven’t in my church. Not even in my old church. Why? Well most churches has groups for young adults & students – an underline of “you might find your partner and we hope you become a family soon” is at least my feeling on what the church wants. How is it in your church?

When you don’t have a partner, life sucks!

Worship gives me peace and I get calm on the inside and in my soul. Right now the only thing, therefor I’ll stop writing and hope some of you out there will come with inspiration to me. How you do in your struggles and how you meet new people.

Overandout 12.22pm

Devotional January 21st to January 26th.

5 ways to fulfill ur potentional.

We can become so caught up in everyday that it easier to continue in old patterns rather than change.

I have been here. I am proud of myself that step by step I am changing my reading habbits.

Your potentional is not about being driven by amition or success , it is about recognising who you are in God.

As you seek him & live your life according to his purpose , you will bear much fruit. The more you begin to fulfill your God-given potential, the more he entrusts to you. You have the potential to live a life of even greater blessing than those you read about in the Old Testament. Jesus says, ‘Blessed are your eyes because they see, and your ears because they hear.

How to Navigate Life;

Wisdom has been defined as ‘*the art of steering’*. As you go through life, you will need to navigate many tight situations that require great wisdom in order to avoid damaging yourself or others. And how do we do that?

Unfaithfulness is an example of a wrong turn. Wisdom will ‘keep you from making wrong turns, or following the bad directions. (Proverbs 2:12-22). Where are all those than? Well in your life. You probably know them all or you know about them but don’t recognize them.

A binding agreement that should not be broken, like marriage. Are you married then you know and understand thus better then me who isn’t, yet I hope I’ll get there one day. But I do understand the meaning of what the Bible want me to understand.

Choose the good path

Difficult times in your life can take you off course in the wrong direction. But if you stay on the right course it will lead to greater compassion and wisdom. (Matthew 14:1-21).

To know where your focus are. Knowing your direction in life, is it studdies or work or get to know the Lord more? How do we know when it’s starting to go a bit to the left or right? And which direction is right? If you don’t ask the Lord for direction how will you know you are going in the right direction? So how will you then know how to get greater compassion and wisdom?

Fear of rejection can also lead us into trouble. Make sure you don’t allow what others think of you to matter more than what is right.

As an aduldt it might be easier but yet you can be rejected. It can be from someone you like, a job you want or maybe a trip you would like to go on. I work with youth, an age where many are unsecure on them selfs. It’s hormons and changes most all the time. And during this age it’s fast to get rejected just becauce ‘ you are not like everyone else ‘ which basicly no one is becauce of the hormons. But ‘ no one ‘ think about that. And how to guide the youth to feel they don’t get rejected or feel fear is hard. I can only talk about myself when I was a teenager. I hated the school mainly becauce my schoolmates were awfull to me. I was bullied. I had a lot of fear against my schoolmates. And the only one that helped me to not take it all in was my middle big brother.

Later as an aduldt I’ve recived support, wisdom, no fear, love and blessing into my life from the Lord. And learned how to be able to not fear most things.

Allow God to interrupt your plans. This is so important. If you don’t let Him interrupt you will easier both get more lost in your own planing but also get the feeling of some kind of lacking or that He is further away from you and your Faith. I know that feeling.

Navigate through the challenges of life. Have you ever been rejected, treated unjustly, let down by a friend or found yourself in some other frustrating situation?

This is the daily struggle for most of us. Who hasn’t felt lost? Who hasn’t had challenges in the daily life? Or treated unjustly? Been let down by a friend? We all have been there!

So, how can we Navigate in life without being challenged every day? Well I would say through the Bible we get many answers. Read or listen, like I do, to the script we get guidense to navigate! We get patience to all the challenges we go through. And tons of love to make it. <3.

What make you smile?

What or whom make you smile so much you just can’t stop?

BiRthDaY? Love? Work? Baking? The guy/girl? Cake? Spring? Skiing? Beach? Childhood? Summer? Friendship? Books? Drive? Drums? Songs? Worships? Flowers? Pets? Family? The sky? Being creative?

I am curious on what makes you Smile! Please tell me.

For me it can be a nice message in social media ora phonecall from a friend I haven’t talked to for a while. It can be to be creative or the buds in the trees. It can be at work, my cat, a seson. I smiles quite often just becauce I have things that makes me HaPPy.

Just look at those selfies, I smile. Becauce my life is good no matter weather.

I am so Thankful for my life. What the Lord is giving me no matter if it’s a challenge or just a regular day.

I really want to know what makes you Smile!!!

Happy Easter to all of You!!!

John 15 verses 16-17.

