Lacking of friends  – continueing…

I have now throughing myself out there to be more outgoing and find new friends. Twice, two day’s in a row.  And totally worth it!

I met two women yesterday (Thursday  July 4th) that I probably will meet again for a chat over a coffee or similar. But it wasn’t contacting on how we are as personality or maybe it was hard to get to that level 🤔 when one of us spoke broken English and the other floating English and me also floating English. We didn’t got deep enough to explore hobbies.

Today (July 5th) I met Amber, just me and her talking. And we had the contacting 😊. We talked like we been knowing each other much longer! And we will stay in touch so that we can meet again as soon as the summer holidays are over and start to ‘hang’, talk or do things together 😊.

Thankful is was is left inside me right now.

I feel I have had lost my outgoing side of myself for the past years but I am getting closer to whom I once was 😊😊. This is promising!  To challenge yourself can be so good for yourself!

Thankful to the Lord showing me what I need in life.

A very wet walk in the rain 🌧…

With an ex-colleague, she is also like an extra mother because she reminds me of my mother. We went for a walk, but when we actually started to walk it also started to rain like the sky just open up 😆😆😅😅. But we did walk!  Approxy 4 km. And it’s a very long time since I was so wet after a walk 😆😆.

Home’n drying up before I heading out again a bit later to get to know some new ladies in Stavanger 😊😊

Realisation, lacking of close friends and force myself to do something about it!

I just realised I don’t have close friends here in Stavanger. I kind of choose it when I started on my driving licence. And then have had a good job this last nine months  😊. A blessing job! But here I am,  alone. And the only thing I have done so far is sewing.  I haven’t taken the time to get in contact with anyone,  haven’t forced myself to get to know any new people.

I have to do that!

Life should be more about get to know more people! I am an outgoing person and like to get to know new people, but I have been hiding myself. Not good!

It’s probably easy to release it in the evening when most people are at home… yet I will now start to look for new friends. Friends I can catch-up with over a coffee or just talk to. I don’t need many just some few knowing we have something in common 😉.  If it’s through church or through other gatherings I guess we’ll see.

I am tired to be single and alone! Changes needs to be done!

Eventful week so far! First week of my holiday.

So far (4 days) this week has been an eventful week!

First, Monday (24th) migraine and pasting the driving test.

Second, Tuesday (25th) did a super bargain on sale.

2 top’s for 60nok.

Thirdly, Wednesday (26th) could enjoy the temperature outdoors and painted the outdoors pots with colors my style 😊.

Acrylic colour.
It will hold as long as it holds 😊.
I have now those and six orange pot’s.
See in the background, the orange pot’s 😊. This went from gold to turquoise 😊.

Fourthly, Thursday (27th) on adventure with Saga the grand danios and Hilde (Saga’s mom), got migraine with auora again but this time I had it for a record time of 15 min! And around 6:30 pm went for this years first time dipped me in the sea! Also first time in three (!) years.

Freezing cold water!

Freezing cold water but perfect for me and my body after the top temperature of +28°C – the sudden heat we just got and you know me I just don’t cope above +15°C 😆.

The only thing I did after that was actually sewing 😆😆😊. 

The challenges to be taller than 5’10 – the standard size.

Just wanted to finish it. Not that I thought I would need one more 😆😆 but, I do need more than one bikini.  Therefor will I sew a matching bikini buttom to this green top.

I started on this in 2020.
Wanted a bikini buttom that matched the bikini top. Here have I used what was ment to be a summer dress but I used it to sleep in during the summer.

I am between sizes, the sizes you find in the stores 🤪 . Their for it’s easier to sew something that fits my body.  Their for adjustment is nessesary. Try it on my body to know it fits and I dislike to go shopping and trying things on.

I sew to challenges myself to become better but also offcourse to be able to have clothing that fits my tall body!

I found another bikini top 😆 and going to finish that too, but this one will have a twist 😊.

To be 6’2 ( or 189cm) doesn’t come with just happiness just because I am tall, as most people are jealous on. No it comes with a lot more challenges.   We who are taller than 5’10 have the challenges to find clothes long enough or fit all the other curvers, weight, longer upper torso than legs or the opposite. Not something we find in a normal clothing store!  (It is easier to be shorter because you can shorten clothes than make one item longer!)  

Most of my tall friends buy clothes in online stores that has started their own business just because they never found clothes for their body or in online stores that has been approached to get clothes for tall people.   I do too, mostly for Jeans and sweaters.

