mia-simone. svenberg

I have to make a new pattern for my life, starts today…

Which in the start of Easter isn’t the easiest but I will try my best. It is the small things I miss the most with Silver. The small-talk, like giving him raw meat (in tiny pieces) when I cook and that he was always home.

He is in Cat-heaven 💙 now. And I have peace with that.

For me it’s more the fact “okay I am not just single I am alone again”... I have friends but they don’t live “next door” I need my licence and a car to be able to be more flexible to meet them. I might need to find new friends again…

I know it is a lot of benefits in my “new” life in what I can do, plan and try. Yet the life with license will be even more flexible and I am not there yet… but 🤞 not to far away 🤞.

I did plant some flower seeds today 😊

and helped an “old” plant with new pot and new soil.

I hope I will be able to use my terrasse this summer 🤞🤞🤞 with the door open.

I will catch up with a friend tomorrow (March 25th) I haven’t seen since last summer… busy time for both of us because we both work in a school. And I will pick up a package of new shoes 😍😍 after. I will try to catch up with my own sewing 🤪

Silver-boy 💙🐈 09.09.2014 – 23.03.2024💙

In memory of my loved Silver-boy 💙🐈💙💔

After some days with breathing difficulties and periodes off and on did I call the wet today. Got an appointment 12:30pm. I was lucky to have a friend who could drive us. Silver was good in the car, talked a bit mostly in the tunnels – logical – he never liked tunnels. But he didn’t have a problem to be in a car as long as I was next to him in his cage. 💙🐈💙.

Got to the wet. 12:38. Checked his breathing. The wet saw the same as I’ve seen, how hard it was for him to get enough air into his lungs. It was hard to wait and see what it could be… Took a X-ray around 1:30 pm.

This was the result…

When I saw the X-ray it wasn’t hard for me to make a decision for his future. I did not want him to suffer more. I hold him in my arms after the first shot, – regrets I wasn’t with him right after the X-ray to calm him down – but just the fact I could hold him and calm him down, feel his breathing calm down when he was with me helped both me and him 💙🐈💙. I told him to sleep, that I was there with him, that I loved him so much, that we had good years. That I will miss him, continue talk to him for a long time. I said good night and that he could sleep now, that he will get to a better place without pain 💙🐈💙. I hold him for about ten minutes. Kissed him and showed him my love. A good memory I have in my mind now.

What have happened and when is hard to say. But he is now in Cat-heaven with other cats he grew up with 💙🐈💙.

He came to me in April 2016 one and a half years old. He become my boy and has been like a child. He learned skills, learned to walk in leash 4 years old, he always waited on me after my workhours at the door or lately in the window where he could see me coming home 💙🐈💙. I have so many good memories with him 💙💙💙 therefore will it be so empty without him 💙💙💙.

Here is some pictures of my boy Silver.

He didn’t like when I went out to work, to the grocery store or just without him. He wanted me home or go for a walk. He was strong until this last month… how it happened will never be answered and that’s okay because he is in a much better place now.

Silver had so much patience with me ❤️and cared for me💙 in his way, showed his love to me by laying next to me in the couch or on the top of the couch 💙🐈💙. I love him and miss him so much…

The shirt, the challenges, the fun part and the end of this project.

I’ve shown you pieces of what I have done on & with this shirt. Here comes it all.

The start, made the sleeves longer and wanted to add other cotton fabric in the between where the needles are on the put.

After some changes to make it look propper I had to find fabric that would work together not just with the cotton but both way’s. And here I’ve used the buttom part of a exercise top which the fabric is elastic and the bottom part is an old summer top with polyester fabric.

I needled it up with the inside out to make sure the folds on the cotton fabric turned out right. I haven’t used a pattern, just how I thought it would be easiest to do it.

Then I turned it inside in and the right side out. Took up all the needles one by one to get the fabric on the right side. The tricky part was fir sure the folds!

Sew the bottom piece on first and then the middle part.

Sorry for the background.

The very last part to do and sew is to make a band in the same fabric as the shirt and try to match the stripes 🤪 on the band with the shirt part. See next picture.

From frustration to an adventure walk in my suburb Storhaug and the next suburb Lervig.

Yesterday (March 9th) started with a little overslept because my Silver-boy woke me up 07 o’clock why I don’t know and I had put my alarm on 08.30 am. The reason was I had an appointment 10am to do some private practice driving. So when I did woke up almost 09am I was really late 😔😔.

Texted the person I had the appointment with asking if we could start 10.15am instead. I was also hoping this person would come to me which apparently was wrong.

I ate my breakfast and had my coffee and did the rest. Texted when I left home and wrote “I can’t walk to him cause I don’t have your address” which I didn’t have.

I walked to my workplace because I knew that was close to him. Was there at 10.30 am.

Waited until 10.50 am after I had texted him where I waited. When I didn’t hear from him at all and it was quite chill wind and only 🌡+3°C even if it was sunny, I walked. Couldn’t sit there longer!