Thoughts after house church meeting on zoom, June 6th. Where the theme was John 14 & 15. And those who were leading the house church a couple they started to read those chapters each by them selfs and than together. This was as much as I recall of what I manage to follow before I ” fell out “..

I started to read JOHN 15 and I kind of fell off or out of the ” meeting ” while I read v. 8, v.16-17 and v. 26. They spoke to me. In different ways. How the Lord is Vine and I am a branch (v.8), How HE chose me (v.16-17) & at last HE will send the Spirit & Truth to me (v.26).

Does it speak to you? What are your thoughts about this?

What is my thoughts about the fruit that John is talking about? Have I (you) been in a situation where the Father (the Lord) is the gardener and cuts of the branches of mine that doesn’t produce fruit?

Maybe. I can’t recall any situations right now. But I probobly have. How will I otherwice grow as a Christian person? How does he do it? How does he cut the branches while I still live? Well he doesn’t do it physical it’s a metafor or picture. And what is the fruit? How do I know it is a fruit from the Lord?

I recall one of the others talk about how they were thinking of the fruits. Like being a helping person or testify about what I/you belive. How Jesus is a part of my/your life.

Am I that kind of person, that talks about what I belive to those I meet? No, and I have never been. But I have a tattoo that for me is my testify of my faith. I have chosen to do it this way mostly becauce I have easily to chat with new unknown people.

In John 15 vers 8, Yes, I am the vine, you are the branches. Those who remaine in me and I in them, will produce much fruit.

How to stay and be the good branches? How to produce more fruit? That is my questions after reading this. How can I produce more fruit in my life as a Christian while I am who I am? He is the vine I am the branch. 😍 ✝️

In John 15 verses 16-17; You didn’t choose me. I chose you. I appointed you to go and produce lasting fruit, so that the Father will give you whatever you ask for, using my name. This is my command: Love each other.

HE, Jesus chose me. ✝️

He chose me to Love each other!

To do things out of love, no matter what it is You do for others.

John 15 vers 26; “But I will send you the Advocate —the Spirit of truth. He will come to you from the Father and will testify all about me.”

This vers talked to me in the way that ” the advocate will come to me from the Father.. ” Whatever happends I will be able to recive this as a believing Christian. I need to seek and read and talk to him who chose me. He has given me this. He has given me the Spirit of thruth! WOW what a gift to recive!! This is big!

How I sharing my faith with those I meet daily. As I wrote above, I have chosen to do it by tattoos (I will finish the one tattoo I started on in 2008 (P.U.S.H.)). Which for other people is just a symbol or letters has a bigger and deeper meaning for me and I know what it stands for and than I tell them my story. How I became a Christian and how those 4 letters is how Christian people around me prayed for me. How theirs prayers became my new path in life. The continuing of this tattoo is F.R.O.G. – Fully Rely On God. My way to the Christian I am today.

/Mia-Simone.Svenberg.2020

Sussi-P 🐈2010.12.13-2019.02.16

In October 2016 did I start to look for a new cat, a cat that could live with me and Silver. I found Sussi-P.

She came to us the 3rd of October 2016.

She showed me her personality quite fast. A bit stubburn, always on her terms.

Curious in many ways.

She showed me she loved to go for a walk. I will miss those. I was planing a walk with her today. 💔💗🐈

She loved to play with water.

She slept on my legs when I was sleeping. 💗💗💗

She slept in my lap in the afternoon. 💗💗💗

I have not had such a cozy cat as Sussi-P. 💗💗💗

And today, she was just gonna jump from the table. Didn’t land on her paws. 😢😢😢😢 Stayed down 💔💔😢😢💔💔 did not move 😭😭 did not breath good 😭😭 I could not help her. 😭😭

She is gone.

Laying there like she is sleeping. 💕

I will miss her kindness, cozyness, her way of being Sussi, my girl.

She stop breathing 12:38.

Rest In Peace., Sussi-P.

I will remember you well. 💓💕💖💗

/Mia-Simone.Svenberg

Mid October beauty

October is the month of breeze in the morning that looks like fog and with naked trees and lonely leafs hanging there. A beautiful season just like any other season of the year. How lonely a leaf can be in the wind but still shine up a person walking past. How all those colours that still meets us in the morning on our way to work, gives me a big doze of inspiration I bring with me the whole day. How wonderful the nature looks like every Day! I just can’t get enough! I love this season. Let it never end (I know it will) but right now, no please.

How the rain when it suddenly comes «from nowhere» and wash the street and clear the air. How the chilly air in the early morning really wakes you up and realizing the winter month isn’t far away anymore. November is just a round the corner. A new season is coming. But still, to stay in the moment, BE, THINK. To reflect over the Day’s that past. What did I do? Did I enjoy the day and all the colours?