Sewing is not just a hobby for me, as many of my friends and students asks. No it’s more than that! It is mostly to be able to get clothes my style and learn to sew 🧵✂️my wardrobe 😊. But it also is to save the planet. If we sew, we can choose the fabric. Use what we already have and redesign it into upcycling or choose naturally fabric we know is good for the environment!

Bikini 2024.

My challenge last week was to sew a bikini that fits my tall body. A challenge I took. And it took me six days to finish. I am pleased to finally feel good in a bikini that looks different and good on me.

Before I started.

This is the first step to find out what size I would need. A stretchy material but not good enough for swimsuit.
An old training top I haven’t used much.
An other traning top I only used few times.

Both training tops was perfect for upcycling and make the bikini buttom.

The process.

This is more for myself if I sew another 😊.
Finished bikini top.
Bikini buttom. And yes I wanted to have a higher edge infront.

Here you see I’ve used the fabric from the apricot colour top’s on both pieces.
This is the front side of the bikini buttom,  just like I wanted them. 

As you may know I am 6’2 and it is hard to buy clothes that actually fits my tall body!  A bikini isn’t any difference. As the fashion is everything “shall be as little as possible ” well that doesn’t look good on all bodies!

And I am not super pleased with every curve I have, not uncommon for any woman around the world. Yet I have found my style and therefore I sew  😊.  Exploring in different pattern that hopefully will fit me and also look good on my tall body 😊.

Hope you will be inspired by my sewing to challenge yourself 😉. Good luck!  And thank you for reading my blog@

Looking for a bikini – found 2 top’s to sew & celebrating my driving licence with a friend.

I was looking for a new bikini but didn’t find any good colour or size but I did found 2 top’s on sale 🤩. In perfect colour! And what did I think? Well, I can use those 2 top’s to sew my bikini 🤩🤩.

After this bargain on sale, I met a friend and celebrated with a dessert (read about it in the post’s Driving Licence part 1 – 7) down in the city. 

My dessert
My friend’s dessert.

And after that I bought a whole watermelon 🤩🤩, got home sewed a bit and while doing that a friend from my house church came by with a flower as a congratulations greeting

The pot did I paint the 26th.

Driving license  – part 7 – did it 🤩🤩🤩🙏.

24th of June. It didn’t start good 😔 oh no it started with migraine with aurora 05:50 am. Took my medicine and ate breakfast. Texted my driving school teacher, to inform him. Did all I could to get it away. My goal was to do the very last mandatory driving test without migraine.

Catched the planned bus. Got to the driving school before meeting up time (06:58 am) as was 07:10 am.

Went through the car and all that I need to on what is what and where I found it.

Driving off to the traficstastion (where it all starts), drove some nessesary streets incase of if that’s where I would be driving with the sensor from the traficstastion.

I have to say, I have never before, been driving with my migraine medication. So this was wierd and I wouldn’t done it if it wasn’t because of today’s task!

The driving test itself is an hour long,and in three (3) parts.

When we got back an hour later, this very nice sensor, told me I had past. A bit of a chock! But a good chock! I have worked so hard for this in the end! 

Temporary driving licence.

I did it!

😍😍😍🙏

Driving license  – part 6.

May 29th. Reflections from today’s driving. In total 36,11 km. Lot’s of practice on the feedback lately 😊.  Driver with the L in the back of the car, for a good course.  Driving with the thermoses of coffee also svela – a very Norwegian dish/ thicker pancake – around to the charity group during day 3 of Goodness Week in Stavanger.

Private driving Wednesday 29th of May, 3 hours in and around Stavanger.

Private driving 1st of June went much better even if I got lost and didn’t find the right road to drive off to the European motorway at once 🤪. But I managed to read all the signs without stress 😊, even the roundabout went fine today (even if I had lost of pain in my lower back).  I am a bit worried that my back won’t be good enough for the next mandatory part 😔.

I am thankful for my neighbour lady (age 74 that dare to sit beside me and having Saga🐕 in the car, while I’m driving) and thankful for the protection from the Lord! 

Stretching the back and let Saga 🐕 out for a small walk, in Ganddal my living place last year.

Private driving June 4th tunnel practice not so much about how to drive in a tunnel, no the focus was on where will I end up? So I could update my gps in my head. Unlucky I didn’t drive there at all the 7th when I had my 3rd mandatory part, 2nd driving over 2 hours. I had made a plan that would have worked perfectly with my brain but after half of the mandatory driving the teacher asked me how much time we had left – approxy half – so instead of driving where I in mind and be able to stop and eat a bit, the teacher forced me to change my plans, drop out of a break. I drove with the same teacher May 24th and  than it was okay with breaks. I just don’t understand!

