I have never been in a battle like this until now in my life as an Christian. This situation where I become a victum of fraud is a battle between my faith on the Bible and what I live after. What is my Faith and how big the enemy trying to be. That’s the only thing I can say for sure. The world are for sure tougher today then it has been for us Christians. It’s an ongoing fight on who is bigger and who is the true and who will win this fight. And we Christians needs to be even more careful of what we do and not do. How we respond.
This is a new fight for me. But I’m not alone in this. Amen!
I am listening to Evelation Church right now while I am typing, the headline for the preaching is “Now Turn North” – the preaching text is about the man at the pool, who has been there for 38 years. Where the Lord say’s “pick up the mat and walk”. The Lord picked this man because he could use this man from his experiances. And the words “Now Turn North” is about where you are in life, have you turned South? Have you lost your way? But to Turn North isn’t just about geographic it’s about where you are on your path with the Lord. I can see I were walking South those day’s I have had, but I am now turning North!
To Turn North is about if you will confess with your mouth and believe with your heart that God raised Jesus from the dead, you will be saved. (That sounds like turning north to me – preacher.) The word repent does not mean to feel bad about what you’ve done; it means to turn and change your mind. It means to come back to your Father. For somebody who has been going south today, and God is turning you in a new direction. I want to remind you that the cross is the turning point of a human history. the resurrection was the proof that Jesus was God’s Son, and today will be the defining moment of your new life in Christ. And the prayer is a connection point with you and God. And if you mean this with your heart today, God will hear from heaven, heal you of your sin, forgive you and redeem you for your wrongs, and give you a new beginning.
I have to say – this was just what I needed to hear! The beginning of this preaching didn’t give me much. But this!! Thank you Lord for speaking to me like this!!!
I will be able to move forward in this havey mess I’ve been a part of ❤ . Only because the Lord Loves me and want me the best. ❤ .
The Sunlight that shining through the leafs in this picrues is my way of feeling calm on what the Lord is doing in my life right now.
… if it’s time or just life I don’t know, but something has hit me. (Not so hard thankfully.)
It’s like the fog on the picture above, it’s something beautiful and scarry in the same time.
I have, since I moved back to Oslo area ten years ago (2011) this month, been missing the West coast of Norway.
I moved to Stavanger in september 2010, after the Lord open up a job in a kindergarten. I felt how the Lord was talking to me and how He led me. But I did not stay as long as planned…
I lived there for 6,5months. The plan was a year, I thought. The years here on the East side have had the purpose and the Lord has worked within me and with me. And I would not be who I am if I had not moved back!
And the Lord gave me the reason why I needed to moved back to Oslo area, so I did not just move just becauce I did not like the job in Stavanger. Oh no, it was deeper than that.
But now, ten years later things are different again. And once again I have peace from the Lord about moving. Where? Well I do not now. 🤪.
So I apply for the jobs I have enough knowledge for and trusting the Lord in this too. 🙏 ✝️.
God has given me lots of patience over the last 8 years!
In 2011 I had to stop working because of a accident where I was working (kindergarten). I had a bad felt backwards with my back to the ground, the “forest floor”. I hurt my back badly.
I could not work for about 2 years. 😢
In 2013, February had I mine knee surgery. I had to learn to walk from scrach. Had rehab for 11month!
In September 2014, I started a coures to further educate me within Office and administration. I had a desire to use the knowledge I carried with me in this profession. Despite having two years of practice i this profession, I never got into a job…☹️
In August 2016, was the year I started to have internship/work-experience. The first lasted a year and led to another internship in a Hotel(in back office) which didn’t lead anywhere but it led to an other internship (also office). Forthtime of internship, which is the one I have had until today the 28th of February.
And tomorrow 1 of March I start working, first time in 8 years!!
Woop woop. 🤩🤩🤩
I have worked hard and tried to find a Job I thought was in the right field but Godshowedme whatHe wanted for me lastMay (2018).