Since I started at Radisson as a trainee I have realized I appreciate nature in an other way then I have done before, a bit like in the same way as I think I did as a child. I see, I watch, I enjoy. I think of what I see, how is it possible to get so strong colours on a single leaf? Could the human person make something similar? Or is it only one who is behind all this? For me it hasn’t always been for sure. I have been far far away from God for many years and I was not as sure anymore during those years. How far away was my thinking to someone else who doesn’t believe in something “bigger” than us human? I am curious how other thinks not that I will change my way of thinking over the day but still. How many are not living there lives day out and day in without reflecting on how other people think?

How do you think about seasons in the nature?

How do you think about the life you have made?

Are you happy or just pleased?

Here I am, sitting in my favorite chair, with my legs up on the “cat tree” with the view of the colorful trees outside my window and one of the cat’s above me on the shelf. The sky that changes all the time, slowly and nice. Giving me inspiration to write again. Listen to ABBA…

The swallows are still flying around wondering when they fly south? What a beautiful Day we got! And I have to clean my house before I’ll go out… But that’s okay.

/Mia-Simone.Svenberg.

To cry for something beautiful.

I cry when I read something beautiful or watch a beautiful movie or when I watching someone helping someone else like in the series “Extreme Make Over, with Ty Pennington”, because it touch my heart.

I cry, when I read my own words for my Mom. I don’t cry so often, but when I cry it’s like something I just need to do there and then. Like God knows when I need to cry.

I cried when I received the sad news of my bonus grandpa was gone and that I didn’t have opportunity to be there when he went away. ❤

I cried when my mom’s ant past away, cause she had made an impact on me. And I still missing her humor and sense of cloths..and she has been gone for more then 15 years.. ❤

I cried when my first best friend Josef took his life. I was 5 years old. I lost my very best friend. The sad part is that my dad didn’t understand how good friends we were and how much it had meant for me to be there in the funeral with his parents. So I cried.

I will cry when ever Mom leaving us. But I also know it will be Happy tears.

When I cry it’s like something is healing on the inside.

/Mia-Simone.Svenberg.2017

Faith in the hard time.

20140909_144315 — Me & Mom Summer 2014 and lots of love.

To have faith on God in the hard time can be difficult. Why am I writing this? Well, my mom has for the last two weeks been in and out of the hospital.. She has Alzheimer (AD) and the end getting closer more then ever.

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It started with some cramps and she went to the ER by ambulance Monday the 29th of May. She stayed there for about 12 hours, then they send her up to IVA (intensive care section) and from there to section 61 (Medical care). She had got a lung-infection and she got antibiotics. She went stable and they could send her home to here Dementia service provider, Stenudden (see picture below).

Exactly one week later she went back by ambulance to the ER with new cramps, but this time it wasn’t the lungs. Thank God for that! But still… And both me and my brothers living far away from our Mom, my oldest biologic brother lives only 80km away but he has his family. And I don’t think it’s such big point for us to go and visit here in this last period. Cause we can’t really do nothing more then sit by her side. I don’t think Mom want us there either, cause that’s how she’s been saying all the years when she was healthy. We don’t know if she’s recognize us anymore… I makes all the calls to the different sections on the hospital and making sure that everyone has the right and newest information. Why, well I am such a copy of my mom and her personalities. I am a realistic person and have heard that through my whole life but the thing is that I like it too. I like to know the facts and to let to know that my family knows whats going on. 🙂 It just my way to show care and love.

Love-To-Care-1

I guess it helps me to believe I am doing the right thing for mom. I like to coordinate things and help out my way. It helps me believe God is leading me to help others. My faith on the small thing like “let mom not have too much pain” or “let her live a bit more healthy from physical pain”. My faith also get stronger by knowing we have others standing in prayer for us as a family. I think its harder for my dad and brothers. The “hard part” for me is that she will not be there in the future, meeting new grand-kids or celebrate different things happening in life. The sad part I think is that she will never be apart of my future wedding, family and if children comes into the picture. But I know she will stay with me forever and she will be watching over each of us siblings. ❤

My ventilation is this blog. I clear my head and thoughts. I have faith on God to do what’s best for Mom here and now.

The nurses I’ve been in contact with on section61 is adorable! They care for mom ❤ they really wants to do the best for her and they let us know everything we asks for. I would like to send some flowers to them just saying “You helped us so much during those days of wonder. Thank you all”. I would like to go and meet them in person nest time I’m up there!

I don’t think we as a family could go through this whole process without all the prayers that we have around us. It is so many friends, family and others around us that prays for mom to not have to much pain in this last period in life with the sickness and for us as family to not “fall a part” but to get strength through this and love to each other.