Sadly I now, since the last hour of the mandatory driving lesson, have fatigue symptoms. My ADHD doesn’t work well with driving more than 2 hours. I hope it is something I can practice on! But I can’t have a life with fatigue symptoms as soon as I am driving with someone. This driving school teacher also send me unconscious stress – which is the reason I now since approxy 1 am Friday the 7th have had fatigue symptoms 😔. 

Just a picture of Stavanger.

Yet I have to be apart of the last mandatory part tomorrow Monday 10th of June, 3 pm. I feel like someone been driving over my head. And screens (laptop or smartphone) are less good than other things in life right now. Fatigue symptoms 😔.

Perfect weather for driving! June 22nd.

June 22nd. Today I have my last private driving. So today I am going to repeat things I know I can do better, poking on the driving in and around and out of a roundabout and get to know the suburb where the trafic station for the drive-up (or driving tests) starts.

Backed into the parking lot where it is always tight.

Midsummer home in🇸🇪 Sweden is a big weekend, here in Norway🇳🇴 they make a bonfire.

And what do I do? For the past years haven’t I done a thing  😔. I think I have been on one maybe two St.Hans bonfire during my soon 17 years in Norway. I totally miss my Swedish🇸🇪 traditions! Not all of it but a lot.  And this midsummer I am nauseous 😔 been eating and drinking blueberry 🫐 which is the only thing that helps.

I went grocery shopping (just got home) and thought “why not at least buy some strawberry 🍓 as some kind of feeling of which day it is. 

But it isn’t the same!

To be sick on such a big day and single isn’t fun! But at least I know it comes more 😉 and hopefully with a driving license 😊 in the future.

The Swedish 🇸🇪 traditions is herring, potatoes, family, schnapps (for those who like it), pick 7 different flowers, Midsummer dance with folk-dress, folk music, barbecue, bring in hay (for those who live further north, and Christian festivals.

The Norwegian 🇳🇴 traditions haven’t I got into yet. And I would say it’s a mix of that I don’t have a driving license and no Norwegian man or any Norwegian family whom has adopted me in to their family and traditions.

My midsummer 2024 is a sad mix of frozen pizza and blueberry and maybe strawberry…

Birthday gift to a friend.

I am not the person that go out and buy a gift therefore I had figure out what to sew on Tuesday (June 11th)  so I knew it would be done on Thursday (13th).

I found some jeans fabric in two different sizes and sew them together with red thread.

Made the pattern myself,  just thinking what do you need when you’re cooking.

Found an old shirt to make ties for the apron. The apron is size XL.

It was hard to know if the tie around the neck would fit so I saved some length to be adjusted if needed.

All the pattern have I made by sewing forward and back to make the letters. The pocket is also a rest-pieces of jeans fabric.

The giftcard also upcycling. I used one side of a coffee bag, glued it on thicker paper and used it as a giftcard 😉

In total the Birthday man was happy for the gift. I am looking forward to see him use it even if he said it was too pretty to use.

The Birthday party was yesterday,  Friday June 14th.

Menopause isn’t just one stage to get through! It’s 3 stages; Perimenopause, Menopause and Postmenopausal.

Why am I sharing this? Well I am learning more and more about this every day. Because this isn’t something we woman just will go through it is a part of life!

And the sad part is that too many doctors still believe that a bloodtest will show if you are in one of the stages.

Which is sad! Because you can start symptoms of being in one of the stages with other symptoms than can’t show on a blood test!

Read more about it – if you are a woman!

You can have the same type of symptoms as if you are depressed or have anxiety and maybe it actually are more naturally things like less testosterone in your body?! Make a reaserch about those stages, find a podcast about it and newer books in this field! Talk to your doctor and be a bit stubborn so you get answers. The body, our bodies ate changing!

I have learned so much more about this theme by listening to my favourite podcast with The Dr Louise Newson Podcast,  she works in the field, interviewing women in all different fields who are in one of the 3 stages.

Perimenopause is the first stage and and be in a period between 2-10 years and in this stage you still have the period.

Menopause is the second stage and you have now been without the period for one full year.

Postmenopause is the third stage and this is where you will be for the rest of your life. 