I was so frustrated on what happened. I really tryed to do it right. You might think “why didn’t I call him?” Well my excuse is it was to cold and I don’t like to talk in the phone.

Anyway I didn’t want the rest of the day to be ruined so I went on my own adventure in my suburb Storhaug and down to suburb Lervig.

Walked streets I haven’t walked before to update my own GPS in my brain.

I walked past some street art I haven’t seen.

I went shopping some coffee one place and discovered a path I knew about but never walked before. In this block of apartments it’s also one grocery store, Coop Extra (the 1’st) a farmacy, a café, and hobby store.

This is suburb Lervig, close to the sea side on the North side of Stavanger.

Went to an other grocery store, to actually buy grocery. It’s three grocery store’s in this suburb and all in a distance of 5 min to each other. And what I discovered was It’s almost the same distance from me to all three 🤩.

Rema1000 Grocery store (the 2nd) behind and belove the bushes, down hill from where I stand and took this picture.

From where I stand, to my left 5 min walk is the third grocery store, Kiwi (as in the fruit). And from here I went back home.

Almost home and 2 hours later and over 6000 steps I had a GOOD WALK 😊.

The whole adventure walk was over two hours later 😊. I got lot’s of fresh air, saw a lot I haven’t been able to discover until now because of my sad back.

Got home rested my sore back and had some coffee 🤩 and …

Through out some carbon boxes, went into my storage and got the pots. Managed to bring not lift one of two 50 liter bags of soil inside 🤩🤩 so I could plant my newest addition of 🌱🪴 plant’s I bought two weeks ago.

6 new plants before new soil and bigger pots.

I also gave some of my old green plants new soil so they will grow better 😉. In total a very good day 🤩 even if it didn’t start so good 😊😊.

Thank you Lord for your help to change my mind find a new focus.

Kitchen project and I need your help!

The latest creative idea & painting is this furniture…

From boring grey to Red with black details.

…that I call secretary but I not sure what you call it. Anyway I got it for free from my last Land Lady. It’s been boring grey until now. I have just started to paint it lovely red with black details, not with the right type of paint but I just couldn’t have it grey anymore…

And White inside so I’ll see what I have there 😉.

Now is the question, what colours should I paint the door I’ll use as the top and it all will eventually become my Kitchen Island / table (fit to my height)? Should I paint it red & black or white & red?

As you know I love colors and need colours in my life. And I love when I have something that not everyone has. But please let me know what you think 😉

March 2nd 24 a good mix of needling fabric, walking to & back from the grocery store and gardening 💪💪.

This once was a shirt now I hope this will work.

I will have a small break, need to go (as in walk) to the grocery store before I can start to sew. I hope it works as I wish 🤞🤞🤞.

✔️ my back did good on my walk home with a heavy backpack (approxy 8-10kilogram)

and some extra energy in my body I did some gardening

After the exercise to rake all those leaves 🍂🍁 out of this space in this garden. I used one hour! 💪💪🥵🥵

2 off those was filled and lot’s more needs to being taken care of but not today.

Was out for 1 hour and 20 minutes 💪💪💪🥵😊. In the couch, where I’m now resting mostly the back, so ready for a shower and dinner. But dinner has to wait because I need to make it before I eat it…

Winter break-24 – extra work and resting was the plan, part 1.

Monday 26th. It started good, after two weeks of back issues. It beame a beautiful day after the Sun came and the SFO-kids ripped of there winter jackets because of there play in the sunshine. We had BBQ after that I manage to make a BBQ fire and the kids was super hungry. They didn’t have time to wait for the real good part of the BBQ-fire ^^haha^^ I did though. I had one good hamburger and one less good ^^haha^^. But what I did, that I shouldn’t have done was sitting watching the fire, breath-in the smoke or even sit where I sat… I haven’t had such much issues breathing in a long time, but after 3 hours by the fire… omg, never again!

But the sadest, is my back! I had pain when I got home yesterday – that isn’t the surprise. No the surprise is that I had to roll out of bed this morning. The back had “locked itself”. I am as stiff as you can get I think 😦 . Had to call in sick 😦 . And here I am in my couch typing and trying t drink coffee…. and waiting on my wheat-pillow to get as cold as possible in the freezer to cool down my back. I hope my back gets as good as possible for some sewing. Because I started on a new project later yesterday evening.

A light blue stipe shirt that I bought on a 2ndhand store in mid February. Quite long on me but not long enough for what I want to use it for. Offcourse it’s not long enough, it’s a normal size for a man with shorter arms then me… But thanks to the second shirt I bought and sut off the arms on I can redesign the shirt with stripes :-).

I haven’t got much further on my *Summer dress yet, because I need to adjust it and make sure the pattern fits me and my body. And with this back that isn’t an opption right now. It just have to wait a bit.

The Yellow dress, is the one I’ll try to make.

So in the meantime I’ll do things I know I can. Yet this is my Daily life – to try to figure things out while they are resting from I am actually working with the projects with my hands I am working with them in my mind. Yet this is what I like with all my projects.