I am SO Thankful for every-ones prayers!!! ❤ ❤ ❤

I pray for mom every evening before I fall asleep and I know whenever mom is leaving us, she will get it better! She has been an Christian believer in many years and she believes in Heaven and I know she will get it better up there. She will be healthy again and she will not have any pain. ❤ She will watch over us from above. ❤

20151121_113207 — I love you Mom. I know you knew that before you got too sick. ❤

stenudden_bild — Moms place, since 2015.

Single or Get Married? Part two of three.

So I have finally picked up the book again. Trying to finishing it. My motivation isn’t really there but I will make it through! The book of Marriage. A very interesting book (!) for us women. It is called “get married, What Woman Can Do To Help It Happen”and it is a lot to both read, adjust and get into the get into everyday life as a single girl/lady (whatever you like to call your self). It is a help in the way most of us woman think and act to get involved in a relationship with a man and NOT how to be his friend.

It is easy to be the girl that is always hanging with the guys (for me that’s who I’ve been more then less my whole life). This book goes deeper then that. This book lets us know how we manage to “jump” over that part of just stay as friends and how we will act to not get into the friend-relationship and actually get “under his skin” and understand how he is thinking and what he appreciate, what he likes to hear from us. It gives us “the key” or “tools” how to be and say to reach his interest.

It also talks about..

“Mentors – how great value it is”… Paul in the bible provided a remedy in the advice he gave in Titus 2. Speaking about the range of ages in any church body, he encouraged the older believers to counsel the younger ones. Getting wisdom from someone who’s further down the road is invaluable. ..maybe even more so – they’re better able to provide scouting than your peers. It’s far trendier, and less awkward, to seek advice and help of your friends. But when it comes to finding a husband, older woman and couples, have a lot more to offer.

Get someone that can challenge you, get you to a higher standard, how to dress like a lady, eating better and exercising.

If you only spend time with people in the same season of your life you’re in, the competition for available men likely be fierce. But if your friends span the generations, it’s probable they will know or be related to eligible men.

“Relationships ebb and flow; what’s important is that this guy carries the qualities and characteristics of a godly man you’ve been waiting for.” (words from the authors pastor.)

Where are the men? And are they actually interested in marriage?

In one word, sleeping. Most of the men in our culture haven’t had any high expectations to meet. …so they’re passive. But you can encourage them, by the greatest motivation, your belief. They need a women who see in them, and encourage, what God designed men to be. Your respect is what leads to his pursuit.

“I gives me things to think of.“

I’ve read this verse before, but it has never hit me like it does in this context. It has open up my eyes of “what a man looking for in me” and how I should start to act and be and say things to a man. In the beginning of this book I thought “I will just read it” but now when I still haven’t got further then half of the book I realize this book is much heavier then I thought! In a good way thou. I gives me things to think of. How am I acting with a man? Am I actually encouraging him? should I skip some things when I am mumbling? I have to say I like this book more and more as deeper I get and as further I read in it. It challenging me!

In this chapter “waking up a great sleeper” the author who been in the same situation her self, talks about her experience and how she met her husband. What her mentor challenged her to do in the same time how she learn to be more lady-like in her mind, what she was wearing and also how important it actually is to take care of our body in a physical way – to go to the gym. She talks about Discern His Charater, Assess His Potential, Ask the Right Questions, Encourage His Spiritual Maturity and Dream With Him. The last part of “dream with Him” is more in the sentence of when you actually got him on some dating. I have just read this chapter and I have say, it have open up new ways, thoughts how I will try it out in real life!

The phone-call about my future..

Yesterday I received a phone-call about my future. In my head I thought I would received a letter, but hey a phone-call is better and quicker.

I woke up of my phone vibrating in my bed, my consultant from NAV was calling because I send her a msg yesterday. …So today I’m sitting here in front of my lap top thinking about “who am I?” and “what is my qualities?” with my coffee on my left side of me in the mean time my cat Silver playing around with some paper. It’s not an interview it’s a small meeting with information about what they can offer and what kind of expectations I have.

Lets go back in time so I can explain what’s this is about.

SO I took a course in office and administration two years ago. A really good course I would say. I learned a lot new stuff I didn’t know and it went over 30 weeks and then it was a period of work-experience over 90 days or three months depending ho you want to express your self. I had three months of work-experience in the same building as I took the course, which for me wasn’t a problem. The problem was that I didn’t get a job there after the three months and I didn’t get the experience I needed to work in the field I wanted. I have had a year of applying to jobs with no luck because I don’t have what’s requested. But God has given me a new term of patience in my life and he let me be myself and enjoy life in a way I haven’t enjoyed it before.