This is not just for us women the more men knows about as more will they understand not just why we “go though it” but hopefully also why it will be easier to understand “why some women wants less sex or be less intimate” in this time of life.

Please share this to your friends if they don’t understand what they should do or don’t understand what’s happening with their body 😉.

My backpacker

I really needed a new backpacker! Therfore did I check what I had at home that I could use.

Here are a mix of rest pieces from Jeans I haven’t been able to use and I recycled the smaller backpack I had and didn’t like.

I’ve used the straps and the zipper from the smaller backpack.

This is the process.

And this is the finish;

Empire dress without sleeves and floor long – part one  – my summer dress 😊.

All of us who has ADHD knows what I mean!  So my next sewing project is an empire dress in full length. In a light fabric with wider sholders for warm summer days. I am “a bit allergic” to long sleeves 😆😆 in the summer.

My challenge is to get it floor long and sew an under skirt.

Here are the start of my summer dress.

While I was cutting out the fabric I realised I wouldn’t have enough fabric from one curtain so here am I using 3 curtains. And instead of sewing an undergown (skirt under) I am testing to sew the nice fabric on the inside of the dress.

Sewing June 1st in the evening, after a “bumpy-ride-day” (lots of back pain). I started with the turquoise fabric the only fabric I hadn’t done anything with so far.

If my back is better today, June 2nd, I hope to managed to sew all the insides so I can sew it all together. And start on the top part soon. Because I really want to be done before my holiday so I can bring it with me and wear it.

I am taking Holiday the 2nd week of July, the first propper Holiday in 8 years.

The re-design of the bead-dress (2023-2024), part one.

I got this dress after some of my old colleagues, last years work place (Bore school) when they had a ‘Change your wardrobe Day with clothes you don’t want but maybe your colleague like’

Which I got for free in June 23.

I took it out of my sewing project box yesterday (1st of January 24) to get some ideas of what kind of fabric could work on it.

After trying the dress on I figured I needed to change the fabric around the arms.
Second fabric… could work even more but…

And they both could work for sure! But it was not what I wanted. I wanted something more fun & crazy like me 😆😆.

And today (second of January) I went to my favorite fabric store to buy new needles 📍 and there it was! The cool fabric 🤩🤩🤩 and enough (2,8 meters) and on sale 🤩🤩🤩.

This will be so fun! I will do it so asymetric as possible. Orange and black is perfect! Playful, crazy and fun!

I bought this fabric in January and still in June haven’t I found the pattern I want 😔🤪 for this dress. I will use the undergown (the inside dress) because it fit’s me.

Driving license – part 5 [ I didn’t think I would need an other part of this subject but I will 🙈😆😆.]

May 10th 07.30-09.00am had I the first part of the last mandatory part through the driving school.

Then it will be two different types of mandatory driving – one part is countryside driving for 3-4 hours the other is planing-gps-driving for 2,5‐3 hours. And then it’s a last part where you reflect on what you learned during those driving school lessons.

Safety course on the road, theory.

Norway are making all new drivers extremely alert on absolutely everything they think is important when it comes to driving. Instead of learning more along the way, everything must be learned at driving school and it is expensive!  And all mandatory parts are not adapted to people (like me) who have practiced driving a lot or have had a driving license for something else before. No, everyone must do this regardless of what you already know. This type of mandatory came in 2005 because the government saw how many accidents it was among new drivers.

Instead of adapting to your background and possibly age, they extend the lessons and instead of compressing the lessons to make them more efficiently 🤪 they do the opposite. Tipical Norway.

Between May 10th and May 24th, I have had good practical 🚘 driving with my two friends my age that taking time to help me with this 🤩🤩

Sorry this is in Norwegian. One of many rules  for driving in Norway.

Next driving with the driving school, May 24th countryside driving are done (after an a bit rough morning with hotflush 🤪) . The driving itself went well. I am now driving automatic (started with stick) and I love to drive an automatic car! This  mandatory part – countryside driving for 4 hours(!) was so intense for my adhd-brain and I had so much pain in my wrist after 🤪.

My day wasn’t over just because I past this. [More thing would happen after this.] But the Lord was with me all 4 hours 😊✝️.

The long weekend of 🇧🇻17th of May🇧🇻 and the Pentecostal with lot’s of sewing 🧵😊, good weather (warm!) and two new friends.

17th of May least we can’t say it was cold! We have had above +20 degrees Celsius the whole week. And today wasn’t it any different except that we have had mire wind. Last year was freezing cold.