I needed a new wheat pillow, so I found this screen print I did back in 2005. Cut it as a big roseship. First I popped up the red fabric. Then I ironed it, then sewed on the rosehip and then I sewed the three layers together. At the end I filled it with wheat.

PS. You know all the things you see when you’re home and not so much after a long day at work… but when you’re home ‘sick’ from work you cant do them anyway…. that’s my home right now. It just has to wait. But thanks to the Lord, I can let it go and focus on being well again. DS.

Parallel sewing projects, is the way my brain works best.

Therefore have I started two new projects so my brain has something to work with while I am trying to finish the jogging pants, when my back isn’t to painful.

This picture is upside-down on purpose. It’s a pattern of a Summer dress from the 1970’s.

This is a shirt from a 2ndhand store, I want to make into a tunic.

I have also been creative with metal thread 😉 the past few evenings because of pain in my back 😒.

Earings.
G-clef and notes made by metallic thread.

While I have taking a small break from the jogging pants.

I have to figure some parts out to finish the pants and until I got that I do other things 😉. I am the kind of person that can’t watch telly without things in my hands.

Driving license – part 3.

November 2021, I started with the theory part of the driving license. Studdy roles and law’s for how to drive, trafic signs and what to not do as a driver. A bit more motivated this time and doing it all in Norway (never again in Sweden!). I was studdy for four months before I booked a date for the Theory test which you have to past before you can book a date for the driving test, but you also have to past 4 different levels of driving before you can book the driving test – insane if you ask me!!

I have until now (2022) taken, according to myself, to many driving lessons… Slowly I am getting closer, step by step to actually take the driving license.. But I have also past the 3 first levels I have to past so I am happy for that!!

*In Norway you need to past a the theory exam and the driving school has manny moments that are mandatory to take and past before you can do the license test. It’s expencive and much more complicated than manny other countries.

I’ve been taking driving lessons since February 22, a gap of 3 weeks in July becauce of the Summer holiday here. Had one driving lesson in the end of July. Non in August becauce I were working long day’s. September 22 came and I found a new driving school closer to home. And a co-worker told me that *passing the theory exam in Norway means that you have 3 years(!) untìl the time runs out to clear the driving test. That helps a lot for me, not that my goal got further away. It just helps becauce I can’t stress or be pushed (stress symptoms brain) and becauce of my work scheduel.

October came and I finally had my first private peactical run with one of my work leaders. But I did the compulsory first aid course and passed 🤩🤩. November 23rd had I the mandatory dark driving and past. 🤩🤩.

December 6th, I had my first normal driving lesson with the new driving teacher to check my status of “how far have I got and how much do I have left?” The nxt mandatory part is the legendary slippery course including theory of how we drive on slippery roads and winter roads. I past that too 😅.

Job offer on 30% or not?

I have received a job offer on 30% on a High-school to be a teacher in art and craft for the rest of this school year, which is approxy 4 month. But it also means I have to work where I am working right now… Am I willing to work 2,5 day’s at each school? I really don’t know.

The pro list isn’t longer then the con list in this situation. The pro list to stay where I am is longer in my head. I would maybe earn more as a teacher but I don’t know that yet. If that’s truth I guess I should considder the offer. But 30% isn’t much!

And I think that things I am doing on my spare time would be sat a side which I really can’t. I need to finish what I started, can’t wait longer, because I don’t have much more time.

So, I guess I have the answer.

I have peace for the school I am at, even if many of my friends thinks that working as a substitute teacher isn’t so stable. Well the Lord challenged me this last fall and I will trust him that he has a plan for why I am where I am.

Which means I should/ will turn down the offer. But I am going to pray over it and talk to the Lord about it this weekend.

The book in my house Church – To All Time.

What’s on my mind? Well I just got home from my house church group ten minutes ago (Wednesday) where we talked about the theme “Honestly & talk truth” from a book we read.

How honest shall we be with friends and family? Well it depends on the situation. Do we need to learn this as we grow (from beinga child to becomeanadult) ? Yes we do! We need to learn when and what and how we say things. How honest are you to your nearest? This was questions we talked about. And in my house church we are five women with all different home situations, some have teenagers at home, someone are the only parent, I don’t have kids or a hubby. Yet we were thinking a lot a like. Maybe because we have lived and learn life.

I always look forward those meetings with my house church, right now in life, maybe a bit extra cause I have been able to go to any service so far in 2024 because of back issues. But the house church has always been more important for me since I recieved Jesus into my life as an adult.

And I like the challenge that I need to read a new chapter for each time we gathering, which mostly is every second week except this time . But it’s not just to read it’s the fact I need to think about what I read and how will it fit into my life? Or my faith. And what can I bring with me where I work? How honest can I be at work? How do I talk to my colleagues and how do I adjust my truth? This is life!

New plastic boxes – better system in my sewingroom.

Today I went out and bought 7 new plastic boxes for my sewingroom, to get a better system for all my fabric 😍😍. Love it!