So in December last year I had an appointment with my consultant at NAV about what this KVP (Qualifying Program) is and how to apply to it, what I needed from my doctor and if it was something else we needed to think of. I got the appointment with my doctor, got the paper to my consultant and the process was there.

In March I started a process to “pick up the phone” and ring all kinds of Hotel’s because that’s my dream. I want to work with booking and in the reception in a Hotel, I would fit perfect to work during the night. (For those who knows me, they would say yes, that’s where you belong. Because I am so much a night-owl.) Unlucky no Hotel’s could give me a spot. One of the reasons was they went all out on strike in April and during May. So when June came along I felt this is over and I texted my consultant and we started the process we are in now.

In the end of May we applied for me to get a spot in this Hotel, (PS: Hotel in Oslo) to have work-experience. And yesterday as I said before, I received the phone-call and will have a meeting tomorrow.

I am now looking forward to start asap even though I would like to have some-kind of Holiday before. Well I guess I’ll know after tomorrow when I can start and how soon I’ll have Holiday.

/Mia-Simone

Temptations in my daily life.

I’ve taken this year to read more in the bible and stay away as much as possible from all kinds of sex-temptations on social media, television and books. So far so good. I wanted to see for myself if I could and how I would managed it. I am not sin-free as a Christian, I have lusts as much as any other human but I can chose to not have lust and I can chose to not get deep into it as much as I can chose to not do or eat certain things in life.

In the beginning of this year I took a stand against “sex & the city” -series just because the hole series is about sex. How to get “one-night-stand” etc. I love the series out of Carries life even if it’s not even close to the actors life. I get inspirited out of how “Carrie” writes the column and how it shows that life isn’t as easy as many other series wants us the watchers to think. But it’s a lot in this series I do not like, so therefore I stopped watching for a year, to see how I might react to it if I watch it again (now in about six months).

When I read this;

“lust and normal sexual attraction are not the same thing. Lust is a form of selfishness and a dangerous ingredient to sexual temptation. Significantly, this kind of temptation can rear its ugly head both inside and outside of marriage.”

I knew I need to write, I needed to vent, I needed to get all my thoughts out somehow… So here I am writing out of my life.

So what is temptation…well everything you want to do but probably should not do. Like if you are in a relationship, you should not look at other guys/girls. You should focus on what you have! Your boy/girlfriend or husband/wife or partner you are living with or are engaged to.

I am still single but have since few years back (not all my life as most girls) got a desire to get married and the fact I want to be a mom (witch also is not something I have always wanted) (!) I do want to meet the guy that fits me, can balance me and in the end have sex and start a family. And until I meet this guy I know I have had lust (or as this line express it; “It might be more helpful to set aside the concept of lust in this context and to think instead in terms of insensitivity or disregard for the needs, preferences, and desires of one’s partner. This, is a serious form of sexual temptation”, in my life for years.

I know that even after the day I got Christian those thoughts was still there mostly because no-one told me how to get them out of my life or my brain. I had to find it out of my own… I have done stupid things even as a Christian but what I have learn the last year is that, if I know I sin (as a Christian) God forgives me. How? Well as long as I know I do something wrong I can confess it with my tongue and heart. And when I confess, God forgives me. It does not mean I should continue doing it! It’s a long walk of learning!

Thoughts in and about life.

Different thoughts has past my brain the last two weeks about what I could write as a blog this time. Thoughts like how my moving-day went, how it is to do a re-start to get to the gym again, what my thoughts are if a guy shows me interests and how I react or not react to how fun it is to have enough space and a cat. I am not sure yet how this blog will end, but it will be one. Maybe a bit more random blog then most of them.

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The moving-day went well and we were done after four hours of carrying all my stuff from the basement to the attic. 60 stair steps up and down.

A good workout that day!

I had to put my cat Silver in the bathroom until we were done, just so he would not be in the way. I do not think he was happy with that, but SO happy when I let him out.

It was kind of cool to watch Silver when he starts to wander around, a discovery tour of the apartment nosy as he is (he is a cat). But it was not as popular from his his side when I started moving furniture. But then here one and a half weeks later, after we moved in here, he is as usual. He feels at home.

An other thing that have past my brain is how grateful and thankful I am for the moving! How thankful I am to have such a good bunch of friends that could help me with my moving. I feel blessed for those friends.

I am also thankful for my land lord he is a great man! He has blessed me every-time I am late to pay my rent, only late because I have not received my monthly money from the government support-system.

I am so blessed to live here! In so many ways. Good neighbors. Generosity from neighbors etc. The house it self is not in the best stand but the neighbors are awesome! Easy to talk to and get along with.