Most people and friends I know, don’t understand how I could live in this situation/ have this life. I only trusted my heavenly Father to lead my steps.
I have asked myself “what do I want to work with?” Many times in life and the answer has always ended in “I want to work with youth”.
Now I will. 💖
From internship at the School (college) to job 😊 at the same School.
I thought I just said yes to a random Couchsurfer for this weekend, but he showed me wrong. He sended a girl who needed to here some of my life experience and about my pathwithGod to see positive on her adventure here in Norway.
She came more then less directly from her brothers Wedding on Friday in Polen to me in Oslo on Saturday (yesterday). Tied and only wanted to rest which she did. 😉
We had many good conversations about life, faith and how to see what and when God is talking. 😊 We watched tve movie War Room (which I think everyone should see no matter what you believe.) It has humor, lots of things to learn if life and if you are a believer, many good advice of how to grow with God. She told me after the movie that she needed to watch it, that it was good for her. So glad I were to hear that.
Grace was the word that we talked a lot about those hours she stayed with me and how grace can be a part if our life in different situations of life. How God has showed me grace in all kind of life-situation and how God has provide me with what I need or how God have closed or open doors in my life whenItrust God. How she can trust God. How to push emotions aside when the emotions turns into fear instead of the oppisite – happiness or peace in the specific situation there and then. When we come with highexpections from whatGod can do, he do provide our life just the He lnows we need it. Grace, love, trust and faith is some of the things he has given us to have in our relationship with him.
To have faith on God in the hard time can be difficult. Why am I writing this? Well, my mom has for the last two weeks been in and out of the hospital.. She has Alzheimer (AD) and the end getting closer more then ever.
It started with some cramps and she went to the ER by ambulance Monday the 29th of May. She stayed there for about 12 hours, then they send her up to IVA (intensive care section) and from there to section 61 (Medical care). She had got a lung-infection and she got antibiotics. She went stable and they could send her home to here Dementia service provider, Stenudden (see picture below).
Exactly one week later she went back by ambulance to the ER with new cramps, but this time it wasn’t the lungs. Thank God for that! But still… And both me and my brothers living far away from our Mom, my oldest biologic brother lives only 80km away but he has his family. And I don’t think it’s such big point for us to go and visit here in this last period. Cause we can’t really do nothing more then sit by her side. I don’t think Mom want us there either, cause that’s how she’s been saying all the years when she was healthy. We don’t know if she’s recognize us anymore… Imakes all the calls to the different sections on the hospital and making sure that everyone has the right and newest information. Why, well I am such a copy of my mom and her personalities. I am a realistic person and have heard that through my whole life but the thing is that I like it too. I like to know the facts and to let to know that my family knows whats going on. 🙂 It just my way to show care and love.
I guess it helps me to believe I am doing the right thing for mom. I like to coordinate things and help out my way. It helps me believe God is leading me to help others. My faith on the small thing like “let mom not have too much pain” or “let her live a bit more healthy from physical pain”. My faith also get stronger by knowing we have others standing in prayer for us as a family. I think its harder for my dad and brothers. The “hard part” for me is that she will not be there in the future, meeting new grand-kids or celebrate different things happening in life. The sad part I think is that she will never be apart of my future wedding, family and if children comes into the picture. But I know she will stay with me forever and she will be watching over each of us siblings. ❤
My ventilation is this blog. I clear my head and thoughts. I have faith on God to do what’s best for Mom here and now.
The nurses I’ve been in contact with on section61 is adorable! They care for mom ❤ they really wants to do the best for her and they let us know everything we asks for. I would like to send some flowers to them just saying “You helped us so much during those days of wonder. Thank you all”. I would like to go and meet them in person nest time I’m up there!
Mora Hospital.
I don’t think we as a family could go through this whole process without all the prayers that we have around us. It is so many friends, family and others around us that prays for mom to not have to much pain in this last period in life with the sickness and for us as family to not “fall a part” but to get strength through this and love to each other.