As soon as I get my salary (12th every month) will I order shelfs! But this, just the boxes, helps so much. I know I need few more to be where I want it. One step at the time = patience.

Talk about climate changes!

We have had 2 weeks with gale wind off an on but this week we suddenly got winter again 🤪🤪. Not common!

Talk about climate changes!

And today we had just a grey weather until approxy 11am, then it has been snowing non stop… picture below.

When will the Spring come?

What I mostly do.

Creativity is my way to relax and get more energy after a day at work with pupils. To use some of all my ideas out of my head in to something I can use. Upcycling has been on my heart for the past 10-15 years, very much what the society talks more and more about now day's. Hope I can inspire you to be more creative.

Thank you for you who are following my blog.

3rd upcycling skirt finished.

Her will I give you some pictures from parts of the process of my 3rd #jeansskirt I’ve done.

This Jeans skirt took much longer time to sew then most other cloths I’ve done. Mainly because of my injuries in my coxxy last January. When it’s painful to sit for longer periods it’s hard to finish a project. But thanks to my seat-pillow (my xmas gift to myself) I have been able to sew so much more lately 😍😍. So now it’s the next project. Jogging pants made by sweaters “hoodies”.

Driving license – part 2.

In 2009, living in Norway and earning good money, I wanted to “pick up” my driving school project. So I contacted a driving school in Sweden near by the border, Karlstad so it wouldn’t be so expensive to get there and back.

It started good and I learned fast. Had to take some extra driving lessons in the city area cause I hated to driving in a city and had not so much experience of it. I had been driving with my mother for years and new most of those roads back and forwards ^^haha^^. But driving in a city center with my mother wasn’t fun so I didn’t choose that if I could.

So in 2009, I just had to do it. But with a good driving teacher I fixed it. 🙂 I got so far in the whole “project” that I was signed up to do the written test – the Theory test – but then suddenly the Tax authorities of Sweden said “NO you can’t, because you haven’t lived in Sweden for the past 6 months”. This was wierd for me, cause I knew other people had done the same thing and were aloud to do everything. I was frustrated. So everything I had done felt like I just throwen everything out in the thin air. I was upset, frustrated and sad. I was so close to finish what I started ten years back. Bureaucracy.

So I said “Fine. I put this on the shelf to the Lord and He will show me when it time.”

In 2019 – ten years later – my father told me he had been digging in this issue and told me the Tax Authorities had been wrong oversteped their own rules. Can you understand how much more frustrated I felt then???? At this point I just didn’t want to do a thing more about this license. This has become one of the reasons towards Sweden why I really don’t want to be a citisens of Sweden anymore I am sick of all the lies they tell people.

Snow, more snow and even more snow 😍😍❄️❄️

We got some snow last weekend which I didn’t think would stay.

It didn’t stop snowing!

Me heading out without any voice to the farmacy and grocery store, 15th.

It has been snowing each day since January 13th. The night between 18th and 19th we got approxy 15cm

Today 19th, on my way to the doctor appointment.

And since I walked to work this morning and until I got home we had got even more 😍😍.

I think we, now, have approxy 30cm. That’s a lot to be here! Last time this area had this much snow was the Winter of 2012. That’s how rare it is.

I enjoy every day with this lovely white powder!!

It will rain away in a soon future and the Spring will start…but until then ❄️😍❄️

More sensetive to temperature during perimenopause.

I have since I got into the perimenopause become even more sensitive to temperature. It’s not just Spring and Summer anymore oh no! It’s all around the year!

If I have a room temperature under +20°C indoors I can catch a cold 🤬🤬but if it’s over +22°C indoors I melt away 🥵.

Last November (2022) I catch a cold because it was below +19°C indoors where I was living and the land lady didn’t tell me it could be so freezing cold indoors during the winter months. Here is the issue that it’s hard to get a eaven temperature in the whole apartment… I have just figured out that, if I have around +21°C in the hallway /corridor it get a bit “warmer” in my sewing room (2nd bedroom) 😊 which is good cause I have chosen to not have any heat on there or in my bedroom (master bedroom). But if I want some heat on in my bathroom I can’t have much on in the hallway…

Earlier this week it felt like walking into a wall of heat when I got home after work. So I tryed to put the heat down, then I catch a cold… it’s excectly a month ago I had a cold 🤬🤬.

I don’t like to complain but this is nuts! And I think it’s the perimenopause. We – wonan – all have different symptoms in this period. And it’s a myth that you can’t hit perimenopause before 45 y.o.! You can! I did and my doctors agree with me.

Here I am, with a cold but mostly fever 1,5° above my normal body temperature, which is the same as 39° C / 102,2° F, if you have 37° C as your normal body temperature.

(The average body temperature is between 36,8 – 37,2°Celsius / 98,6 °F.)

If you as me have lower body temperature then most average people, it’s both easier to catch a cold and feeling you boiling, have hot flashes, night sweats and foggy brain 🥵🥵 when it’s all around the year.