It is definitely more space for Silver too, which is the noise of his play I wakes up to around 02.30 am… but he also sleeps on top of my legs when he sleeps a hole night.

He loves to sit in the window when it is open by approximately 10 cm. He does not try to get out but love to smell everything he’s not used to.

He is so curious to watch what happens in the courtyard. For example, he likes to sit and watch when Greta (landlady) runs out her car from the garage, walk out of the car, shutting the garage door and go back to the car to then reverse out of the courtyard. This takes maybe 5 minutes, but Silver find it so funny to watch.

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As I wrote above have I thought about how I react and what I do if some guy trying to show that he is interested in me. I have been hurt before as many others, and I think that I would love to just drown in his eyes whenever the guy trying to get in contact with me. But I also know that if it is other friends around I don not dare to do drown. I know that’s the only thing I would love to do, to sit there and just sink into his eyes.

So how do I react then?

Well I trying to meet his look for few seconds and then I go back to the others like nothing Happened. But inside of me I am happy and insecure of «is he really interested in me?»

I know me. I need something specific from the guy to understand he is interested in me. Like a card with few words, text-MSG with a smile of love, coffee-date or similarity were he put words on what he thinks or likes with me. And the best is also if that also fit’s him as a person to do.

Why am I so sky when it comes to like someone? Why can’t just be myself when I am such an outgoing person the rest of the time? Why is it so difficult to see how love looks like in different people? And why is most Christian guys so careful and slow?

I mean it is great they are careful to make sure but how am I supposed to understand what a guy means when I need some specific words or «hands up» to understand. I am not that kind of girl that analyzes every tiny word or detail or eye-contact that a guy do or say. No. I am to realistic there. I see the situation and try understand the situation and if I don’t understand I leave it to God.

The things that helps me is bible verse like those (below)…

/Mia-Simone.2016

Single or Get Married? Part one of three.

I am reading a book about this subject right now because I am interesting about the thoughts and mind. I want to get married. I don’t want to be single for the rest of my life. I have had my own struggle with this for some years. For many years I didn’t wanna get married for the course of get my own kids, no, I wanted to get married and then see if I/we could adopt kids. But during the last 4 years God has helped me to change my mind in this. It has been a struggle for me to come to the point I am today but probably worth it.

And during the Christmas holiday (December-15) God spoke to me about this much stronger then I have felt before. I got a longing desire from God to get married. I’ve got a desire to become a mom, a wife, have my family. And this is big for me.

In the book the writer talks about how we can’t really expect the «old style» any more about «how to sit and wait for the right one to show up» It doesn’t look like that in 2016! If you and me have a desire to get married we have to start looking for someone that are in our network and «qualifies» our personality. We have to be doing things and not just wait. Because if we wait, we will probably be waiting for the rest of our life.

It’s not just “what I want in your personality” its also to be able to see “what can you live with” and “how can we compromise each and an others issues?”.

To want to get married is a decision in life. It’s just like to be in-love with a person, it’s a decision you take. It is like if you or I want to take an education, we look for the right one, we apply and we starts it. Its a bit the same with I want to get married.

I am active.

I don’t just sit and wait.

Its not just the thought about «Yes I want to get married one day» well you might but it can take some longer time then you probably wanted. No, it is a decision «I want to get married» to start the process in your mind and soul, doing, acting and living!

It‘s How you Think about it.

It’s not just something that will just happen. It’s about you and me. Do I / you want to get married? If yes, then we have to something about it. We have to start talk about it like we talk about other normal things with our friends. We should not be afraid of talking about things we have on our heart with friends.

I think that if we talk more about this it want be so hard, tricky or awkward and both girls and guys will not be so sky or embarrass about the subject and actually ask someone out.

Whats the worst answer you can get? A no?

Sometimes I think we all are to fast to say those words “no I don’t think we fit each others”. How and what are you grounding this on? Have you seen that much of the persons personality that you know what God’s plan is?

This is my thoughts, what are yours?

/Mia-Simone

Re-posted in English. An ordinary Sunday ended up being unusual.

Here I sit in my dorm and waiting for the electrician to replace a fuse ( an old fuse) that has burned. The time is around nine pm Sunday evening…

It started with one of my neighbors vacuuming as usual in the basement and the staircase down and the power went. Actually a fairly common thing in this house.

Everything is brook dark in total housing. An evil smell that has spread in the cellar in recent days. But this Sunday the power went with a “Poof” and a weird smell came stronger then before. We began to look for where “the smell came from.” My first thought was “that I have no assurance on my things.” The bad smell came from the fact that a fuse in the hood that had passed. A fire smell like both me and a neighbor in the 2nd floor of the house responded but could not see where it came from. Another neighbor from the 3rd of the house realized what was most likely to be about and was soon in place with call landlord.

