After month’s of frustration I have made up my mind. To walk in faith and give my notice to where I live. Here I am next to the sea. The place that calm me down.
It hasn’t been as good as I hoped. It has been so much frustration over how messy the apartment is, the bad or no communication… It has for sure been a challenging! Try to adjust with no response ๐คช. I have tryed so many times but not much back. I can’t live like this! And the Lord knows it.
But I got peace when I made up my mind and wrote the notice.
The Lord has His way’s of showing what he wants for us. For me it often been to make up my mind and trust my instinct.
I need a new place from October 1st. I wish for a smaller dorm with kitchen and bathroom and a peace of a garden.
The frustration that eating up my energy, cause of my ADHD.
I think that the biggest thief in this, is my ADHD. Anything that is too messy for my head, other’s messyness and I can’t cope. It eats me somehow and I get frustrated. Thing’s I had hoped to be able to do, will not be done if I meet a messy kitchen when I wake up. Or if someone say’s one thing and don’t do it. I get so annoyed and loose focus.ย Not so much at work or with my studies but when I share an apartment I’ve noticed. It really means I need my own place.
And to share your life with someone you don’t know well enough, whom thinks “you believe wrong ” is tiredness! To not get the respect from an other adult…
When someone you share with doesn’t believe in diagnosis or sickness..when you have one. it’s even more tiredness! How to cope with that?
I have given the Lord my wish and he knows what I need the most. So I trust Him and walk ones again in Faith. And I hope I can find a place for more than 6 month’s. It is tiredness to move often!
Everything isn’t easy just because I got into my dream education. Oh no! I struggling to upload documents towards the loan fund ๐คช๐. I’ve tried so many times those latest day’s I get nuts… but I trust the Lord it will work out in the end โ๏ธ. He has provided me so far in life ๐. The Lord helped me to get in to my dream education even after I got in to the wrong one ๐๐.
In the middle of all this I have my focus on the lord because that’s all I can do and not freak out. I focus on things that makes me happy.
Today, Saturday 9th of August, I focused on shopping and finding things I need next week. I will pack and sew (and as soon as possible have dinner ๐๐ so hungry right now I can’t even stand ๐๐) . Yes I need to sew ๐งตโ๏ธ to relax my brain ๐. My newest project is the jeans jacket ๐๐. I have unpicked it because I wasn’t satisfied with the look.
The finished jeans jacket in April-25.
The new version of the ” jeans jacket “
“Just some major changes ” are done ๐๐…
Or a lot ๐๐. I have kept the sleeves and the (kragen) from the first jacket. It’s a total new look. Fit’s me better. I’m so much more happy with this look. Now it makes me happy and comfortable.
The front with new pockets.
The back.
I haven’t decided if I should have pockets in the back yet. We will see.
Sunday 10th (of August). I have unpacked, sewing on som reflection fabric, so cars will see me better in the dark (whenever I use this backpacker). Repacked all things I need with me. Done the nessasary washing up dishes, soon dinner and maybe a strong coffee at home or later. Packed “train-food” because on the last trip I had I got super hungry at 4am and bought a sandwich which I thought I could eat, but got so much cramps in my stomach ๐๐. I had pain for hours ๐๐. I have now brought my own sandwiches. Dinner in few minutes ๐.
And then off to church, which was just what I needed ๐๐. The peace and the worship ๐ถ๐ถ๐ถ ๐. A good preaching I understood and gave meaning.
I have prepared myself for the train trip with a blanket, warm clothes. Because as last trip I was so so cold. Freezing ๐ฅถ๐ฅถ on the train, with normal clothes on ๐๐.
Now, 20.40, I’m just waiting in a stair at Church for the time to past, so I can catch a bus down to the train station and wait there.
Waiting in the stairs in Church…
Night snacks b4 the train leaves.
Night-train towards Notodden at 22.15 pm with a change in the middle of nowhere called Nordagutu for 39 minutes at 05.25 am. Before I arrives Notodden early, 06.26 am!
This time I’m prepared ๐.
Monday 11th of August. 05:26 am I arrived Nordagutu and the temperature was +11ยฐC ๐ฅถ or fresh ๐๐. Had a sandwich until next train arrived the station.
A 30 minutes trip by train to Notodden.
In Notodden,ย I thought I would look for a strong cup of coffee the first thing. But I was to cold cause lack of sleep so I say at the bus hub for 1 hour and 15 minutes waiting for the bus to arrive.
Catch local bus number 1, 5 stops. Asked a local man for help how to walk to theuniversity. It was helpful! Google maps said it should take 14min to walk downhill.ย I used 15 min cause of my to bad knees. Totally okay walk through some forest.
Arriving the university…
Got here ๐.
And now I’m resting my head, eyes and body in a couch ๐๐. Asked at the service front if it was possible to set my backpacker somewhere during the day, instead of carrying it around all day. I will now try to take a power-nap. The official day starts 09.30 am.
For the past week I have been talking a lot to the Lord, after I was asked to come for an interveiew – a job I applyed for in early October. A 50% job in after school club. When I applied I didn’t have many day’s as a subtitute co-teacher which I have now.
On my way to the interview I talked to the Lord. Trying to find pro’s and con’s towards working there if they offered me the job. I didn’t have the peace inside as closer as I got to this school, it was like I just knew whatever I said in there I wouldn’t say yes. At the interview I answered as good as I could. I guess it went fine. I really tryed to point out thatI like myself in the middle age of the Norwegian School. And that I’ve only worked one year in the after school club. With not so good experience, which I told them about. (Norwegian School system 1st to 4th grade = lower part, 5th to 7th grade = middle part, 8th to 10th grade = high school)
Talked a bit more to the Lord on my way home, realizing I don’t want this job at all. Sent a snap to a close Christian friend, who asked my why I didn’t want it. My answer was easy. It’s the wrong age. And I know, that it is the wrong age.
I have sent an email to the school, letting them know I am not interesting. And I have Peace. Trusting the Lord in this. Walking in faith. Yet, I don’t know how much I will be working this fall, but I know the Lord will guide my steps to what he wants for me.
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The Prace from the Lord is what I lean to. Knowing I am doing the right thing ๐ .
Yet I don’t have a clue what the Lord has for me in the future and that is okay. Becauce I am walking in faith this fall.
January 23rd; I’ve been at work, if only for 3 hours and “only” to the school-sparetime-organisation-part (sfo). It was enough after one week home! A good smooth start.
I’ve been in contact with my GP without any answer ๐ (daytime). But I pray ๐ and hope my wish will go through. That my GP will accept my wish to be on sick leave on 60% this week. Got an answer from my GP at 10:17pm ๐คช๐.
I hope I’ll be able to slowly get less % on my sick leave and be able to be back on my 80% soon. But I have to take slow. Don’t want to get more pain again and be back on 100% sick leave.
January 24th, I s5art work 11:45, need to leave home around 11… and I’ll work to 4pm ๐.
The “Forest” at Bore school.
No pain no game
Outdoor time at work (around 1pm), foggy day.
Today has also been good ๐, I’ve managed to some of the tasks I have with one of the students with Autism ๐. Always challenging but gives me a lot of motivation ๐.
Tmrw Wednesday 25th I am free ๐. And then I’ll be working Thursday and Friday.