Annoying to have fever again just because of the temperature indoors is hard find a balace on!

2024 has started.

Here in Norway the schools starts on the 2nd or 3rd of January. No long Holiday here. I was asked on the 2nd, on text, if I could work those three day’s this week. Which means I have had a good start and fun cauce I have had art & craft with 5th and 7th graders, two full day’s and three different classes each day. Today, Friday, I were with one 5th graders class in theoretic art & craft in the classroom, one English lesson and ended the day with art & craft with a class in 6th grade. It couldn’t have started with more fun! The best part is I will not just *continue to be the teacher in 7th grade, no it is that I will be the teacher that start the re-design project with those pulpils 🤩🤩. *Until the originale teacher gets more information about her situation of where to work will be sattled I will also know which grade I will work with.

While I am the temporary teacher in art & craft I will this Spring apply to a one year studdy in art and craft at the uni (university) here in Stavanger 😊 that starts this coming fall.

Here is some pics from this first week at work 😉.

The pulpils has to learn to sew on the new sewing machines at school. Here is the task to sew straight stitch and zigzag, follow the line on the figure and get approved.

It has been so cold those three day’s 🥶🥶, today we had -11°C. It might not be so cold for some of you, but if you have south east wind from morning to morning with everything from 8m/s to 19m/s with windcast up to 20m/s then it is cold! If we only had 15cm of snow the cold wouldn’t feel so cold. Maybe you understan maybe not. It has been cold and fresh walking in this wind! And I love Winter, weather and wind so I don’t complain but the pulpils aren’t used to it so they complained.. they are not used to wear wool. Maybe they are better at wearing wool next week🤞🤞🤞 as the cold will continue. (In the area around Kristiansand – the train connetion from Oslo to Stavanger – have had around 100-200cm of snow! Not normal so far south! And the same wind as we, so there (and Kristiansand is approxy 4 hours drive south from Stavanger) have the Schools been closed due this two or three day’s. So this first week of January has had some challenges all over Norway. I heard on the radio that Karasjok have had between -35°C and -40°C, that’s like Sibir ir Alaska! 🥶🥶.

I went for a 30min walk this evening 😊, not much wind yet -10°C and here are some pictures from my walk.

Exploring my neighbourhood and walking path.

Frozen water, frozen grass, frozen nature.

2023 – is it possible to have such bad luck in a year?!

What a year!

Injury plus sickleave in January and February.

Psycholigical sad health for months and wierd feelings towards work and the staff there ( Bore school 22-23).

Some happiness in the middle of everything. April23. And I got few new friends through the job at Bore.

A good summer 🙂 . Some walks nearby Ganddal/Sandnes. Some day’s inside but Happy.

June was okay and Aslan wanted to stay but Silver wanted to be alone….and I got allergic to Aslan 😦 .

July23 – Summer and exploring Rogaland by bus. 🙂

August was a mix of lots of deny on job’s but I stayed positive and like the flower here bright full of colors and reaching to the sun, I stayed on my feets and

filled my life with more colors.

…but sad September….

October become good 🙂 with the move back to Stavanger, more jobs and more good routines. Good athmospher at work, like I really don’t want to be sick’n’home good! And walking distance!!

Walking in Faith-month! Concussion-month…. = November.

December. Snowy Winter weeks and then rain (which is the normal), a cold but also a lot of good work 🙂

I think I have had more then enough bad luck in one year! So I’ll do my very best to stay on my both feets all the way in 2024!!

Buy I have also been blessed in different ways during the Year which I am thankful for.

I spent Christmas Eve alone with my cat, but have enjoyed it! I bought two gifts to myself this year thanks to the blessing in beginning of December 🤩. One of the xmas gifts was a newer smartphone and the other was a memory foam seat pillow for my sore and often sad back. And how happy I am for it! It helps my back a lot!! I even think I might buy an extra.

With the new pillow I have today, both tryed to sew for more then 30min (and it worked) I was sewing for two hours! 😍😍. And I have almost finished my sewing projects from 2020.

I only need to sew buttons and one seam.

I am looking forward to 2024. I really do. I have plans and I’ll do my very best to keep them come true. I am curious on what the Lord has for me in 2024! I am in a good place and I am planning to stay here as long as the Lord can use me.

Have a blessed 2024 all of you who following my blog. And keep sharing the posts you like or the posts that somehow have helped you forward.

Xmas gifts two myself…

The two 🎁gifts🎁 I bought to myself was just what I needed this Xmas! One was the memory foam seat pillow and the other a newer smartphone with better storage and better camera 😍😍. And this was only happening cauce of the blessing I recieved just before my payment (salary).

And cauce of this new pillow I have finally been able to pick up my sewing 🧵 projects again 😍😍.

This skirt, I started on in January 2020, is now very soon finish. Missing one seam and four buttons.

This is the two dresses I sewed this spring and summer, I just gonna fix what I couldn’t finish cause of back issues.