Here I am now and have neither insurance nor power to check online about what insurance would cost me. Suddenly I realized that it’s more than just wise to have. I need it in every case in this house!

A few of my neighbors have little power. We also do not know how long it will take before the electrician is here to fix a new fuse. It may be that we are out of power for several hours. That means we should not take things out of the fridge or the freezer. Everything to the light I have is tea light and a candle .. not much to a room of about 25kvm..and cool it was from before, in today, so it helps little that we can not turn up the radiators .. and hungry, I start to become ..

We found out that it is very advisable to vent out the hallway in the basement so as not to breathe in the electric fire smell as it is dangerous to breathe. During the night, the electricians came to work until around three or four seams came back. The positive is that at least everyone in the house gets involved and some ethnicity does not talk to anyone from the beginning, so you do it in this case. Oh, in my case, it will be a blog post ..

An ordinary Sunday ended up being unusual.

No power for anything .. A little frustrating and realize that I’m dependent on power and the Internet. I can not eat either as I need the stove for it ..

/Mia-Simone.Svenberg. 10 of January.2016. // 19 of November 2017

My 2015.

Yesterday was it the 28^th of December and here in Norway that’s apart of what they call «romjula» it’s the days after Christmas and before New Years-eve. And for me have those days in the between been days of «getting out in the snow and play» or if it was a bad winter stay inside and play with puzzle since I was a child but as an adult it’s most become «the traveling back to home time» from wherever I have been for Christmas. But this Christmas and all days of December I have been in Oslo, the city I live in. Different but very okay. I have had more then just interesting days! I have had an experience I did not see would come. A positive experience!

I have had time with just myself, do just what I wanted or not wanted to do. It has been a very relaxing Christmas. And we got snow on the 27^th of December – Yay!!

Yesterday was one of those slow days with a surprising cool thing. I went on Facebook just to check one thing and there one of my friends that lives in the state right now, was awake and on her way for work. And she said that the girls would be up at 5:45 am (9 hours behind us in Norway), and that she had told them that also meet her in the kitchen for early breakfast which for me meant Skype time with all three of them. Happy happy happy feeling. Most because I have not really heard much from the other two in a while. It was a good ending of Christmas for me! It is always nice to have the opportunity to catch up with friends especially over Skype when the friends does not live in the same country as I am living in!

The next thing I was doing was one of those things I have done for the last few years in the end of the old year and before the new starts, to write down Goals and Dreams for the year ahead. It is not a necessary to follow it but I am aloud do add things if I am in a situation that reminds me of a dream or goal. And one of my goals is exercising, to do it twice a week and get my body on an other level, get stronger physical and be able to stand against sickness more. And one of my dreams are to be able to travel more.

When I woke up today (not early morning) the snow was and is still here. The light from the snow is indescribable. It means so much for me to have snow during the winter, not just because I “always had it as young” no more because it lighten everything up it does get light with snow because it reflect the little daylight we have this time of the year, which is not much. And something else that reflect is our life, how we live it, how and what we show others. If you and I respect each and other and what’s going on in our life’s it will reflect to those we meet every day. It is the same with family, friends, cow-workers and people we just meet randomly in life. How do you want to your life to reflect on the ones you meet?

To respect a person for what’s going on in the persons life is so important but, yes it is a but here, but if you do not respect a person how will that person be able to respect you? I have been in a situation for some years where some of my family do not respect me in the way of the I am still single, that I have not met someone to share my life with. Those in my family “have been nagging” about “I should get married” like it is the easiest thing in the world… or “have you met someone yet?” like when is it there business? I respect them – those in my family – for what ever they do why can not they do the same for me?

This year that is nearly over… It is only two days left today. As an adult the days runs over to the next fast and if it is December today and January in two days is not the biggest different for me as it was when I was a child. It was such a bigger different then when I was a child. When did that disappeared? 2015 has been an interesting year in many ways. I have learn to be more patient in areas I did not have and I have learn new things from the course I started in sept-14 and ended this summer. I have got new friends, been there for friends that needed me in an other way then the years behind me. My faith has made me stronger. I have had fights I did not wanted but that I can see was good to have. I have learn that distance to my mom and her sickness has not made me weaker but stronger. I have learned to deal with things I did not know how to deal with it. I feel I have grown this year in knowledge, as a person, as a friend and with God in my faith.

I have had time to be creative in the way I needed to be. I have learned to sew after cloth pattern something I never done before. I have had costumers and still have two left that will slide over to the next year. And I will end this year with some sewing and be with friends. And I am looking forward for what next year has to come with! I am curious about next year!