I am SO Thankful for every-ones prayers!!! ❤ ❤ ❤
I pray for mom every evening before I fall asleep and I know whenever mom is leaving us, she will get it better! She has been an Christian believer in many years and she believes in Heaven and I know she will get it better up there. She will be healthy again and she will not have any pain. ❤ She will watch over us from above. ❤
I love you Mom. I know you knew that before you got too sick. ❤
Time flies fast, when you have fun or have something to do.
It was first of August just now, well at lest in my head, life, world. But it is the twenty-first! That’s more then half the month. Where did those days and weeks go?
I started as a trainee in a hotel here in Oslo the first of August and I love it! It is a big prayer-answer! Friends have been with me in prayer for this for so may years! It has been a journey with God, where he has tout me how to trust him on 100% and not less. How God has provide my life, financially, with food, with getting to a doctor when I was to sick to catch a bus and a friend drove me. It is so much God has shown me and how great it is when I trust God.
It has been my journey I needed to learn to trust God more.
To understand that this is my foundation for my faith in life. Most people would maybe get mad or crazy to not have a job over five years. It has been a journey with tears, joy, struggles, “whys”, many prayers of “open the right door” and “close those doors that shall not even show some lights”. But I have to say, I have always something to do, one of the things is my customers and secondly is every project I start where I live. And I have been taking some courses during those years, but manly I have trusted God to get into some-kind of work-experience where God wants me, can use me. And here it is. The answer.
As I said above, I have started as a trainee in a Hotel here in Oslo. I love it! It’s fun even those days when we do not have so much to do. Even if my wish was that it would be more that happen during those days I guess that in one way it is good to be here as a trainee in Oslo’s smallest Hotel in the way that it does not take long time to get in to the Hotel-routines, but and yes I have to say but. But I wish it was more going on manly because I need it. I am the kind of person that need the “busy time” to refill my battery (energy) I get energy of meeting and helping people, and here at this Hotel does it feel like everything goes in s-l-o-w-m-o-t-i-o-n or a better description is that when the guests are arriving do they not come everyone in the same time (which is normal) or not even close to each other. A normal day few guest comes maybe around 3pm when we start the in-check and then its a long gap (more then an hour) until next group of guest comes, it can even pasting more then two hours before next guest…
In the same time these days going so fast and I only do four hours per day.
I will start with eight hours next week, which is a bit scary for me. Manly because I have not been working for the last five years, have had back-issues since the summer of 2000 and the worst pain the most recently in the last two years.
But I am to curious to start on those eight hours per day. I am curious and anxiety in the same time about how it will go. And I am to stubborn to not try.
The 17th was my free day – off work. A day I priority to go to the gym, for my health. A routine I got out of during summer, a routine I now struggle to get back into. I miss it so much! But I guess it is normal with new routines in life whatever it is a new job or studies, to get the time to reach to do those things that makes you happy or build up your life in a long term. I guess it is normal when your weeks looks different.
Anyway… I am looking forward to get into a work-routine my body manage.
I received a message from a friend through messenger on Thursday this week, where I had told here about my struggle to get a new routine in my life. And she answered that “it’s normal before all new things get into routines about everything in life” It was just so nice to “hear it” from someone I know and someone who has been in the situation quiet recently.
An ironic detail happen on Thursday.. I managed to get off work thirty minutes before I was suppose to get off. I guess I just was just tired in my head or that I had an other day in my mind. I realized that on my way to the bus so I called the Hotel and talked to the guy in charge. Which in my mind made it normal to think I will start thirty minutes earlier on Friday. Something weird happen there, I can still not say what happen.
During those days at the Hotel have I learn out-check, in-check, double-checking the booking system the hotel is using, where all the rooms are, how many it is, how many conference rooms we have, overbooking, where the fire signs are and some more. How close everyone in the hotel is working together no matter if you are in the housekeeping or in the restaurant. Which also means that “your routine” is not always the original routine, it can be to help someone else in an other ares. Quite many new things, I have got to know around twenty-five new colleges and started to walk much much. All good things in life.