This is the ***white dress (2ndhand curtains)*** I bought this Summer.

Gonna fix an issue, on my pillow cases,I’m gonna sew band on them for a better fit on the actually pillow.

This skirt did I start on in 2021 after that I found a whole I couldn’t fix 😆. It’s now gonna become the skirt I want 😊.

It is severel sewing projects I now can fix thanks the my “magic pillow ” that do wonders with my back 😊. So since I tryed it until now I have been sewing as much as I can between being free from work amd working extra this week in SFO. And I am looking forward for get all those projects finish soon.

Driving license – part one (1).

In 1994 I got my very first driving license – for driving a Tractor – because I went to this Farmers school. But I didn’t continue doing anything with the real driving license until 1999.the Winter of 1999 I went to my first driving school (that how it work here in Skandinavia and it’s a lot to learn nothing like the american way!), started to drive a Volksvagen, TDI 1,6 engine, a nice car, manuel gear just because I was used to the tractor. This was in one of the Northen cities Örnsköldsvik approxy 550 km north of Stockholm along the East coast of Sweden. But I didn’t stay in that city long enough for different reasons to be able to finish the license…

Nexte time I “picked up where I left” was few years later, because of money issues (it’s expensive to take all the driving lessons you need to past!) And my parents didn’t pay a penny for me. I think, now decades later it was because it was only my mother who had money, a payment a job. I think I tryed again in 2002 but I don’t really remember much from that time.

I need and want to work, but are home with fever.

This week started good I thought… but in the afternoon Monday (11th) I got fever… I had to go to the farmacy after work – medication, which sadly led to more fever.

Here I am home today Tuesday (12th) and will be tmrw too. I’ve watched Chicago P.D. and I am tired of that now. I am also tired but can’t fall a sleep 🤐🤬. Hungry but no extra energy 😐😔. Think I’ll be home at least tmrw and Thursday.

I got cold on my feets this last Friday and that was sadly it 🤬 . I can only pray 🙏 this fever dont stay’s in my body for 14 day’s as it has been b4. I need and want to work.

And got a blessing the day b4, and went down town and bought Winter shoes on Saturday. They are good 😊 but that didn’t help much… Annoying situation!

A overwhelmed blessing from new friends helped me to buy what I have wanted and been needed for few months.

I have had a good two weeks at work (as a subtitute teacher) and during those two weeks we had sn❄w and a good cold period to be here in Rogaland (West coast of Norway) which is unusal! We had not many minus degrees but with the wind grom the South-East, East or North it feels so much colder. And you have to dress for the wind here. If the 🌡temperature said -4°C it feels like -10° C 🥶 .

Anyway this last Saturday the rain 🌧 came… and now it’s normal Winter again without snow, just cold cause of the wind… but the lights outside most houses! 🤩

And I used this last Saturday to buy winter shoes, hobby things and got a cold… I wanted white ornaments in my Christmas Tree which I didn’t find, so I have reused my old once and oainted them this weekend 🤩

I had some gold ornaments I painted black last year, they needed 3 layers of white paint this time. But it’s okay cause I am HaPPy with the result. For some years ago, stillnliving in Oslo, I found kind-of-old-ornaments laying around in a storage. I took care of them, used them. Now I have painted them too, white or grey.

And I have a lot left of the hobby things for later.

And the fever I felt earlier today, I’ll pray away so I can work and earn good money this month. ✝️🙏

Trying to make it easier for me to blog and organize the posts…

I am trying to figure out how I can do things easier on my blog 🤪 so you might see a new layout during 2024

I am constant learning how I can do things easier for myself here on wp.

Online dating or IRLD = InRealLifeDating

What do we like the best of those two? I would say IRLD! Have it happend me reasonly? No. Have I dreamt about it?Yes. This post is about IRLD. Why? Well because I have taken a break from Dating App’s and I think it will be possible to date someone I eventually meet in real life. I believe it can happend. So I will update you in this area if and when it happends. So just have patience and trust the Lord, he will guide me and you to meet our partner we want to meet.

How the Lord can meet us and Heal us wherever we are when we come with Expectations.

November 12th to 18th.

I have been laying in my couch since Tuesday 7th (which you can read in the post before this one), been dizzy every day. Got an appointment with my GP on Friday (November 10th) a not so good day cause everything was spinning around. Both at the GP and after when I got home. Yesterday (Saturday) I managed to walk upright around in my home, first time since Monday 6th when I was working, but I had to support myself to walls or furnitures, dizzy every time I turned or turned my head normal = to fast.

Sunday 12th I have just been llistening to preaching from my home church on their podcast (between 11am to 12pm), about miricales when we come with expectations on what God can do when we pray.(while hearing those words I said in my head «I come with expectations on healing here and now»). How I felt God doing things in my head while I just listen to the preaching (I still have concussion when I type this) about healing. When I started to listen to that preaching I was dizzy in my head and I couldn’t whatch a screen and now approxy 30 minutes later am I typinging on my laptop. Doesn’t feel dizzy at all 🙂 . Amen.