My school, Nylund skole
Flags everywhere 🇧🇻🇧🇻🇧🇻
Nylund school yard decoration
Just a normal decoration in the street’s 🇧🇻 on 17th of May 😊

After I’ve seen the 17th of May celebrations I walked back home. A walk in total of 4 km in mostly 🌤☀️…

Got home and had late breakfast out on my terrace  – a place I really enjoying because I haven’t had a terrace for the past three years .  I’ve been sewing and picking up what I sewed 😆😆 off and on the rest of the day when I haven’t been eating. 

Here I picking up seams on a small backpacker
Sewing on the re-used straps.

The 18th of May, and Pentecostal weekend, I picked up half of what I sewed the 17th 😝🤪😆.

The morning of 19th I figured that I could start on the inner lining or the inner bag for the backpacker. Much more easy!

I have also managed to walk with Saga 🐕 and her owner Hilde, for more than one hour.  Sewing some more and got one hour of a practical run 😊.

May 20th …

Some fixing on clothes that I thought was done and wasn’t when I put them 😆.

I was happy for few minutes when my overlocker worked, but than after unpatienced when I didn’t manage to get the the one thread in place 🤬🤪.

But 😊 I am almost done with my new backsack/ backpacker 😊. Just few seams left 🤩. It actually starts to look like something 🤩.

Innerbag with pockets, made by Rest-pieces from other sewing projects. Which even one more time have to pick up the corner-seams 🤪 or move the smartphone pocket 🤪.
The front of this project. Rest-pieces from jeans and decorations of a rosehip.
The backpacks inside.
Inside pocket.
Decoration:  “Normal is boring”.

I am getting there in small steps 🤪🤪. But I am so so pleased with it!

The latest sewing,  creativity & energy – May24.

I love when I have time and energy to fix what has been laying and waiting for some time!

Fixing and repairing Jeans. May 8th.

New earnings  from upcycling paper clips & safety pins with beads from the floor in the art&craft room at work.

I am thankful for work, life and sparetime! The Lord has both showing me things in life and in dreams of my future and I keep trusting him in what will come that I yet don’t know. I enjoying every moment if I have more or less energy!  Those last day’s has been a mix of both and yet I am smiling because life is good and I am trying to embrace it as much as possible.

Happiness. Finally I know what colours I have 😍 on all my threads 😍

The Lord keep guiding my steps, give me inspiration to new things and ideas 😊. And even after a tough work day I have energy to be creative at home 😊. And interesting enough it feels like I have more energy to be creative now than when I had Silver   🤔  🤪 … maybe I was more allergic ti him than I thought…?

Jogging pants – upcycling sweaters. 🧵✂️📍📏

I got inspired from work where the pulpils in 7th grade going to start a upcycling project this week (week 5 of 2024). My udea started three weeks ago and I have used as much time as I have been able to use. Evenings and weekends, when I have been well, sewing together pa5ches to bigger patches. I have got so far now, that I can finally start to cut the pattern 😍🧵✂️.

Here is the pictures from the start;

January 10th.
January 11th.
January 12th.
January 14th & 16th.
January 29th.
Getting closer. January 29th.
Easter24

During this Easter I managed to get sewing machine oil on the just finish pants 🤪  …

…so than it was to pick up the area of the pants.

My type of Art

I have now been able to use them at work (finally) this last week.  And they are my very much favourite pants!  The benefits of sewing my own wardrobe is to sew clothes that fits me. With leg length of 91cm (35,82 inch) I struggle to find pants that are long enough and nit to lose in my waist.

My birthday, May 3rd 2024… and the day after 😊

It started good, okay temperature at 7 o’clock am with 🌡+14°C (don’t know Fahrenheit). Woke up 06.10am and had just enough time to to morning things and head out to work 07.30am 😊😊. With my Birthday cake in my hands.

Though caring it I had it in a bag to protect it from mostly sunlight.

Even if the temperature was the best for me I had a good birthday! 🌥⛅️☀️ and the highest temperature so far! +23°C

Family members who called 😍. Approxy 75 greetings on social media.

A bit lonely… but okay.

The day after started with a cancellation of an appointment. So than I had to come up with something I wanted to do as something fun and exploring, an adventure! Now when the temperature actually fit me 😆😊 with only +18°C .

So I walked down hill to one of the nearest busstop, a 15 min walk if you walk fast, I used my time and walked a bit slower than normal 😊😆.

On this map the path that takes 16 min.