This is how to Relax!
Today is it Sunday, laundry-day and relaxing, charge my energy-day. I have realized that when I am at the Hotel I do not have enough energy when I get home to do more then necessary like eat, maybe check my email, maybe order things that I need (that other people rather buy in the store) to keep up in life. But it is okay for me. Life is to short to think about what other people think I should or could do so I do not do that.
For the future,I really hope and wish I will be able to start to go next to the night-shift worker in a sooner future then I had in mind when I started three weeks ago, and that the night-shift will fit me as much as I think it will. Because that has been my dream so many years now…
Different thoughts has past my brain the last two weeks about what I could write as a blog this time. Thoughts like how my moving-day went, how it is to do a re-start to get to the gym again, what my thoughts are if a guy shows me interests and how I react or not react to how fun it is to have enough space and a cat. I am not sure yet how this blog will end, but it will be one. Maybe a bit more random blog then most of them.
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The moving-day went well and we were done after four hours of carrying all my stuff from the basement to the attic. 60 stair steps up and down.
A good workout that day!
I had to put my cat Silver in the bathroom until we were done, just so he would not be in the way. I do not think he was happy with that, but SO happy when I let him out.
It was kind of cool to watch Silver when he starts to wander around, a discovery tour of the apartment nosy as he is (he is a cat). But it was not as popular from his his side when I started moving furniture. But then here one and a half weeks later, after we moved in here, he is as usual. He feels at home.
An other thing that have past my brain is how grateful and thankful I am for the moving! How thankful I am to have such a good bunch of friends that could help me with my moving. I feel blessed for those friends.
I am also thankful for my land lord he is a great man! He has blessed me every-time I am late to pay my rent, only late because I have not received my monthly money from the government support-system.
I am so blessed to live here! In so many ways. Good neighbors. Generosity from neighbors etc. The house it self is not in the best stand but the neighbors are awesome! Easy to talk to and get along with.
It is definitely more space for Silver too, which is the noise of his play I wakes up to around 02.30 am… but he also sleeps on top of my legs when he sleeps a hole night.
He loves to sit in the window when it is open by approximately 10 cm. He does not try to get out but love to smell everything he’s not used to.
He is so curious to watch what happens in the courtyard. For example, he likes to sit and watch when Greta (landlady) runs out her car from the garage, walk out of the car, shutting the garage door and go back to the car to then reverse out of the courtyard. This takes maybe 5 minutes, but Silver find it so funny to watch.
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As I wrote above have I thought about how I react and what I do if some guy trying to show that he is interested in me. I have been hurt before as many others, and I think that I would love to just drown in his eyes whenever the guy trying to get in contact with me. But I also know that if it is other friends around I don not dare to do drown. I know that’s the only thing I would love to do, to sit there and just sink into his eyes.
The look of love.
So how do I react then?
Well I trying to meet his look for few seconds and then I go back to the others like nothing Happened. But inside of me I am happy and insecure of «is he really interested in me?»
I know me. I need something specific from the guy to understand he is interested in me. Like a card with few words, text-MSG with a smile of love, coffee-date or similarity were he put words on what he thinks or likes with me. And the best is also if that also fit’s him as a person to do.
Why am I so sky when it comes to like someone? Why can’t just be myself when I am such an outgoing person the rest of the time? Why is it so difficult to see how love looks like in different people? And why is most Christian guys so careful and slow?
I mean it is great they are careful to make sure but how am I supposed to understand what a guy means when I need some specific words or «hands up» to understand. I am not that kind of girl that analyzes every tiny word or detail or eye-contact that a guy do or say. No. I am to realistic there. I see the situation and try understand the situation and if I don’t understand I leave it to God.
The things that helps me is bible verse like those (below)…
mia-simone. svenberg 