How God’s power can touch us wherever we are when we hear about miricales and what God can do. When we believe on what God can do when we come with expectations towards him.

Hear I am in my couch, 12:30 pm Sunday, and the dizziness isn’t so intense as it was one and half hour ago! How God can heal when I come with expectations! I am looking forward to get up, not to fast, just be careful, and believe God has heald my head. That I will be able to walk normal and not feel dizzy or that everything is spinning. I am looking forward to be able to go outdoors for some fresh air, to be able to wear my glasses I haven’t wear since Monday (trying them on right now, I think it will take a bit time for my eyes to adjust. I will not force my eyes with glasses here and now. I will take in small steps during the day).

Monday 13th. The dizzieness is gone. Thank You Lord! From dizzieness to wobbly walking indoors, stumbling on my own feets… but have been able to walk each Day since last Sunday 🙂 . I managed to watch a movie on Monday with glasses on – a really good feeling – some good things has started to happend. But on Tuesday I was tired all day 😦 . Constantly tired. I even reacted on the light outside through the window. Until Tuesday I have had the blinds down cause it has been to light outside, but on Tuesday I wanted to try and get use to the light and get more daylight in.

Wednesday 15th.Today I managed to walk, wobbly, out to my mailbox and pick up the mail. A good feeling. I even went out with garbage. I was thinking to go and grab my cruches just in case I would try to go for a slow walk. But I neither got the cruches or went for a slow walk. I managed to order food from the online store (the only one who has that service where I live) with delivering on Friday. YAY.

Thursday 16th. Constantly tired again… Didn’t manged much. Sat in the couch all day. Watch some movie and series but not much. I did managed eat and drink coffee and juice othervice I was just in the couch. Got in bed around 10pm. Slept bad. We had snow coming down today, it didn’t really stay, but just the fact we had snow is happiness for me. How I “suddenly” could turn my head normally without feeling wobbly in my head – Yay! And how I have been healing in small steps! How the Lord provides for me in small steps! How thankful I am for every new Day with all “new” things I managed to do 🙂 .

Friday 17th a much better day! More productive Day! I woke around 9am, had coffee and breakfast, got food delivered 10.15am. Ran the washing machine. Was creative on the floor – YAY. Went out (Yes you read right), for a slow walk in my neighbourhood. Walked approxy 20m had a break for few minutes and try to enjoy the sunlight but it was a bit to bright for me. Went on walking slowly 20 more meters, a small break counting to ten, kept walking. Repeating my 20m with a break counting to ten. Walked approxy 100m in total, up the small hill (street) from me. Standing there trying to get used to the brightness. Waited maybe 2 minutes before i walked the same hill (street) down back home repeating walking 20m with a break. I was out for approxy 15-20 minutes. Totally worth it!!

Later that Day I got more and more energy to be creative 🙂 . I was creative in my couch until i «fell onto bed» around 11pm. I was finally tired by myself – happiness!!

Saturday 18th has started good! I just had my coffee and will have breakfast just now. And I will go for a slow walk after. Imy goal is to be able to walk to the nearest grocery store, which normally take me 7 minutes one way. Which now probably take me 21 minutes and that is okay. The grocery store in just few minutes from where I normally work as a substitutet teacher and where I will go on Monday. So I have to managed this.

My goal today is to get out and walk at least twice.

During this last week has the Lord showen me he is with me and that all my friends who are praying for me have giving me more strenght every day. I am so thankful for all prayers cause it shows me that when we pray for each other the Lord can help and do miracles we human can’t do. The Lord has been with the whole way! He has healed my head slowly just the way it needed to be healed. He has given med more and more energy each day as I needed to get where I am now. Small miracles aech day to prove he is with me in this part of the Journey.

And he has blessed me with new friendship and food.

He helps us when we ask for help. He is with us when we ask him to be close.

Every evening before falling a sleep have I prayed
«Thank you Lord today. 
Thank Lord for the healing gift, 
thank you for letting me recieve it and 
thank you lord for healing me.» 
And «I come with expectations for healing me, 
thanking you for what you do with and within me, 
thank you for protecting my brain, heart and soul.
 Amen.»

I believe that the Lord is with me when I pray this, that he is happy I am asking for healing and not just take it for granted. I believe God want us to come with expectations when we pray so he can do more in our lifes and that we can see he is with us when we ask with expectations.

And the goal for tomorrow Sunday is at least one walk and catch the local bus to Church. If I managed that I am really Happy.

Home with spinning head, from Monday November 6th to Friday 10th 😔.

Home with spinning head…

Went to work on Monday, was substitute teacher alone in a 5th grade class. Got a bit heavy for me 😔. My brain cooked after 3 school hours 😔🤯. And at my break 11:50-12:20, I couln’t think straight. Lucky me I had an other teacher with me in the last two school hours of gym 😅. But I was by accident hit by 2 handball balls to my front head. I didn’t think much of it when I got home cause my head was still cooking from earlier and I felt on some burnout symptoms. Around 6.30pm, I went to get something to drink from the fridge, and in that moment from the couch maybe 7 steps, my head just started to spinn like I had drinking alcohol 🥴🥴🥺. I had to sit down fast.