Catch one bus to the train center area. Bought something to eat on the way, because I know myself I can’t get hungry (than my eating disorder kicks in), Catch the second bus and walked approxy 12 min to my adventure – a garden centre.

Made a bargain 😍😍 10 pot’s for 200nok 😍😍, the smallest cost 40nok before half price and the bigger cost 80nok before. I also bought 2 Spanish Gerbia.

Spanish Gerbia and pot’s.

That I’ve just planted (when I got home an hour ago) .

Happy with my adventure, pot’s and flower’s. Now it starts to look like the wish I had in my head for my terrace, when I moved here in October 23. 😍

Driving license – part 4.

2023 wasn’t a good year of driving after my fall backwards at work in January 😐😒. I tryed to drive but had a lot of pain sitting for more then one hour. And then I was on sickleave in May. Moved in October… Been working or been sick this fall. But I am planing to finish everything with this driving license in 2024. I have a goal 😉 and I am motivated!

February 2024. I had my first private driving the 3rd of February, first in 10months! It went okay. I know what I need to practice on. I need to get a better flow while I’m driving. I need to feel comfy in and before a roundabout! As bigger the roundabout is as more freaking out I get. This hasn’t been an issue before… which I dislike a lot now!

April-24. I contacted my old and first driving school here in Stavanger and asked them about the last mandatory level and when it was possible to start that? Took a driving lesson April 22nd, it went well.

Meantime my plan is to drive as much as possible private until the practical driving test.  The 4th and last mandatory level getting closer 🤩.

I have been blessed with tax money to complete the 🚘driver’s license 😊😊 and because of that  I will start on the last mandatory level in May 10th 🤞😊.

The Lord is blessing my life in so many ways right now!

Six weeks has past since I let Silver-boy fall asleep and never wake up again here on earth. And it is a bit hard to understand it has past 6 weeks! Yet that’s the facts.  I am thankful for work and that I have got more hours as a substitute teacher. And  actually got the responsibility for more classes in Art&craft, planning and contact with the teachers for those classes and the fact I’ve been throwing in to the goal and grade targets and criteria for the three grades. Somethings I love more and more. 

It’s interesting how the Lord has guided me into this subject and this school! I’ve been working in the school for 6 years now and it isn’t until this year I have understand what the Lord have been trying to tell me 🤣🤣. Yet I am thankful for most of my experience to know where or where not I want to work or with what!

Drawing class outdoors, Friday 12th.
Teaching the 5th graders to make an apron. Planing, writing and drawing a pedagogic pattern for them to understand.

Those last two days (April 13th) have I also been able to sew 😊 first time since the 25th of March without backpain. And that is happiness.

Here is the results of 2 pair of jogging pants became 1 pair. I’ve used the backside of both pair.

I continue to take one Day at the time, I still talking to Silver like he was here, but not as often now as in the start, which I think is a good process. Because of more work hours I am glad Silver is in heaven and that the Lord watching over him when I am at work and that I don’t do have a bad conscience if Silver was home alone (as I have written about before). I am thankful for life and what the Lord has in plan for me and my future!

Out of focus picture of nature.

This is also a blessing in the way that it is just about me and that Silver-boy is in heaven. If Silver-boy had been here and sick on treatment I wouldn’t been able to both finish the driving license and pay for Silver’s treatment.  I see more and more positive things being single without a pet. It might sound harsh but for me ut is a blessing.

In memory of Silver, the cat that learned tricks 💙, this picture is from 2019-21.

💙🐈💙 One of my first driving when I past the practical driving test will be “with Silver’s cat-cage” on the car and just drive somewhere because I promised him that 😊💙🐈💙.

Those last weeks has also learn me how the silence is good to communicate with the Lord. To think out loud. To reflect on all good things that has happened in life with Silver and how I managed to live without a pet before I got Silver. Where and when and how I have enjoyed my life with and without Silver.  And this helps me to grab around the facts of how I want to live forward 😊. 

The first day I felt propper happiness again was April 4th working withthe7th graders doing really good work (12 day’s without Silver). I can’t say I have smiled every day after the 4th but I have felt more and more positive thoughts and being creative at work or at home helps a lot and is one kind of happiness for me.

I have since I layed down Silver, been sewing so much more 😍😍. The latest was the wool coat  – separat post.  But it didn’t last long 😆😆 yesterday – April 30st – I started on yet a new dress.

ADHD – the challenges as a substitute teacher with ADHD.