I am thankful for this year.

I am thankful for my friends and my Church.

I am thankful for where I live and where I am gonna move.

I am thankful for life what ever it is giving me.

….here is a mix of picture from this year….

Me as Frosty the Snowman on a costume-party.

/Mia-Simone.Svenberg.2015.Oslo.

Dreams – goals – visions – good night-dreams…

The word “dreams” means different things for each of us. For you it can be a goal to do something, a daydream, vision or a good night-dream. It says that “to dream” is good for the brain and if you are a creative person you mostly dream more.

I dream a lot during the night. Mostly its unrealistic. Doesn’t make sense. But I still do it. I guess my brain has a lot to work with maybe because I am quite creative and have lots of ideas rolling around.

Some of my dreams are true. Like the one I had in the winter off 2005. I was living in Småland on the east coast south of Stockholm, Sweden. There and then it was just one of this unrealistic dreams. I dreamed I was sitting in a garden, didn’t know where I were. It was at the terrasse on the backside of a white stone house. And it was lots of fruit trees there and cozy. I was living there. And to dream this, when it was winter where I were and that I got all the details was in my head “one of those weird dreams”.

Two and a half years later or more was I sitting in that garden. I was living there, as in the dream. Weird! One of the days in May I think it was. I went out on the terrasse and got this “weird feeling” of “I have been here before”. It was there and then I realized this was the dream I had in Småland in 2005.

Most of my dreams are unrealistic but I remember they all when I wake up, and with every little detail, conversation, colors, area, how things are build or the team. I could write it all down but I have never done it because I remember it. Its like my brain has its own life..and just need to work all the creative ideas through hard. Every little idea becomes so big during the night.

But I also have dreams about what I wanna do later in life. I dream about to be able to buy a small house in the forest of Värmland, Västergötland or Halland, in Sweden. To have my own place where I can escape or just go and be alone, to create, to get inspiration and to invite friends for holidays. Or the dream of an old farm-Barn which I would like to change into a workshop for my business. I’m not a big “day dreamer” in the sense of what we as kids most did.

And I have dreams that has become goals in life. Like the thing to get a job and be able to travel more. To see the world.

As most of the friends I have, they like to travel. I want that too! I have started to dream of places I didn’t think about ten fifteen years ago that I wanna see, like New York, Chicago, Boston, San Fransisco, Seattle, Canada and Alaska. Maybe parts of Asia like Thailand or the Philippines – countries that in my head are “to hot” for me just because I don’t really like to much sun. But who says I have to go there when its the warmest period for the season? When I actually can travel when it fits me.

I wanna start travel now before its to late in life. I want to travel for the wish my mom had all my life and she in the end never did because of other things in her life stopped her. I want to see and explore Europe instead of my mom. My mom said many times “When I retired I’m gonna see Europe”. One of her biggest wishes where to see Praha and Berlin. She never got to see those places because of my dad got more then one stroke and she needed to be home with him.

I wanna do this for her and I will keep dreaming of new places.

/Mia-Simone

It starts somewhere…

This is my thought, since I went to elementary school I have liked writing short stories and novels- but for the last ten years I have not been writing as much as I have wanted to. I love to read books where I get drawn into the the details at once and watch tv series where the details are in place and describe the events with drama.

I like this, what Elizabeth Gilbert writes. It fits in to who I am. I did start to write but I had a break. A bit of a long break. But I’m back. I have started to write again and I hope and wish you will read it. I never thought I would write a book but writing helps me get my thoughts out of my head instead of analyzing everything as a lot of people do.

I love to write as a way to give the thoughts wings because I am not that kind of long analytic person. In that case I am not very “girlish”. I have a realistic brain that loves structure and routine and having things in order, numbers and multi-tasking.

I get inspiration from crime books and TV-series like Castle, NCIS and Law and Order and similar series. One of my favorite series is Sex and the City – with the writer Carrie Bradshaw ( Sarah Jessica Parker). For me its all about how she writes, her thoughts in life.

I have some journalist in my family and I think they have inspired me too in some way. They write daily and I can read some of it online and learn more. I have quite close friends who works with media and they also give me ideas. To write for me is not a problem I have so much in my head I can write about so no, that is not my issue. As long as I have my computer and a good cup of coffee I can write until I fall a sleep. I get inspired by words from my friends, what I hear in the store or on the train. I get influence from everywhere. Its just to get it down. Mostly I write it down on paper and than here on my computer.

I’ve just started to write about summer memories from my childhood, maybe it will be something more than just write it down at home who knows. But the things I will share here will be shorter stories and novels.

/Mia-Simone

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