I have been home since. The spinning isn’t as intence as on Monday evening, thank you Lord for that 🙏✝️, but it’s still spinning 😔. And offcourse did I have other symptoms like hotflush (perimenopause) and 🤢 which in my head was becauce of the cooking brain.

So today, Thursday November 9th, I called my GP and got an appointment tmrw Friday. And just incase I ordered a cab (taxi) to be able to go and get back home.

But you know what, after that I managed to make and drink a small cup of strong espresso-coffee (I write it lik this cause I didn’t cook it as a normal espresso on a stove, I did it with coffee filter) my head is spinning less and I have managed to type this!😊 Which is the longest in 24 hours I’ve been on my smartphone without been needed to stop after few minutes 😊. I am still laying in my couch typing but yet 😊.

I am thanking the Lord for every hour that I get better and I believe of healing. But it will be good to see my GP and know what’s going on with my head. I hope I can be back working on Monday 13th.

2 hours with ❄, hours of 🌧 and strong wind/autumn storm in October-November.

East side of Norway have had snow ussues, which us the same every time the first snow in October or November. Monday was full of chaos in the news. And most of Norways population who doesn’t live in Oslo and the (areas) on the East side thinks “how is it possible to not switch from summer to winter tires?” Well I think they think they can managed anyway 😥.

Here in Rogaland we got the storm with wind guts up to 25m/s abd the trees 🌳🌳 gets ready for winter and I had a big pile of leafs outside my door this morning..

We had two hours of snow🌧 on Tuesday this week. Two hours! Then we got rain 🌧 and the storm. I have to say I enjoy the storms while being home and indoors, lighten a candle light, watch a movie or just listen to the wind. 😊

If you click on the picture you’ll se the snow flakes 😉.

To be a permanent on-call substitute and liking it more and more.

It has taken me some more years then most people in my age, to figure out what I want to do “when I grow up” which is an expression on what you want to work as or with, for most people it happends when you are between 20-30 y.o. For me, who was 100% burned out in the age of 26, on sickleave for 2 years after and tryed to find my path in what to work with or what kind of education both in Sweden and here in Norway. During 8 years here in Norway taking courses through NAV and for the last 4 years have I actually been working in the school as a learning support teacher hasn’t always been easy. It has been a learning journey, yet I haven’t been able to work more then 80% for the last 10-15 years because of the burnout. Yet I am greatful for every job I have had, and learned from! It isn’t until now I know what I want to do. And for me it has been it’s own journey to figure this out, underestanding what the Lord have in mind. I still have some things to sort out before I can apply to the Univercity, but at least I know in which direction I am going, which I haven’t known before.

I will not let you know yet, the direction, cause some friends are following my blog and I have only told some close friends. I do wonder if my <3Mom<3 knew in which direction my life would turn, while she was still with us without her sickness or if she is happy now when she is in heaven whatching me on distance?

Anyway, every day between the 23rd to the 27th, did I work as a substitute teacher. The first week I had almost a full week! 🙂 Friday the 27th – Had I for the first time lessons by myself, no co-teacher. I was a substitute teacher for a 6th grade class in both English and Norwegian subject. It was fun, and an okay class. You know, back in the day’s when you were in school you probably tryed your limits when you had a substitute teacher and not you normal ones. Offcourse this class did that too. And here is the thing, I think I got this from my Mom, I do not tollerent much noice in a class room. I am from the generation (growing up during the 80’s and 90’s) that wants the pulpils to listen, be in the classroom also with there heads and brains and following on what I talk about so they wont ask me hundered times after when they shall do the task. Which I made clear and the boy’s who tryed to strech on the limits didn’t really work for them. that was a good feeling for me who hasn’t or isn’t a propper teacher. 🙂

I will also be a permenent on-call substitute from now on, which the management likes a lot cause they always need substitutet teachers.

Anyway, I liked to be a substitute teacher on Friday. It reminded me on when I did it back in Sweden long before I moved to Norway. I was young and the pulpils where teenagers then. I liked it then and now. A lot has happend with me during the years, yet the one thing that feels like it is the same is how much I like beeing in a classroom.

I just have to tell you about Thursday 26th. I was a co-teacher in 7th grade in art and crafts with the project “take photo’s” the first two classes we went to a place nearby where I live and after luch we went with the third class to a suburb called Lervig where Stavanger has long traditions within young creative culture such as Tou scene, various artistic expressions within performing arts, visual arts, film, music and other cultural industries. At Tou Scene did they (and I) take pictures of buildings and street art. That day I walked a lot!

Yes, and on Wednesday 25th I was in 1st grade (!). I haven’t been in the lower grades at all before Wednesday. I was so tired in my head when I got home….

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