I am sure I have ADHD. I have always had an issue to be still, had a hard time to concentrate and stayed focus from age 7 ‐ when I started school. I started to climb on high things in an age of 3,5 years, like loos book shelfs, house roof, the tallest tree etc.

School wasn’t hard itself but to sit still 40-60 minutes. OMG that was hard. To run around or bicycling that was both fun and good for me!

Why am I writing about this now? Well reasonly I have realised how often I start on something at home and than start on a second or third or fourth thing all in an hour or two 🤪. I have always known I had it. Never been examed by a doctor and actually got the diagnosis. But I also learned to live with it.

An other thing is how good structure and good routines work for me at work. Or how I can relate to a pulpils with the same type of hyperactive brain and never being in the moment and recieve a message. Because you stop to listen because you already have to much things you are thinking of 🤪.

To be creative helps me to focus it helps my brain to relax and not be super hyper.   I would say that the way I use “my medication” helps my brain to stay focus when I need it. It helps me to concentrate and relax.  I found my method to cope with ADHD when I was around 17 years old. So now approxy 30 years later I still use the same method. I do get a bit tired on myself especially if I am Hungary then I can start doing to many things 🤪🤪 because I need food…

I have had some challenges this week (April 19th) as a substitute teacher in art&craft!  With pulpils who isn’t motivated to learn new things or repeat something they’ve learned two years ago… So for my brain that’s challenging! How do I get them motivated when my brain needs to be creative to learn?

Upcycling, Re-design wool coat and a pillow case.

The last two weeks have I had one main sewing project. The wool coat. Upcycling and redesigning it to become more me and my style.  I am not done yet but here are the process.

The wool coat.
Picking up all seams on the pillow case.
Trying out how it will look.
Needling up the fabric.
Sewed this part.
Sequins… sewed it on my sewing machine and broke 3 sewing needle’s 😆😆😆
Hand stitching the inside of the collar.
Picking up the seam on the coat arm, a bit to short for me.
Hand stitching it during 2 hours April 27th.
Finished the hand stitching on the arm length.

Today’s task will be;

To sew this so approxy 1cm is visible for the eye and the rest covered when it’s not in use.

This last picture is the back side of the wool coat.

I hope I will be able to hand stitch the left arm length part today (April 28th). I haven’t decided if I am going for plain black or plain purple fabric from the pillow case yet.

I will hand stitch the loose decorations on the sholder.  Here are what I did before I went to sleep yesterday (April 27th) ;

One with fabric and the other plain black
Or should I have sequins on the other?

I was thinking to do something on those two too… but I think it’s to much work.

Last weeks buds, green leaves and flowers.

April 20th.
April 21st.
April 22nd.
April 24th.
April 27th.

And

April 28th. The tree straight ahead just sprang out during this night! The one to the right yesterday. It’s getting more and more green leaves outside my window 😊

ER visit – not planed!

Maximum bad luck today (Saturday April 20th) when I was finally going to ride the electric scooter today at about 11:40. Didn’t get further than just before the bridge ‘Strømsbrua’ 🤪🤣.


My own fault. I was looking to the left, and there was the post. Bang, straight into the post.
A lady stopped her car when she saw me sitting on the ground. Came over to check on me. She called 113 (911) and both she and I talked to medical people.
I got a cut on my temple and it’s bleeding. Hit some other places too.
Got a migraine from the bang/crash. Had medicine taken. At the emergency room now.

Butterfly stands for change – something my life is about now.

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Life has started to become less painful and I have started some new routines that helps the rest of the day to go easier 😊💕. I still say “good night” in the evenings and “I’m awake” in the mornings to Silver-boy 💕 and I think I will do that for some time.

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But I have started to smile again and feel so grateful and thankful for those 8 years I got with him 💕. So many good and fun memories with him. 😊.

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As time flies I am lucky to be able to work as a teacher in art&craft because of sickleave in in those classes. And I am working 100% at least this week (8th to 12th of April). I am responsible for the planing of the classes and motivation in the classroom. I also have the theoretical classes in art&craft too in 5th grade. And here I learn a lot myself 😊.

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I now know this is my future. I finally know “what I will be when I grow up”. The apple 🍏 doesn’t fall far from the tree 🌳, 😆😆.  What does that mean for you, well my mother was a teacher for 40 years! I will never be able to be a teacher for that long! But the fact that I finally have figured out what I want to do, means that I will walk in my mothers footsteps of becoming a teacher. Something I have denied for many years 😆😆.

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I have started to smile again and life is getting easier each day 💕.

Easter 2024, a mix of almost everything and my thoughts.

Easter -24, re-planting seeds.
I got a surprise outside my door, this Easter egg with candy 🍬.

I pulled myself together and forced myself to have enough energy to re-plant my seeds today even if my sad back really didn’t want it.  I managed to split all my growen seeds into 20 smaller pot’s 🤩

I’ll grow them indoors until the weather here are more stable with warmer weather.  I don’t have a clue if it will be in April, May or June.

I also had my first cup of coffee out on my terrace yesterday (March 30th) even if it wasn’t sun where I sat it was☀️ sunshine 😊 and (!) 🌡+11 °C 😊 some wind but hey it’s always wind here 😆😆.

My self drawing pattern trying to figure out how big/small baby size 62 are🤪
Same pattern on an other fabric.
The arm part, tiny!

I have tryed to find the right size of how big /tiny the pattern of size 62 would look like to on a baby dress. Interesting, frustration, annoying and fun all in the same time 🤪.

I have done things like I normally did before this season and before I lost Silver.  Even talked to Silver every day like I did when he was alive and it helps to get through the day’s. I have, I think, kind of find new routines. It’s kind of hard to know because it will not be the same after the Easter break. But hopefully it will help me to the next break – holiday season. 

After the Easter break I am back to work and then I have to figure out what I’ll do after work that will be new routines. Maybe I’ll sew more now when I don’t need to be social with my cat… Maybe the day’s will look like they did with Silver.

Whatever happens I am thankful for the love from the Lord and friends.

I am hoping I’ll have  more energy to do things that gives me positive energy like exercise, walks, Church things or sewing or meet new people. Mostly I won’t feel guilty for not being home with Silver and that makes me glad becauseIhavehad a lot of vad guiltforhim being home alone 😔.

I know I will be able to travel again later when my financial will be better without feeling guilty.

Good Friday, Easter 2024.

I just came home after a good talk with the Lord nearby the seaside three minutes walk down hill from where I live.  A talk about everything that has happened. About how thankful I am for life. About my future. How greatful I am for being a child of God. How the Lord cares for me and how He helps me to find new paths and routines!

About my lost of my cat, how much I miss my cat boy yet can see that I needed him in this 8 year period of life. Silver’s way to show that he care for me during this time 💙🐈💙.  How the Lord has helped me through other tough periods and not left me to myself ✝️

This talk made me realise how much I need to push myself to walk down to the water and take the opportunity to talk to the Lord. Because I know it helps my brain. ✝️❤️

Windy sea side, standing and talking loud with the Lord, 9pm, March 29th.

Quite windy but oh so lovely!

To clear my brain and breath the sea air! Love it and I needed it.

Quite windy evening. But SO lovely!

Before the talk, I’d just been to Church on a Good Friday service something I really needed. Both to be reminded of what the Easter is all about but also the worship. 

From one of the songs during the service. 
No Love is Higher.
No Love is Wider.
No Love is Deeper.
No Love is Truer.

They showed parts from the movie (that has become my “Easter movie”) and between the movie parts of how Jesu died on the cross they had songs related to the movie.

An other song. 
"The path you went, the cross you bare and the path you got..."

The story about the crusified in the movie and how the worship connected to the song “Crucified, laid behind the stone, you lived to die…”. Just to sing those words and God gave me even more peace inside me ❤️✝️. I really needed this service.

I went, even if I this morning woke up with a locked back and had to roll out of bed. Even if I have spent all the day in my couch. I went to Church. Because I wanted it so much.

I have not been to Church for a very long time. Something I miss a lot! So to actually go, with back pain, was so good and so needed! And I will force myself to do it more and to the 11 o’clock service even if I have back pain. Because if I could do it tonight I can do it other times!

Reflection, thankfulness, the emptiness & wistful March 25th

I don’t feel happy or sad.  I feel wistful like someone has cut something off.  I feel empty.  But I am grateful for the 8 years I got with Silver and all the good memories.  It helps to talk to him as if he hears me ❤️.

I am thankful the Lord is with me in this situation, I wouldn’t be able to go through this alone! ✝️

It’s now all about to make new routines and find out how my life without Silver will look like… but I am not alone on this path 🙂✝️💞

I am grateful for the peace I have in me. I have hope for the future to become better  ❤️. I just need time and look on what kind of priorities I am going to make.

Reposting some pictures from the years I got with Silver 💙🐈💙.   See you in heaven my boy 💙🐈💙